Caught in a Lie

Jonghyun has left an amazing legacy in so many fields, so here is a list of the lil random Jonghyun moments that never failed to make me laugh or smile…My beautiful angel, I’ll always thank you for bringing so much joy and hope into my life.

Like a Fire concert version adlibs

His savageness towards DoniConi on Weekly idol - JjongPD  “IT’S JUST ‘CTRL C, CTRL V’”

Speaking of Weekly idol - Jonghyun’s competitiveness that rivalled Minho’s. Who else would do that many push ups for a tiny piece of beef??

Him oneshotting some Cola lololoolol

High note battle with a soldier

Walking Listerine CF during Crazy era

Jonghyun and his ice bucket challenge, wanting to get all the Jonghyun’s together

Hacking into SMTOWN’s youtube channel to post a video of Roo

Jonghyun and puppy Comme Des 

The birth of Taemin fanclub president - when he got drunk, fanboyed and came up with the nickname Dracula Oppa

Falling into the little hole where your legs were meant to go and waving cutely whilst dancing Everybody on Hello Counsellor

When Onew threw the pen in Beatle’s Code and it hit Jjong in the face instead of Minho

His acoustic version of Lucifer!!! (and Mucifer’s lol)

Onew + Jonghyun’s artistic talents in full force 

This photo lolol Taemin helping cut Jonghyun’s leg hair?? 

Jjong trying to eat a lemon in one go, choking and then still losing

The rise of savage Jjong making the wasabi dumpling but then ending up eating it himself lolol

Jonghyun and Onew’s failed attempt at laundry during Hello Baby

This glorious picture that is the epitome of JongKey

Jonghyun creating a youtube channel for the ice bucket challenge and uploading Minho’s and Taemins, and then a  bday video of Key getting a cake in the face 

“I plagiarised ‘ACE’ and this is ‘BASE’. They’re connected. Taemin: “Wow I got a Jonghyun photocard!!” Key: “Am I in there too?”

Teasing sleeping Jjong

Jonghyun biting Taemin’s arm in this iconic video where they have to pretend to be calling their “girlfriend”

Embarrassed Jonghyun caught dancing to EXID’s Hot Pink

To Key: “HOW COULD YOU WASH YOUR HAIR ON BROADCAST?? SHINEE…OUR IMAGE??”

Scared pup screaming in falsetto over a toy game

MONKEY MAGIC JONGYU SUBUNIT

When the SHINee members tricked Jonghyun into having a little solo dance break in the middle of Downtown Baby

PRETTY, LOVEABLE JONGMI

My smol pupper choosing to sit between the two giants Woobin and JJY

Of course this video!! Noodle Krump king

and of course Bling Bling…is Jonghyun

i’ve been trying to figure out the right words to say for this post but, really, it doesn’t matter because what can be said that already hasn’t been? i began writing it before the confirmation from sm as something generalized, as a way to tell shawols to lean on each other during this difficult time and that much is going to get obvious as you make your way through to the end. this isn’t going to be eloquent because i’m still in shock. not in denial but shock and i feel like i’ll never be able to properly express what jonghyun not only meant to me but to all shawols and every fan of korean pop. 

jonghyun was a special person. he was kind and compassionate and he always did his best to make sure that those around him were happy, no matter who it was. he wasn’t perfect but he always went out of his way to fix anything he did wrong and he was constantly trying to better himself. he was always growing and learning. he fought for people who do not have as much of a voice in korea like the lgbt community and those in poverty. he dedicated his life to doing good and making shawols and those who loved him happy and proud. he gave so much to us and he never hid that he was struggling. he gave us so much in the last nine years and we can give back to him by keeping his memory intact in the way that he would have wanted us to: by supporting the other members, by supporting those closest to him, by remembering his music and by remembering the time that he spent with shinee. he fought hard and he did well and that’s what i’m going to be left with, despite the massive ache that i feel in my chest. i don’t know what else to write to justify him or how great of a person he was so i’ll leave it at that.

please keep his mother, older sister, jinki, kibum, minho and taemin in your thoughts along with all the other people that he is closest to. this is difficult for us but it’s just as difficult for them. please refrain from leaving anything but caring and supportive messages on their social networking accounts, if you leave any at all. 

as i said in my earlier post: i don’t really know what to say right now. i’m still in shock but i want everyone to know that we’re all in this together. i ask everyone to please take some time for themselves in the midst of all of this. please take care of yourself and those around you - whether it be simply talking to them or hugging them if you’re physically able to. also remember that if you need to take some time away from everything this is nothing wrong with that. you need to keep yours. i’m not going to close or delete this blog. i’m always going to be a fan of shinee. i’m just don’t feel right posting content on here when we’re all going to be in mourning. so, for the time being it’s on indefinite hiatus but it’ll always be around as a archive and as dedication to his life.

standing up for lgbt students and minorities at large by amplifying their voices, but doing so respectfully (dec 2013)

reflecting on his appreciation for hero movies… ‘i have to protect my world’ (mar 2013)

receiving boxes of listerine after a joke comparing his deja-boo suit colors to listerine flavors went viral, during base promotions (feb 2015)

comforting a fan who was self-conscious about her name with a handwritten note at a shinee fansign (may 2015)

going to comfort a crying key during shinee’s concert at tokyo dome, but ending up crying himself (early 2015)

speaking playfully with a male listener on blue night radio (may 2015)

mentioning his gratitude for fans and listeners in creating a safe space with blue night radio (july 2015)

discussing his conversation with taemin about “gender roles, prejudices and negative views about artists, etc.” when writing pretty boy for taemin ft. kai on blue night radio  (aug 2015)

personally supporting radio guest baek young ok on blue night radio in her efforts to bring sanitary pads to low-income girls (mar 2017)

jonghyun: is there anyone, from our blue night family, that is crying alone?

not crying of pity, but asking, “why am i living like this?” is there anyone that is feeling uselessly sentimental and guilty? 

don’t be like that. i hope you think those bitter days of crying alone are the most beautiful days of your life. you’ll realize with time that your life is actually, pretty alright. i promise you. i’ll write you a guarantee! 

the most beautiful thing in the world is right now, this moment, you. don’t ever forget. 

SHINee through the years