taylor

Sometimes I wonder if I even exist when no one is looking. I shift so easily into whatever someone needs me to be, and then I’m alone again, and I don’t recognize what’s left.

i hate myself a little extra when i open up to someone.

do you guys also ruin every good thing in your life or is that just me

sorry I ghosted you I wanted to see if you cared about me and would miss me if I was gone

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

Always helping others but if i need help, everyone gets distant.

Sometimes I forget that I have no real friends and go on my phone expecting something; I don’t even know what, maybe them texting me first for once? Someone actually caring? Someone being interested in me or my life at least a little?

loving me is like watering a dead flower

When you grow up in an abusive home, you don’t become a people pleaser to please people. You become a people pleaser to keep the potential for more abuse away.