Welcome to the Cloud

Hi, we're a traumagenic system here to eat (nom) content and follow our friends :)

Basic DNI applies

(Racists, trans/homophobes, pedophiles, ableists) + endogenic systems

Frequent Fronters (Or who may make posts):

Robin 🐦 Host

Mochi 🐈‍⬛ Co-Host

Warner 📗

Albedo 🧪

Dimitri ❄️

Basil 🌻

Kai Azer 🫐

Nahida 🌱

Muichiro 💨

Sofia 💍

Content to Expect:

- Random updates (#cloudy updates)

- Source rambles?

- Reblogs perchance

Mochi:

My brain is so big /silly

Screw 🌹 though. Fym "if you wrote this report you should know how to do this"

If as in insinuating we didn't write this report? The report you gave us 1 day to get all of our data? With no help or support cause of the holiday weekend? 😭

(Future Dimitri speaking: Unintentional vent-like content below. My thoughts simply travelled their own path)

It feels like back then. It feels like Niwa. It feels like that child. It feels like pouring my complete love and trust into someone who's become dear to be only for them to be ripped away

Here I am again. With a gaping hole left by the absence of someone I called friend

Hurt. Ashamed. Abandoned. Guilt. Regret. Devastated. Agony. Hate, towards myself. Grief. Fear. Mourning. Heartbroken [how ironic], It's white and hot, burning through my skull.

Please come back

I'm sorry

🐈‍⬛ hasn't stopped crying since last night. ❄️'s been there with him the whole time. His grief is reverberating throughout the entire headspace and into me in front.

I've been nauseous all day because of the emotional bleed-over and sdfhjdkgl it sUcks. Only slept in 2 hour increments, waking up for good at 5AM

It hurts really bad, seeing him like this. Nothing's been going right for him lately. He's really going through it

That was like. The worst news we ever could have gotten, especially in these times 😭 We're already going through so much

Why do we have to ruin nearly every relationship we love

I hate being autistic. I hate having C-PSTD. I hate not being able to navigate social rules. I hate how our fear of abandonment is debilitating our lives and causes the exact thing we're most scared of. I hate how we don't know we're hurting people until it's too late. I hate how we don't act rationally when we perceive any sort of abandonment or neglect. It's all our fault.

Why do we have to ruin everything. We loved them. Still do. Now we can do nothing but love them from a distance and hate ourselves in a chokehold because we, I, was stupid and a coward.

Now because of me Basil has lost his light; haven't seen him smile in weeks. Because of me I took away so many of our headmates' only friends.

Either I'm participating in a conversation and no one is replying to any of my messages. I know they're not purposely ignoring me. Right?

Or I open up with something I'm struggling with and no one responds. I hope for support but don't say it. It's my fault really.

I've gotten support. I've gotten explicit statements that I am loved by my friends. I just keep getting whispers in my ear: That they don't really care. I'm just a nuisance. They will grow sick of me and leave me. They'll just cut me off without any communication, just like the Rabbits did.

"We don't want you in our space" and then block us when we try to provide context. I didn't even consider anyone in that system a friend, but that doesn't mean it still hurt. That it wasn't extremely triggering.

I hate that I consistently need explicit reminders that people love me.