i'm so fucking scared rn

think  of  me  fondly .

if  you  ever  find  a  moment ,  spare  a  thought  for  me .

show  a  little  courtesy !

for  god’s  sake  what’s  going  on  up  there ?

there’s  no  one  there ,  and  if  there  is  well  then  it  must  be  a  ghost !

lord  heavens ,  i  have  never  known  such  insolence !

these  things  do  happen .

you’ve  been  here  five  minutes ,  what  do  you  know ?

these  things  do  happen !  all  the  time !

you  …  you’re  as  bad  as  him !

oh  god  in  heaven ,  you’re  all  obsessed .

…  but  perhaps  you  could  afford  more ?

you  can  do  this !

remember  me  every  so  often ,  promise  me  you’ll  try .

[ name ] ,  this  is  doing  nothing  for  my  nerves .

it  was  always  clear  that  this  was  never  meant  to  be .

think  of  august  when  the  world  was  green .

don’t  think  about  the  way  things  might  have  been .

imagine  me  trying  too  hard  to  put  you  from  my  mind .

there  will  never  be  a  day  when  i  won’t  think  of  you .

she  may  not  remember  me ,  but  i  remember  her .

you  must  change ,  and  i  must  get  my  hat .

things  have  changed ,  [ name ] .

stay  by  my  side ,  guide  me .

my  soul  was  weak ,  forgive  me .

look  at  your  face  in  the  mirror ,  i  am  there  inside .

come  to  me ,  strange  angel .

my  power  over  you  grows  stronger ,  yet .

though  you  turn  from  me ,  to  glance  behind  …

those  who  have  seen  your  face  draw  back  in  fear .

i  have  needed  you  with  me .

i  remember  there  was  mist  …

who  was  the  shape  in  the  shadows ?

damn  you ,  you  little  prying  pandora !

is  this  what  you  wanted  to  see ?

now  you  cannot  ever  be  free !

damn  you !  curse  you !

can  you  even  dare  to  look  or  bear  to  think  of  me ?

but  [ name ] ,  fear  can  turn  to  love .  you’ll  learn  to  see .

come ,  we  must  return .

you  must  be  always  on  your  guard .

[ name ] ,  hold  your  tongue .

the  world  wants  you !

your  devotees  are  on  their  knees  to  implore  you !

can  you  bow  out  when  they’re  shouting  your  name ?

think  of  how  they  all  adore  you !

can  you  deny  us  the  triumph  in  store ?

heaven  help  you ,  those  who  doubt .

this  is  a  game  you  cannot  hope  to  begin !

so ,  it  is  to  be  war  between  us ?

do  you  really  think  that’s  wise ?

if  he  knew  the  truth ,  he’d  never ,  ever  go !

why  have  you  brought  us  here ?

don’t  bring  me  back  there .

don’t  even  think  it !

[ name ] ,  i’ve  been  there .

what  you  heard  was  a  dream  and  nothing  more .

those  pleading  eyes ,  that  both  threaten  and  adore .

no  more  talk  of  darkness .

i’m  here ,  nothing  will  harm  you .

let  me  be  your  freedom .

i’m  here ,  with  you ,  beside  you .

say  you’ll  love  me  every  waking  moment .

say  you  need  me  with  you  now  and  always .

promise  me  that  all  you  say  is  true ,  that’s  all  i  ask  of  you .

all  i  want  is  freedom ,  and  you  always  beside  me .

say  you’ll  share  with  me ,  one  love ,  one  lifetime .

anywhere  you  go ,  let  me  go  too .

[ name ] ,  that’s  all  i  ask  of  you .

say  the  word  and  i  will  follow  you .

say  you  love  me -  - you know i do .

love  me ,  that’s  all  i  ask  of  you .

i  must  go ,  they’ll  wonder  where  i  am .

[ name ] ,  i  love  you .

you  will  curse  the  day  you  did  not  do  all  that  i  asked  of  you !

you  can  fool  any  friend  who  ever  knew  you !

what  a  night ,  what  a  crowd !

think  of  it  …  a  secret  engagement .

why  is  it  secret ?  what  have  we  to  hide ?

it’s  an  engagement ,  not  a  crime !

[ name ] ,  what  are  you  afraid  of ?

let’s  not  argue .

you  will  understand  in  time .

why  so  silent ?

did  you  think  that  i  had  left  you  for  good ?

have  you  missed  me ?

there  are  worse  things  than  a  shattered  chandelier .

don’t  ask  me ,  i  know  no  more  than  anyone  else !

you  were  once  my  companion .

you  were  all  that  mattered  …

sometimes  it  seemed  if  i  just  dreamed ,  somehow  you  would  be  here .

why  can’t  the  past  just  die ?! 

teach  me  to  live  …  give  me  the  strength  to  try .

no  more  memories  …  no  more  silent  tears .

no  more  gazing  across  the  wasted  years .

help  me  say  goodbye .

who  is  it  there ,  staring ?

have  you  forgotten  your  angel ?

do  not  shun  me .

[ name !  name ! ]  listen  to  me !

such  spirited  words !

let’s  see  how  far  you  dare  go !

[ name ] ,  are  you  confident  this  will  work ?

are  the  doors  secure ?

i  hate  to  have  to  cut  the  fun  short ,  but  the  joke’s  wearing  thin .

the  trap  is  set  and  it  waits  for  it’s  prey .

you  have  come  here  in  pursuit  of  your  deepest  urge .

our  games  of  make - believe  are  at  an  end .

abandon  thought  and  let  the  dream  descend .

 past  the  point  of  no  return ,  the  final  threshold .

what  warm   unspoken  secrets  will  we  learn ?

you  have  brought  me  to  that  moment  where  words  run  dry .

i  have  come  here ,  hardly  knowing  the  reason  why .

in  my  mind  i’ve  already  imagined  our  bodies  entwining  …  defenseless  and  silent .

now  i  am  here  with  you ,  no  second  thoughts .

when  will  the  blood  begin  to  race ?

the  bridge  is  crossed ,  so  stand  and  watch  it  burn .

lead  me ,  save  me  from  my  solitude .

say  you  want  me  with  you  here  beside  you .

no ,  don’t  shoot !

no ,  [ name ] ,  no !  you  stay  here !

no  kind  word  from  words  from  anyone ,  no  compassion  anywhere .

[ name !  name , ]  why ?  why ?!

have  you  gorged  yourself  at  last  in  your  lust  for  blood ?

pity  comes  too  late ,  turn  around  and  face  your  fate .

this  haunted  face  holds  no  horror  for  me ,  now .

it’s  in  your  soul  that  the  true  distortion  lies .

wait ,  i  think  my  dear ,  we  have  a  guest !

this  is  indeed  an  unparalleled  delight !  i  had  rather  hoped  that  you  would  come .

have  you  no  pity ?

your  lover  makes  a  passionate  plea .

i  love  her !  does  that  mean  nothing ?

show  some  compassion !

the  world  showed  no  compassion  to  me !

did  you  think  that  i  would  harm  her ?

why  should  i  make  her  pay  for  the  sins  that  are  yours ?

start  a  new  life  with  me .

this  is  the  choice .  this  is  the  point  of  no  return .

the  tears  i  might  have  shed  for  your  dark  fate  …  grow  cold  and  turn  to  tears  of  hate .

[ name ] ,  forgive  me  -  please ,  forgive  me !

i  did  it  all  for  you !

say  you  love  him .

either  way  you  choose ,  he  has  to  win .

i  fought  so  hard  to  free  you .

you  deceived  me !  i  gave  my  mind  blindly .

you  try  my  patience .  make  your  choice .

what  kind  of  life  have  you  known ?

god ,  give  me  courage  to  show  you ,  you  are  not  alone .

forget  me ,  forget  all  of  this .

go ,  now !  don’t  let  them  find  you !

swear  to  me ,  never  to  tell !

Namaygoosisagagun First Nation/Collins has burned to the ground. The entire community is nothing but ashes after being quickly consumed by wildfires. They did not have any support from emergency services, and no one offered aid. The community saved themselves by escaping into boats because no one came.

Mishkeegogamang and Cat Lake have lost power. Families are ending up in shelters with nothing. Armstrong, Lac La Croix, Whitesand, Gull Bay, Lac des Mille Lacs are currently in the fires path and all members are being evacuated.

All this loss, all this devastation, and it was entirely preventable.

After steadily underfunding wildland firefighting and purposefully excluding Indigenous wildland firefighters and Indigenous wildfire organizations from wildfire operations, firefighter training, decisionmaking, and resource exchanges, in 2025, Doug Ford slashed the forest firefighting budget.

It's hard to ignore his decision to cut funding and leave us out of adequate fire training (even though we've lived with forest fires for thousands of years—far longer than settlers have been in Canada—and made sure fires like the ones we're all seeing today were prevented through kinisitotēn) when, despite making up less than 5% of the population, we account for 42% percent of all wildfire evacuations in Canada.

And when we are successfully evacuated, we face discrimination and racism—like Kashechewan—because it's always been easier to blame us than it is to blame the true culprit: denialism, corportate greed, and colonization.

The people of Collins and every other impacted community deserve better.

Right now, the AFN is currently accepting donations to help Collins First Nation. If you're able to, please consider donating.

ONWA (Ontario Native Women's Association) is another great place to donate to. They have outreach vans going to motels and inns and offering food, water, resources, and cultural support to those impacted by the wildfires.

Other places to consider donating to are Mikinakoos Emergency Fund, Red Cross, True North Aid, Indigenous Climate Action. You can also send donations directly to Whitesand First Nation via e-transfer ([email protected]) and they request that you add your full name in the e-transfer comment section to receive a tax receipt.

*Before sending money, verify that the appeal appears on an official First Nation, Tribal Council or registered charity channel.

If you can't offer financial support, please consider donating items of need. Moontime Connections is currently accepting drop-off donations. If you live in the Thunder Bay area, Namaygoosisagagun Health Office is also taking in donations! They can also bemailed to Superior Inn Hotel & Conference Centre at 555 West Arthur Street, Thunder Bay, ON, P7E 5P8.

items needed are: food, diapers, medical masks, men’s and women’s joggers (all sizes), children’s clothing (newborn to size 14), children’s shoes, summer clothing, men’s clothing, toiletries (lotion, Vaseline, toothpaste, toothbrushes, shampoo, conditioner, soap, deodorant, etc.), strollers, adult depends-all sizes, dog & cat food

her  words  sit  on  the  wound  stitched  and  bandaged  across  his  throat.  they  sink  between  the  gauze,  the  threads,  and  pry  inside  flesh  rendered  pitiful,  bland,  imperfect  in  such  raw  mediocrity.  and  all  he  can  do  is  sit  there,  wrists  cuffed  and  shoulders  slumped  from  where  they've  stashed  him  in  a  tent  with  needles  and  vials.  they've  taken  samples  for  testing  and  study,  have  told  him  he'll  be  put  to  good  use  wherever  they  decide  to  ship  him  off  to  now  that  he's  no  one  and  nothing  left  discarded  in  the  settling  smoke  of  the  ark's  collapse.

and  then  there's  grace.  where  once  she  stood  illuminated  in  so  much  promise,  so  much  potential  to  guide  him  to  grandeur,  she  is  now  a  shadow  looming  within  his  peripherals.  she  is  now  the  shape  of  his  mistakes,  his  impatience,  his  recklessness;  the  reminder  of  his  own  mortality  now  stripped  so  uncomfortably  naked  for  all  to  see.  so  his  lips  twitch,  pull  a  thinned  sneer  as  his  face  turns  away  from  her.  his  shades  sit  on  the  table  with  its  vials  and  charts,  out  of  reach  and  forcing  blue  eyes  bare  as  he  averts  them.  “i  didn't  take  you  for  the  type  to  gloat,  miss  ashcroft.”

she's not stupid. she keeps a healthy distance. a man he is, brought down with the rest of them, but men have their dangers. angry, humiliated ones especially. spite might be enough of a motivator to use his teeth, if he felt especially moved. if he sought blame in her. it would maybe kill him. he could likely get her, though, before any guard got to him. she's not sure if he has any tether, after this. something worth clawing to. at his prior peak, he'd clearly been lacking. for for himself, or something someone else. enough to fall to the folly of wanting.

zeno had wanted elpis for himself. that much is clear. he hadn't spent all that time for nothing. she believes, still, that he'd wanted to build something. whether with elpis as a marketable weapon for the new world, or at the height of the food chain, maybe. both, viable options. gone, now. that overeagerness she doesn't know. only that it's what had opened her mouth.

she's not here to gloat. that's that's not what she wants.

his approach may have been different from victor gideon's, patient, all things considered. had offered her information. answers. not force. the technology to control someone's will already exists. either extremely hard to get your hands on, or he'd opted another path. he'd said she was safe there, at the precipice of her destiny, and she'd believed that, too. to an extent. for as long as anyone wanted anything from you, you were safe. she has no illusion of kindness. yet there is some worry in her. misplaced, undoubtedly. there, anyway. once you see the human in something, it's hard to look away. she does not mean to be cruel about it.

" ... you're scared— sorry, that was rude... i just— i- i don't mean to assume! i can ... " hear your heart beating, " tell by way your hands are shaking. "

𝚂𝙿𝙾𝙺𝙴𝙽 :

" that's a lot of blood. "

" it isn't mine. "

" what did you do ? "

[ sigh ] " what did you do ? "

" come on. have a taste. "

" holy shit, are you okay ? "

" it looks worse than it feels. "

" you should see the other guy. "

" it's a good look on you. you should get covered in blood more often. "

" lean on me. "

" oh my god. oh my god, oh my god, what the fuck ? is that what i fucking think it is ? "

" . . . gross. "

[ standing over a body ] " oops. "

" is that a fucking body ? "

" look, i'm sorry, okay ? "

" what the hell happened ? "

" before you say anything, it wasn't me. "

" at least it wasn't me this time. "

" look at me. this is who i am, no matter how much you pretend it isn't. "

" look at me. this is who i am, no matter how much you wish it wasn't. "

" i'm not scared of you. "

" you don't scare me. "

" shut up and let me help you. "

" i got your shirt all bloody. "

" let's get you cleaned up. "

" that looks like it hurts. "

" i'm fine, just. . . give me a minute. "

" we are so fucked. "

" what the fuck is wrong with you ? "

" are you gonna help me clean it up or not ? "

" the fucker deserved it. "

" red looks good on you. "

" what the hell did you do ; tap - dance all over the body with ice - skates ? "

" what, did you run over the body with your car a couple times after ? "

" i. . . i didn't mean to. . . "

" sorry. fuck, i'm sorry. "

" this isn't what it looks like. "

" it was an accident. "

" motherfucker ran right into my knife, i swear. "

" people need to look both ways before crossing. . . bullets. "

" would you believe me if i said wrong place, wrong time ? "

" hey, look at me. i don't care. are you okay ? "

" they deserved it, right ? please tell me they deserved it. "

" you're bleeding. "

" what the fuck happened to you ? "

" you're getting blood on the carpet. "

" sit down before you fall down. "

" that looks like a you problem. "

𝚄𝙽𝚂𝙿𝙾𝙺𝙴𝙽 :

sender spits out a mouthful of blood at receiver's feet

sender spits out a mouthful of blood on receiver

receiver finds sender covered in blood

sender tries desperately to stop receiver's bleeding

sender helps receiver clean up after a kill

sender wipes blood from receiver's face with a washcloth

sender wipes blood from receiver's face with their thumb

sender licks receiver's blood off a knife

sender licks receiver's blood off their thumb

sender lights up a cigarette a foot away from someone they killed before offering one to receiver

receiver finds sender stood over a body

sender stitches up receiver's wound [ optional wound placement ]

sender digs their finger into receiver's wound [ optional wound placement ]

sender frantically checks receiver for injuries under all the blood

sender guides receiver's bloody hands under a faucet / water source and begins washing them clean

sender bites receiver hard enough to draw blood

sender tilts receiver's head back to staunch a nosebleed

sender draws a smiley face out of the blood they spilled :)

receiver finds sender cleaning up a kill in a daze

sender looks receiver in the eye as they shoot / stab / kill someone

sender ruffles receiver's hair, getting blood all over their hand

sender gets some of receiver's blood on them and makes a face

sender flicks blood at receiver to annoy them

sender stomps in a pool of blood to splash it on receiver

sender slips in their victim's blood but receiver steadies them before they can fall

sender steadies receiver when they slip in the blood sender spilled

receiver comes home to sender covered in blood and waiting for them with all the lights off

sender spits out a tooth and it hits receiver

sender tries to wipe blood off receiver but the blood on their hands just makes it worse

sender takes an injury meant for receiver

sender shows up on receiver's doorstep covered in blood

sender sits down quietly next to receiver after receiver kills someone

sender punches receiver in the mouth

receiver watches sender lick the blood off their fingers like its cheeto dust

sender helps receiver bury a body

sender hugs receiver just to get their victim's blood all over them <3

sender hugs receiver just to get their blood all over them <3

sender leans on receiver for support

sender kills someone to protect receiver

receiver finds sender in a frenzy maiming a body after they've already killed it

sender kills someone and the blood spatters on receiver

receiver finds sender desperately trying to wash the blood off of themself

sender kisses receiver to taste the blood on their busted lip