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An (updated) retrospective on Tumblr's movement to make gender essentialism trans-friendly.

This post contains excepts from a longer article on Medium. If you have the time, please read the full article! I also request that you link the longer article if you use this as a source.

All links have been updated with archived versions of posts that have since been deleted (and otherwise might be deleted or lost sometime in the future). I have revised some sections, and included more context and examples, in order to clarify and strengthen arguments.

Disclaimer

Transmisogyny is real, and requires much more acknowledgement than it currently receives. The trans community is very much capable of transmisogyny, and often does enact or enable it; likewise, trans people also often enact and enable transphobia against other parts of the trans community. Trans women suffer at least as much as the rest of us, and trans women — as a class — are not privileged, and do not hold the power to oppress anyone else.

If you take only one thing away from this post, take this:

Trans people all need to work on being better allies to each other. None of us can gain anything without the rest of us.

Establishing an Ideology

The first post on Baeddelism was by Tumblr user @unobject, on October 2nd, 2013:

The post was quickly liked by @lezzyharpy, also one of the first to call themselves “Baeddels”.

This post first provided the name and defining ideology of the Baeddel movement. The implication of the post was, essentially, that because the root of the word “bad” was “baeddel”, and because “baeddel” referred to intersex people and “womanish men”, this old English slur was proof that transmisogyny was the worst form of bigotry; and even, perhaps, the root of all bigotry. (It’s worth noting that this interpretation of the etymology has been problematized.)

While @unobject was the first person to make this connection, @autogynephile (“Eve”) eventually became, in essence, the figurehead of the movement. Of the other Baeddels, some of them were explicitly aware and supportive of the ideology behind Baeddelism, some of them were young or newly-out trans women seduced by the personalities involved, and some of them were tangential enough to the movement that their understanding of it was wholly different from the understanding those at the core of the movement held and promoted. Baeddelism was a sort of trend, for a time, and many participants wore the name without entirely knowing what it meant.

It’s important to acknowledge that as much as there were dedicated members of Baeddelism, and as much as there was a unified ideology behind it, there were also individual Baeddels who did not understand — let alone support — the ideology.

The Ideology

Baeddels essentially built upon the foundation of @monetizeyourcat’s ideology that had been gaining traction on Tumblr in the years prior, with some additions that ultimately defined their movement:

Transmisogyny is the form of oppression from which all (or most) other forms of oppression stem.

Privilege is granted on the basis of assigned sex. (“AFAB” or “Assigned Female at Birth” vs. “AMAB” or “Assigned Male at Birth”)

These fundamentals of Baeddelism were essentially a rebranded form of Radical Feminism. In particular, they drew from the Radical Feminist idea that misogyny was the “primary” form of oppression; that which all other oppression stemmed from. Baeddels only tweaked this idea to replace “misogyny” with “transmisogyny”, which led to the rest of the conclusions Baeddels drew:

There is no “transphobia”

All “transphobia” stems from transmisogyny first, and transphobia as it impacts non-trans-women (or, sometimes, non-transfeminine people) is incidental.

There is no “Trans”

If “transphobia” isn’t real, what else is left of the transgender identity?

While this is by no means the dominant understanding of transgender identity or community, the equivocation of oppression to identity is, in many ways, core to Baeddel ideology (and we see the lasting impact of this in still-widely-used “TME/TMA” termingology). By this logic, if transphobia doesn’t exist, neither does trans identity or trans community (though they obviously believed that transmisogyny, and subsequently trans women, do). Therefore, there are no “trans men”, and belief in the existence of “nonbinary people” is highly contingent on whether an individual believes in the oppression of nonbinary people.

“AFAB Privilege”

The idea that within the queer and/or trans community, people who were AFAB/CAFAB (Assigned Female At Birth) receive unique privilege and positions of power that people who were AMAB/CAMAB (Assigned Male at Birth, a counterpart to “AFAB” and “CAFAB”) do not.

Trans Lesbian Separatism

… was what the movement was ultimately defined by, as the logical conclusion of their other beliefs (much like Lesbian Separatism was the logical conclusion of Radical Feminist beliefs).

Baeddels believed that only trans women can understand, or be truly safe for, other trans women; therefore, contact with anyone who was not a trans woman was deemed “dangerous” and highly discouraged.

Trans Men

… also played an important role in Baeddel ideology, and the resulting treatment of trans men is what is often remembered today. Baeddels generally believed the following, either explicitly or implictly:

Trans men are not oppressed, or experience so little oppression that it hardly matters.

Trans men do not experience misogyny, even prior to transition.

Trans men have access to male privilege, or trans men have an easier time passing, and frequently go “stealth”; thus benefiting from male privilege as well as cis privilege.

Trans men are often (or always) misogynistic and transmisogynistic, and are not held accountable for this.

Trans men oppress cis women.

Trans women enacting violence on trans men is “punching up” at oppressors, and therefore not only permitted, but encouraged.

Trans men are inherently violent, or become aggressive and violent when they go on testosterone HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy)

The impact of this ideology is often discussed among transmasculine people because of the depth of harm it caused, directly and indirectly — and it was very much intended to. Harm caused to transmascs was not only permitted or excused, it was often actively celebrated.

Nonbinary People

… are often overlooked when summarizing Baeddelism, but Baeddels did have plenty to say about them. Baeddel ideology relied on the idea that privilege was granted on the bases of assigned sex, and nonbinary people’s genders were thus treated as irrelevent; they essentially did not believe nonbinary people truly existed.

CAFAB nonbinary people are either trans men attempting to invade women’s spaces, or cis women pretending to be trans.

CAMAB nonbinary people are actually just trans women who haven’t accepted it yet. They must transition, or they are transmisogynistic.

Intersex People

Intersex experiences, and intersex history, were often co-opted and erased by Baeddelism. This was often more a byproduct of their beliefs than an overtly-stated idea, but most notably, the term “Baeddel” itself is likely more applicable- if not exclusively applicable- to intersex people, rather than trans women. Making their reclamation of it as a “transmisogynistic slur”, or their claim that the word’s existence means that “transmisogyny is the root of all oppression”, incredibly ignorant- if not actively harmful misinformation.

Notably, Baeddels also believed that intersex people- being “more androgynous” (a harmful misonception)- were able to pass more easily as the opposite assigned sex, and that intersex people (even within transfemme spaces) had “intersex privilege”. Some even believed, and openly claimed, that intersex people were “hermaphroditic”; a slur against intersex people, and typically implying that the individual has both sets of reproductive systems simultaneously.

Trans Women

… did not receive universally positive treatment, either. Baeddelism was very much a cult-like group built around the firmly-held conviction that they were absolutely correct, and that anyone who disagreed with them was The Enemy. Trans women who disagreed with them were generally seen as brainwashed and self-hating, and trans women who did agree with them were expected to subjugate themselves to the ringleaders of the movement.

Within Baeddel circles, trans women were most frequently victimized by the abusers allowed to run rampant because “trans women do not, and cannot, harm anyone else.” — including, apparently, each other.

“They were also bad shitty abusive people in general. “… a bunch of them passed around a pile of smear campaigns and false rumors about virtually any trans woman that they had a even the slightest animosity for. Including the victim of the kinkster rapist. They’ve done other fucked stuff, like chased two twoc off this site for trying to make a zine, but yeah. That’s like, just some of it. I’m not up for going over the messy details of the whole shitparade. “Full disclosure, I made a lot of excuses for these sacks of crap, even while they were out there spreading false crap about me […] I wasn’t aware of the worst shit they were doing until much much later.” - @punlich

Inside the Movement

Though individual Baeddels often existed in vastly different social circles from each other- particularly offline- those who lived through the movement highlight commonalities in their experiences.

One interviewee recounts the manipulation present in their initial involvement with the movement:

“It came to me at a point where I was very quick to weaponize anything anyone told me about their experiences, because I was always a fighter. I’ve been an activist for a long time, you know, and when these trans women would come to me with their experiences I would believe them. I wanted to. But the way they acted didn’t add up when compared to what they were saying. I felt really lonely there, and stupid all the time. I felt like I was being a bad trans person.” […] “Online they were more willing to say things that were, for lack of a better word, stupid. They would say things that lacked any kind of logical sense. But in person, they would go into this kind of toxic femininity- this weaponization of weakness. And I think that’s because online they were often in these echochambers, but in person they had to rely on much more subtle manipulation.” - Vera

It seems at points that the environment created within this movement- and the social circles that composed it- was almost cult-like in nature and in need for control.

“It was very isolating. I didn’t see my friends for a while, I was kind of just living with them, cooking and cleaning for them, starving myself, and slowly growing crazy. I was just being consumed by this weird academia and theory that had no basis, because everything was online and Tumblr-based.” - Vera

Perhaps most chilling, however, are the patterns in their attitudes toward sexual assault. One interviewer recounts being subject to sexual assault, and upon posting about their experience to a Facebook group, being met with hostility from Baeddels present in the group- who quickly used their social influence to have them banned from some of their only support systems at the time.

“I ended up with pretty much no one to talk to about the experience at a time when I was already really, really struggling, and it’s one of several factors that led to me dropping out. “The Baeddel who got me banned also messaged me directly at some point during all of this, and I tried to get her to understand the pain she was causing me. She basically laughed it offand said it was my fault. She seemed to find a lot of joy in how much it hurt me, and blocked me soon after.” - Anonymous

Another recounts sexual consent violations from a friend-turned-Baeddel:

“[My ex-friend] had previously been fetish-mining me for her mommy kink. I was freshly estranged from my own mum, and she stepped in to be like, “I’m your new mum now,” and would pester me to call her “mum” in Welsh- as at that point she was going by a Welsh name. I played along, but it transpired that she was basically using that to get off, and she had a thing for infantilising transmascs and being this mum/mom figure.” - Luke

And yet another interviewee discusses verbal sexual harassment during interactions with another Baeddel:

“I had one [Baeddel] directly tell me that I’m beneath her as a trans man, and that I should “Shut my smelly cooch up” and only use my voice to uplift trans women. I was a minor at the time. “She then sicced her followers on me, and they bombarded me with messages telling me I’d “never be a real man”, that I needed to “sit on the side and allow them to have the spotlight”, and even telling me to kill myself- because I was inherently toxic to them. I was 16 years old, pre everything, and I couldn’t even pass at the time. They didn’t seem to care that I was a minor, or a newly hatched egg.” - Anonymous

While Baeddel ideology itself does not explicitly condone or excuse sexual assault, it’s striking how common these stories are; especially considering how small in numbers actual Baeddels were.

It was, in fact, this exact problem that would eventually cause the movement to dissolve.

The Downfall of Baeddelism

Sometime between the group’s formation in 2013 and their downfall near the end of 2014, @autogynephile (also “Eve”), the defacto “ringleader” of the Baeddel movement, began what Baeddels referred to as a “transbian safehouse”.

This was apparently intended as a place for unhoused trans woman lesbians and trans women who, in general, had sworn off contact with men; the ultimate goal of the lesbian separatist ideology at the core of the Baeddel movement. It was thus also referred to as a “commune” by some, and as a “cult” by others.

One occupant of the “safehouse”- Elle- later posted to Tumblr that they had been raped by Eve during their stay, and detailed their experiences.

The Baeddels, rather than believing the victim and ousting the rapist from their movement, chose to close ranks around Eve instead.

Various reasons were given for this:

The victim must be lying

The victim- and anyone who believed them- was simply transmisogynistic.

Anyone who disagrees with the Baeddels is an Enemy Of The Movement, a “carceral thinker”, and a danger to trans women as a whole.

Trans women are incapable of sexually abusing anyone.

“Standing with Eve” was the ultimate sign of loyalty to the movement, and thus a mark of pride and honor.

It was okay to keep being a Baeddel no matter what, because Rape Accusations Should Be A Personal Matter.

(You can read more about Eve’s own denial of these events here and here.)

Years later, even people involved in the initial group have spoken out against the movement and actions of those involved:

“I was in ~the Baeddels~ for years and like… we straight up did horrible shit. “We harassed anyone that disagreed for any reason, our politics were terrible, our isolationism made an environmental ripe for abuse that I have firsthand experience of, there is nothing in that group worth salvaging or defending. “Also acting like people are just bringing this up out of the blue is silly like… it’s being brought up because people are still trying to defend the shit we did instead of fucking recognizing that it was wrong. “Creating this myth that hate on the Baeddels is just a way of keeping trans women in line is a tacit defense of the horrid shit we did.” - @lezzyharpy

“like I’m sorry but I served my time in shitty awful Baeddel group in early mid 2012s and it fucking sucked ass.” “… Like it’s straight up cult-like the way you build this self-reinforcing network wherein ayone on the outside looking in with any criticism is unsafe, not to be trusted, only there to hurt trans women, and the only people you can trust is this self-selected group of trans women.” - @lezzyharpy

Why It Matters, and Why Baeddelism Never Really Fell

Baeddelism itself has seen multiple attempts at resurgences by various individuals, including documented experiences with self-proclaimed Baeddels as recently as 2018- well after the movement first “fell” in 2014.

Most proponents of “Baeddelism 2.0”, a revival of the original movement, argue that the abuse that occurred within the original movement was either completely fabricated by detractors (sound familiar?) or, at minimum, not actually inherent to the ideology.

And, of course, there are some original Baeddels still active on Tumblr today.

Baeddelism never actually went away.

“Baeddelism” was only one name for a set of beliefs that existed long before the specific term did, and hasn’t gone anywhere since the original Baeddel movement died down.

What the Baeddels did was put a name to the ideology @monetizeyourcat was cultivating before them, and what Cat did was popularize, centralize, and justify a way of thinking that had existed before she ever made her blog.

This ideology has since been referred to, loosely, as “TIRF-ism”: Trans-Inclusive Radical Feminism.

It is rare that anyone actually refers to themselves as a “TIRF”, and there is no real centralized TIRF movement; rather, a loose collection of radical feminist beliefs circulates various transgender spaces. The validity of these beliefs is generally taken for granted: of course (trans) women are The Most Oppressed People; of course (trans) women are Inherently and Unequivocally Victims In All Situations; of course (trans) men are Inherently Oppressors; of course (trans) men are Dangerous and Evil… and so on.

Like Radical Feminism, and subsequently Trans-Exlcusive Radical Feminism (TERF-ism), those ideas are fundamentally dangerous.

The defining tenants of radical feminism are that misogyny is the root of all oppression, and that rather than misogyny being an issue of power and control on a society-wide level, it is instead, or also, a matter of oppression and privilege on an individual level: men are always oppressors, and women are always victims.

These beliefs fundamentally exclude and erase the experiences of other marginalized people.

Namely, people of color and indigenous people, who’s experiences with and concepts of gender do not fall within the strict and rigid lines that white, western, colonialist people’s do.

Radical feminism is not a redeemable ideology. It cannot be reshaped into something good. It is fundamentally broken, and the movements born from it- lesbian separatism, political lesbianism, TERF-ism, TIRF-ism, and Baeddelism- are proof enough of that. They each promote only surface-level variations of what is fundamentally cult-like thinking: only the in-group can be victimized. Only the in-group is safe; the out-group is inherently and universally dangerous. Only the in-group understands you. All members of the in-group are, fundamentally, incapable of abuse.

We cannot allow these ideas to be perpetuated within or without the trans community.

Learn the Signs & Prevent Harm

Here’s what we can do to prevent this from happening again:

Learn what Baeddel ideology and TIRFism look like, even detached from the name.

Learn what radical feminism looks like, even detached from the name. Even from people who claim to oppose radical feminism.

Act on dogwhistles. Call them what they are.

Do not allow people to downplay the harm all forms of Radical Feminism have caused. Remind each other that Radical Feminism is not a redeemable ideology, and seek out other branches of feminism instead.

Remember the harm that has been caused. Remember that it will be caused again if these things are allowed to go unchecked.

Listen to and uplift marginalized people. Allow them to speak to their own experiences, identify their own needs, and name their own oppression.

Remember who the real oppressors are, and do not pit marginalized people against each other. The people perpetuating and benefiting from transphobia are cis people- and more specifically, cis people in power.

Build solidarity with other marginalized people. One group of trans people cannot gain liberation without liberating all trans people, and one group of trans people cannot be targeted without the rest of us suffering as well.

Remember that there is no group or identity incapable of enacting abuse, violence, harassment, or other harm against another. Victimhood should not be determined based solely on an individual’s identity.

Remember that there are no acceptable targets for violence, cruelty, harassment, and abuse.

For more context and a list of red flags, read the rest of the article here:

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My best friend who has seen my whole journey has recently developed undiagnosed chronic pain, and she is in the EXACT same scenario i was 4 years ago. Busting her ass at a pizza place with extreme pain that hurts her so much she tells me "im in so much pain i don't even feel like a person." She doesn't feel LUCID. And her manager and coworkers are saying the same thing "if you don't help us you will let us down, we'll be in the shit."

[Game Start.]

I start off quite simply by just making a basic safety bunker, cause this is the most important part in... the entire challenge. To have a solid place to hide away and more importantly be able to hide from endermen if I need to

well that flew by pretty fast! lets hope it goes by faster the next time.

went to check out that interesting terrain in the distance, its pretty cool

it is the night of day one and this worlds intended purpose to make me exhausted at late nights is certainly working, so i'll be heading off for now and i'll resume operations tomorrow

Good morning! A new day for me, and resuming the night in the End Barrens. It's gonna be more of the same from here on out so I'll try to limit updates to the day turnover and any events that occur during my stay.

I've been thinking about what I even want to do with this bunker by the time I "finish" the official part of the challenge and go to the nether, and I think I will just keep going, it's gonna be fun to build with a bunch of new blocks and actually have resources.

The hard part at the moment is just getting to the nether itself, I have to wait for a wandering trader to spawn and then I have to kill it as soon as it pulls up its bucket. So that's about 20 minutes after it had already spawned, and I would have to dedicate myself to staying within the area.

I've also taken the time to add some new mods to the fray, mainly Music and Melody and Appleskin, which won't affect the base game. It will affect my mental health that's for sure :D

It is also worth mentioning that I have a freecam mod installed, but this is primarily to check to see if I'm going to mine headfirst into a cave, which would completely compromise my base if said cave was more than 3 blocks tall (which they usually are)

And well, the freecam mod also allows for some nice screenshots.

And night falls.

I've been thinking actually, starting an enderman farm might be a smart idea here, I don't have slabs but I also don't really need to worry about that? I think this mountain is tall enough that I can pretty easily make a chute, and then connect it to one of the several tunnels I'll be making.

Also I thought about making this a hardcore challenge... but there's no food, but I did think I would be losing hunger far more quickly (the world is locked on hard by the way, so I would starve to death.)

The morning of day 4, I am sort of wondering if my base of choice is going to make it harder for traders to spawn... I am relatively close to the surface but that might not be enough. Many things to think about... Just me expanding this hallway up to the "enderman farm" if we can even call it that at this point, its not open. Maybe I'll make an enchanting room for it. I just remembered I cant even get books! Why the fuck am I even doing this? Hoglins. Hoglins exist. And trader llamas. I can get the rest of the stuff elsewhere.

Diamonds are found in fortress chests and bastion remnants. Obsidian is just water and lava. Or from bartering, whatever is cheaper by then. I can get emeralds by trading haybales with a wandering trader that has that trade open, and then use those emeralds to buy a sapling. Or I can just get the crimson or warped planks, whatever is cheaper at that moment.

Haybales can be gotten by bonemealing the grass.

It is the morning of Day 5, but before we get to that, some stuff I did the prior night.

I finished laying the foundations of this hallway, and now for the main event.

That actually wasn't too bad, not sure why I reacted so much, might just be the nerves talking. Regardless, this is temporarily considered complete up until I actually get something going. My laptop needs a rest after all of this (very warm to the touch) and I'll see you later! Gonna let this one breathe.

[Game Start.]

I start off quite simply by just making a basic safety bunker, cause this is the most important part in... the entire challenge. To have a solid place to hide away and more importantly be able to hide from endermen if I need to

well that flew by pretty fast! lets hope it goes by faster the next time.

went to check out that interesting terrain in the distance, its pretty cool

it is the night of day one and this worlds intended purpose to make me exhausted at late nights is certainly working, so i'll be heading off for now and i'll resume operations tomorrow

Good morning! A new day for me, and resuming the night in the End Barrens. It's gonna be more of the same from here on out so I'll try to limit updates to the day turnover and any events that occur during my stay.

I've been thinking about what I even want to do with this bunker by the time I "finish" the official part of the challenge and go to the nether, and I think I will just keep going, it's gonna be fun to build with a bunch of new blocks and actually have resources.

The hard part at the moment is just getting to the nether itself, I have to wait for a wandering trader to spawn and then I have to kill it as soon as it pulls up its bucket. So that's about 20 minutes after it had already spawned, and I would have to dedicate myself to staying within the area.

I've also taken the time to add some new mods to the fray, mainly Music and Melody and Appleskin, which won't affect the base game. It will affect my mental health that's for sure :D

It is also worth mentioning that I have a freecam mod installed, but this is primarily to check to see if I'm going to mine headfirst into a cave, which would completely compromise my base if said cave was more than 3 blocks tall (which they usually are)

And well, the freecam mod also allows for some nice screenshots.

And night falls.

I've been thinking actually, starting an enderman farm might be a smart idea here, I don't have slabs but I also don't really need to worry about that? I think this mountain is tall enough that I can pretty easily make a chute, and then connect it to one of the several tunnels I'll be making.

Also I thought about making this a hardcore challenge... but there's no food, but I did think I would be losing hunger far more quickly (the world is locked on hard by the way, so I would starve to death.)

The morning of day 4, I am sort of wondering if my base of choice is going to make it harder for traders to spawn... I am relatively close to the surface but that might not be enough. Many things to think about... Just me expanding this hallway up to the "enderman farm" if we can even call it that at this point, its not open. Maybe I'll make an enchanting room for it. I just remembered I cant even get books! Why the fuck am I even doing this? Hoglins. Hoglins exist. And trader llamas. I can get the rest of the stuff elsewhere.

Diamonds are found in fortress chests and bastion remnants. Obsidian is just water and lava. Or from bartering, whatever is cheaper by then. I can get emeralds by trading haybales with a wandering trader that has that trade open, and then use those emeralds to buy a sapling. Or I can just get the crimson or warped planks, whatever is cheaper at that moment.

Haybales can be gotten by bonemealing the grass.

It is the morning of Day 5, but before we get to that, some stuff I did the prior night.

I finished laying the foundations of this hallway, and now for the main event.

[Game Start.]

I start off quite simply by just making a basic safety bunker, cause this is the most important part in... the entire challenge. To have a solid place to hide away and more importantly be able to hide from endermen if I need to

well that flew by pretty fast! lets hope it goes by faster the next time.

went to check out that interesting terrain in the distance, its pretty cool

it is the night of day one and this worlds intended purpose to make me exhausted at late nights is certainly working, so i'll be heading off for now and i'll resume operations tomorrow

Good morning! A new day for me, and resuming the night in the End Barrens. It's gonna be more of the same from here on out so I'll try to limit updates to the day turnover and any events that occur during my stay.

I've been thinking about what I even want to do with this bunker by the time I "finish" the official part of the challenge and go to the nether, and I think I will just keep going, it's gonna be fun to build with a bunch of new blocks and actually have resources.

The hard part at the moment is just getting to the nether itself, I have to wait for a wandering trader to spawn and then I have to kill it as soon as it pulls up its bucket. So that's about 20 minutes after it had already spawned, and I would have to dedicate myself to staying within the area.

I've also taken the time to add some new mods to the fray, mainly Music and Melody and Appleskin, which won't affect the base game. It will affect my mental health that's for sure :D

It is also worth mentioning that I have a freecam mod installed, but this is primarily to check to see if I'm going to mine headfirst into a cave, which would completely compromise my base if said cave was more than 3 blocks tall (which they usually are)

And well, the freecam mod also allows for some nice screenshots.

And night falls.

I've been thinking actually, starting an enderman farm might be a smart idea here, I don't have slabs but I also don't really need to worry about that? I think this mountain is tall enough that I can pretty easily make a chute, and then connect it to one of the several tunnels I'll be making.

Also I thought about making this a hardcore challenge... but there's no food, but I did think I would be losing hunger far more quickly (the world is locked on hard by the way, so I would starve to death.)

The morning of day 4, I am sort of wondering if my base of choice is going to make it harder for traders to spawn... I am relatively close to the surface but that might not be enough. Many things to think about... Just me expanding this hallway up to the "enderman farm" if we can even call it that at this point, its not open. Maybe I'll make an enchanting room for it. I just remembered I cant even get books! Why the fuck am I even doing this? Hoglins. Hoglins exist. And trader llamas. I can get the rest of the stuff elsewhere.

Diamonds are found in fortress chests and bastion remnants. Obsidian is just water and lava. Or from bartering, whatever is cheaper by then. I can get emeralds by trading haybales with a wandering trader that has that trade open, and then use those emeralds to buy a sapling. Or I can just get the crimson or warped planks, whatever is cheaper at that moment.

Haybales can be gotten by bonemealing the grass.

[Game Start.]

I start off quite simply by just making a basic safety bunker, cause this is the most important part in... the entire challenge. To have a solid place to hide away and more importantly be able to hide from endermen if I need to

well that flew by pretty fast! lets hope it goes by faster the next time.

went to check out that interesting terrain in the distance, its pretty cool

it is the night of day one and this worlds intended purpose to make me exhausted at late nights is certainly working, so i'll be heading off for now and i'll resume operations tomorrow

Good morning! A new day for me, and resuming the night in the End Barrens. It's gonna be more of the same from here on out so I'll try to limit updates to the day turnover and any events that occur during my stay.

I've been thinking about what I even want to do with this bunker by the time I "finish" the official part of the challenge and go to the nether, and I think I will just keep going, it's gonna be fun to build with a bunch of new blocks and actually have resources.

The hard part at the moment is just getting to the nether itself, I have to wait for a wandering trader to spawn and then I have to kill it as soon as it pulls up its bucket. So that's about 20 minutes after it had already spawned, and I would have to dedicate myself to staying within the area.

I've also taken the time to add some new mods to the fray, mainly Music and Melody and Appleskin, which won't affect the base game. It will affect my mental health that's for sure :D

It is also worth mentioning that I have a freecam mod installed, but this is primarily to check to see if I'm going to mine headfirst into a cave, which would completely compromise my base if said cave was more than 3 blocks tall (which they usually are)

And well, the freecam mod also allows for some nice screenshots.

And night falls.

I've been thinking actually, starting an enderman farm might be a smart idea here, I don't have slabs but I also don't really need to worry about that? I think this mountain is tall enough that I can pretty easily make a chute, and then connect it to one of the several tunnels I'll be making.

Also I thought about making this a hardcore challenge... but there's no food, but I did think I would be losing hunger far more quickly (the world is locked on hard by the way, so I would starve to death.)