Not a very pretty name, is it?

Independent and selective Cora Mills. Mun and Muse 21+. Please read rules. 

Independent and selective Cora Mills. Mun and Muse 21+. Please read rules. 

Independent and selective Cora Mills. Mun and Muse 21+. Please read rules. 

Independent and selective Cora Mills. Mun and Muse 21+. Please read rules. 

Independent and selective Cora Mills. Mun and Muse 21+. Please read rules. 

Independent and selective Cora Mills. Mun and Muse 21+. Please read rules. 

Independent and selective Cora Mills. Mun and Muse 21+. Please read rules. 

Independent and selective Cora Mills. Mun and Muse 21+. Please read rules. 

//the muse is kinda struggling right now, but it’s largely because the mun is struggling right now. I’m not gonna get too deep into it, but I’m struggling to find a good balance in my life, as well as dealing with really old schema about myself that have gotten drudged up as a result of being in grad school and the many fiascos that have happened since. People that have been following me long enough probably know at least some of that. 

I think there are two things I’m going to do about this- the first one is obvious in that I really need to work on changing my own cognition. That’s all internal, and there isn’t much I can do externally to help with that. However…

I do think I’m going to move blogs. And with a new blog, I’d like to be able to start some new habits. One is going to be less ooc, because I think sometimes I just allow myself to vent and ruminate on this blog like it’s a personal, and I don’t think that’s been overly helpful. In fact sometimes I think it reinforces some of my own negative and anxious thought patterns.

The second thing is, I’m going to be blacklisting a lot of “negativity” tags, which a lot of people use now, because being exposed to so much negativity and so often in other peoples’ blogs, does not help me dealing with my own. I have to learn to separate my personal life from my professional life, and I cannot be inundated with other peoples’ problems all the time. I will honest to god lose it.

This is also means I may be more apt to unfollow on my new blog for excessive and untagged negativity- that will not mean I won’t rp with you. I am not, and have never been, mutuals only. We do not have to be following each other to roleplay. Frankly I don’t like that contractual style of social interaction anyways. 

I’m working on creating this new blog tonight, and I’m going to slowly be transferring things over there. It will have the same URL, and this blog will be archived. I will not be dropping any threads, and until further notice, replies are still going to be here until the new one is ready. 

other symptoms of PTSD include

problems sleeping

nightmares 

hypervigilance (constantly checking surroundings for safety, looking for any possible threat)

being easily startled

being emotionally numb or not experiencing joy

seeing the world as a terrible place

memory loss 

trouble relating to others

physiological or strong emotional reactions to reminders of trauma 

intrusive thoughts about the trauma

(full list of criteria here)

“We are,” he agreed with her softly. Quite the pair. Both with a painful past, both with successful careers, and both with a heart that many people didn’t think was there.

“And thank you for telling me.” She didn’t have to. He’d felt like he had to state his past so that she’d know. But then she’d volunteered her information because of that. “It… means a lot that you’re willing to trust me with that.” Because he of all people knew how hard it was to trust.

“Some Valentines Day,” he added with a bit of a chuckle. “Most romantic one in history I should think,” he added sarcastically.

Cora glanced up, giving Nick a half-hearted smile. Yet some part of her heart actually felt warm. She had shared this piece of her past with virtually no one. To have it accepted by him so easily was such a relief. She felt closer to him now. It was a bit frightening to think the kind of ammunition she had handed to him- yet somehow, she knew he would never use it.

Wouldn’t he?

“I couldn’t expect you to trust me if I didn’t in return,” Cora said. She moved her hand from his thigh, intertwining it instead with his larger hand. There was no need to speak any longer on the subject- she had the distinct sensation they both understood what it had cost the other to admit to their respective faults. 

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“So…. You’re the woman who abandoned me…” Zelena’s lips pursed together as she looked into the eyes of the mother she never knew. An entire lifetime lived and never– not once did this woman ever make a move to see the daughter she gave away. No, she was too busy with Regina to care about her first born bastard daughter.

But Zelena had to meet her. It had consumed her for too long, and now as she stood so close to that edge of time travel, so close to being able to erase this reality and bring forth something truly beautiful. Justice for herself, vengence against Regina, and as much suffering as she could lay on this woman before her.

She just… wanted to meet her first. To see the first person to ever reject her…. To see the person who made Zelena what she was today.

Wicked. Powerful. Motivated. Deadly.

It wasn’t often that someone bested her. It ruffled Cora to have strode right into her own castle, only to see the doors had been breached with apparent ease. A few broken necks were a petty matter, and hardly worth squabbling over- but breaking into her throne room? That was another thing entirely.

So Cora had marched forward in anger, ready to eliminate whatever foe waited on the other side, only to be a struck by a most familiar and unwelcome sight. She froze in her tracks, regarded the girl clad in black carefully- there really could be no mistaking those auburn curls, the bright blue eyes, nor the distinct accent which Cora knew to be foreign. 

What Zelena didn’t know, as she prattled on about her identity, was that Cora already knew precisely who she was. After all, they had met not once, but twice before. Zelena, unfortunately, could remember neither the first few weeks of her life nor the time she had saved Regina when she was a girl. But Cora remembered, and Cora knew her in an instant.

There was just one small detail that was different.

//the muse is kinda struggling right now, but it’s largely because the mun is struggling right now. I’m not gonna get too deep into it, but I’m struggling to find a good balance in my life, as well as dealing with really old schema about myself that have gotten drudged up as a result of being in grad school and the many fiascos that have happened since. People that have been following me long enough probably know at least some of that. 

I think there are two things I’m going to do about this- the first one is obvious in that I really need to work on changing my own cognition. That’s all internal, and there isn’t much I can do externally to help with that. However…

I do think I’m going to move blogs. And with a new blog, I’d like to be able to start some new habits. One is going to be less ooc, because I think sometimes I just allow myself to vent and ruminate on this blog like it’s a personal, and I don’t think that’s been overly helpful. In fact sometimes I think it reinforces some of my own negative and anxious thought patterns.

The second thing is, I’m going to be blacklisting a lot of “negativity” tags, which a lot of people use now, because being exposed to so much negativity and so often in other peoples’ blogs, does not help me dealing with my own. I have to learn to separate my personal life from my professional life, and I cannot be inundated with other peoples’ problems all the time. I will honest to god lose it.

This is also means I may be more apt to unfollow on my new blog for excessive and untagged negativity- that will not mean I won’t rp with you. I am not, and have never been, mutuals only. We do not have to be following each other to roleplay. Frankly I don’t like that contractual style of social interaction anyways. 

I’m working on creating this new blog tonight, and I’m going to slowly be transferring things over there. It will have the same URL, and this blog will be archived. I will not be dropping any threads, and until further notice, replies are still going to be here until the new one is ready.