mélina

taylors relationship with youth is like. I got frozen the age I got famous. I clinged so hard to childhood and fairytales and true love that I was mocked and ridiculed for it so I changed my hair, my clothes, my attitude, my sound to show the world that I’m a Grown Up and also to appease older men. I’m feeling 22! I’m scared of getting older and being pushed out of the limelight. did you hear about the girl who got frozen? time went on for everybody else- she won’t know it. actually I shouldn’t have grown up so fast to fit older men, give me back my girlhood it was mine first.

i said this sometime in the week of midnights’ release but i think it’s much truer now. the most interesting lyric in all of the album to me is “one day i’ll watch as you’re leaving and life will lose all its meaning for the last time” because midnights is at its very core stories of all the times her life has felt like all meaning is gone forever. surviving the loss of her girlhood, the rubies that she gave up, her constant loneliness (both self inflicted and wrought upon her), the depression, the eating disorder, the loss of someone bigger than the whole sky, the wars between lovers and the wars in her head, etc etc — midnights proves that time and time again she has had to make new meaning where it felt like there was none left. and she does every time! long story short she survived! she rose up from the dead, she does it all the time! so to me, anti-hero’s panic that if he leaves life will lose all its meaning is simply that - panic. the depression’s graveyard shift. life was never and will never lose all meaning to her because she has always been brave enough to find new meaning. & not to be corny but i do think we all have that ability within us too

Like the way taylor loves us and we love her and we always will show up and we’re all growing with her as she does too and we’ll be there if/when she pivots in other directions and we will always have her back and stay no matter what even if she does hide a body with este and I just have to say that I think what this is so unbelievably special and unique and it is a once in a hundred lifetimes thing and we’re both so lucky

illicit affairs and my tears ricochet in the rain are gonna be phenomenal tonight

well maybe another time