you are the divine master of your own life

one sat before a desk, spine tall and curved over the surface

quite looming over the jaggedly ripped paper, scrawling rough and quick

for a poet is very haunted, and also very haunting

i wish to loom, and loom, and loom in the hearts of others

a knight of many ventures, from the moment they could close their fist around a sword. the youngest of them all when they begun

with no armour they conquered beasts of all kinds, including those what looked just like them. including those what couldn’t be seen by the naked eye at all

with no armour they lay their hand gently upon the snouts of dragons, and leaned in for a reverent kiss upon their foreheads. for this soldier has always known where true danger lies. not in the throat or chest of the dragon, but within the eyes of a withered soul

a small child they may have been, but a fierce warrior they surely were too; there’s no doubt about that

and a poet that knight surely was. for a sword in one hand and a feathered quill in the other make for true strength, true wisdom, true power. now this poet never truly did seek power, for they saw the darkness that oft come with. however the poet had to learn that not all power is bad. not all power leads to bad

the poet now understands that in order to truly overcome beasts, especially those internal, we must seek and grow a sense of power of our own, within ourselves. this knight had been fighting for sovereignty, for peace, for joy. true sovereignty hides itself from those hiding themselves from their inherent power, from those too afraid to take it

i used to think it was absurd, the concept of being able to guess what someone’s skin feels like against your mouth. what someones neck might taste like under your tongue. now i cannot think that is absurd. my mind does it without my intent.

To believe in magic is to look at what surrounds us, with perfectly explicable awe and admiration

the soul cannot speak for itself. it lies deep beneath all surfaces, where language does not live. it is your calling to feel it, to listen to it with no words, so that you can meet your true needs, and feel fulfilled.

the mind is an accumulation of what one has learned from the external world. therefore, it has nothing to teach the soul. you must shift focus, must quiet the mind, and trust fall back into the inner wisdom of your soul; for it is the only piece of you that remembers the truths of the universe. allow the soul to guide and lead, and remember the minds place.

all of my philosophical and spiritual explorations have led to a few conclusions, each with a similar underlying message. these conclusions have guided me to a level of love for life and general happiness that i didn’t even think i was capable of.

we can spend all of the energy our souls have been given, and all the time we have in this temporary life, digging within our own heads to try and find answers about the universe and life itself, but the only real answer is this, and once you come to fully accept it, you will experience a sense of peace and joy that reaches deeper than anxiety ever could: nothing about this universe, and nothing about the lives we live, can truly be known or understood, and it is best not to try. it is really, really best not to try.

similarly, you can spend that energy and time trying to figure out who you are, know your place in the world, understand yourself and why you were put here. once again, my love, do yourself the favour of letting go of these notions. like the universe is too complex to be understood in something like language, we as people are not meant to be boiled down to a simple scientific formula. we are glowing spirits, shifting and changing within the home of our bodies. the spirit may shine differently in the woods than it does inside of a cafe- it is not your job to capture its light and pick it apart until it’s small enough for you or others to understand. seeking true spiritual wisdom will lead you to the realization that we are to simply be. to allow ourselves to exist, and shine, and shift as much as the spirit pleases. do not do yourself the disservice of putting your spirit inside of a vessel too small for it to flourish. meeting your physical, emotional, mental, spiritual potential, truly means letting go and simply being, so that the spirit has no limit to how big and bright it may learn to shine.

the deepest, yet simplest wisdom i have ever come to in my years of inner exploration, is that true, raw and unfiltered joy, true freedom- is in letting go, and just being. releasing those spiralling thoughts about the past, trying to logically understand the present, or concerning oneself with the ‘what ifs’ of the future, and just sitting outside with a quiet mind, and truly feeling what surrounds you in the moment- that is when you will begin to fly. you have nothing to pick apart, there is no use in doing so. you are just you, sitting or standing or walking wherever you are, and that is all that matters. how many more details about the world and life can bring you joy, if you step outside of your mind and into the space around you? don’t miss out on it, my dear. i promise you will regret it.

and it sounds so simple, at times i wonder how i didn’t meet these realizations sooner. but i was caught up in all the habits of thought that clouded my vision and veiled the truth from me.

a bird should not spend its life walking on the ground and pondering the potential risks and difficulties of flying. it’s as simple as jumping out of the tree and trying, even if you don’t technically feel ready. bravery, too, feels like fear.

it really is so simple.

Different winds blow within me. Some are stronger than others at times. In the vast, open space of who I am, they pass each other by, each having their own path to follow. They each create a gentle whistle of a different pitch. An ever changing symphony, I stand.

My own hand, like a photograph in the warm light. A reminder that all those winds are still me. Unseen, they blow within. Harsh and cold, warm and gentle. Regardless, they’re me. They move within me as best they know how.