none of us know what we're doing

I keep losing time and then getting scared that I’m losing time so I go into denial about losing time and all of this happening at all

we went back into denial again

being angry is so exhausting but that’s all I know how to be.

host keeps being confused by me because I use the name of a fictional character but I’m not that character lolololol bitch I just like the name

I can’t remember my name right now but I found a light egg in flight rising so fuck yeah

xav is still struggling to accept that we all are here and get to use the body sometimes..!! he’s used to thinking it’s just him ‘cause that’s what he’s been told his entire life by society, and I understand that but it’s frustrating when he accidentally pushes us away :( he’s also scared of being rejected by people I think?? and sometimes tries to push us away because he doesn’t want to be seen as different...

to whoever is singing the line "We really fucked it up this time, didn't we my dear?" over and over and over: could you please stop it. we didn't even do anything yet today as far as I know

we lost our login again

numb

I sure wish I knew how to make friends,,,

I feel so detached right now