oozey mess
Cosmic Funnies
if i look back, i am lost
Jules of Nature
NASA
izzy's playlists!
I'd rather be in outer space 🛸
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YOU ARE THE REASON
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
almost home
roma★
sheepfilms
Lint Roller? I Barely Know Her
Claire Keane
noise dept.
occasionally subtle
Alisa U Zemlji Chuda
DEAR READER
Origami Around
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@sweetsaucyhazel
incredible how many buckaroos do not realize the universes constantly spilling off of them, all the time, every day. you are the most glorious, beautiful being across a thousand different worlds because every choice you make is a REALITY YOU JUST BUILT, and you can build them with love
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Hazel Experiment #1: Post-Therapy Drowsiness
initial observation: I usually feel drained and sleepy after therapy.
data gathered: if I lie down after, I will fall asleep and wake up 1-2 hours later. I will often have stress dreams and will wake up not feeling more rested.
data gathered: on at least one occasion I have left therapy intending to nap when I get home, only to find that by the time I have driven home I'm feeling refreshed and ready to go about my day.
data gathered: mental and emotional tasks take energy in the same way physical tasks do. I know this from personal observation and from Science (most recently Thinking Fast and Slow by Daniel Kahneman).
informed assumption: the tasks involved in therapy (lots of talking, being vulnerable, accessing memory, making new connections, understanding new information) are a lot of work accomplished in a short amount of time, like a mental and emotional sprint. being drained afterword is not surprising. finding effective steps to facilitate quick recovery seems likely.
hypothesis: if I take time after therapy to rest and recover, I will be able to go about my day without drowsiness.
plan: next week I will bring a snack to therapy. immediately after leaving I will take note of my physical and mental state. I will then take some time to de-stimulate (play a phone game, for example) and eat my snack. after a few minutes I will check in again with my physical and mental state and record how I feel.
proper nutrition
today's Unhinged Autism Food is: a bowl of shredded cabbage. both green and red! and with some carrot bits mixed in!
(I'm a diabetic and sometimes getting the veggies in is Hard)
current autism: hyperfixating on "The Rose and the Thistle" by Flobots. hyperfixation started Saturday night. I have listened to this song on repeat for approximately 7-8 hours since then. I have ideas for a music video, have begun choreographing a dance, and am sketching a digital art piece based on the song. the lyrics are half memorized (would have been memorized long ago but they be dense and I haven't been trying very hard). contemplating writing some substitution lyrics for when I wanna sing it but I'm feeling more lyrical than rap.
at a pagan market (I paid for two months ago) as a tarot reader
why am I here? I don't want to be nobody here has talked to me. "be friendly and welcoming!" bitch I'm tired and sad this sunk cost fallacy got me down bad my love said to me "you like reading tarot!" I mean, yeah I do when my mind feels aglow but today I feel heavy anxious and weary why am I here yet where else could I be?
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MAGA GOOFS: if we eliminate government jobs those departments will become more efficient so we have fired thousands of park rangers.
EVERYONE: okay what about police officers?
MAGA GOOFS: how dare you
Seriously. I'm starting to block y'all on sight it has been quite long enough of a campaign to get you weaned off this terf's books and shows (and now games!)
The Wayward Children series by Seanan McGuire.
Sunday Reflection/Projection Spread, 10/6/24
reflection/projection: the card on the left is a reflection of the previous cycle, and the card on the right is a projection for the next cycle. the middle space is left blank; that is the space we inhabit, in the moment, taking the lessons from the past to incorporate them into the future.
reflection: 4/Acolyte of Earth, Centering: presence in body, wisdom of place, seeing here and now
projection: 2/Exile of Earth, Darkness: loss of perspective, obscurity, protection, retreat, coldness
there is a continuing theme of Earth: foundations, deep insight, inhabiting physicality, external examination.
last week was a time for confidence, stepping outside of comfort zones, and taking risks. while intoxicating, these kinds of actions take energy, necessitating a time for rest. in the next week focus on introspection, specifically on identifying and filling personal needs.
me: my backlog of YouTube vids I wanna watch is getting p big, hope I can find some time to watch soon
me, waking up with a nasty cold: I DIDN'T MEAN LIKE THIS 😭😭
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The Witch, Hazel: Morning Tarot 8/1/24
theme of the day: mirage, inverted (reality, reliability, firmness, goals, unknowns, consequences, affecting surroundings)
what lies beneath: alloy, inverted (combining weaknesses, greater risk and greater reward, march of progress, artifice)
advice: warmth, inverted (protection, distance, loneliness, mementos)
takeaway: it is sometimes necessary to sacrifice in order to achieve what you want. choose your risks and sacrifices carefully, always keeping in mind your long-term goals.
The Witch, Hazel: Morning Tarot 7/31/24
theme of the day: storms (overwhelming force, imbalance, lashing out, force of nature)
what lies beneath: passion (enthusiasm, shared emotion, closeness, intuition, risk-taking)
advice: dreamer, inverted (groundedness, contentment, cut off from insight, realism)
takeaway: avoid being too swept up in excitement or too overwhelmed by outside pressures to lose sight of your options (you always, always have options). keep your feet on the path you have chosen and your eyes on your desired future.
The Witch, Hazel: Morning Tarot 7/30/24
theme of the day: spark (beginnings, untapped potential, uncertain future, rescue)
what lies beneath: trust (trust in others, personal connection, vulnerability, uncertainty)
advice: partnership (duality, communication, mutuality)
takeaway: it is quite possible to reach our dreams, but only if we take the time to develop healthy relationships. we need the support of others in order to shine our brightest.
The Witch, Hazel: Morning Spread 7/29/24
theme of the day: conquest, inverted (idealism, mediation, communication, cooperation)
what lies beneath: karma, inverted (new direction, unfair realities, escape, lessons learned)
advice: settling (resolution, ended chapters, aftermath, lowering intensity)
takeaway: embrace your community, whoever that is, wherever you find them. take advantage of your support system to let yourself relax and rest, and to avoid stretching yourself too thin.
The Witch, Hazel: Morning Spread 7/28/24
theme of the day: char, inverted (introspection after conflict, starting over, fertile ground, challenging self)
what lies beneath: conquest (victory, pain, loyalty to a cause, aggression, conflict)
advice: life, inverted (grinding down, profound challenge, growing into strength, and learning from difficulty)
takeaway: having hard times, even tragedies, is a necessary part of life. process your feelings, grieve what you have lost, and then move forward wiser and more confident. choose to be a pheonix over and over again.
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The Witch, Hazel: Morning Spread 7/27/24
cards pulled:
Karma (Tao, cycles, cosmic fairness, arbitration, nonlinear progress)
Focus (continuance, clear paths, staying the course, reducing distraction, detail-orientation)
Temper, inverted (slow action, iteration, strength through practice, specialization
takeaway: I am the author of my life story. as I stay focused on my abilities and goals, I will make slow but steady progress toward the things I want.
me: hey I'm gonna make some rice and eat it with beans
my (Mexican) partner: ... like... Mexican rice?
me: no, like rice pilaf with broth and spices
my partner: ... but you're going to add onions and peppers and tomatoes, yes?
me: ...no
my partner: I will not help you with that because I disagree
