Mimi

When I first saw her picture the first thought that popped into my mind was “damn, she really look like someone you would proudly hold hands in public”

i let my emotions take control of my actions ,I tend to self sabotage good connections and situations because I have this dying fear that things will turn bad, or that they are going to leave me and I will just never know if that was even supposed to happen.

I know you struggle with this, but you need to leave people when they don’t want you around anymore.

At midnight I went to my desk to grab my diary, I turn my phone on, and played some music, it’s was mitski-“My love is mine all mine”, I started going through the pages, reading my life like a book, at end I wrote about myself, kindness, emotions and sadness.

Honestly, right now all I can think about is how awesome she must be for you to choose her, she must be perfect, she must be more funny, she must do magic tricks, she must shine like diamond, she must be your heaven on heart, and I the the summer that never last..