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*A Chimps' smile & Let's Dance in the Dirt! - Macabre Plaza *Trailers after dark & Everytown there's a darling - Finn Wolfhard *Fool & Chateau - Djo *Shake It Up - The Cars *Red Green Yellow, Haha, Egg & California Here We Go - The Garden *Big Time Sensuality, Play Dead & Come To Me - Björk

Blog intro

Salutations, this is my yapping/vent/post anything blog.

Text me, of course only if you want to, I'm really fun to text with...

I'm looking forward to it...

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Fav. Actors: Finn Wolfhard & Robert Sean Leonard

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Interests: film making, scripts, writing, movies, series, art, acting, music...

Fav. color: really like blue, my whole thing is just blue (I love other colors too, is just, I really like blue.)

Things I'm into right now:

Saw

Stranger Things

But, hey, that doesn't mean they are the only things I'm willing to talk about, they are just the main, I also got other things like...

The Walking Dead, The Office, Hannibal, House MD, Dexter, Death Note, Silent Hill, Cry of Fear, Five Nights at Freddy's, Steven Universe, The Owl House & probably more... but I dont remember.

Movies: Dead Poets Society, Billy Elliot, Singin in the Rain, Vertigo, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Dazed and Confused, My Best Friend is a Vampire, The Breakfast Club...

Extra: What else, what else... I don't know, that's it... for now... who knows maybe someday I'll add something here...

If I had to decide between manga and animation, I would choose manga, I think. The reason is that most anime always fuck up the animation part. I'm not saying it's bad (I love watching anime, I enjoy it a lot!), but it takes away all the mood the manga builds while you're reading it, yk?

Or like, for example, I'm not exactly a big My Hero Academia fan. Never exactly got into it, like, I DID GIVE IT A CHANCE, YOU KNOW??? But it wasn't that good in my opinion.

Today, while watching TikTok, I saw someone pointing out that Izuku Midoriya is much darker in terms of the bullying he suffered in the manga (take into account I did not have time to check the manga), but I saw that as a very interesting thing.

How many times do we actually end up with really good manga with some serious motivation and all that, only to have an anime that just doesn't portray that seriousness that makes the anime extremely good?

ofc... Mob Psycho 100 doesn't really... uhm... the manga is funny looking...

The idea of being an actor when I grow up keeps me alive, genuinely, all those times where I watch movies and repeat a scene seeing every movement, the tones and eye contact just makes me amazed. Like, I wish I could be them. You know, being in a movie, making a character come to life.

I imagine going to sets and actually having fun doing my job, I always talk with my friends that when I become famous I will be such a great public figure, not for being hot or funny and you know all that, where some actors are just recognised for, but I want to be recognised for being a great actor, for being a person who has passion for the job.

I want to be recognised for good acting and being a good person, If I were to be one someday I promise being really good at it, and being possitive about it, if only I were so lucky to have somebody seeing me and being like, yeah, you are a good candidate for this and tells me tricks and like you know to the point to be like full of knowledge and all that, Idk if it makes sense, but I just really want to become one.

If only when I finish this year and next I could go to the university I want to be in and to do acting and take my pictures and Idk do all it takes to end up at least playing a role in 3 movies, it would be great, AT LEAST, of course, I wish more, who knows maybe meeting people in the way and end up with new people to know and all that, being friends and blah blah.

MAN, when I grow up I genuinely want to start doing eveeything I couldn't do in this age, I have so many goals.

I want to become an actress, I want to write, I want to draw, I want to be better at sports and actually enjoy them, I want to learn how to rollerskate perfectly, I want to learn how to ride a bike, I want to dress better, I want to express myself, I want to get to know me, I want to get to know other, I want to stay away from thhings that hurt me, I want to get better and all the things I never could do, I want to watch movies without feeling guilty for not doing what I'm supposed to do, I want to pass these to years, I want my parents to be proud of me, I want my teachers to be proud of me, I want to prove myself that I'm not limited and that I can do whatever I want.

I don't draw that much anymore, I'm not able to write anything without it being deep and depressing, I no longer have motivation, I feel like my dreams slowly are just falling apart, and this world is not giving me the hope I need to keep going, everyday there's something new coming up telling me that I'm such a horrible human being, dude I just want to finish school already... dude...

(Mike & Steve)

So I'm trying my hardest to actually study over here, this subject is supposed to be a easy subject, but it's not really being that easy right now.

I don't know what's wrong with me, I keep trying to actually study, but my head just doesn't feel like working, feels like I'm brain dead, I know the possible answer is that I give to much attention to Social Media, to the point I no longer know how to control myself, but is infuriating me, I know I can do better, but how will I even manage to actually work now, I'm sleepy, my exam is something I don't even understand, because in class I'm all shits and giggles...

Sometimes I really try to understand what's going on in class, but something of me being in class and already missing the opportunity since the start of paying attention just makes me feel like I will not understand shit so I just prefer to keep on being shits and giggles.

My head hurts and I gotta study for tomorrow's exam of a subject I freaking don't understand.

I wish I could look like them... FUCK WHY CANT I LOOK LIKE THEM FUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKKK