❛ For me , this name is like a stone stele that disappeared in the wilderness, an ocean dried up in the flow of time .
People may not be aware that the stele was once a huge statue of a hero , or that the ocean was once a mountain that pierced the sky .
A day like this will surely come in the distant future — people will never realize that black swans exist until they see one . ❜
❛ If I can identify and encapsulate a fragment of memory before it's unveiled to the world , those solitary moments of delight are my most favored & unique memories . ❜ She bears a warm smile & is willing to patiently heed the words of another , & thus uses such means as a pretext to enter memories , & gain a comprehension over the flow of all information . Feels strongly about collecting unique memories , yet the thoughts that guide her are hard to glean .
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001. Semi-active, *really* spotty activity. I'm a full-time online student & have to spend a lot of free time doing house work or babysitting so, I try to pop in when I have some free time! A lot may run on queue, and some replies may be delayed; please feel free to nudge me if you'd like!
002. Mun & muse are both 21+. NSFW may include sexual content, light gore/violence mentions, language. Very fond of potentially toxic yuri and c.annib.alism as a metaphor for love, so those themes may occur or be hinted at.
003. Not really selective in who I follow, though I do actively try to avoid frequent posts of topics that make me uncomfortable, such as my triggers: r/pe / sexual assault / csa / domestic abuse / child abuse & cancer. I have really bad ocd, and these topics tend to make it spike due to past traumas! I mainly ask for it to be tagged in an easy to blacklist format (please no special characters for example,) and I will not cover topics on my blog that relate to my triggers. Any trigger that may come up in my writing will be tagged as "trigger //" ; please let me know if I miss anything that you need tagged!! I am unaffiliated with the fandom and will be selective with who I follow from the fandom; mainly, I will only follow someone in the fandom if they follow me first unless we are already mutuals somewhere else. Transphobes, homophobes, racists, misogynists, etc will be blocked.
004. Open to plotting or just winging it. I will often reblog sentence memes/prompts or post starter calls for first interactions. I switch between second and third person writing, sometimes even in the same reply if i like the flow of it. however, i tend to match my writing partner's style/length; if i reply to you with the second-person style & you prefer third, feel free to let me know and I'll edit it!!
005. Please do not bring me into drama. I have been stalked, harassed, and threatened in prior fandoms before & really am just here to enjoy my hobby without fearing for my safety and comfort again. These people are still active in the tumblr rpc, but I will not be name dropping anyone as I don't want to make it worse. With this being said, I am a supporter of callouts for abusive, predatory, or otherwise unacceptable behavior, and will share them if others experience similar threats to their safety and well-being. If you come onto my blog intending to start drama, at least do it off anon & we can talk like adults.
006. I write Black Swan as a lesbian. I base this entirely on who she has shown to be flirtatious with (Acheron, Robin, March 7th, Sparkle.) I am very passionate about canon and coded rep in characters of any sexuality being respected, be it repeatedly implied or clearly stated. As Hoyoverse must work around censorship laws (that have been defied before, such as Bronya and Seele in Azure Waters, but only get stricter) they still work towards hinting at rep and pulling from real-life LGBT individuals to relate to these characters. As this is important to me personally as a lesbian, I prefer to avoid those who do not respect this, as erasure of any sort is inherently phobic. Coding exists for a reason, and canon rep should be respected. If you call this anything like policing, 'not important,' or try to throw baseless accusations of not being inclusive... kindly stay away. I do not have the energy to argue the importance of rep or why this erasure is wrong. If your sexuality was the one being erased, if your rep was being removed, would it not hurt you? Would it not make you feel lesser? All this to say, if you write Acheron, Bronya, Seele, or any other character as anything but their canon sexuality, I'll be blocking! Not ""policing headcanons"", you're free to do what you want with headcanons, but CANON should not be erased. I just don't have to have you in my vicinity if that's something you're okay with doing. I hate that this section has to be so long but, I need to make it clear I do not appreciate this and do not care how that makes me sound.
007. I go by Yuri, I'm 28, pronouns they/she. I'm a bit introverted/socially awkward on *top* of being frequently busy, so if i delay in replies either ic or ooc i apologize!! i am open to sharing my discord privately as well, if requested.
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im afraid to start the new patch for 2 reasons. 1. i know im going to fall in love with evanescia because of my love for all the yaes and she seems more of yae rin's expy and 2. i know this means swan is leaving the express. and im sad about it. so if i start she will leave....
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Oh , but dear serpent , that's exactly what your little bird wants . She hangs 'round Acheron desperately , legs laced over the lap of love to invite whatever sinful decadence they may find themselves in . Enjoying the buildup far too much , for that look of temptation , the way Acheron tenses beneath her to keep control ... it's near divinity , she's certain .
' Wouldn't that be terrible ... ' Whisper purrs 'gainst Acheron's neck breath hot , sickeningly laden with desire . Finding a strand of beautiful locks behind the small of her Emanator's back , she twists it 'round her finger , tugs tight to tilt vision towards her lips .
' Whatever would we do if you did ... ? Time has granted us a moment to test that , my dear ... and you know I've no inclination to protest . '
the memory keepers were always ones to stick their noses where they didn't belong, devil hunter had found her fair share of those pesky travelers within her home. devouring those handful of individuals; THEY NEVER HEEDED HER WARNINGS. the memories, sweet ﹠ savory. prying, poking, they always came back. eventually. being one of the first, the original four that inhabited the world of pteruges-v [ ⋯ ] many realities ﹠ possibilities could come to fruition. the garden had ALWAYS been over their heads.
black swan deemed no different.
she'll play along, however.
❛ there's always two sides to a single story. the truth, then the lies. which have you heard? ❜ eyes that held such intensity remain fixated on the woman in violets; picking her apart with red pupils. her grin never falters, as if silently hunting the prey 'fore her. there's no reason to lunge, to tear apart. the bird would find it's wings pinned 'tween canines sooner or later - rather it be of her own volition [ ⋯ ] or falling for an obvious trap.
chewing the meat from her bones, to bathe in the blood of a memory ﹠ relish in a voice strained by terror. it sounded like a perfect date night between two unrelenting women.
She knows it is unlikely she will unearth anything . Those devils and hunters alike house their secrets deep within their ribs , engrave the letters upon bone should it prevent any prying eyes from finding their truths . Still , there's no real harm in trying , is there ?
Makima may pluck her wings , but it is temporary . She is spared the finality , a truth she's certain hunter knows , but that does not make her immune to avoidance . Should Makima truly wish her questions to cease , she need only refuse .
Impolite to gaze within another's memories without permission , after all .
' Well , that's difficult to answer , isn't it ? I've no idea of knowing what you deem a lie , because your truth may be different from theirs ... ' A click of her tongue , a shrug of shoulders as she crosses arms beneath chest .
' There are certain ... whisperings surrounding your lineage . If that may interest you . '
It seems she's a moth to flame emitted by dangerous women ; one look into those eyes , and she's absolutely ensnared in this woman's strings . It won't be long 'fore little bird is pulled towards an open maw , but that only excites her all the more . There's little fear for pain , less for death . Difficult to kill a memory , after all .
Still , she relents : two steps back , granting plenty of breathing room between the two of them . ' Mm ... only to people I find interesting , dear . I don't mean to overstep ... just curious , is all . ♪ '
A step around will not risk crossing the line , will it ? Graceful steps carry her body in circles 'round the woman , only ceasing when they are face to face again .
' Though ... you don't strike me as the type to indulge me with your story . Am I wrong ? '
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on a less serious note i am planning to clean up a lot of my accounts, and will be setting up a multi to move some of my characters i want to further explore. now that i've finished this semester (yay i didnt fail my stats final) i should have a clearer head and will be able to write more...
The day I became a memetic entity, I saw my own corporeal body dissolve, other’s memories precipitate, crystallize, and shatter in the flow of time. It was in that moment I grasped that, everything is transient, but memories are eternal.
it would be an honor, to be worthy of your heart. to know you crave me as much as i crave you...
they're strange encounters, always falling in such entrance among each other. fleeting memories, emotions, touches; it's always a familiar nostalgia when lanced together with black swan. an inescapable lust filling her chest, such fiery passion behind each other's eyes - if one looked away, they other might disappear for god knows how long. a few seconds, minutes, hours, years, decades? would they ever cross paths again? the consumer of sins grips onto fabric ﹠ dug metal claws into fabric. it creates some holes, a sorrowful look bestows the emanator.
lip's bit, chewing on easily tearable skin ⋯ this hunger persists, a feeling longed for, completely forgotten, only to reignite in the presence of this entity. lids close a moment, something sorrowful quickly became joyful; a small smile forms, another step taken forward ﹠ bosoms touch.
" you are the only one who can satisfy me, miss celesia. "
It seems her dear Acheron knows not how heart yearns for her attention . She owes much to the beautiful Emanator , cannot sing enough praise to thank her for the countless lives & memories saved from Penacony's disaster ... likely her own included . Swan had intended to meet with that Dahlia , and with the voice within memory she had uncovered , it is apparent that dance would have led to ruin . Her existence , whatever that may be defined as , set aflame by the hands of that cremator ...
But she's yet to share this with Acheron . With the fate of Duke Inferno , whispering about whoever remains of his bloodline seems risky ; as if speaking their name may bring them into the world again . Whatever fate the others may have met , whoever may still long for the destruction of worlds ... she hopes they allow the galaxies a moment's rest before anything foolish .
Selfishly , she hopes they will allow her more time with the one she's grown so enamored with .
Her hand , a ghost across the small of Acheron's back , traces the bones housing Emanator's soul , making way to the front of frame 'fore fingers catch the cheeky strap peeking above hip . With a tug , she pulls their forms together , embracing as naturally as the moonlight envelops the stars .
' Satisfy , mm ... ? Well , dear Ranger ... are you hungry ? Shall we indulge in a dance , as time allows ... ? '
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working on things but i keep laughing at the fact that people were mad about cipher's poses and called them sexualized bc she arches her body like a cat and now, with a character apparently inspired by a succubus, people are mad that she's a lil freaky.
" you're the memory keeper [black swan], aren't you? "
There is a moment , fleeting , where her surprise manages to present itself 'pon face . He may know so little of her , no more than whispers from that wonderful Deliverer , but she ... she has seen so much , so many of his lives . So much he cannot remember , the burden of grief gradually chipping away at what memories remained . No matter how desperately he may have hoped to hold onto them , how feverishly he fought to reclaim the love he had lived with , destruction had damned him — forget .
Yet , he remembers her ... At least , the idea of her . Swan tilts her head , pity weighing on mind 'til her features sink into a frown . Though she wishes this moment may be a happy one , given the current situation ...
' I am . And ... you are Phainon ? ' A pause , pondering which name will ring true to his heart . Khaslana , the origins lost to time , or Phainon ... the beloved heir . ' He who must bare the weight of the world ? '