sometimes i honestly feel like i would rather just die than go on living the way i am. i feel so miserable 90% of the time. everything feels so pointless. i have no direction any more. no one who actually cares about me. the person i trusted the most in the world stomped on that trust and didn’t even spare a moment to think about it as they were doing so. now when i look at myself all i can see is this garbage human being who isn’t worth anyone’s love or respect.
when i think about the past it just seems like none of it matters.
when i think about the future it all feels so hopeless.
sometimes thinking about everything just makes my heart physically heart, like someone is stabbing a white hot knife in my chest and i can hardly breathe.
can i ever be happy again