my friend called me a stalker™ lmao

I went to TRB, Epilogue, and finally will go to WINGS TOUR here in Manila. Just like their previous Tour, the tickets for both days got sold out. And I was one of those fans who got a ticket. My friends in twitter knew that I will go to the WINGS Tour. They kept calling me "lucky" and all that but I find this uncomfortable. Why? Because it makes me feel bad. Makes me just throw my ticket away and not go to the concert anymore. I know many fans didn't get the chance to see the boys not even once, but I don't consider myself being "lucky" and will never consider myself as that. I think getting to see the boys again is because of my hard work. I'm a high school student. My daily allowance is $2. To be able to save up enough, I didn't buy lunch or any food at all. I deposit my money in the bank after school and watch my savings get higher in value each time I deposit. My mom will NEVER allow me to go to a concert without me saving up enough money, so I did my best. I didn't even go to trips with my friends just to refrain myself from spending money but I will never regret not going. (lol) Now, I could afford VIP Seated. That's how it always works for me. For the ticketing, I wake up really early (because online ticketing here sucks a lot) and go to the ticketing venue as early as possible. Honestly, HOW am I being called lucky? I know there are lots of people who did the same as me, but calling me that makes me feel real bad. Thoughts like, "Ah, I got my ticket, but others didn't," "I don't think I deserved this, some fans are already crying," "Should I just sell mine to the person more deserving than me?" Thoughts like those came into my mind. I felt really bad. Some fans were too desperate for a ticket that few DMed me, begging for me to sell my ticket. I found it rude like, who wouldn't? I get it that they want to see the boys, but asking someone to sell their own ticket to you? In my opinion, if you REALLY worked hard for something you want, you will always get it. You will be blessed by it because God knew how much you wanted it and how much you worked for it. I am not lucky because I got to see the boys, but because, I, myself made it happen. I made my own dream come true, is what I'm trying to say. Don't depend too much on luck if that's what you're holding onto, because sometimes luck will betray you and leave you disappointed. But If there's a chance, don't waste your time and grab that chance if that's your only way to get what you want. I don't know if ya'll understood what I was trying to say. 😅 But I hope you did 😂 lmao Pls dont hate me for this, this is just what my mind decided to say.