El Roi

Okay I’m not here to advise anyone. First of all how many of u know our mothers sufferings.I would say nil. A heart that thinks only about its family. A heart that wants their children welfare,in these have you read saying that a heart that thinks about it’s life-no. Even a stepmother would care for her child. Even if he’s rude,disrespectful,hurtful.. the one that will be blamed is the stepmom. Giving all her time and love end of the day. She is blamed. What’s a stepmother ? Can u explain ? No.The hurt that has been made is made. A tear from her eyes is so powerful that it comes out with massive pain and Control of anger.so don’t judge a mother ,u don’t know what pain their carrying for you.

Love

There’s a saying “look beyond what you see”,we follow that in everything that we fix our mind on. Well,I’m no mother Teresa. I have done it too. I was carried away by the cinema fantasies too,when I was young. When I see a movie on friendship,I start to think about not having a friend who sticks to me no matter what. When I see a movie based on family, immediately start to think about not having a father. I always think about why there’s no better job for me( when I had the dream job of being an actress),why did I have a break up?? Why,anyone in my life,not understanding me ? There were so many “why” that kept on going in my mind. One day when one of my friend cut the call by saying “damn,you are Such a negative person” then it hit me really hard. I started to think really deep,analysing myself,whether “have I really grown into a whinny person ?? Am I really talking only negative things in my life ??” Well,the answer was a hard YES... then things started to change in my life. It’s only because,I started appreciating,what I have.I started appreciating the smallest things around me. That made me notice,the little gifts that,god has given me. So what if I don’t have a father,I have a MOTHER. So what,there was no father to complete my family. God has given me a husband,who completes my family.so what if my friends don’t stick on to me, I have got my family who sticks to me,no matter what. So what, if my son breaks my heart. When night comes, a chubby cheek,comes finding me,smiles at me and says “good nite mom,I love you,mom”.. we often forget what we have and always look for something,that doesn’t exist. If you want love ?? If u want to find it ?? Look around you. There will be some one in the form of something,like, a friend, a co-worker,your child,your husband,your wife or your parents. They might be in any form,but there’s always one.Start looking around you. Looking beyond,every time is not necessary. Sometimes LETGO of our EXPECTATIONS helps a long way. Stop punishing yourself by calling yourself unlucky. What you have,others might not have. Let’s celebrate what we have and be proud of it.

The space of a father will always be like a shadow on a sunset to us. In the growing up age,especially in teen age,we try so much to try catching atleast a finger of the shadow but as usual it ends up in disappointment. We try changing ourselves by building a huge wall around us,to hide the pure vulnerable emotion and our disappointment,not be seen by others. By 20’s we start fixing a mask in our face called “SMILE..laughter “. Having a father makes huge difference especially for a daughter,his presence will be so mighty,hence any man will think twice to break us down.Fatherless daughter’s are self made, courageous,who builds themselves as a human wall that shields the family. They automatically step in the shoes of a father by the time they are 30. Fatherless daughters are special. We have build so many layers around us,so trying to get to know is hard. But once if you start peeling of the layers, there my friends, you will find that little girl who still looks towards the same direction where her father had left her....eyes looking wide,gazing as the tear rolls down...

That’s how I can put it “glittery fey”. Being an actress (I’m an south Indian actress) takes you courage for every cell in your body to freeze. I know what your thinking. I mean.. yes !! Staying numb to every comments,keeping it zipped to every insults, no matter what,smile away to every incidents. Well,I’m talking only about my journey here. In this wonderful 14yrs of my journey in the industry, all I have learned is no matter what hits you,you still got to fight( you can’t find your way,unless you fight for it) your way out. An actor’s life is not only about having to get all the attention and living in the vanity van and having staffs to help us out and the pay checks. YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT TAKES TO BE ONE !! Every actor in the Industry has carved themselves to be what they are now.. this is jus an out line ... to be continued

Whenever I see moon,some thing immediately strikes my mind and gives me peace. Which is, especially I feel like,a full moon says to me “ look at me, in this dark night !! I still shine bright”. Those lines just fill my heart and gets all the peace and a stress free feel pumping all through my body and head and the next second,what can i say ?? I will be floating like a leaf on a breezy day...