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accidentally in love [ jeong jaehyun ]
you and jaehyun keep hooking up casually until one night finally forces both of you to admit youโre in love.
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it started, like most things between you and jaehyun, without a lot of talking.
that was kind of the point, actually.
the whole friends with benefits thing worked because you two had known each other long enough to skip the awkward parts. you'd been friends since freshman orientation, when jaehyun had sat next to you in intro to psych and asked to borrow a pen. three years later, and he was still borrowing your pens, still showing up at your door with takeout and that stupidly pretty smile, still falling into your space like he belonged there.
and he did belong there, as a friend.
that was the deal; no feelings, no strings, just two people who happened to be very good at making each other feel good.
it had started last semester, after a party where you'd both had too much to drink and jaehyun had kissed you in the hallway of his dorm building. you'd expected it to be awkward after that, but it wasn't; jaehyun had just looked at you the next morning with those big brown eyes and said, "that was nice. we should do that again. if you want."
it was casual, it was easy; exactly what you needed.
so that's what you did. you'd text jaehyun when you were stressed or lonely or just horny, and he'd show up, or he'd text you, and you'd show up. it was convenient, and it was good, and you never thought about it more than that.
you never really thought about the way jaehyun looked at you sometimes, so soft and so wondering, like he was trying to memorize your face. you never thought about how careful jaehyun was with you, how he always made sure you cum first, how he held you after even though you'd never asked him to. you never thought about the fact that jaehyun had stopped hooking up with anyone else entirely, even though you'd never discussed exclusivity.
you didn't really think about any of it, because thinking about it would mean acknowledging that something had shifted, and you weren't ready for that yet; you liked what you had, and you didn't want to lose it.
jaehyun felt the same way.
at least, that's what he told himself every single day.
because the truth was, jaehyun had been in love with you for months, maybe longer, maybe since that first day in psych when you'd handed him a pen and smiled at him like you'd known him forever. he couldn't pinpoint the exact moment it had happened, only that somewhere along the way, you'd stopped being just his friend and started being everything.
the friends with benefits thing had seemed like a good idea at the time; a way to be close to you, to touch you, to have you in a way that felt intimate without having to say the words he was terrified to speak. he'd thought it would satisfy something in him, this arrangement.
oh, he'd been so wrong.
it only made it worse โ every single time jaehyun had you underneath him, every single time you moaned his name, every single time you looked at him with that hazy pleasure in your eyes, jaehyun fell a little deeper. and he couldn't say anything, because saying anything would ruin it. you'd made it clear from the start that this was casual. you'd said the words yourself, that night after the first time;
"i'm not looking for a relationship, jaehyun. i just want this. just us, like this."
so he'd nodded and said okay, and he'd locked his feelings away in a box and pretended they didn't exist.
but the box was getting full, and tonight, it was about to burst.
it was a friday night in late october, the kind of night where the air was crisp and the leaves were falling and everything felt a little bit electric.
you'd texted jaehyun around nine, a simple "you busy?" followed by the eggplant emoji simply because you were mature like that. jaehyunโs response came less than a minute later; "never for you. come over."
so here you were, standing outside his dorm room in a hoodie and sweatpants, your heart beating a little faster than it should. you knocked twice, the way you always did, and the door opened almost immediately.
jaehyun stood in the doorway, and god, he was so pretty it actually hurt; he was wearing gray sweatpants that hung low on his hips and a simple white t-shirt that stretched across his chest in a way that made your mouth water. his hair was dark and slightly damp, like he'd just showered, and his skin had that warm glow it always got after a shower.
his eyes found yours immediately, soft and familiar, and he smiled that small smile that made his dimples appear.
"hey," jaehyun said, stepping aside to let you in.
"hey," you said back, and you tried to ignore the way your stomach flipped when his hand brushed your lower back as you walked past him.
his dorm room was small and messy in the way all college dorms were messy; clothes draped over the desk chair, textbooks stacked on the floor, a half-empty cup of coffee on the nightstand. but it smelled like jaehyun โ clean laundry and something woodsy, like strawberry or vanilla โ and it felt safe in a way you couldn't explain.
jaehyun closed the door behind you and leaned against it, watching you with that quiet intensity he had.
he didn't say anything, just looked at you like he was trying to figure out what you were thinking. he always did that. it used to make you uncomfortable, but now you found it endearing.
"horrible week," you said by way of explanation, kicking off your shoes.
jaehyun nodded like he understood. he always understood.
"want to talk about it?"
you shook your head. "want to not think about it."
another nod, and then jaehyun pushed off the door and crossed the room toward you, and his hand came up to cup your jaw, thumb brushing over your cheekbone. his touch was gentle, always gentle, like you were something so precious.
"okay," he said softly. "i can help with that."
and then jaehyun kissed you.
it started slow, the way it always did with jaehyun; his lips were so warm and so soft, moving against yours with a patience that drove you crazy. he never rushed, never pushed, he just kissed you like he had all the time in the world, like there was nowhere else he'd rather be.
you let your hands find his waist, your fingers curling into the fabric of his t-shirt, and you pulled him closer. jaehyun made a small sound against your mouth, something between a sigh and a hum, and it sent a shiver down your spine.
when he finally pulled back, his eyes were dark and his lips were pink and he was looking at you like you'd hung the moon.
"bed," he said, and it wasn't a question.
you nodded, and jaehyun softly took your hand and led you across the room.
the dorm bed was pretty small, a standard twin xl that barely fit both of you, but you'd eventually made it work before and you'd make it work again.
jaehyun sat down first, pulling you into his lap so you were straddling his thighs. his hands settled on your hips, thumbs tracing small circles through the fabric of your sweatpants.
"you're so pretty," jaehyun murmured, tilting his head up to kiss your jaw, your neck, the spot behind your ear that made you shiver. "you know that? you're so fucking pretty."
you laughed, breathless, and tangled your fingers in jaehyunโs damp dark hair.
"you're biased."
"i'm not." jaehyunโs teeth grazed your collarbone, gentle but teasing. "i have eyes. i can see."
he kissed down your throat, his lips dragging over your skin in a way that made your toes curl. his hands slid under the hem of your hoodie, palms flat against your stomach, and his fingers were warm and calloused and perfect.
"off," he said against your chest, tugging at the fabric.
you rapidly pulled your hoodie over your head and tossed it somewhere on the floor, and then jaehyun was looking at you โ deeply observing โ and his breath caught in a way that made your chest feel tight.
"god," he whispered, almost to himself. "look at you."
jaehyunโs soft hands slowly traced up your sides, over your ribs, his thumbs brushing across your nipples in a way that made you gasp. he watched your face as he did it, cataloging every single reaction, and there was something so hungry in his eyes that made your skin heat.
"hyunie," you breathed, and his name in your pretty mouth made him shiver.
"i know," jaehyun said. "i've got you."
he flipped you over, a move that was easy for him because he was strong and you were pliant and willing; your back hit the mattress, and he was above you, caging you in with his arms, his body a warm weight that pressed you into the sheets.
jaehyun kissed you again, deeper this time, his warm tongue sliding against yours in a rhythm that had you arching your back up into him. his hips rolled down against yours, and you could feel him โ hard and thick through his sweatpants โ and the friction made you moan into his mouth.
"fuck," jaehyun muttered, pulling back just enough to look at you. "want to take my time with you tonight. is that okay?"
you simply nodded, because your voice had apparently stopped working.
jaehyun smiled, that soft, pretty, dimpled smile that made your heart do such stupid things, and then he started kissing his way down your body.
he started at your jaw, trailing soft, open-mouthed kisses down the column of your throat. jaehyun lingered at your pulse point, his tongue flicking out to taste your skin, and his teeth scraped gently over the spot before he sucked a mark there. it was not hard enough to bruise, just enough to feel, just enough to make you gasp.
"hyunie," you said, and your voice came out rough, broken.
"shh," he murmured against your collarbone. "let me."
jaehyun kissed across your chest, your sternum, your ribs. his lips found one of your nipples and he sucked it into his mouth, tongue swirling around the sensitive peak, and your hands flew to his hair, holding him there.
he chuckled, the vibration shooting straight to your dick, and he gave the other side the same attention, biting down just enough to make you whine.
"awh, so responsive," jaehyun said, pulling back to admire his work. your chest was completely flushed, your nipples wet and peaked, and the look in his eyes was pure reverence. "you always react so well for me."
you wanted to say something clever, something casual, but all that came out was a breathless;
"please."
"please what?" he asked, and he was already moving lower, dragging his lips down your stomach, his tongue dipping into your belly button in a way that made you squirm.
"please touch me," you said. "i needโ"
"i know what you need," jaehyun said, and his fingers hooked into the waistband of your sweatpants. "lift up."
you did, and he pulled your pants and boxers down in one smooth movement, tossing them aside. the cool air hit your skin and you shivered, your dick twitching against your stomach, already leaking precum onto your skin.
jaehyun made a sound, low and appreciative, and his hand wrapped around the base of your cock. his fingers didn't quite touch โ he was big, but you were also bigger than average โ and the sight of his hand around you made your head spin.
"so pretty," jaehyun said again, and he meant your dick, which was a weird thing to say but it made you blush anyway. "all of you. every part."
he leaned down and licked a stripe up the underside of your cock, from base to tip, and your hips jerked off the bed. his free hand pressed you back down, holding you in place, and he did it again, slower this time, his tongue flat and warm.
"jaehyun, pleaseโ"
"i said i want to take my time," he reminded you, and his breath was hot against your skin. "be patient."
he took the head of your cock into his mouth, just the head, and sucked gently. the sensation was electric, shooting up your spine and making your toes curl. his tongue swirled around the tip, cleaning up the precum, and he moaned like you were the best thing he'd ever tasted.
then jaehyun sank down.
your brain short-circuited; jaehyun's mouth was so hot and so wet and so perfect, and he knew exactly what he was doing. he took you deeper than you thought possible, his throat contracting around the head of your cock, and he looked up at you through his lashes with those big brown eyes and you almost came right there.
"oh f-fuck," you gasped, fisting the sheets. "fuckfuckfuck, hyunie, your mouthโ"
he pulled off with a wet pop, lips swollen and shiny, and smiled up at you. "you like that?"
"you know i do."
jaehyun laughed, soft and fond, and then his mouth was on you again, bobbing up and down in a rhythm that made your vision blur. his hand worked what his mouth couldn't reach, twisting and pumping in time with his sucks, and he was moaning around you like he was the one getting pleasured.
it was too much. it was exactly enough.
"hyunie, i'm gonnaโ" you warned, but he didn't pull off.
jaehyun just took you deeper, his nose pressing against your pelvis, and swallowed around you.
you cum with a cry, your back arching off the bed, your hands flying to jaehyunโs hair to hold him in place. he took it all, swallowing every single drop, and he didn't stop until you were trembling and oversensitive, pushing at his shoulders.
jaehyun pulled off you slowly, licking his lips in such a hot way, and crawled back up your body. he kissed you, and you could taste yourself on his tongue, salty and bitter, and it should have been gross but it wasn't; it was jaehyun, and everything about him made you feel good.
"told you i wanted to take my time," jaehyun murmured against your lips. "we're not done yet."
you blinked up at him, still hazy from your orgasm.
"what?"
he smiled, that stupidly pretty smile, and rolled off the bed.
you watched as jaehyun dug through his nightstand drawer, pulling out a bottle of lube and a condom. he tossed them onto the bed and then stripped off his shirt, and you forgot how to breathe for a second.
jaehyun was so beautiful. you'd known that since the day you met him, but seeing him like this โ chest bare, skin golden in the lamplight, muscles moving under his skin โ it never got old. jaehyunโs shoulders were broad, his waist narrow, and there was a seductive light trail of hair leading from his navel down into his sweatpants.
he caught you staring and raised an eyebrow.
"what?"
"nothing," you said quickly. "you're just hot."
jaehyunโs cheeks flushed pink, which was ridiculous because he knew damn well he was hot. but jaehyun still ducked his head like he was shy, and the gesture made something warm bloom in your chest.
"shut up," he said, but he was smiling.
he stepped out of his sweatpants and boxers, and your mouth went dry. jaehyun's dick was big โ long and thick, curving slightly upward, with a vein running along the side that you liked to trace with your tongue. it was already hard, flushed red at the tip, and it looked almost too big to fit inside you.
but it always fit, eventually.
jaehyun climbed back onto the bed, settling between your legs, and his hands naturally pushed your thighs apart. he looked at you โ like he was memorizing every single inch of you for the first time โ and his expression softened into something so tender it made your chest ache.
"you're sure?" jaehyun asked, because he always asked. "we don't have toโ"
"jaehyun." you reached for him, pulling him down so his chest was pressed against yours. "i want this. i want you. okay?"
he nodded, his breath warm against your cheek.
"okay."
he kissed you again, softly and slowly, and you let yourself sink into it. jaehyunโs hands slid down your sides, over your hips, and one of them reached for the lube; you heard the click of the bottle opening, and then his long fingers were slick and cold against your inner thigh.
"warm it up first," you mumbled against jaehyunโs lips, and he softly laughed.
"bossy."
but he rubbed the lube between his fingers, warming it, and then his hand slipped between your legs.
jaehyunโs index finger circled your hole, teasing, not pushing in yet, but just getting you used to the sensation, the pressure. you breathed out slowly, relaxing into the mattress, and he pressed a soft kiss to your temple.
"good?" he asked.
"good."
he pushed in.
just one finger, slow and careful, and you clenched around him instinctively. jaehyun waited patiently, not moving, letting you adjust, and his free hand was on your hip, thumb rubbing soothing circles into your skin.
"breathe," he reminded you. "you're okay. i've got you."
you breathed. the tension in your body released, and he pushed deeper, his finger sliding all the way in. he crooked it, searching, and when he found your prostate you saw stars.
"there," you gasped. "right there."
jaehyun smiled and did it again, rubbing small circles against that sweet little spot, and your back arched off the bed again. he added a second finger, stretching you open, and the burn was good โ so freaking good โ and you couldn't stop the sounds falling from your lips.
"hyunie, please, i'm ready, i needโ"
"mmh, not yet," jaehyun said, and his voice was strained, like he was holding himself back. "i want to make sure you're stretched enough."
he added a third finger, and you cried out, your hands gripping jaehyunโs shoulders. the stretch was intense, almost too much, but he worked you open with patience and precision, his fingers curling and scissoring and pressing against your prostate every few strokes.
"so tight," he muttered, almost to himself. "so good for me. taking my fingers so well."
"hyunie," you whined, and you were past the point of shame now. "please fuck me. i need your cock. please."
something in his expression shifted, darkened. jaehyunโs eyes went hooded, his jaw tightened, and he pulled his fingers out slowly, making you whimper at the loss.
"since you asked so nicely," jaehyun said, and he reached for the condom.
but you stopped him, your hand closing around his wrist. he looked at you, confused.
"no condom," you said. "i want to feel you."
jaehyunโs eyes widened.
"are you sure? we've neverโ"
"i'm sure." you pulled him down, wrapping your legs around his waist. "i trust you, hyunie. i want all of you."
he stared at you for a long moment, something unreadable flickering across his face, then he nodded, slow and serious, and set the condom aside.
"okay," jaehyun said softly. "okay."
he slicked himself up with lube, his hand pumping his cock a few times, and then he positioned himself at your entrance. the head of his dick pressed against your hole, and you had to remind yourself to breathe.
"tell me if it's too much," jaehyun said, and his voice was rough. "tap my shoulder and i'll stop."
"i know. i trust you."
he pushed in.
just the tip at first, and even that was a lot.
jaehyun was big, and no matter how many times you did this, the first stretch was always intense. you gritted your teeth, focusing on breathing, on relaxing, on letting him in.
"you're doing so good," he murmured, his forehead pressed against yours. "so good for me. just a little more."
he pushed deeper, inch by inch, and your body opened up for him. the burn was there, sharp and sweet, but underneath it was pleasure, deep and overwhelming, and when he bottomed out you both let out a moan.
"f-fuck," jaehyun breathed, his eyes squeezed shut. "fuck, you feelโyou're soโ"
jaehyun couldn't finish the sentence, and you didn't need him to. you felt it too โ the way he filled you completely, the way your bodies fit together like they were made for this, the way his heartbeat pounded against your chest.
"move," you said, your voice barely a whisper. "please move."
he pulled out slowly, almost all the way, and then pushed back in. the drag of his cock against your walls was exquisite, and you cried out, your nails digging into his back.
jaehyun found a rhythm, slow and deep, and every thrust hit your prostate dead on; you were already sensitive from your first orgasm, and the pleasure was building fast, too fast, threatening to swallow you whole.
"hyunie," you gasped, your legs tightening even more around his waist. "h-hyunie, right there, don't stopโ"
"i won't," he said, and his voice was wrecked. "i won't stop. i'll give you everything. anything you want."
jaehyunโs pace increased, his hips snapping against yours, and the sound of skin on skin filled the room. he was sweating now, his hair sticking to his forehead, and he was beautiful โ he was so beautiful โ and you couldn't look away from him.
he changed the angle slightly, and suddenly the pleasure was blinding. your second orgasm hit you without warning, your cock spurting cum onto your stomach, and you screamed his name as your body convulsed around him.
"oh god," jaehyun groaned, and his rhythm stuttered. "you'reโyou just cumโ"
"keep going," you said, even though you were oversensitive, even though every nerve was on fire. "don't stop, hyunie, i want you to cum inside me."
his eyes went dark, and he started moving again, faster now, chasing his own release. his thrusts were rougher, less controlled, and the overstimulation was a knife edge between pleasure and pain that made you see the stars.
"so good," he was mumbling, his voice broken and frantic. "so good, so good, you're soโi can'tโ"
jaehyunโs hips stuttered, and you knew he was close. you clenched around him intentionally, and he let out a sound that was almost a sob.
"fuckโi love you."
the words fell out of jaehyun like they'd been waiting for years to escape, and his eyes went wide the second he said them, and his hips stopped moving entirely.
the room went silent.
you stared at him, your chest heaving, your mind struggling to process what you'd just heard. jaehyun stared back, panic rising in his eyes, his face pale beneath the flush of arousal.
"iโ" jaehyun started, and then stopped.
his jaw worked silently, like he was trying to find the words to take it back, to explain it away, but there was no taking it back now; the words hung in the air between you, heavy and real, and everything shifted.
jaehyun pulled out slowly, carefully, and the loss of him made you feel hollow in more ways than one. he sat back on his heels, still hard, still glistening with lube and your own release, and he wouldn't look at you.
"jaehyun," you said, and your voice came out raw.
"don't," he said, and his voice cracked. "please don't. i didn't meanโi mean, i did mean it, but i wasn't supposed to say it. i know we said no feelings, i know this was supposed to be casual, i know you don'tโ" jaehyun pressed the heels of his hands against his eyes, and his shoulders shook. "fuck. i ruined it. i ruined everything."
you sat up slowly, your body aching and oversensitive, and you reached for him. your hand found jaehyunโs wrist, tugging his hands away from his face, and when he finally looked at you, his eyes were bright with unshed tears.
"hyunie," you said softly. "how long?"
he blinked. "what?"
"how long have you felt this way?"
jaehyun was quiet for a long moment, and then, so quietly you almost didn't hear him;
"months. maybe longer. i don't know. it justโit happened. and i tried to ignore it, i really did, but every time weโ" he gestured vaguely at the bed, at your bodies, at everything. "it just made it worse. being with you, touching you, having you like this and knowing i couldn't have you the way i really wantedโ"
his voice broke, and he looked away again.
"i'm sorry," jaehyun whispered, and his voice was trembling. "i know this isn't what you signed up for. i know you don't feel the same way. and i swear, i never meant to make things weird. i justโi couldn't help it. i love you. and i hate that i love you because it hurts, but i can't stop."
your chest felt like it was caving in.
because here was the thing; you'd told yourself this was casual, you'd told yourself you didn't have feelings, that you just wanted sex, that jaehyun was a friend and nothing more. but somewhere along the way, maybe the same way it had happened for him, the lines had blurred.
you loved the way he smiled at you, soft and private, like you were the only person in the world. you loved the way he said your name, the way it sounded in his deep voice. you loved the way he held you after sex, his fingers tracing patterns on your skin, even though you'd never asked him to. you loved the way he remembered things โ your coffee order, the name of your childhood pet, the fact that you were scared of thunder.
you loved him. you'd been loving him for a while, probably, and you'd been too scared to admit it.
"jaehyun," you said again, and this time your voice was steady.
he flinched, bracing himself.
you cupped his face in your hands, forcing him to look at you. his cheeks were wet now, tears spilling over despite his best efforts, and you wiped them away with your thumbs.
"i'm not mad," you said.
jaehyun froze. "what?"
"i'm not mad. i'm not weirded out. i'm not going anywhere."
his brow furrowed, confusion replacing the panic.
"but you saidโwe saidโ"
"i know what we said." you stroked his cheekbones, his jaw, the corners of his mouth. "and i meant it at the time. but things change, hyunie. people change. feelings change."
jaehyunโs breath caught. "are you sayingโ"
"i'm saying i love you too." the words felt terrifying and freeing all at once. "i don't know exactly when it happened, or how, but it did. and i was too scared to say anything because i didn't want to lose you either."
he stared at you, his eyes wide and disbelieving.
"you're not just saying that?"
"i'm not just saying that."
"you reallyโ"
"yes, jaehyun. i really love you."
a sound escaped him, something between a laugh and a sob, and then he was kissing you.
it was desperate and messy and perfect, his arms wrapping around you so tightly you could barely breathe. you kissed him back just as fiercely, pouring everything you hadn't said into the press of your lips, the slide of your tongue.
when you finally broke apart, both of you were crying a little, and it was ridiculous and sappy and you didn't care.
"i love you," jaehyun said again, like he was testing the words out loud, letting them be real.
"i love you too," you said back, and it felt like coming home.
jaehyun laughed, wet and shaky, and pressed his forehead against yours. "so what now?"
you thought about it; you thought about the mess of cum on your stomach, the lube on the sheets, the fact that jaehyun was still hard and pressing against your thigh. you thought about the way your heart was pounding, the way his hands were trembling on your hips.
"now," you said slowly with a smile, "i think you should finish what you started."
jaehyunโs eyebrows shot up.
"you want toโafter everythingโ"
"jaehyun." you kissed the corner of his mouth, his jaw, his neck. "i just told you i love you. and you're still hard. and i'm still kind of stretched open from before. and i really, really want to feel you cum inside me."
he groaned, his hips jerking against yours involuntarily.
"you're going to kill me."
"is that a yes?"
jaehyun kissed you hard, his tongue sliding against yours, and then he was pushing you back down onto the mattress.
this time was different; you could feel it in the way he touched you, slower and more deliberate, like he was savoring every second. jaehyun kissed down your body again, but this time he lingered, pressing his lips to your chest, your stomach, the inside of your thighs. he kissed the marks he'd left earlier, soothing them with his warm tongue, and a new one appeared below your navel โ a gentle bite that made you gasp.
"i love you," he murmured against your skin, and the words sent shivers down your spine. "i love your shoulders. i love your collarbones. i love the way you smell, like soap and something sweet. i love the sounds you make when i touch you."
"hyunie," you breathed, and your voice was thick with emotion.
he looked up at you, his eyes soft and glowing, and smiled.
"let me worship you, baby. please. let me show you how much i love you."
you nodded, because, wellโฆ you couldn't speak, and jaehyun went back to work.
he took his time with your cock, licking and sucking and kissing until you were writhing and begging. he didn't let you cum, though โ he pulled back every time you got close, leaving you teetering on the edge.
"not yet," jaehyun said, and his voice was rough. "want you to cum when i'm inside you."
he flipped you over, onto your stomach, and you heard him slick himself up again. his hands spread your cheeks apart, and you felt his breath hot against your hole, and before you could process what was happening, his tongue was inside you.
"oh f-fuck," you loudly gasped, your face pressing into the pillow. "jaehyunโ"
he hummed against you, the vibration making your toes curl, and his tongue worked you open, licking and sucking and teasing. his nose pressed against your skin, and he moaned like he was the one being pleasured.
"taste so good," he mumbled, and the words were muffled but you heard them anyway. "could do this forever."
he rimmed you until you were a trembling mess, your legs shaking, your hands fisting the sheets, then he pulled back, and you heard him spit โ gross, but so hot โ and then the head of his cock was pressing against your hole again.
"ready?" jaehyun asked.
"yes, god, yes, pleaseโ"
jaehyun pushed in, and this time there was no burn, and no resistance. your body welcomed him warmly, opened up for him, and jaehyun slid in all the way in one smooth movement that made you both cry out.
"fuck," jaehyun groaned, his hands gripping your hips. "you feelโi can'tโ"
"move," you begged. "please move, i need you to move."
and he did.
slow at first, pulling out almost all the way before pushing back in, and the drag of his huge cock against your walls was exquisite. jaehyun was hitting your prostate with every single thrust, and the pleasure was building, a slow burn that threatened to consume you entirely.
"harder," you said, pushing back against him. "please, harder."
jaehyun obliged, his pace increasing, his hips slapping against your ass. the sound was obscene, wet and loud, and you didn't care. you wanted more. you wanted everything.
"jaehyun," you moaned, and his name was a prayer on your lips. "right there, don't stop, i'm gonnaโ"
he reached around and wrapped his hand around your cock, pumping in time with his thrusts, and the double stimulation was too much. you cum with a scream, your body convulsing around him, and he swore loudly.
"so tight," jaehyun gasped, and his hips stuttered. "you're squeezing me so tight, i can'tโ"
"inside," you managed, your voice wrecked. "cum inside me. please, hyunie, i want to feel it."
jaehyun thrust into you three more times, deep and desperate, and then he was coming. you felt it โ the pulse of jaehyunโs cock, the heat of his release filling you up โ and he groaned your name like a benediction, collapsing onto your back.
you lay there for a long moment, both of you panting, sweaty, tangled together. his weight was heavy on top of you, but you didn't mind. you liked it. you liked the way he pressed you into the mattress, the way his breath was hot against your neck, the way his heart pounded against your spine.
"i love you," jaehyun whispered into your skin, and you felt the words more than you heard them.
"i love you too," you whispered back.
he pulled out slowly, and you both winced at the loss.
jaehyun rolled off you, onto his back, and he stared at the white ceiling. you turned your head to look at him, and he was smiling โ a real smile, so wide and so bright and so full of joy it made your chest ache.
"that wasโ" he started.
"yeah," you agreed. "it was."
jaehyun laughed, soft and breathless, and turned onto his side to face you. his hand came up to cup your cheek, his thumb brushing over your cheekbone, and his eyes traced your face like he was seeing it for the first time.
"i can't believe you love me back," he said quietly. "i thoughtโi was so sure you didn't. i was so scared of losing you."
"you're not going to lose me," you said, covering his hand with yours. "i'm not going anywhere."
his eyes glistened again, but this time the tears were happy. he leaned in and kissed you, soft and slow and full of promise.
a little moment after that, jaehyun disappeared into his dormโs bathroom and came back with a warm washcloth. he cleaned you up carefully, wiping the cum from your stomach and the lube from between your legs. his touch was so gentle, almost reverent, and jaehyun pressed kisses to your hip, your thigh, your knee as he worked.
"you did so good," jaehyun murmured softly. "you always do so good for me."
you were too tired to respond, floating in a haze of endorphins and contentment. he tossed the washcloth aside and pulled you into his arms, arranging you so your head was on his chest and his arms were wrapped around you.
"stay," jaehyun said, and it wasn't really a question. "please. stay the night."
"wasn't planning on leaving," you mumbled against his skin.
he laughed, the sound rumbling through his chest, and his fingers started tracing patterns on your back. you closed your eyes, letting yourself sink into the warmth of him, the steady beat of jaehyunโs heart.
"hey," he said after a while, his voice soft.
"hmm?"
"i meant it. everything i said."
you opened your eyes and tilted your head back to look at him. jaehyunโs face was fully open, vulnerable, all his walls down for the very first time.
"i know," you said. "me too."
he smiled, that small, dimpled smile that had made you fall for him in the first place, and pressed a kiss to your forehead.
"go to sleep," he said. "we can talk more in the morning."
"promise?"
"promise."
you closed your eyes again, and the last thing you felt before sleep took you was jaehyun's lips on your hair, soft and warm, and the quiet whisper of his voice in the dark.
"i love you. i love you. i love you."
you woke up the next morning to sunlight streaming through the blinds and jaehyun's arm draped across your waist.
for a small moment, you didn't remember.
you simply felt warm and comfortable and so safe, and you didn't want to move at all. but then the events of last night came flooding back โ the sex, the confession, the crying, the sex again โ and your eyes snapped open.
jaehyun was watching you.
his head was propped on his hand, elbow sunk into the pillow, and he was looking at you with an expression you couldn't quite read. there was hope there, and fear, and something soft and tender that made your heart skip.
"good morning," jaehyun said quietly.
"morning," you said back, your voice rough with sleep.
he was quiet for a moment, his thumb stroking back and forth across your hip. then he said, carefully;
"do you remember what you said last night?"
you did. of course you did. you remembered every single word, every single look, every single touch.
"i love you," you said, and the words came easier this time. "i love you, jaehyun. i meant it."
his whole body relaxed, like he'd been holding his breath and had finally been allowed to exhale. a smile spread across his pretty face, bright and relieved, and he pulled you closer, burying his face in your hair.
"i love you too," jaehyun said, his voice muffled. "i love you so much it scares me sometimes."
"i know," you said, and you wrapped your arms around him, holding on tight. "me too."
you lay there for a long time, just holding each other, not talking. the morning light shifted across the room, and somewhere outside, someone was playing music too loud. it was ordinary and perfect and exactly what you needed.
finally, jaehyun pulled back just enough to look at you. his hair was a complete mess, sticking up in every direction, and there were pillow creases on his cheek, and he was the most beautiful thing you'd ever seen in your entire life.
"sooo," jaehyun said, and there was a hint of his usual playfulness in his voice, "does this mean we're not friends with benefits anymore?"
you laughed, the sound surprising you.
"i think we graduated to something else, yeah."
"boyfriends?" he asked, and his eyes were hopeful.
"boyfriends," you agreed.
jaehyun kissed you, soft and sweet, and when he pulled back his smile was so wide it made his eyes crinkle.
"boyfriends," jaehyun said again, like he was trying it on for size. "yeah, i like that."
"me too."
he kissed you again, and then again, and then his hand started wandering south, and you raised an eyebrow at him.
"already?" you asked.
"i've been in love with you for years," jaehyun said, grinning against your neck. "i have a lot of time to make up for."
well, you couldn't argue with that.
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happy birthday my love
20 years of you existing in this world, and somehow iโm lucky enough to have spent almost half of them by your side ๐ฅน thank you for every single laugh, every single late night call, every single memory, and every single moment you stayed with me even during the hardest times
you are such a precious person with the kindest heart, and i genuinely hope this new year of your life brings you as much happiness and love as youโve always given to the people around you. iโm endlessly grateful to have you in my life, and no matter what happens, iโll always be cheering for you
enjoy your day as much as possible, because you deserve the whole universe โก
STOPPP OMG IM LITERALLY CRYING โน๏ธ thank you so much for always being by my side too, genuinely donโt know what i would do without you anymore . . . spending almost 9 years together still sounds so crazy to me tbh ๐ญ iโm so sooo grateful for every single memory we made together && i hope you know just how much you mean to me too i love you endlessly nana ๐ค
Happy birthday!!!
thank you sooo much ๐ซถ
Happy 20th birthday Lay!!! Iโm glad to be friends with you and I hope to more years to come!! Youโre the best<3
thank you so much my baby!!! i love you ๐ค

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Yujin needs to spit in this hole
ughhhh he looks so good ๐๐
iโm turning 20 today *gulp*
ur jaehyun fic was sooo good, my baby sooo skilled at writing ๐ - ๐ฆฆ
tyyy my sweet ottie, giving you lots of kisses
King I am so confused, how on earth does your pinned post say 1997 LOL I'm almost sure both you and tumblr has not been around that long ๐๐ It's iconic though!
i changed the postโs date lmao!! since my accโs theme is jaehyun i just put his birthday there
Being a pillow prince isnโt usually my thingโฆ but after reading ur new ficโฆ fuck๐ญwhy canโt I have jaehyun๐ฅต
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accidentally in love [ jeong jaehyun ]
you and jaehyun keep hooking up casually until one night finally forces both of you to admit youโre in love.
๐ฌ๐ผ๐ป๐๐ฒ๐ป๐ 6.5k words, 18+ [ MDNI! ], explicit sexual content, bottom!male reader, fwb to lovers, unprotected sex (p in a), rimming, praise kink, college!au, handjob, blowjob, double stimulation, begging, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, body worship, big dick!jaehyun, creampie, manhandling, yearning, cum eating, accidental confession, aftercare.
it started, like most things between you and jaehyun, without a lot of talking.
that was kind of the point, actually.
the whole friends with benefits thing worked because you two had known each other long enough to skip the awkward parts. you'd been friends since freshman orientation, when jaehyun had sat next to you in intro to psych and asked to borrow a pen. three years later, and he was still borrowing your pens, still showing up at your door with takeout and that stupidly pretty smile, still falling into your space like he belonged there.
and he did belong there, as a friend.
that was the deal; no feelings, no strings, just two people who happened to be very good at making each other feel good.
it had started last semester, after a party where you'd both had too much to drink and jaehyun had kissed you in the hallway of his dorm building. you'd expected it to be awkward after that, but it wasn't; jaehyun had just looked at you the next morning with those big brown eyes and said, "that was nice. we should do that again. if you want."
it was casual, it was easy; exactly what you needed.
so that's what you did. you'd text jaehyun when you were stressed or lonely or just horny, and he'd show up, or he'd text you, and you'd show up. it was convenient, and it was good, and you never thought about it more than that.
you never really thought about the way jaehyun looked at you sometimes, so soft and so wondering, like he was trying to memorize your face. you never thought about how careful jaehyun was with you, how he always made sure you cum first, how he held you after even though you'd never asked him to. you never thought about the fact that jaehyun had stopped hooking up with anyone else entirely, even though you'd never discussed exclusivity.
you didn't really think about any of it, because thinking about it would mean acknowledging that something had shifted, and you weren't ready for that yet; you liked what you had, and you didn't want to lose it.
jaehyun felt the same way.
at least, that's what he told himself every single day.
because the truth was, jaehyun had been in love with you for months, maybe longer, maybe since that first day in psych when you'd handed him a pen and smiled at him like you'd known him forever. he couldn't pinpoint the exact moment it had happened, only that somewhere along the way, you'd stopped being just his friend and started being everything.
the friends with benefits thing had seemed like a good idea at the time; a way to be close to you, to touch you, to have you in a way that felt intimate without having to say the words he was terrified to speak. he'd thought it would satisfy something in him, this arrangement.
oh, he'd been so wrong.
it only made it worse โ every single time jaehyun had you underneath him, every single time you moaned his name, every single time you looked at him with that hazy pleasure in your eyes, jaehyun fell a little deeper. and he couldn't say anything, because saying anything would ruin it. you'd made it clear from the start that this was casual. you'd said the words yourself, that night after the first time;
"i'm not looking for a relationship, jaehyun. i just want this. just us, like this."
so he'd nodded and said okay, and he'd locked his feelings away in a box and pretended they didn't exist.
but the box was getting full, and tonight, it was about to burst.
it was a friday night in late october, the kind of night where the air was crisp and the leaves were falling and everything felt a little bit electric.
you'd texted jaehyun around nine, a simple "you busy?" followed by the eggplant emoji simply because you were mature like that. jaehyunโs response came less than a minute later; "never for you. come over."
so here you were, standing outside his dorm room in a hoodie and sweatpants, your heart beating a little faster than it should. you knocked twice, the way you always did, and the door opened almost immediately.
jaehyun stood in the doorway, and god, he was so pretty it actually hurt; he was wearing gray sweatpants that hung low on his hips and a simple white t-shirt that stretched across his chest in a way that made your mouth water. his hair was dark and slightly damp, like he'd just showered, and his skin had that warm glow it always got after a shower.
his eyes found yours immediately, soft and familiar, and he smiled that small smile that made his dimples appear.
"hey," jaehyun said, stepping aside to let you in.
"hey," you said back, and you tried to ignore the way your stomach flipped when his hand brushed your lower back as you walked past him.
his dorm room was small and messy in the way all college dorms were messy; clothes draped over the desk chair, textbooks stacked on the floor, a half-empty cup of coffee on the nightstand. but it smelled like jaehyun โ clean laundry and something woodsy, like strawberry or vanilla โ and it felt safe in a way you couldn't explain.
jaehyun closed the door behind you and leaned against it, watching you with that quiet intensity he had.
he didn't say anything, just looked at you like he was trying to figure out what you were thinking. he always did that. it used to make you uncomfortable, but now you found it endearing.
"horrible week," you said by way of explanation, kicking off your shoes.
jaehyun nodded like he understood. he always understood.
"want to talk about it?"
you shook your head. "want to not think about it."
another nod, and then jaehyun pushed off the door and crossed the room toward you, and his hand came up to cup your jaw, thumb brushing over your cheekbone. his touch was gentle, always gentle, like you were something so precious.
"okay," he said softly. "i can help with that."
and then jaehyun kissed you.
it started slow, the way it always did with jaehyun; his lips were so warm and so soft, moving against yours with a patience that drove you crazy. he never rushed, never pushed, he just kissed you like he had all the time in the world, like there was nowhere else he'd rather be.
you let your hands find his waist, your fingers curling into the fabric of his t-shirt, and you pulled him closer. jaehyun made a small sound against your mouth, something between a sigh and a hum, and it sent a shiver down your spine.
when he finally pulled back, his eyes were dark and his lips were pink and he was looking at you like you'd hung the moon.
"bed," he said, and it wasn't a question.
you nodded, and jaehyun softly took your hand and led you across the room.
the dorm bed was pretty small, a standard twin xl that barely fit both of you, but you'd eventually made it work before and you'd make it work again.
jaehyun sat down first, pulling you into his lap so you were straddling his thighs. his hands settled on your hips, thumbs tracing small circles through the fabric of your sweatpants.
"you're so pretty," jaehyun murmured, tilting his head up to kiss your jaw, your neck, the spot behind your ear that made you shiver. "you know that? you're so fucking pretty."
you laughed, breathless, and tangled your fingers in jaehyunโs damp dark hair.
"you're biased."
"i'm not." jaehyunโs teeth grazed your collarbone, gentle but teasing. "i have eyes. i can see."
he kissed down your throat, his lips dragging over your skin in a way that made your toes curl. his hands slid under the hem of your hoodie, palms flat against your stomach, and his fingers were warm and calloused and perfect.
"off," he said against your chest, tugging at the fabric.
you rapidly pulled your hoodie over your head and tossed it somewhere on the floor, and then jaehyun was looking at you โ deeply observing โ and his breath caught in a way that made your chest feel tight.
"god," he whispered, almost to himself. "look at you."
jaehyunโs soft hands slowly traced up your sides, over your ribs, his thumbs brushing across your nipples in a way that made you gasp. he watched your face as he did it, cataloging every single reaction, and there was something so hungry in his eyes that made your skin heat.
"hyunie," you breathed, and his name in your pretty mouth made him shiver.
"i know," jaehyun said. "i've got you."
he flipped you over, a move that was easy for him because he was strong and you were pliant and willing; your back hit the mattress, and he was above you, caging you in with his arms, his body a warm weight that pressed you into the sheets.
jaehyun kissed you again, deeper this time, his warm tongue sliding against yours in a rhythm that had you arching your back up into him. his hips rolled down against yours, and you could feel him โ hard and thick through his sweatpants โ and the friction made you moan into his mouth.
"fuck," jaehyun muttered, pulling back just enough to look at you. "want to take my time with you tonight. is that okay?"
you simply nodded, because your voice had apparently stopped working.
jaehyun smiled, that soft, pretty, dimpled smile that made your heart do such stupid things, and then he started kissing his way down your body.
he started at your jaw, trailing soft, open-mouthed kisses down the column of your throat. jaehyun lingered at your pulse point, his tongue flicking out to taste your skin, and his teeth scraped gently over the spot before he sucked a mark there. it was not hard enough to bruise, just enough to feel, just enough to make you gasp.
"hyunie," you said, and your voice came out rough, broken.
"shh," he murmured against your collarbone. "let me."
jaehyun kissed across your chest, your sternum, your ribs. his lips found one of your nipples and he sucked it into his mouth, tongue swirling around the sensitive peak, and your hands flew to his hair, holding him there.
he chuckled, the vibration shooting straight to your dick, and he gave the other side the same attention, biting down just enough to make you whine.
"awh, so responsive," jaehyun said, pulling back to admire his work. your chest was completely flushed, your nipples wet and peaked, and the look in his eyes was pure reverence. "you always react so well for me."
you wanted to say something clever, something casual, but all that came out was a breathless;
"please."
"please what?" he asked, and he was already moving lower, dragging his lips down your stomach, his tongue dipping into your belly button in a way that made you squirm.
"please touch me," you said. "i needโ"
"i know what you need," jaehyun said, and his fingers hooked into the waistband of your sweatpants. "lift up."
you did, and he pulled your pants and boxers down in one smooth movement, tossing them aside. the cool air hit your skin and you shivered, your dick twitching against your stomach, already leaking precum onto your skin.
jaehyun made a sound, low and appreciative, and his hand wrapped around the base of your cock. his fingers didn't quite touch โ he was big, but you were also bigger than average โ and the sight of his hand around you made your head spin.
"so pretty," jaehyun said again, and he meant your dick, which was a weird thing to say but it made you blush anyway. "all of you. every part."
he leaned down and licked a stripe up the underside of your cock, from base to tip, and your hips jerked off the bed. his free hand pressed you back down, holding you in place, and he did it again, slower this time, his tongue flat and warm.
"jaehyun, pleaseโ"
"i said i want to take my time," he reminded you, and his breath was hot against your skin. "be patient."
he took the head of your cock into his mouth, just the head, and sucked gently. the sensation was electric, shooting up your spine and making your toes curl. his tongue swirled around the tip, cleaning up the precum, and he moaned like you were the best thing he'd ever tasted.
then jaehyun sank down.
your brain short-circuited; jaehyun's mouth was so hot and so wet and so perfect, and he knew exactly what he was doing. he took you deeper than you thought possible, his throat contracting around the head of your cock, and he looked up at you through his lashes with those big brown eyes and you almost came right there.
"oh f-fuck," you gasped, fisting the sheets. "fuckfuckfuck, hyunie, your mouthโ"
he pulled off with a wet pop, lips swollen and shiny, and smiled up at you. "you like that?"
"you know i do."
jaehyun laughed, soft and fond, and then his mouth was on you again, bobbing up and down in a rhythm that made your vision blur. his hand worked what his mouth couldn't reach, twisting and pumping in time with his sucks, and he was moaning around you like he was the one getting pleasured.
it was too much. it was exactly enough.
"hyunie, i'm gonnaโ" you warned, but he didn't pull off.
jaehyun just took you deeper, his nose pressing against your pelvis, and swallowed around you.
you cum with a cry, your back arching off the bed, your hands flying to jaehyunโs hair to hold him in place. he took it all, swallowing every single drop, and he didn't stop until you were trembling and oversensitive, pushing at his shoulders.
jaehyun pulled off you slowly, licking his lips in such a hot way, and crawled back up your body. he kissed you, and you could taste yourself on his tongue, salty and bitter, and it should have been gross but it wasn't; it was jaehyun, and everything about him made you feel good.
"told you i wanted to take my time," jaehyun murmured against your lips. "we're not done yet."
you blinked up at him, still hazy from your orgasm.
"what?"
he smiled, that stupidly pretty smile, and rolled off the bed.
you watched as jaehyun dug through his nightstand drawer, pulling out a bottle of lube and a condom. he tossed them onto the bed and then stripped off his shirt, and you forgot how to breathe for a second.
jaehyun was so beautiful. you'd known that since the day you met him, but seeing him like this โ chest bare, skin golden in the lamplight, muscles moving under his skin โ it never got old. jaehyunโs shoulders were broad, his waist narrow, and there was a seductive light trail of hair leading from his navel down into his sweatpants.
he caught you staring and raised an eyebrow.
"what?"
"nothing," you said quickly. "you're just hot."
jaehyunโs cheeks flushed pink, which was ridiculous because he knew damn well he was hot. but jaehyun still ducked his head like he was shy, and the gesture made something warm bloom in your chest.
"shut up," he said, but he was smiling.
he stepped out of his sweatpants and boxers, and your mouth went dry. jaehyun's dick was big โ long and thick, curving slightly upward, with a vein running along the side that you liked to trace with your tongue. it was already hard, flushed red at the tip, and it looked almost too big to fit inside you.
but it always fit, eventually.
jaehyun climbed back onto the bed, settling between your legs, and his hands naturally pushed your thighs apart. he looked at you โ like he was memorizing every single inch of you for the first time โ and his expression softened into something so tender it made your chest ache.
"you're sure?" jaehyun asked, because he always asked. "we don't have toโ"
"jaehyun." you reached for him, pulling him down so his chest was pressed against yours. "i want this. i want you. okay?"
he nodded, his breath warm against your cheek.
"okay."
he kissed you again, softly and slowly, and you let yourself sink into it. jaehyunโs hands slid down your sides, over your hips, and one of them reached for the lube; you heard the click of the bottle opening, and then his long fingers were slick and cold against your inner thigh.
"warm it up first," you mumbled against jaehyunโs lips, and he softly laughed.
"bossy."
but he rubbed the lube between his fingers, warming it, and then his hand slipped between your legs.
jaehyunโs index finger circled your hole, teasing, not pushing in yet, but just getting you used to the sensation, the pressure. you breathed out slowly, relaxing into the mattress, and he pressed a soft kiss to your temple.
"good?" he asked.
"good."
he pushed in.
just one finger, slow and careful, and you clenched around him instinctively. jaehyun waited patiently, not moving, letting you adjust, and his free hand was on your hip, thumb rubbing soothing circles into your skin.
"breathe," he reminded you. "you're okay. i've got you."
you breathed. the tension in your body released, and he pushed deeper, his finger sliding all the way in. he crooked it, searching, and when he found your prostate you saw stars.
"there," you gasped. "right there."
jaehyun smiled and did it again, rubbing small circles against that sweet little spot, and your back arched off the bed again. he added a second finger, stretching you open, and the burn was good โ so freaking good โ and you couldn't stop the sounds falling from your lips.
"hyunie, please, i'm ready, i needโ"
"mmh, not yet," jaehyun said, and his voice was strained, like he was holding himself back. "i want to make sure you're stretched enough."
he added a third finger, and you cried out, your hands gripping jaehyunโs shoulders. the stretch was intense, almost too much, but he worked you open with patience and precision, his fingers curling and scissoring and pressing against your prostate every few strokes.
"so tight," he muttered, almost to himself. "so good for me. taking my fingers so well."
"hyunie," you whined, and you were past the point of shame now. "please fuck me. i need your cock. please."
something in his expression shifted, darkened. jaehyunโs eyes went hooded, his jaw tightened, and he pulled his fingers out slowly, making you whimper at the loss.
"since you asked so nicely," jaehyun said, and he reached for the condom.
but you stopped him, your hand closing around his wrist. he looked at you, confused.
"no condom," you said. "i want to feel you."
jaehyunโs eyes widened.
"are you sure? we've neverโ"
"i'm sure." you pulled him down, wrapping your legs around his waist. "i trust you, hyunie. i want all of you."
he stared at you for a long moment, something unreadable flickering across his face, then he nodded, slow and serious, and set the condom aside.
"okay," jaehyun said softly. "okay."
he slicked himself up with lube, his hand pumping his cock a few times, and then he positioned himself at your entrance. the head of his dick pressed against your hole, and you had to remind yourself to breathe.
"tell me if it's too much," jaehyun said, and his voice was rough. "tap my shoulder and i'll stop."
"i know. i trust you."
he pushed in.
just the tip at first, and even that was a lot.
jaehyun was big, and no matter how many times you did this, the first stretch was always intense. you gritted your teeth, focusing on breathing, on relaxing, on letting him in.
"you're doing so good," he murmured, his forehead pressed against yours. "so good for me. just a little more."
he pushed deeper, inch by inch, and your body opened up for him. the burn was there, sharp and sweet, but underneath it was pleasure, deep and overwhelming, and when he bottomed out you both let out a moan.
"f-fuck," jaehyun breathed, his eyes squeezed shut. "fuck, you feelโyou're soโ"
jaehyun couldn't finish the sentence, and you didn't need him to. you felt it too โ the way he filled you completely, the way your bodies fit together like they were made for this, the way his heartbeat pounded against your chest.
"move," you said, your voice barely a whisper. "please move."
he pulled out slowly, almost all the way, and then pushed back in. the drag of his cock against your walls was exquisite, and you cried out, your nails digging into his back.
jaehyun found a rhythm, slow and deep, and every thrust hit your prostate dead on; you were already sensitive from your first orgasm, and the pleasure was building fast, too fast, threatening to swallow you whole.
"hyunie," you gasped, your legs tightening even more around his waist. "h-hyunie, right there, don't stopโ"
"i won't," he said, and his voice was wrecked. "i won't stop. i'll give you everything. anything you want."
jaehyunโs pace increased, his hips snapping against yours, and the sound of skin on skin filled the room. he was sweating now, his hair sticking to his forehead, and he was beautiful โ he was so beautiful โ and you couldn't look away from him.
he changed the angle slightly, and suddenly the pleasure was blinding. your second orgasm hit you without warning, your cock spurting cum onto your stomach, and you screamed his name as your body convulsed around him.
"oh god," jaehyun groaned, and his rhythm stuttered. "you'reโyou just cumโ"
"keep going," you said, even though you were oversensitive, even though every nerve was on fire. "don't stop, hyunie, i want you to cum inside me."
his eyes went dark, and he started moving again, faster now, chasing his own release. his thrusts were rougher, less controlled, and the overstimulation was a knife edge between pleasure and pain that made you see the stars.
"so good," he was mumbling, his voice broken and frantic. "so good, so good, you're soโi can'tโ"
jaehyunโs hips stuttered, and you knew he was close. you clenched around him intentionally, and he let out a sound that was almost a sob.
"fuckโi love you."
the words fell out of jaehyun like they'd been waiting for years to escape, and his eyes went wide the second he said them, and his hips stopped moving entirely.
the room went silent.
you stared at him, your chest heaving, your mind struggling to process what you'd just heard. jaehyun stared back, panic rising in his eyes, his face pale beneath the flush of arousal.
"iโ" jaehyun started, and then stopped.
his jaw worked silently, like he was trying to find the words to take it back, to explain it away, but there was no taking it back now; the words hung in the air between you, heavy and real, and everything shifted.
jaehyun pulled out slowly, carefully, and the loss of him made you feel hollow in more ways than one. he sat back on his heels, still hard, still glistening with lube and your own release, and he wouldn't look at you.
"jaehyun," you said, and your voice came out raw.
"don't," he said, and his voice cracked. "please don't. i didn't meanโi mean, i did mean it, but i wasn't supposed to say it. i know we said no feelings, i know this was supposed to be casual, i know you don'tโ" jaehyun pressed the heels of his hands against his eyes, and his shoulders shook. "fuck. i ruined it. i ruined everything."
you sat up slowly, your body aching and oversensitive, and you reached for him. your hand found jaehyunโs wrist, tugging his hands away from his face, and when he finally looked at you, his eyes were bright with unshed tears.
"hyunie," you said softly. "how long?"
he blinked. "what?"
"how long have you felt this way?"
jaehyun was quiet for a long moment, and then, so quietly you almost didn't hear him;
"months. maybe longer. i don't know. it justโit happened. and i tried to ignore it, i really did, but every time weโ" he gestured vaguely at the bed, at your bodies, at everything. "it just made it worse. being with you, touching you, having you like this and knowing i couldn't have you the way i really wantedโ"
his voice broke, and he looked away again.
"i'm sorry," jaehyun whispered, and his voice was trembling. "i know this isn't what you signed up for. i know you don't feel the same way. and i swear, i never meant to make things weird. i justโi couldn't help it. i love you. and i hate that i love you because it hurts, but i can't stop."
your chest felt like it was caving in.
because here was the thing; you'd told yourself this was casual, you'd told yourself you didn't have feelings, that you just wanted sex, that jaehyun was a friend and nothing more. but somewhere along the way, maybe the same way it had happened for him, the lines had blurred.
you loved the way he smiled at you, soft and private, like you were the only person in the world. you loved the way he said your name, the way it sounded in his deep voice. you loved the way he held you after sex, his fingers tracing patterns on your skin, even though you'd never asked him to. you loved the way he remembered things โ your coffee order, the name of your childhood pet, the fact that you were scared of thunder.
you loved him. you'd been loving him for a while, probably, and you'd been too scared to admit it.
"jaehyun," you said again, and this time your voice was steady.
he flinched, bracing himself.
you cupped his face in your hands, forcing him to look at you. his cheeks were wet now, tears spilling over despite his best efforts, and you wiped them away with your thumbs.
"i'm not mad," you said.
jaehyun froze. "what?"
"i'm not mad. i'm not weirded out. i'm not going anywhere."
his brow furrowed, confusion replacing the panic.
"but you saidโwe saidโ"
"i know what we said." you stroked his cheekbones, his jaw, the corners of his mouth. "and i meant it at the time. but things change, hyunie. people change. feelings change."
jaehyunโs breath caught. "are you sayingโ"
"i'm saying i love you too." the words felt terrifying and freeing all at once. "i don't know exactly when it happened, or how, but it did. and i was too scared to say anything because i didn't want to lose you either."
he stared at you, his eyes wide and disbelieving.
"you're not just saying that?"
"i'm not just saying that."
"you reallyโ"
"yes, jaehyun. i really love you."
a sound escaped him, something between a laugh and a sob, and then he was kissing you.
it was desperate and messy and perfect, his arms wrapping around you so tightly you could barely breathe. you kissed him back just as fiercely, pouring everything you hadn't said into the press of your lips, the slide of your tongue.
when you finally broke apart, both of you were crying a little, and it was ridiculous and sappy and you didn't care.
"i love you," jaehyun said again, like he was testing the words out loud, letting them be real.
"i love you too," you said back, and it felt like coming home.
jaehyun laughed, wet and shaky, and pressed his forehead against yours. "so what now?"
you thought about it; you thought about the mess of cum on your stomach, the lube on the sheets, the fact that jaehyun was still hard and pressing against your thigh. you thought about the way your heart was pounding, the way his hands were trembling on your hips.
"now," you said slowly with a smile, "i think you should finish what you started."
jaehyunโs eyebrows shot up.
"you want toโafter everythingโ"
"jaehyun." you kissed the corner of his mouth, his jaw, his neck. "i just told you i love you. and you're still hard. and i'm still kind of stretched open from before. and i really, really want to feel you cum inside me."
he groaned, his hips jerking against yours involuntarily.
"you're going to kill me."
"is that a yes?"
jaehyun kissed you hard, his tongue sliding against yours, and then he was pushing you back down onto the mattress.
this time was different; you could feel it in the way he touched you, slower and more deliberate, like he was savoring every second. jaehyun kissed down your body again, but this time he lingered, pressing his lips to your chest, your stomach, the inside of your thighs. he kissed the marks he'd left earlier, soothing them with his warm tongue, and a new one appeared below your navel โ a gentle bite that made you gasp.
"i love you," he murmured against your skin, and the words sent shivers down your spine. "i love your shoulders. i love your collarbones. i love the way you smell, like soap and something sweet. i love the sounds you make when i touch you."
"hyunie," you breathed, and your voice was thick with emotion.
he looked up at you, his eyes soft and glowing, and smiled.
"let me worship you, baby. please. let me show you how much i love you."
you nodded, because, wellโฆ you couldn't speak, and jaehyun went back to work.
he took his time with your cock, licking and sucking and kissing until you were writhing and begging. he didn't let you cum, though โ he pulled back every time you got close, leaving you teetering on the edge.
"not yet," jaehyun said, and his voice was rough. "want you to cum when i'm inside you."
he flipped you over, onto your stomach, and you heard him slick himself up again. his hands spread your cheeks apart, and you felt his breath hot against your hole, and before you could process what was happening, his tongue was inside you.
"oh f-fuck," you loudly gasped, your face pressing into the pillow. "jaehyunโ"
he hummed against you, the vibration making your toes curl, and his tongue worked you open, licking and sucking and teasing. his nose pressed against your skin, and he moaned like he was the one being pleasured.
"taste so good," he mumbled, and the words were muffled but you heard them anyway. "could do this forever."
he rimmed you until you were a trembling mess, your legs shaking, your hands fisting the sheets, then he pulled back, and you heard him spit โ gross, but so hot โ and then the head of his cock was pressing against your hole again.
"ready?" jaehyun asked.
"yes, god, yes, pleaseโ"
jaehyun pushed in, and this time there was no burn, and no resistance. your body welcomed him warmly, opened up for him, and jaehyun slid in all the way in one smooth movement that made you both cry out.
"fuck," jaehyun groaned, his hands gripping your hips. "you feelโi can'tโ"
"move," you begged. "please move, i need you to move."
and he did.
slow at first, pulling out almost all the way before pushing back in, and the drag of his huge cock against your walls was exquisite. jaehyun was hitting your prostate with every single thrust, and the pleasure was building, a slow burn that threatened to consume you entirely.
"harder," you said, pushing back against him. "please, harder."
jaehyun obliged, his pace increasing, his hips slapping against your ass. the sound was obscene, wet and loud, and you didn't care. you wanted more. you wanted everything.
"jaehyun," you moaned, and his name was a prayer on your lips. "right there, don't stop, i'm gonnaโ"
he reached around and wrapped his hand around your cock, pumping in time with his thrusts, and the double stimulation was too much. you cum with a scream, your body convulsing around him, and he swore loudly.
"so tight," jaehyun gasped, and his hips stuttered. "you're squeezing me so tight, i can'tโ"
"inside," you managed, your voice wrecked. "cum inside me. please, hyunie, i want to feel it."
jaehyun thrust into you three more times, deep and desperate, and then he was coming. you felt it โ the pulse of jaehyunโs cock, the heat of his release filling you up โ and he groaned your name like a benediction, collapsing onto your back.
you lay there for a long moment, both of you panting, sweaty, tangled together. his weight was heavy on top of you, but you didn't mind. you liked it. you liked the way he pressed you into the mattress, the way his breath was hot against your neck, the way his heart pounded against your spine.
"i love you," jaehyun whispered into your skin, and you felt the words more than you heard them.
"i love you too," you whispered back.
he pulled out slowly, and you both winced at the loss.
jaehyun rolled off you, onto his back, and he stared at the white ceiling. you turned your head to look at him, and he was smiling โ a real smile, so wide and so bright and so full of joy it made your chest ache.
"that wasโ" he started.
"yeah," you agreed. "it was."
jaehyun laughed, soft and breathless, and turned onto his side to face you. his hand came up to cup your cheek, his thumb brushing over your cheekbone, and his eyes traced your face like he was seeing it for the first time.
"i can't believe you love me back," he said quietly. "i thoughtโi was so sure you didn't. i was so scared of losing you."
"you're not going to lose me," you said, covering his hand with yours. "i'm not going anywhere."
his eyes glistened again, but this time the tears were happy. he leaned in and kissed you, soft and slow and full of promise.
a little moment after that, jaehyun disappeared into his dormโs bathroom and came back with a warm washcloth. he cleaned you up carefully, wiping the cum from your stomach and the lube from between your legs. his touch was so gentle, almost reverent, and jaehyun pressed kisses to your hip, your thigh, your knee as he worked.
"you did so good," jaehyun murmured softly. "you always do so good for me."
you were too tired to respond, floating in a haze of endorphins and contentment. he tossed the washcloth aside and pulled you into his arms, arranging you so your head was on his chest and his arms were wrapped around you.
"stay," jaehyun said, and it wasn't really a question. "please. stay the night."
"wasn't planning on leaving," you mumbled against his skin.
he laughed, the sound rumbling through his chest, and his fingers started tracing patterns on your back. you closed your eyes, letting yourself sink into the warmth of him, the steady beat of jaehyunโs heart.
"hey," he said after a while, his voice soft.
"hmm?"
"i meant it. everything i said."
you opened your eyes and tilted your head back to look at him. jaehyunโs face was fully open, vulnerable, all his walls down for the very first time.
"i know," you said. "me too."
he smiled, that small, dimpled smile that had made you fall for him in the first place, and pressed a kiss to your forehead.
"go to sleep," he said. "we can talk more in the morning."
"promise?"
"promise."
you closed your eyes again, and the last thing you felt before sleep took you was jaehyun's lips on your hair, soft and warm, and the quiet whisper of his voice in the dark.
"i love you. i love you. i love you."
you woke up the next morning to sunlight streaming through the blinds and jaehyun's arm draped across your waist.
for a small moment, you didn't remember.
you simply felt warm and comfortable and so safe, and you didn't want to move at all. but then the events of last night came flooding back โ the sex, the confession, the crying, the sex again โ and your eyes snapped open.
jaehyun was watching you.
his head was propped on his hand, elbow sunk into the pillow, and he was looking at you with an expression you couldn't quite read. there was hope there, and fear, and something soft and tender that made your heart skip.
"good morning," jaehyun said quietly.
"morning," you said back, your voice rough with sleep.
he was quiet for a moment, his thumb stroking back and forth across your hip. then he said, carefully;
"do you remember what you said last night?"
you did. of course you did. you remembered every single word, every single look, every single touch.
"i love you," you said, and the words came easier this time. "i love you, jaehyun. i meant it."
his whole body relaxed, like he'd been holding his breath and had finally been allowed to exhale. a smile spread across his pretty face, bright and relieved, and he pulled you closer, burying his face in your hair.
"i love you too," jaehyun said, his voice muffled. "i love you so much it scares me sometimes."
"i know," you said, and you wrapped your arms around him, holding on tight. "me too."
you lay there for a long time, just holding each other, not talking. the morning light shifted across the room, and somewhere outside, someone was playing music too loud. it was ordinary and perfect and exactly what you needed.
finally, jaehyun pulled back just enough to look at you. his hair was a complete mess, sticking up in every direction, and there were pillow creases on his cheek, and he was the most beautiful thing you'd ever seen in your entire life.
"sooo," jaehyun said, and there was a hint of his usual playfulness in his voice, "does this mean we're not friends with benefits anymore?"
you laughed, the sound surprising you.
"i think we graduated to something else, yeah."
"boyfriends?" he asked, and his eyes were hopeful.
"boyfriends," you agreed.
jaehyun kissed you, soft and sweet, and when he pulled back his smile was so wide it made his eyes crinkle.
"boyfriends," jaehyun said again, like he was trying it on for size. "yeah, i like that."
"me too."
he kissed you again, and then again, and then his hand started wandering south, and you raised an eyebrow at him.
"already?" you asked.
"i've been in love with you for years," jaehyun said, grinning against your neck. "i have a lot of time to make up for."
well, you couldn't argue with that.
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feel it grow together [ choi soobin ]
soobin lets you slide onto him while heโs soft so you can feel him slowly grow hard inside you.
โ content 2.8k words, 18+ [ MDNI! ], explicit sexual content, power bottom!male reader, nerd!soobin, getting hard while inside, big dick!soobin, unprotected sex (p in a), cockwarming kinda, riding, creampie, praise, lots of kisses.
"can we put it in soft and feel it grow together?"
the question hangs in the air of soobin's dimly lit room, completely severing the comfortable silence that had settled over them like a well-worn blanket.
soobin's pen freezes mid-annotation over his biology textbook, and for a solid three seconds, or maybe just a little more, his brain โ usually so quick, so sharp when it came to memorizing diagrams and reciting historical dates โ completely short-circuits.
he hears your words, processes each one individually, but putting them together into a coherent concept feels like trying to solve a calculus problem underwater.
beside him, you're already wiggling with barely contained excitement, your phone abandoned face-down on the mattress. you're watching your boyfriend with those eager eyes, waiting, practically vibrating.
soobin slowly turns his head, and he can feel the heat creeping up his neck, flooding his cheeks. his glasses have slid down his pretty nose slightly, and he pushes them up with one finger, a nervous habit.
"what?!"
but you're already leaning into him, your hand finding his knee through the soft gray fabric of his sweatpants.
"i'm serious! think about it, babe."
your voice is that special kind of excited, the one soobin usually hears when you're explaining a new game you're completely obsessed with or suggesting a takeout place you've been dying to try.
"we've never done it like that. it's always, you know... we're both already hard, and it's kind of rushed and intense. but this..." you squeeze his knee, your thumb tracing a small circle. "this would be different. slower. we could just... be together. and feel everything."
soobin's heart is doing something erratic in his chest.
he's still holding his pen, still surrounded by highlighters and flashcards, and his ridiculously attractive boyfriend is sitting on his bed, talking about his dick like it's the most natural thing in the world. which, okay, it is, they've been together for eight months, they're past the awkward stage. but this is... new.
"you want to..." soobin swallows, his throat suddenly dry. he glances down at his own lap, then back at you, his cheeks impossibly pinker. "you want to sit on it? while it's... you know?"
"soft, yeah."
you nod enthusiastically, scooting closer, and your thigh presses against his.
"i just keep thinking about what it would feel like. the sensation of it... waking up inside me. getting harder because of me, because of us," your voice drops a little, losing some of its excited energy and gaining something warmer, something more intimate. "i think it would feel really good, babe. really close."
and that's the thing.
soobin has never been able to deny you anything when you look at him like that, when your voice goes soft and you say his name like it means something more than just letters strung together. he's completely, utterly gone for you, and you know it. you use that power sometimes, but never cruelly. always like this โ to pull him closer, to bring him into a moment with you.
he sets his pen down carefully, marking his place in the textbook with a sticky note; a small, practical gesture that's so distinctly him that it makes your heart clench.
"you really want to?" soobin asks softly, his voice quieter now, a little shy.
"yeah, more than anything right now," you admit, and it's the truth.
the textbook, the phone, the outside world โ it's all completely faded away. there is just soobin, in his ridiculously soft-looking oversized white t-shirt and those grey sweatpants that you've told him a hundred times should be illegal, his dark hair falling over his forehead, his glasses framing those warm, curious eyes that are currently fixed entirely on you.
soobin bites his lower lip, a telltale sign that he's thinking, he's considering. then, slowly, he shifts on the bed, putting his textbook on the nightstand. he leans back against the headboard, the wood creaking softly, and his long legs stretch out, then bend slightly, creating a space for you, an invitation.
"okay," he breathes out, the word carrying a mix of nervousness and genuine curiosity. "let's... let's try."
and oh, you don't need to be told twice.
you're moving immediately, crawling over the messy comforter to settle between your boyfriendโs legs. soobin watches you, his hands coming up to softly rest on your hips as you straddle him, your knees sinking into the mattress on either side of his thighs.
you're face to face now, close enough to see the tiny mole under his eye, the way his eyelashes flutter.
"hi," you whisper, a stupid, giddy smile spreading across your face.
a matching smile tugs at soobin's lips, despite his obvious embarrassment.
"hi," he whispers back. his hands are warm through the thin fabric of your pajama pants. "this is so weird."
"good weird or bad weird?"
"just... weird. different."
soobin ducks his head slightly, looking at where your bodies meet, at the tentatively interested bulge in his own pants that's nowhere near full attention.
"are you sure you're gonna be comfortable? what ifโ"
you cut him off with a kiss; it's soft, just a brush of lips, simply meant to soothe.
"we'll go slow. if it's weird or uncomfortable, we can just stop. okay?"
soobin nods against your mouth. "okay."
you kiss him again, deeper this time, and you feel his huge hands tighten on your hips. you rock forward experimentally, just a small shift of weight, and soobin makes a tiny sound against your lips.
you break the kiss to sit back slightly, your hands finding the hem of his oversized t-shirt. "can i?"
soobin lifts his arms without a word, and you pull the shirt over his head, tossing it somewhere behind you, and your breath catches, like it always does.
you've already seen him naked countless times, but the sight of his pretty bare chest, the smooth expanse of pale skin, the subtle definition of muscle from carrying heavy books and the occasional gym session with his friends โ it never gets old. he's beautiful in a way that feels accidental, unassuming.
soobin doesn't seem to fully realize how hot he is, and that, somehow, makes him even hotter.
your fingers find the waistband of his sweatpants, and you look at him for permission. once again, soobin gives a small, shy nod. you tug them down, along with his boxers, just enough. his cock lies soft against his thigh, and you feel a fresh wave of heat pool in your stomach. it's still him, still soobin, still the part of him that makes you feel so incredibly full and complete.
it's just... resting.
you shimmy out of your own pajama pants and boxers quickly, not wanting to break the moment. when you settle back on his lap, it's skin-to-skin, his soft length pressed against the curve of your ass. soobin hisses in a breath, his fingers digging into your hips.
you position yourself carefully, one hand on soobinโs shoulder for balance, the other reaching down to guide him. your eyes meet his.
"ready?"
he looks terrified and thrilled in equal measure.
"ready."
you shift your weight, lowering yourself slowly. the head of soobinโs soft cock presses against your entrance, and for a moment, it just... sits there. it's an odd sensation, really โ the familiar pressure, but without the familiar hardness. it feels almost impossibly soft, pliable.
you take a breath and push down gently.
the slide is different; way slower. there is no resistance in the same way, because he's soft, but your body still has to accommodate his size. even soft, soobin is... well, considerable. you feel yourself stretching around him, taking him in inch by inch, and the sensation is so unique, so new, that a shaky moan escapes your lips.
soobin's eyes are wide.
"oh," he breathes. "oh, wow."
"you okay?" you manage to ask, pausing when you're about halfway seated.
soobin nods frantically, his hands softly stroking up and down your sides.
"y-yeah. it's just... it feels so warm, and so tight. but it's also different. it's like... i can feel everything. i can feel every part of you."
you lower yourself the rest of the way, and then you're fully seated, his soft cock buried completely inside you. you sit there for a moment, just breathing, just feeling; the weight of him, the fullness, the strange, intimate knowledge that he's inside you but not hard inside you.
it's like a secret, a moment stolen from time.
you're both still for a long, breathless moment. soobin's hands are splayed across your lower back, warm and grounding, and you can feel his heartbeat, or maybe it's yours โ it's hard to tell anymore when you're this close.
"how does it feel?" you whisper, your forehead resting against his.
"warm," he repeats, his voice soft with wonder. "and... tight. but it's like..." he struggles for words, his brow furrowing adorably. "it's like i can feel you holding me. not like... fucking. just holding."
you smile, pressing a gentle kiss to soobinโs lips.
"yeah. that's what i wanted."
you start to move, but not in any real rhythm.
just small, subtle shifts of your hips. you were rocking, more than anything, simply testing the sensation. with each tiny movement, you feel him, soft and pliant, moving inside you, and it's incredibly intimate in a way you hadn't tully anticipated.
soobin's hands roam your back, your sides, his touch full of reverence. your boyfriend is looking at you like you're something so precious, something he can't quite believe is real. his cheeks are still flushed that pretty pink you love so much, his lips slightly parted.
"you're so beautiful," he murmurs, almost to himself.
you feel a flutter of warmth in your chest that has nothing to do with where you're connected.
"so are you."
you kiss him again, deeper this time. your tongue slides against his, slow and exploratory, and soobinโs hands come up to cup your face, holding you close. the kiss deepens, becomes more urgent, more hungry. you feel his hips twitch beneath you, a small, unconscious thrust.
and then, finally, you feel it โ the slightest change; a thickening, a growing weight inside you. you gasp against his mouth at the very new sensation, pulling back just enough to look at him.
soobinโs eyes are hazy, his pupils blown wide.
"soobin," you breathe. "i can feel you."
he looks down, as if he could see through both your bodies to where they're joined.
"it's you," soobin whispers, his voice wrecked. "it's because of you. you feel so good."
another small, unconscious thrust. another surge of growth. soobinโs cock is filling out inside you, pressing against your walls in a way it couldn't when it was soft. the sensation is really overwhelming โ the gradual stretch, the increasing fullnessโฆ you can feel every ridge, every vein as they become more pronounced.
you can feel soobin getting harder because of you, because of the way your body is wrapped around him, because of the kisses, because of the closeness.
"ohโmy god," soobin pathetically whimpers, his head falling back against the headboard. his hands grip your hips tighter, his knuckles white. "oh my god, that feels... that feels so..."
"i know," you groan, and you start to move with more purpose now, rolling your hips in a slow circle. each movement seems to encourage him, to draw more blood, more hardness. "i can feel every second of it. you're getting so hard inside me, babe."
soobin makes a sound that's somewhere between a moan and a whine, high-pitched and desperate.
"d-don't stop. please don't stop."
you don't. you keep moving, keep kissing him, keep whispering praise against his lips.
"feel how good you feel. feel how perfectly you fit."
"i can'tโ" soobin cuts himself off with another whine, his hips starting to thrust up in small, jerky movements that meet your rolls. "it's too much. it feels too good."
"it's not too much," you assure him, your hand coming up to card through his soft hair, pushing it back from his forehead. "you're doing so well. just feel it. feel me."
soobin is fully hard now, thick and heavy inside you, and the transition from soft to hard has left you both breathless and shaking. you've never experienced anything like it โ the gradual, inexorable filling, the knowledge that his arousal is a direct response to you, to this moment. it's really intoxicating.
"i wanna move," soobin begs, his voice cracking. "please, baby, please can i move? i needโi need toโ"
you simply nod, unable to form words properly. you lift yourself slightly, and soobin thrusts up, a real thrust this time, deep and sure. you both moan, the sound mingling in the small space between you.
"y-yeah," you gasp. "like that. just like thatโ"
soobin sets a rhythm, slow at first, still overwhelmed by the newness of it all. his thrusts are deep, deliberate, each one punching a soft sound from your lips, and his hands are everywhere โ your hips, your back, your face.
he can't stop touching you, can't stop looking at you.
"you're so perfect," soobin babbles, his words tumbling out between kisses and pretty moans. "so perfect for me. i love you so much. i love being inside you. i loveโah!โi love feeling you."
you capture his mouth with yours, swallowing his words, his every sounds. you simply love him like this โ open, vulnerable, completely undone by you. the pretty nerd who annotates his textbooks and makes color-coded study guides, reduced to a whining, desperate mess because of how you feel around him.
you start to meet his thrusts, matching his rhythm, making it deeper and harder. the bed creaks beneath you, the sound joining the wet, obscene noises of your bodies coming together.
"i'm close," soobin warns, his voice tight.
he's gripping you so hard you know there will be bruises tomorrow, and you can't bring yourself to care.
"i'm so close, baby, where do you wantโ"
"inside," you moans. "stay insideโwanna feel you come inside me."
soobinโs eyes roll back slightly at your words, and his thrusts become erratic, losing their rhythm. he's chasing his release, but he's also watching you, making sure you're with him. your boyfriendโs hand snakes down between your bodies, finding your cock, stroking you in time with his thrusts.
it only takes a few more strokes; you come with a broken cry of his name, your body clenching around him, and that's all it takes to push soobin over the edge. he follows with a desperate, high-pitched moan, his hips stuttering as he spills inside you, hot and deep.
for a long moment, neither of you moves.
you're both breathing hard, foreheads pressed together, sharing the same humid air. soobin's hands are still on you, but they've gone soft, just resting.
right now, you can feel him softening inside you, the reverse of the sensation from before, and it's just as incredible in its own way.
finally, you shift, wincing slightly at the oversensitivity, and soobin's hands immediately try to hold you still.
"wait," he murmurs. "just... wait a second. i'm not ready to not be inside you yet."
you smile, pressing a kiss to his nose.
"okay."
you simply stay like that for a long time, connected, breathing together. soobinโs thumbs trace absent patterns on your skin, and your fingers play with the hair at the nape of his neck.
the room slowly cools around you, but you're both warm, wrapped up in each other.
"that was..." he trails off, searching for the right word.
"incredible?" you offer.
"yeah," soobin laughs softly, a little puff of air against your lips. "incredible. you always have the best ideas."
"i know," you tease, but you're smiling too.
eventually, you have to move.
the practicalities of cleanup, of bodily functions, of reality intruding on the perfect bubble you've created. but even as you disentangle yourselves, even as soobin disappears into his attached bathroom and returns with a warm, damp washcloth to clean you both with gentle, careful hands, the intimacy doesn't break.
when you finally settle back into bed, both of you having pulled on fresh boxers, soobin immediately pulls you against his chest. he's warm and solid, and you can feel his heartbeat, still slightly elevated, against your cheek.
"so," you mumble against his skin. "worth interrupting your study session?"
soobin laughs, the sound rumbling through his chest.
"my biology textbook can wait. this was..." he pauses, and you feel him press a kiss to the top of your head. "this was the best kind of practical application."
you snort, elbowing him gently. "such a nerd."
the room falls into a comfortable silence, the kind that only comes after moments of profound intimacy.
outside, the city continues its endless hum.
inside, in soobin's small, cluttered bedroom, there's just the two of you, wrapped up in each other, sated and sleepy and utterly, completely in love.
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