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โซ๏ธ Inner Peace aka Pianist Mikasa Au
๐ Flower of You-th aka Florist Mikasa and Photographer Eren Au (One-Shot)
Our Moonlit Scars aka Creature Eren and Cabin Mikasa (one shot)
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Creature Eren | Cabin Mikasa
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@eremikaweekevent | DAY 4 ; nightmares & comfort
It was the same every night. He no longer felt the cold of winter; his whole body was burning, surrounded by the flames of his sins. He was both victim and executioner at the same time, his eternal prison, and he felt everything viscerally : the sensation of his bones shattering beneath the giantโs jaws, his eyes bulging from their sockets, his skin tearing apart, scars opening one by one to reveal withered flowers and dead caterpillars, his blood as dark as night in the moonlight, and he screamed, so loudly, screamed in agony, but his screech always echoed in the silence, no one came, and no one ever will, with only eternal torture to keep him company.
Until he then inflicted his own torment on faceless, nameless people, clenching his victims in his fist, their eyes filled with tears and blood, begging for their lives, until he shattered their fragile, tiny bodies to devour their souls and their affliction. He could feel their intestines and wormy guts sliding all over his throat, the foul smell of dried blood and bile enveloped him like a cursed veil. He dyingly wanted to vomit, but couldn't. He was perpetually trapped with death all around him, never understanding its nature, faithful to herself like an old friend visiting him every witching hour, tormenting him, denying him any relief. He could beg, fall to his knees, but Death only merely offered him a mirror to reflect his vile and immoral nature, confronting him with what he truly was: the pathetic, insignificant, silent insect in its purgatory, and the blind demon of these terrifying massacres, playing out these two roles like an endless dance.
After what felt like hours-or maybe even years, he looked up at the moon and suddenly, he saw that it begin to transformed into a gigantic, feminine hand, as pale as the original shape in the sky.
Was this his deliverance? Had an angel taken pity on him and finally granted him an end and peace?
He heard a voice in the distance, so gentle it could only come from heaven, calling his name: โErenโ โEren.โ He had never cherished his name more than at that moment. He held out his claret hand, in desperation, hope shining in his eyes with a trembling smile, the angel met the outcast, the unloved one, until finally touching-
โEren, itโs me! Please wake up!!โ
He was jolted awake by her cries. The room was shrouded in darkness, with only the moonlight filtering through the wooden shutters. Startled by the sudden awakening, he brutally bolted upright, curling up in the corner, his towering figure casting a giant shadow on the opposite wall of the room, until he saw her, clearly, in her white nightgown with straps slipping down of her shoulders, her long, ebony hair flowing down her back. She was sitting on the edge of his bed, her moon-like eyes filled with worry and tears:
"Eren, itโs me, itโs Mikasa. Donโt be afraid, it was just a nightmare, I'm here." Her words came out as a whisper, almost inaudible; like she was talking to a frightened animal.
She reached out her hand toward his cheek, gently inviting him to join her, without fear, just with a strange patience and innocence in her gaze and her gestures, the meaning and origin of which he still didnโt understand.
Mikasaโฆwhy did you make the mistake of looking at me when you first saw me?
His body was completely drenched in sweat, the bed completely soaked, but all that mattered was the touch of her hand against his cheek; it was so cold, the same sensation as a snowflake landing on his cheeks when he went out in the morning to admire the sunrise; so cold, so warm, so alive. His breathing began to slow slightly, and he covered her hand as gently as he could with his own, twice as large as hers, burning hot, covered in scars, the roughness masking the beauty, and closed his eyes to simply savor her presence by his side:
โIโm sorry. Iโm sorry, Iโm sorry, Iโm sorry, Iโm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry-โ He kept muttering it with broken voice until she finally pulled him into her arms, his face buried against her bosom, as she soothed him as best she could by stroking his hair:
โShhโฆitโs over, itโs just you and me now.โ She continued to whisper to him, solacing him with her caresses; a guardian against his pain, until he fell completely asleep into infinity.
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The first rays of sunlight began to appear, the birds began their morning symphony; the mountains were covered in a white so pure and untainted, and in that little cabin lost to the world, two shadows lay entwined. For the first time, Eren had fallen asleep without drifting to the other side of the hell within his mind, he was still embrace by a beauty so unbearably soft who protecting him from all harm, even from himself.
Everything that draws me in condemns me, this forbidden desireโฆ
He was nothing but a monster in a womanโs arms, listening to the beating of her heart as if it were his salvation. Paradise did indeed exist, he thought, and it was an ethereal creature with a scarf around her neck, in that color that had terrified him so much at first, reminding him of blood and the fragility of human nature and his own, until it became a protective sight of tenderness and miracle, the endearment of life replacing death.
He then had the sudden audacity, the indecency in his thoughts, to make a wish, just one, in the silence of the morning mist, as if time had stood still; if anyone could hear him, he prayed to the sky:
The lesson with Carla had just ended; it was her first music theory class. She was starting slowly, focusing mainly on reading sheet music and notes. Next time, Mikasa would show her some harmonies to memorize, as well as intervals.
Carla was an exemplary student; her eagerness to learn inspired Mikasa to do her best to give her all the tools she needed so she could start playing as soon as possible, but at a gentle pace. They complemented each other perfectly during that half-hour; Mikasa informed, instructed, while offering advice, adapting to the difficulty, and Carla listened, wasnโt afraid to ask questions, and, above all, picked up the information very quickly.
But coming to Carlaโs house wasnโt just a half-hour lesson followed by simple goodbye ; she often stayed well past an hour, as the lesson was interspersed with lively, passionate discussions about everything and nothing, and Mikasa couldnโt help but love those kinds of moments, she found in Carla more than just a student, she was a lovely presence who admittedly, talked and laughed too loudly, it seems like a family thing, and who offered her tea every five minutes even though Mikasa turned down kindly the offer countless times, but Carla exuded a kindness and heartfelt passion that made Mikasa feel comfortable and allowed her to let her guard down too, without any judgment between us even with their difference of personality, just two women finding happiness in the simplest things of their daily lives.
But deep down, Mikasa knew in her heart this wasnโt quite her favorite moment.
Not when he was there.
It didnโt last very long today; he had to leave at the end of lesson with Carla to go to a family dinner his brother organized, and Carla had asked Mikasa if she could stay at her place to feed Catniss Ervermeow, Carlaโs cat (she tried not to comment or laugh on that veryโฆpeculiar name, only Carla could call her that she thinks.) Sheโd done this several times before, Even though Carla always insisted that she join to eat with them, which Mikasa politely declined for now, it was already really touching that Carla trusted her to do that, and she can't lied that she enjoy this cozy, welcoming home and let her heart beat normally again after he always leave.
She didn't know why, (oh she knows) but as soon as he was there, the atmosphere in the room changed completely; it became heavier, more...charged with a tension she couldn't describe, perhaps something she was only imagining in her silly head.
She tried not to look at him, even though she could feel his gaze on her constantly. She did her best everytime to lighten the mood, knowing full well that the more she pretended to be relaxed, the more she made terrible jokes that only made things more awkward, luckily, Carla was a good audience and saved the room from a deathly silence, she told herself.
She could lie to herself, but she couldnโt resist but smile slightly when she heard his deep voice, his laughter that warmed her heart and resonated through her body. She could try to convince herself to make small talk with him as mere friends and out of politeness, but she cherished every second of his presence, her heart threatening to explode the moment his body would brushed against her arm, her legs clenching together when green and grey met.
From the outside, she seemed normal, she think... right? Slightly uptight and a little odd maybe, but inside her lay a fireworks display of budding emotions that she was trying her best to control.
The end of the afternoon had arrived, and after Carla and he had said goodbye to her and left, she completely relaxed on the couch, taking advantage of the fact that no one was there to watch her; like a puddle of water melting onto the mattress. She feel odiously stupid for reacting that way, even more so today, because it wasnโt like usual; he had the same wooing smile, but he was more distant, had spoken less, maybe sheโd done something wrong? Or were her jokes begin to annoy Eren? Was she annoying? Oh god she was. Was she not -what was the word- chill enough?
A sense of guilt was growing inside her and weighing on her stomach, as if she were hiding an immoral and vile secret, that probably means nothing, but was that really the case? Because why did her heart tighten when she saw him disappear? Secretly wishing heโd stay a little longer, wanting to have a moment just with him, even just five seconds, why did she linger longer in her bathroom the morning to apply a little more makeup or put on the perfume she knows Eren loves, when she knew heโd be coming over to Carlaโs? Why did her face burned when he is on the couch during her lesson time, watching her with his smirk and piercing eyes as she discreetly turned around to look at him?
That mix of joy and feeling alive, combined with guilt and the sense that she was doing something wrong, especially toward Carla, stirred up far too many doubts and questions within her, preventing her from wanting to do what sheโd like to do with him.
But what does she want to do exactly ?
The vibration of her phone abruptly snapped her out of her unanswered daydreams; she checked who had texted her and saw Carlaโs name :
Carla : Eren forgot his wallet, donโt be afraid if you hear the door open! ;-)
The air in her lungs caught, she didnโt even have time to process the message before she heard well and truly the door open. She leapt off the couch, smoothed out her long olive-green dress, and tucked her hair behind her ears as quickly as possible until she saw him appear at the entrance to the living room; their eyes locked immediately, as if under a spell that made it impossible to look away, she decided to speak first so as not to show that she was surprised : (and completely panicked)
"Oh E-Eren, your mom just told me you forgot your wallet, right? If you want, I can help you look for it-"
She hadnโt even finished her sentence when he approached her very slowly, the sound of his footsteps muffled by the creaking of the floorboards, never taking his eyes off her. Mikasaโs breathing quickened until he was just two steps away from her, and at that very moment, she forgot about the wallet, the cat, Carla, or even who she was, because all that mattered right then and there was that Eren was so close to her face she could feel his breath; wild berries and lemon, on her lips and she had absolutely no idea what to do except just stare at the curve of his lips, imagining how soft it would feel to gently touch them with the tips of her fingers, until she saw them slowly curve into a smile and says:
โI didnโt come here for the wallet, Mikasa.โ
It was over. Her heart was definitely going to explode; she was acting like a ill-mannered teenager about to experience her first kiss. She was ashamed of it, but she couldnโt help herself; it was instinctive, terrifying, irresistible.
She had to step back now, turn around, and pretend nothing had happened, go back to looking for his wallet, that had to be her mission of the utmost importance...but her body was unable to move; Erenโs warmth was like a magnet to which every part of her was desperately drawn. She surrendered to her terrible fate, began to slowly close her eyes, her long, fine lashes brushing the tops of her cheeks, tilted her head back slightly to feel him even closer to her, and waited, waited, waited.
She felt him leaning toward her; every movement, every sound, every breath drove her crazier with anticipation of his touch, until she finally felt his lips brush her cheeks like a gentle caress, her whole body threatened to give way under the shivers he sent through her; she tried as best she could to stifle her moan, but instead of her dream destination, he moved slowly, agonizingly down toward her jawline, gently tracing a path with the mere touch of his lips, without ever applying pressure, all the way down below her ear, then finally, to her neck to plant a kiss in the hollow, right next to her pearl necklace, the cold metal that had now been replaced by the burning sensation of his kiss, like a mark that will never fade. He stay like this for few seconds until it was, unfortunately, already over. He straightened up haltingly, Mikasaโs gaze never leaving him, as she had to tilt her head back to look up from his height:
โThatโs what I forgot.โ
He walked backward, a light smile on his lips, while Mikasa had turned completely red from head to toe without yet fully realizing what had just happened, until Erenโs figure disappeared from her field of vision, she tried, as best she could, to relearn how to breathe normally when the vibration of her cell phone snapped her out of her daze once again. She saw it was Carla again, and she couldnโt help but let out a nervous laugh as she read:
Carla : What an idiot!! His wallet was in the glove compartment! Oh god, tell him to come back, I found it !!!! (you know what, he's the one who's paying for my share of the meal, just for good measure :-/) Sorry for the inconvenience my dear !
Hello everyone, well... I'm not really sure where to start. Sorry in advance, I think this is going to be pretty messy and long, but I need to write this for myself, to write all this down, and for those of you who want to be with me right now, thank you for reading already <3
This year has definitely been the worst year of my life, and it had started a little earlier, but Iโd hoped it would stop, that this bad feeling was just that, just a feeling, but unfortunately every month that passed was worse. I donโt like to self-diagnose, but not really knowing my condition was even worse, and yes, for months now, I havenโt been myself. I lost a part of myself a long time ago, without really knowing when it started, and without really seeing an end or a solution. I was living without realizing I was sinking into something that left me empty. I felt everything without actually feeling anything, but it started with my hobbies, I wasnโt doing any of the things I used to love anymore, whether it was playing my games, watching media, founding gift for my family, or even, especially here, writing. I lost the joy, the desire, and I forced myself to believe it was temporary, because my mind was screaming to get better, but even when I wrote, I wasnโt proud of myself at all, and I made the mistake of comparing myself to others, but that only made things worse, and what followed was inevitable: guilt, regret, frustration, and self-loathing, and that cycle didnโt stop for a long time even now it persist like a parasite, because the worst part for me was that I didnโt have any specific reason why, so I hated myself even more for being that way.
A major reason that drown me was, first of all, my old apartment. I no longer felt comfortable there; it was cold, lacking identity, and devoid of โme,โ so I no longer had that sense of security and happiness when I came home. As a result, I locked myself into a routine where I did nothing, I procrastinated, and above all, I slept a lot, it was the only time I felt good. Sleep was where my mind wasnโt noisy anymore, the only time I was happy to disconnect from myself, because my biggest problem is overthinking. I become my own worst enemy, negative thoughts that never stop, self-reproach, โwhy am I meโ "why am I like this" or constantly questioning othersโ feelings, "Iโm a burden, Iโm annoying," by trying to show my love and respect, Iโm just showing my naivety and my fear that people will get tired of me, because why me? Iโm not special, not funnier than anyone else; Iโm ordinary. And when I give my love, itโs all-encompassing, and if it isnโt reciprocated, it hurts me terribly. Thatโs who I am. I donโt look for that kind of intensity in others, but sometimes, Iโd like to be โseen,โ to be understood, or just to be loved the way I love. I felt like no one understood me. I wasnโt looking for attention, or maybe I was; part of me was, but I think it was more of a cry for help against the loneliness that weighed on me, because I live alone, and finding yourself alone at home with just your thoughts, and crossing your fingers that your mood doesnโt change, that your mind stays on your side, it was sometimes unbearable. I could go out with my family and be happy, and then find myself crying when I got home without knowing why, and thatโs the most heartbreaking feeling, not understanding yourself, and I felt too much about everything, overanalyzing everything, to the point where I wasnโt living at all.
Then I made the decision to move, because I knew it was a decision that, right off the bat, would do me a world of good, changing locations, finding a place where I truly felt better. It took a long time to find, but when I did, I knew it was the right place. Those were exhausting weeks, because I didnโt have the energy to even get around my own home, and I had to find the energy for the whole move, but it was for a good cause, and I wasnโt alone. Without my family, without my sister, my brother-in-law, and my aunt, I honestly donโt know if Iโd still be here. Feeling like a constant burden, seeing myself change while they stayed, helping me, supporting me in my choices... I know Iโm lucky to have them. The reason I smile and why my heart beats is for them. And for the past month, my home has become my little cocoon of happiness; Iโm already feeling better, I have plans, Iโve decorated it to my taste, thereโs a piece of โmeโ in this place, and Iโm also close to the old town of my city, which is so, so pretty. Since the start of the year, this has been the most beautiful change in my life...
...Except that, on top of everything else, thereโs my job. And thatโs where the nightmare continues. Because my year followed the same pattern over and over: as soon as I felt a glimmer of hope or joy, it was snatched away in seconds, and my work was no exception. I had a wonderful year last year, but things only got worse, I lost the partner Iโd been working with for years, and I quit my management role because of the pressure. I couldnโt manage a team if I couldnโt manage myself, because of my anxiety attacks and dissociation. And above all, if thereโs one thing you need to know, itโs that Iโm extremely, and physically phobic of conflict. As soon as someone yells at me, as soon as Iโm in a conflict, I canโt handle it, itโs *physically* impossible because of my past with my mother. I prefer dialogue, communication, or just silence. My bosses, however, didnโt see it that way, and ever since I stopped being a manager, Iโve been literally targeted: constant criticism directed at me, a drastically different attitude toward me compared to my colleagues, and that only created paranoia and stress for me. I also learned that some of my colleagues, to whom I confided about how uncomfortable I felt in that situation, told my bosses about it to secure their own jobs. I was living in an environment of mistrust, a toxic atmosphere, with misogynistic and demeaning comments about my work and myself, and I wanted to focus first on my move and see later if I wanted to look for a job; I couldnโt afford to put myself in danger while I just move.
And a month ago, I received a warning about excessive phone use even though I was using it just like everyone else, so I decided to be a robot there, to say nothing, just do my job. I just wanted to be invisible and be left alone, but thatโs not the kind of atmosphere I like. But for the past week, Iโd felt like things were getting a little better, until last week, when I received an official letter at home summoning me for a potential termination. And that was too much for me.I had a massive panic attack, I couldnโt breathe. I was worried about the financial consequences and the fact that Iโd just moved into a new apartment, and all these thoughts were weighing me down, even physically, to the point where my stomach was twisting in pain. I almost went to the hospital, until my brother-in-law came to pick me up. And for hours we talked about all the solution we can have, and after considering all the opportunities and possibilities, I realized that this was actually a chance for me to free myself from this job, because having worked for so long, I could live off my unemployment benefits for a while, use this time to get my life back on track, find a training program, maybe get my driverโs license, and above all, no longer be in this job.
And so on yesterday I had the meeting.... and Iโve been working with them for over two years, so it was time for them to tell me they no longer felt I was committed, and for me to tell them Iโm no longer comfortable in their workplace, but that parting on good terms, since Iโve been loyal for years, was the best solution, without conflict, without drama.
And so. Next Monday. Iโm officially leaving this job.
Iโm terrified, afraid to realize that maybe Iโll really be free from all this daily stress and unhappiness. To be able to leave calmly, and that after getting my apartment, I now have the chance to just take a break. Because thatโs what Iโm going to do. A break. All summer long. Before I try to get anything back.
First, Iโm going to focus on myself, rediscover to live, enjoy my family, spend time with them, Iโm going to leave some weeks, Iโm going to cook, Iโm going to do nothing without feeling guilty, Iโm going to slowly, little by little, try to find myself again, taking all the time I need, I want to write again, I want to rediscover my love for analyzing texts, movies, fanfics of those beautiful writers here, I want to sleep without hating myself. But Iโm terrified at the thought of potentially being happy. I think I was too obsessed with the idea of wanting to be the person I used to be, but I also think itโs time for me to discover yet another new chapter, yet another new version of myself, and maybe this is an opportunity for me. On the darkest day, it might have also been a form of relief, and now I know that, I know it wonโt just happen in a flash, but I want to slowly climb out of my depression, and taking this break is already the first step.So thatโs where I am in my life.
Iโll be coming back here with you all little by little, because finally, I wanted to thank all of you who supported me, who wrote to me, all those beautiful, beautiful people with whom I discussed so many things, where I felt as if I belonged somewhere, as if I could finally find connections, shared passions, from casual conversations and ideas to deeper analyses, I loved every single one of these conversations, every person who took the time, you have no idea, literally no idea how much joy youโve brought me this year, where those few moments were a bubble of sincere happiness, without fear. Thank you sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, for your support and your friendship.
To my moon, thank you for saving my life. This year gave me an angel, my hope, and a friendship that goes beyond words. You know what I think of you, I'm telling you everyday, but if one day I have the chance to hold you in my arms, I hope youโll understand all the love and thanks I have to offer you. I love you mon amour
And finally, I hope that in the future, youโll get to know a happier, more confident Del. I sincerely hope to get to know her too, and to introduce her to you, and Iโll do my best to live. Iโve never stopped fighting, despite the helplessness or the doubts. Iโm still here <3
Thank you to those who read this and come to the end; it was very long sorryyy, but itโs also liberating to me ...<3
โAlright,โ Mikasa begins, a little breathless as she whispers it. The light heartedness from earlier has dissipated, and sheโs not entirely sure when that happened, how she got so close to him in the first place. โYouโre very handsome and strong, Eren.โ
His eyes flutter shut at the compliment. He means what he said earlier, heโs weak, oh so weak. It doesnโt matter that he practically begs for the compliment, it doesnโt change the way warmth spreads through him as it tumbles out of her lips.
We're friends, Eren tells himself as he opens his eyes back up and stares at her lips. Weโre friends, his mind murmuring repeatedly as he leans a little closer, pausing to let her give him a sign that his advances werenโt welcomed.
Tags/contents: Modern settings, strangers to friends to lovers, denial of feelings (again I know, but it's not a slow burn), fluff so much fluff and smut, PWP, Cockblocking, heavy makeout
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Through the Void ; Loving Him Forever | Introduction to the AU
Eremika au - Goddess Mikasa/ Dark Magic Eren
She knows she shouldn't feel this way, she knows she have to let him go, keep the precious memories of him and her in her heart, untainted. Live with the unbearable pain and crushing guilt that she couldn't save him, and die with it. Praying that her sole wish to see again his beloved smile and love-filled eyes will be fulfilled in heaven.
Because when she sees him now, in front of her, eyes darker than hell, screaming hatred and death, his face and body filled with rotten and unsightly scars, ready to destroy everything in his path, including her. The very body she'd trained to protect and keep warm lost souls. the very body that held her in his arms, whispering words of love that even now, echo every cold lonely night before she fell asleep. She knows. she knows beyond doubt that the man she immeasurably loved is no more. Gone. Dead. only the demon and chaos remain. she must use her magic, her strength to fight him, to protect her people, the innocents. She must seal her heart to protect thousand's. What she has in front of her is only the agonizing result of her failure to protect those she loves.
But, in each of her blows, each of her spells, each of her cries, only one prayer will be implored :
"Comeback, come back."
"Eren my love. Come back to me."
"Come home."
Synopsis :
Mikasa is a goddess of nature in a kingdom where she was raised and trained, and she has to become Eren's teacher as a role of guide and protector, teaching him pure magic. Eren was introductorily rebellious, fearless. desiring freedom. Despising the kingdom that rejected those who didn't have magic, or anything other than pure magic, like him who also had a powerful but uncontrolled power within him. and above all something darker within him...that no one wanted to name, just hiding it since he was a child. Their relationship was very cold at first ; Mikasa being ruthless to him, showing him no respite or mercy in her training. And Eren not taking any lessons seriously or, respecting who she was. being too proud to show weakness in front of her. wanting to challenge her immaturely, but at the end, always losing to her.
However, this attraction and unnamed desire was there. Slight but present from the beginning and only growing up, in Eren's side seeing a more human side of her, comprehending how good and honest her heart was., and of course a beauty that even the books and poems of the kingdom recount of. Mikasa, for her part, understood more his chaotic anger, realizing that it was justified, sincere, and most importantly, painful.
And so, their love blossomed over the months of their apprenticeship and travels... even though Mikasa tried desperately to remain distant because she had lost too many people she loved in the past, but Eren was determined tc break through her armor, to show her that he could protect her, be a better man and more responsible.
Then one night under the stars and beside a fire reflecting their truths, they finally gave themselves to each other. body and soul, becoming one, amid whispers of love and promises...
...Until the tragic day when Mikasa was almost killed by mercenaries with dark magic being stab in the back, and Eren, powerless and filled with such powerful and uncontrollable rage at seeing the woman he loved die before his eyes, succumbed to dark magic to save her. A forbidden magic he always had inside him since birth. The darkness taking possession of his entire being, and he completely disappeared afterwards.
After one year, he became a man who now lives only to take revenge on this world that rejects those with dark magic within them. All those hypocrites and cowards, wanting to destroy everything, creating an army of allies and people with the same thirst for rebellion and injustice...except that Mikasa will become his enemy.
But despite his unfathomable hatred and burning anger, his love for her became a unhinged obsession yet, an impossible desire. He can't forget her and thought about her constantly, even though others told him that she is now his enemy, that she must surely hate and being disgusted by him now that he had reveal his true nature.
And Mikasa, absolutely destroyed by this tragic event, thought at first that he has been dead for a year, try to live with her grief and void inside her heart, only to brutally realizing that he is alive and worst, leads this revolution that has been burning and condemning all the villages near the kingdom for months. She has her heart utterly broken, unable to realize that this man is the same person as her beloved, so gentle and who was her whole sun.
She must now face the dilemma of her duty to protect the kingdom and kill the source of this evil, or desperately try to bring him back to her, with the faint hope that the man she loved is still there.
Between love and hate, the line is thin. And the decisive choice for both of them is to choose their battle of their life : One to protect, the other to destroy everything, or to drown in a passionate, heartbreaking love, doomed to impossible...
Hi! I have been meaning to make this post for a while, but life kept getting in the way and time slipped by before I realised it. So, here it is at last!! This is the masterlist of what I like to call โeverything you need to know about the X AU.โ Since I have uploaded quite a few of them already, I wanted to gather them all in one place and organise them so they are easier to find. And, yes, before you start exploring, there are a few things Iโd like to share with you:
Not the Final Version of ANY Outline: These posts exist as guides for upcoming fics that will later be published on AO3. They contain my first ideas, concepts, and the general essence of each AU, but they are NOT the final or definitive version of the story. Things can and will change as the writing process develops.
AO3 Is the Canon: While these guides are meant to share my ideas and build excitement, the final version of every AU will always be the one posted on AO3. If something differs between these posts and the fic itself, the AO3 version is the one to trust.
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โโโฆ โEverything you need to know about the: Knight Mikasa or King Erenโ Or โ Castles Crumbling
โโโฆ โEverything you need to know about Marquess Eren & Miss Mikasaโ Or โ Bed of Roses
โโโฆ โEverything you need to know about the: Mr General Eren & Princess of Hizuru Mikasaโ Or โ Green Meadows
โโโฆ โEverything you need to know about the: outlaw Erenโ Or โ Sweet Prairie
โโโฆ โEverything you need to know about the: doctor Eren & mountain girl Mikasaโ Or โ Little Forest
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A Canonverse Eremika AU
ok anon, I'm actually nervous because this au is so dear to me. i love it with the same intensity that i fear to write it lol i hope i can finally get my shit together and start to put the scattered pieces I've thrown of this au together. this happens after they go to a festival and eren is encouraged by a friend to experiment and have fun with girls. mikasa sees them and gets furious. she confronts him and they go to somewhere private to "talk" and she tells him that if he can kiss another girl, she can do the same with some random guy.
Fragment of Chapter 2: "17"
"You know I can't kiss you"
"Why?!" She yells. "Because we're 'family'?"
"YES" He yells back. "Yes, Mikasa, because we're supposed to be fucking family! At everyone's eyes here, you're my sister! And I should be taking care of you like my sister because that's what my parents told me to do, not kiss you!"
She wants to cry, she wants to throw a fit. she's hurt, enraged. He let some other girl kiss him, he let another girl touch his face with her unfamiliar hands, trying to erase Mikasa's touch off his skin. She's furious and she wants him to feel the same.
"Then I guess that leaves us at the starting point." She declares. "I'm going out there and I'll find a guy who'd like to kiss me, and you know it won't be so hard to find one. So get off my way, Eren."
She makes it two steps away from him before he grabs her forearm and drags her back inside. Their bodies collide with the force of his manhandling, her own body docile and weightless at the smallest touch of his hands, so it's easy for him to take her face into his big hands and kiss her.
She's paralyzed for two seconds, but her own urges demand her to do something before a third second passes, she leans into him and presses her lips into his as best as she can. Because she's never kissed anyone before him, and she hopes that her lips are warm enough to burn away the feeling of that stranger girl's mouth on his.
When she starts to feel lightheaded by her own incapability to breath correctly and the tight hold his arm's force on her torso, he breaks the kiss. And it feels like being underwater for too long and coming out to the surface. She breathes again.
"This is what you want? What you were desperately wanting? What you're risking everything for?" He bites through his teeth, their faces are so close that they're practically breathing each other's air.
"Yes." She responds immediately, no trace of doubt or remorse in her voice.
And he kisses her again, violently, intense and unforgiving. Demanding, taking, not giving her some kind mercy for her lack of experience.
"Kiss me back properly." He groans into her mouth.
"I don't know how to." She whines, and she's never sounded more pathetic than now, he's probably laughing at her in his head. But instead, he grabs a chunk of her hair in one of his fists and inclines her head lower so he can have a total access to her mouth. And she lets him do whatever he wants with her.
"Then learn." He growls in a way that makes him sound like a wounded animal and she can't help but let a gasp out of her lips, not able to say anything else because he's attacking her mouth again.
She tries for a few seconds to match his rhythm, to hold on to what he's trying to take away from her. But is useless, more so because she will gladly let him take anything he needs from her. Her breath, her mouth, her blood. Anything. The best thing she can do, she figures out, is to give in. To let him take, to let herself give.
And that's what seems to do it for him, because now that she's a malleable dough in his hands, he moans against her lips and she thinks it's a good sign.
"Do you like it?" He dares to ask and now his voice sounds like velvet.
"Yes, I like it so much." She admits. "It feels... good. Very good." She sighs, hot air filling her head, her skin is tickling and she feels so warm inside. Something's happening to her body, the heat is concentrating, transforming into something she's never felt before. She wants to touch him, to be touched by him. More, because he's been touching her, she realizes now. His hands squeeze her waist and she feels him doubting to touch something else, to go further down. She won't have it, she doesn't need his doubt. She needs his touch, for him to make the suffocating heat to go away or else she'll combust.
"Do you like it? Does it feel better with me than with her?" She sighs against his hot mouth, and her insolent question earns her a groan. His beautiful green eyes open to scan every corner of her face, and the hot pool in her core grows wetter. His eyes are so intense and they're looking at her with so much intent right now. He doesn't look like just a boy when he's so close to her in this position, he looks more like a man, like something foreign to her. Something's consuming him, it must be the same thing that's consuming her too.
"It feels better than anything I've never experienced before."
"Good." She smiles and takes his face into her hands, bringing their mouths closer for another kiss.
They don't go back to the center of Shiganshina, where the whole town is buzzing with the ongoing celebration of the festival. That afternoon spend it in each other's arms, kissing and touching places they shouldn't be touching in each other's bodies. But is painful to think of stopping now that they've begun.
Based on Frankenstein, aka Creature Eren and Cabin Mikasa
โพ๏ธ The story takes place five years after humanity's victory against the Titans who were outside the walls. The Survery Corps were aided by Titan shifters, more commonly known as "Giant-Humans" from experiments conducted using cerebrospinal fluid injected into the neck. It was a groundbreaking success. Legend has it that the "Attack Titan", the strongest and most death-defying giant, was the one who killed the last titan, which earned him this reputed name, but not without sacrifice.
โพ๏ธ As this battle disastrously resulted in hundreds of soldiers dying in combat, some were even unrecognizable or strangely disappeared on the battlefield, causing grief and anger among many families and widows. Forwhy, the first few months after the end of the war were mainly controlled by rather...confidential affair. Scientists and those in high places insisted to hide these injections and experimentation as much as possible, on grounds of, the reality is much less heroic and thought out with a moral and humanitarian conscience; many experiments failed or ended in disaster, resulting in many disappearances who supposedly "fell on the battlefield" despite being promised and secuded by the title of "hero" or "guardian" to serve their country for the rest of their lives.
โพ๏ธ And so, during those five years, everything related to cerebrospinal fluid, operations, and tests was burned and reduced to ashes in order to tell a more "chivalrous" tale and silence those who knew too much, accusing them of madness and post-traumatic symptoms.
โพ๏ธ But there is one exception. Eren Kruger, an extremely renowned and talented scientist during the Last War who greatly assisted in successful research and experiments, never wanted to stop his research, precisely when there were apparently testimonies from rare survivors of giant-humans recounting a vague memory of "The Path", a deserted place in the night, with in the middle of this infinity of sand, a gigantic tree of light, controlling life, but also death, being the very heart of this sign connecting the soul and the afterlife. A sempiternal memory for their owners, but also a danger from others, that are now dismissed as hallucinations, seeking to censor the survivors by threats.
โพ๏ธ And since then, Eren Kruger has been obsessively, pathologically driven by the appetency of being the first living being able to control death. Except that no one now wants to be intrinsically linked to the morbid past of the experiments. And so rumors spread, and Kruger is lastly described as a madman. He disappears into the shadows and for interminable months and dragging years, he secretly creates his own plans and researches alone in his basement, knowing that time is running out, having been diagnosed from an incurable disease. He desperately wants to succeed at all costs before he dies, but the hourglass of time keeps running, showing him no mercy or any divinely guided-help.
โพ๏ธ And, after years of relentless efforts in coughing up blood and sweat...He succeeded. Caused by the cerebrospinal fluid through the injection that had to be more than precise; under the neck and spinal cord, without fully affecting the cerebral cortex, infusing the exact dose so as not to turn into a giant, and it worked out. For just a second, or perhaps hundreds of years, he was so blissful to have completed and succeeded that he wasn't even affected by the repercussions of time, but rather by what he had managed to achieve: The sand from The Path, the substance that allowed him to control Death, to defy fate, holding in the palm of his debilitated hand the secrets of immortality and eternal life. He laughed hysterically in front of this gigantic tree, mocking him. He won. He's a God.
โพ๏ธ After that, he knew what he had to do : Create the perfect vessel that would confront Death. So, in the most delirious and senseless madness, he took the bodies of some diseased soldiers, even those of a few Giant-humans that he had stored in his basement for his test at the beginning of the post-war period, and extracted each of their limbs, organs, bones, to make one body. All that remained was to inject the liquid, but this time with the sand inside, and what had to happen horrendously happened:
โพ๏ธ There was a dazzling flash, like a tree striking the body, where each root connected the blood vessels and nerves, circulating the blood, Kruger wasn't witnessing the gift of life in its most beautiful and rare form; it was a scene of unadulterated horror, where every sound of bone was heard as it tore apart raucously, blood spurted everywhere, covering the room. This wasn't life coming into the world no, it was the manifestation of Death in its most deformed and horrific form. Then, in the most agonizing and complete silence,
The Creature awoke.
โพ๏ธ Not as tall as a titan, but over 2 meters tall, with limbs repugnantly sewn together everywhere that began to slowly move, blood-filled eyes that opened.
Green. Such were their colors.
โพ๏ธ Contemplating his work, in admiration and terror, Eren Kruger was so possessed in the apotheosis of his masterpiece that his body finally gave out and he fell to the ground, his heart slowing with each beat, until the last one, lying pathetically, sprawled on the cold ground in front of his creation, reaching out his hand to him, completely standing now, facing him, as he uttered his last words, barely audible:
"It's me...I created you, that demon...now free... Let the world remember that it was me, me...Eren Kruger...Eren..."
And the room fell in silence.
โพ๏ธ For the new-born creature, after opening his eyes, contemplating this human lying on the ground reaching out to him, he hadn't heard everything that this stranger said nor understanding his language or the reason why he was there, didn't even know who he is. But, he had heard a breath, a noise, a sound, coming from the mouth of this man that he oddly want to keep it with him, as if it were addressed to him..? Being the only thing that connects him to who he is, the only thing that keeps him moving forward.
In the dead man's last breath he heard :
"Eren."
Eren : Introducing his character
โพ๏ธ A creature born in the morbid basement from the hands of the mad scientist, Eren Kruger. A failed but miraculous experiment, created from cerebrospinal fluid and sand that comes from "The Path"; a transcendental place only giant-humans could witness during their transformation. Seeing his creator die before his eyes, he is completely terrified, distraught, alone, not knowing who he is or where he is, not even being able to "communicate" with the man who decided to create him.
โพ๏ธ Unable to control his breathing, torturous thoughts, or his hardwired and impulsive inhumane strength, he decides to go out and desperately ask for help, even though he cannot speak, but is only tragically greeted by the screams and shouts of fear from the villagers, who shoot him multiple times with shotguns and even try to burn him in Kruger's house, calling him a monster. Utterly scared and downhearted by this anger and hatred from humans, he decides to run away and realizes in the same time that he cannot die. He will never be able to die. Curse to live forever in endless pain and torment.
โพ๏ธ What follows is a long period outdoors, living in the forests, under waterfalls, discreetly watching humans from afar, living in agony, incomprehension, a multitude of emotions that constantly weigh him down, sadness, humiliation, anger, and rage but also rare moments of beauty when he discovers for himself the beauty of nature, distant conversations between people laughing and singing. Wishing he could live this with someone...
โพ๏ธ ...Until one night at dusk, he arrives at this strange cabin isolated from the rest of the world...
Mikasa Ackerman : Introducing her character
โพ๏ธ Mikasa, 22 years old, live in a cabin in the mountains far away from any big towns with her parents inside Wall Maria since she was a child. Growing up within the walls, she has never seen Titans in her life, initially believing them to be nothing more than a scary legend. After receiving letter's of humanity's victory five years ago, her parents, after a long discussion, decided to move to the central city of Mitras, wanting to live with civilization after the victory, celebrating this freedom to explore the world and discover other places and people.
โพ๏ธ Mikasa, now eighteen, decided to stay here. Her place is with peaceful nature, animals, and mountains. She never aspire to travel, as the unknown scared her too much and the immensity of the world overwhelmed her. Even though curiosity is tempting. And since more than four years now, Mikasa has been taking care of daily tasks in her cabin. But she's not completely alone. Her parents come to visit her several times a month, worried that she is lonely and wanting her to find someone, but Mikasa is fine on her own, nothing ever happened before, so she felt safe. And she has her neighbors, close enough to where she lives ; Armin and his grandfather.
โพ๏ธ Until, one evening, as she was preparing her fireplace with the wood she had gathered during the day, she heard a strange noise coming from outside at dusk...
here's a sneak peak of the very first scene i imagined for this au, is set in Mikasaโs parents home. they're having brunch at the Ackermans as Chiyo (Mikasa's mother) invited the jaegers to their residence to try to mend their fragile relationship (business wise). and then things happen lol
โThe gallery was left spotless, Carla. Thank you so much for recommending that reformer to me.โ Chiyo said, gesturing to a maid to bring the tea to the table. โWe could make a tour after tea if you'd like to.โ
โThat would be lovely.โ the brunette said with a warm smile. Mikasa couldn't help but notice how much alike she and Eren looked when they smiled. โBut maybe just the two of us.โ Carla said, giggling over the rim of her cup wine. โOur husbands and the kids don't seem so into the idea.โ
Mikasa wanted to agree out loud, wanted to say that the only thing she wanted to do was to retire to her room where she couldnโt see Eren having lunch with her family as calm as ever, while she sat there containing a scream in the back of her throat.ย
And between his presence in front of her at the other side of the table; and Pieck's words that still resonated in her head since that morning, she wasn't in the mood to play the perfect host.
Her mother laughed at Carlaโs comment. โOh, let them be. We'll go after we finish here.โ
โActually,โ everyone at the table turned to look at Eren, who pushed his still full glass of whiskey aside and got up from his chair. That gathered confused looks in everyone, thinking he would say he had to leave. โI'm not in the mood for some tea right now, and I'm curious about the renovations of the gallery. I'd like to go for a tour right now, if that's possible.โ
Mikasa looked directly at him for the first time since the Jaegers arrived at her house. He was already looking at her when she looked up, and she knew that could only mean trouble.ย
And just as if he read her mind, he said: โMikasa, would you care to show me the gallery?โ She knew it, he was trying to get her alone.
At this, everyone seemed to freeze.ย
Mikasaโs heartbeat was thumping so hard against her ribcage that she was scared Pieck would hear it at her spot beside her. The entire room fell silent.
โOh, Eren. Let me show you the way, I'm sure my sister is too tired to go all the way there.โ Pieck broke the silence after seeing Mikasaโs lack of response. But her sister's interference only made her anger grow hotter.ย
โNo need, Pieck.โ She said, standing up too. โI'll be glad to give our guest a tour, it is only polite of me to do so after all.โ She finished with a bite in her tone.ย
โNo, it 's ok, Mikasa. I can perfectly takeโโ
โPieck.โ their mom cut her, she gave her eldest daughter a warning smile that made Pieck sit back down on her chair, as she was starting to rise from it to accompany Eren. Porco looked tense at her side. โEnjoy your tea with us and let Mikasa take Eren to the gallery, since she's not having tea with us either.โ she finished with a satisfied smile, one she shared with Carla. Chiyo thought her intentions weren't obvious to anyone in that room.ย
Pieck forced a smile and nodded at her mother. She grabbed her cup of tea and didn't dare to argue further.ย
โVery well, have a nice tour, Eren.โ Her father said before continuing the business conversation he was having with Grisha.ย
Mikasa started to walk out of the room without waiting for anyone else to say another word. She knew Eren would follow. Her heart was still punching her ribcage at the mere idea of him behind her, of seeing him after everything they said to each other a week ago in his apartment.ย
He was playing another one of his games but if he thought she didn't know how to play them, he was making a huge mistake.ย
They walked out of the main residence, past the garden to the white baroque building behind their house that her great grandfather had transformed into a gallery to hang the art he collected, amongst the frames of every important member of the Ackerman family. It was a bit far from where her family and the Jaegers were still having tea and whiskey. She wondered if Eren knew this and that was why he wanted her specifically to show him something he wouldn't be interested in otherwise.ย
โThis way.โ she said, passing through the threshold. The gallery's door was kept open during the day because when her family was not in the main residence, it was open to the public. It had white marble floors and white concrete pillars that went up to the ceiling. She loved this place, it was easy to get lost here if you weren't familiarized with its hallways. It was her favorite place to hide from the world.
The more she walked into the building, the closer she felt Eren's body behind her.ย
But the closer he got, the more enraged and frustrated she felt. How dare he come to her home, greet her mother and sister with a kiss on their cheeks while she stood there, waiting for her turn for something that never happened. Then he had the audacity to spend the rest of the morning staring at her as if that would change the fact that he ignored her, again.ย
She thought they were past that point. But she was wrong. And he was right again, about her caring too much about anything he said or did. While he was comfortable using her like some booty call he could discard whenever she was being too much to deal with.
โWhat is that place?โ Eren asked, pointing at a mahogany door at the end of the first hallway.
โItโs a private studio. It was built 60 years ago with the purpose of having the family members portrayed there by the familyโs trusted artist.โ She responded with a flat voice.
Eren hummed. โI wanna go there.โ He stated. Not like a petition but a demand that he was about to get done.
Mikasa rolled her eyes and just walked to the door, she didn't want to argue with him. Not today. She opened the studio and let Eren get in first. Mikasa left the door open behind her because she was sure they wouldnโt be there for too long.
โItโs a really nice place. The walls look thick, like theyโre soundproofed.โ He said with a smirk on his stupidly handsome face.
She frowned at his comment, but turned to take a better look at them. They looked like the rest of the white impeccable walls in the gallery.
But of course, sweet innocent Mikasa should have known better.ย
While she was staring at the wall like an idiot, Eren took the perfect opportunity to push her against it. She rested her hands on the wall with a yelp to prevent her collision, trying to turn around but it was too late. Eren had cornered her. The delicious heat of his body and the smell of his woody perfume were all over her. She should have known better.
He pressed his body hard against hers and used his arms to block her way out of the prison of his presence. โNot so brave now, huh?โ He purred in her ear.ย
Mikasa let out an annoyed groan but it quickly turned into moan when his hands found their way past the hem of her summer dress to her panties. Both sighed at the touch of his fingers on her already wet core.
He didnโt give her any chance to process what was happening before he moved aside her white lacy underwear and put a finger inside her. It entered so fast and easy, that she was equally upset and delighted. It had been a rough week since they were this close to each other, since he touched her for the last time.
She was so wet and turned on that it was easy for him to put two more fingers in. She let out a loud whimper at the delicious stretch, he started to finger her so rough and fast, like he was desperate to make her cum. But it was never difficult for him to make her reach ecstasy. He was so tuned with her body that she would say he knew it better than herself.ย
A mix of emotions clouded her mind. She was furious at the betrayal of her body, at him for not being fair to her, for leading her to a path of self destruction; because if he gave her this every day, she would gladly lose herself just to have him. But there was also pleasure, so much pleasure. He was grinding his erection against her uncovered butt, wrinkling her pretty pink dress by groping her covered tits with his other hand; and he was having a feast with the skin of her neck and her shoulders, kissing her, biting her softly. Enjoying the free access that her hair pinned in a high bun provided. She whimpered when he started to rub her clit with his thumb in fast motions. It was too much. The pleasure, the heat, the resentment, the mess of her feelings, his fingers inside her, him groaning like a wounded man behind her.
She hated him.
She loved him.
She came with a loud whine, throwing her head back against his shoulder. She was breathing hard and her legs were made of jelly. Mikasa let him carry the weight of her body while she recovered from her orgasm. She whimpered when he took his fingers out of her weeping cunt, but she felt too blissed out to care.
It was when her breathing stabilized a little when was able to move.
She turned around in Erenโs embrace and looked into his eyes for the first time that day. His green eyes were wild and darkened with the veil of lust she knew how to recognize so well. His hands were holding her waist so tight that it was starting to hurt. But he was also looking at her in that peculiar way that felt too close to adoration, a look that she hated because she was sure it was a thing from her imagination. Or maybe he was crueler than what she took him for and he had mastered that look just to keep her caught in his web. Because he felt entitled to demand things from her that she was too scared to ask back.
Angry tears were forming in her eyes and before she could help herself, she raised her hand and slapped him hard across the cheek that she was supposed to kiss in the morning as her greeting, she hit him so hard that it made him turn his head. The sound of her slap echoed throughout the room, her eyes were wide open and she heard herself gasp, but she was too focused on Erenโs face. On the red mark of her slender fingers on his cheek and his bewildered expression. He turned to look back at her and they shared an intense look before he took her lips in a furious kiss.
They devoured each otherโs mouths like they were trying to suck each otherโs souls.ย
Mikasa tangled her fingers in his hair and moaned in delight when he lifted her by her legs to slam her against the wall.
She helped him to take his cock out of his pants and gave it a few desperate pumps, but Eren slapped her hand away and took himself in his hand to line it up to her entrance. He entered her without any warning, with the intention of causing pain. But she could only whine in ecstasy at the feeling of finally having him inside after so many days.
He let out a shaky breath and buried his face in the crook of her neck, his body trembling as if he was in pain. But when he lifted his head to look at her, it was pleasure what she saw in those eyes. He started to fuck her without breaking their intense eye contact, but he was thrusting into her so good that she couldnโt stay sane for too long. She threw her head back again, relishing in the delicious ache of his cock hitting a sweet spot deep inside her. Her vision was turning blurry but she kept seeing him through the steam of their ragged breaths.ย
The way she felt while Eren was fucking her couldnโt be compared to anything else. She was being so shameless, moaning so loud, letting herself get lost in the euphoria of their intercourse, his hands were crushing her thighs but she was too high on pleasure to care if his fingers would let visible marks that her short dress wouldn't cover; her bun felt loose on top of her head and her bangs had long freed themselves from the tie and were wet with her sweat on her forehead. Eren didnโt look much better. His pristine white shirt was wrinkled by her fingers, his hair was a damp mess and his mouth was swollen with the harshness of their kisses. He was flushed and sweating, from the effort of holding her weight and the power of his hips stabbing his cock inside her.
How did they get to this point, she thought. Angrily fucking like animals against a wall after ignoring themselves for days because neither of them were mature enough to recognize their mistakes. In a place where anyone could see them, not too far from where their families were waiting for them to go back and play the cordial acquaintances they never were.
So caught up in the moment, they werenโt aware of the world that awaited them outside. And they didnโt notice the door of that secluded studio that was left open either.
It would have been hard to find them in such a scandalous position when the gallery was so large and full of confusing hallways and rooms that anyone could get lost in it.
But Pieck knew that place like the palm of her hand. And even if she didnโt, she had followed them here with a bad feeling in her guts.
She stood behind that mahogany door, unable to move despite her need to get out of there running; too shocked to even breathe properly. She heard them, she saw them. Saw Eren fucking her younger sister against the wall, the one girl he had rejected publicly over the years. She saw how instead of screaming at her in anger for disrespecting him like she did, Eren rewarded Mikasa with pleasure after she slapped him in the face.
There was so much intimacy in the way they touched each other, something that could only be sustained by an old flame. And those things do not happen in a spur of a heated moment. No. This thing between them has been brewed carefully, with time. And that thought made her stomach turn.
She made her way out of the gallery with clenched fists and impotence clawing its nails into her throat. Sheโs never felt more angry, frustrated.ย
Just this morning, she had laughed at her sisterโs face for being ignored by the same man that was now fucking her. Pieck kept jabbing her with mean little comments throughout the morning, enjoying Mikasaโs irritated expressions, almost laughing at how hard she tried not to crumble in front of everyone because Eren didnโt greet her properly, not even in the name of politeness.ย
How could Mikasa hide this from her? How dare she sneak around with the man she supposedly hated so loudly?ย
Fucking hypocrite, thatโs what she was. Calling Pieck out for wanting Eren while being engaged with Porco, calling her a slutโwhen sheโs been fucking Eren this whole time behind everyone's back.
But if Mikasa thought that she would let this pass, she didnโt know her older sister at all.
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Hellooo!! So itโs been long time since I have introduced a new fic and although I do have like 3 more aus I made last year to introduce but I wanted to introduce this one instead since I already have a name and a stated lore and ideas.
I have planned this AU to be either two chapter long or make two parts of this AU (one settled on the past and the other on the present/future) yet itโs still on a maybe lol.
First of all, I wanna talk about the meaning for this title. Iโm not using Genesis for a name but as a word to represent the beginning of something so this title basically means a new beginning or a new era and we know Dawn itโs the first appearance of light which can represent a new hope.
Before start explaining all the lore I want to talk about the setting and location. Iโm not an expert doing maps but for this AU Paradis doesnโt exist, instead used to live in Eldia (and btw, Ymir the founder doesnโt exist in this au and nothing that happened to Eldia never existed here). Before the apocalypse, Marley had a frontier to separate their territory from Eldia yet that frontier no longer exist after the apocalypse, now thereโs walls surrounding a small area of each territory, protecting the affluent neighborhoods and the corporation building while everyone else are outdoors where walls are non-existent, leaving them to deal with the danger.
These are few ideas/information for this au:
A lethal virus spread over the world, attacking the brain causing aggressiveness and madness. The virus is contagious and can be transmitted through bites, scratches or through the contact (in this case a healthy open wound in contact with infected blood/wound). This virus has killed most of the humanization and scientists had been working on the cure by using some Ackermansโ blood who have immunity. In the beginning, the research for the cure was moral and safe but as the time passes by the scientists took drastic and immoral alternatives as draining a great quantity of blood from an ackerman causing weakness and in some cases death. For scientists these sacrifices are in not in vain yet this caused the decrease of the clan.
The lab department (aka Bionexus Corporation, just created this name for this lore lol) belongs to the Tybur family and controls every lab department around the territory. Marley is the main lab department which is under Willy Tyburโs control while and the other lab in Eldia is controlled by Lara Tybur although sometimes Willy goes there to check (thereโs more departments but for this AU these two may be the main focus).
The lab counts with small compartments that each Ackerman owns as their own bedroom yet only 10 rooms are in use and one of these belongs to Mikasa (20 years old) whoโs been living in the lab for almost a decade as a test-subject. She was captived at the age of 9 yet she doesnโt remember it since part of her memories were erased. She doesnโt know how she arrived to the corporation neither what exactly happened to her parents since the corporation manipulated her by telling her parents died due the virus.
Everything is mundane and a repetitive routine until everything changes at the arrival of scientist Eren (23 years old) whoโs replacing his fatherโs position at the lab in Eldia while heโs outdoors working for the main lab building in Marley. When she sees him for the first time, she wonโt be shy but curious to meet him since heโs someone she has never seen ever before, a new face she was curious to know about.
Eventually they will become closer and Eren will share with Mikasa his thoughts, any joyful memory he has in mind or just talk about anything. Talking is the only thing they both can do since Mikasa canโt abandon the room and thereโs a glass wall separating both from contact. Of course, Eren wishes she could have some freedom but he knows this was part of the protocol and must be follow but one day he realizes everything is nothing but a facede, the methods to find the cure are nothing but inhumane and immoral, causing extreme draining od blood and plasma, weakening and harming Ackerman through the process and in past cases causing uncountable deaths. Finding out this infuriated Eren even more when he saw Mikasa in such weakened state as an amount of her blood was being drained, he attempted first to stop this yet security took him and the Tybur siblings threatened him to pretend he didnโt saw nothing and if he does something they will make sure he doesnโt have the opportunity to say it. However, this wasnโt going to stop Eren which he began to thinking on a way to help Mikasa to escape yet he had to kept the facade he was still an allie.
The ending for this first chapter might be quite predictable but the second chapter will show more obstacles and conflicts for them such as the infected, the dystopian/apocalyptic world with the shortage of nutrients, gangs and the tybur sibling searching for them and this second part can occur anything either good or bad but I rather kept this second part as secret (and also because itโs still on progress and Iโm debating certain ideas for the lore)
And this is everything I have about the lore JSKSKKS, I have to mention there will be other AOT characters into this story too but most of them will be part of the second part probably. I hope this new AU has caught an interest in you and if I can, I hope I can share the first chapter of this AU this year!! Iโll work on that and I hope this can be published for 2026!!
Where Eren and Mikasa are both heirs to their family's empires. And in a very old fashioned way to strengthen their control on the system, they make an alliance through an arranged marriage between Eren, the remaining heir of the Jaegers and one of the Ackerman sisters. The bride was supposed to be Pieck, the oldest Ackerman girl. But she was already engaged with another powerful family. So Mikasa took her place. This made her happy as she had a childish crush on the Jaeger boy growing up; whilst Eren, older and unbothered by duty, never gave it too much of a thought to the swap of brides.
Things change when Mikasa is sixteen and she listens to a private conversation between Eren and his friends at her sister's Coming of Age Celebration, where he told them that he found his young fiance dull and uninteresting; that he couldn't imagine a future with a girl like her. Mikasa, guided by blind rage and hurt pride, decided to end the engagement immediately, claiming that she and her fiance were completely incompatible and that she was not willing to enter unprepared into a marriage that would be determinant for the future of their families. Eren complied without a word.
But things changed after that day. An irrational rivalry grew between them, fed by resentment and pride. They couldn't stand each other, but would somehow seek the other's attention for reasons they couldn't name. It was becoming an obsession and it went both ways. It became public knowledge that to name them in the same sentence out loud was scandalous. And even when no member of the elite fully understood the petty truth behind the breaking of their engagement, the speculations made their public appearances the hot topic of every event. This only fueled the intensity of what was growing between them, twisted and dangerous as it appeared to be.
On Mikasa's own Coming of Age Celebration, they discovered that they were walking on thin ice. Eren felt a consuming rage every time some boy danced with her. And Mikasa felt something ugly inside every time she let disappointment cut through her when Eren never asked her to dance with her, not even at her own party. If this insignificant layer of ice were to break beneath Mikasa's feet, she was bound to drown.
So when she turned 19, she decided it was time to leave her obsession with her ex fiance behind. She started seeing boys her age, searching in them things she could never find. Something to feed the hunger inside her but she's always left starved. This is what finally makes Eren break. He would never have it. Some insignificant boy could never have her, he needed to make her understand that. It's the start of an addicting noโgoodโthing. An affair so dangerous, much more threatening than the simple contractual marriage they broke years ago. And it's something that not only puts the both of them in the line of fire, but the alliance of their families too.
For You, My Blood Soothes (My Heart Aches) Snippet
Vampire Princess Mikasa x Human Knight Eren
Words - 875
The ending for this snippet is very abrupt, sorry for that! Also I wanted to do the cute bracket name thingy that everyone does lmk if it sounds cute or ass
I also apologize if there's any mistakes
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1819, Koryx, Venolara
The halls of the manor were filled with a certain amount of warmth and chatter unbeknownst to the Ackerman family. Their ballroom was filled with the noisy audience of all those with the familiar fangs and blood-lust. Families with whom they have went years without.
The beautiful scent of blood carried its way along the castle, the fumes spreading from the wine glasses all the way to the princess' bedroom upstairs.
And, gods, was her mind swirling.
For years they had gone without visitors, locking their doors out to any outsiders, it was safe that wayโeasy.
But now, their doors have been opened, welcoming others into their home. It wasโฆ intimate, unfamiliar.
Mikasa didn't know what to make of it.
She stood in her room, with her maids running their hands over her ruffled blood red dress, ensuring it was all perfect. Her hair was curled, so different from her natural pin straight locks. It was pinned away from her face, allowing everyone to gaze upon her beautiful pale skin and her dark, red lips. She wishes she had something to do with her hands, to grasp onto something other than the delicate fabric of her skirt. Her palms were getting increasingly sweaty, the nerves rushing through her veins.
Heraโone of her maids, her favoriteโcomes up to her front, her eyes crinkling at the corners as her smile lines stretched.
"Oh, my dear," she says, fondness dripping through her words. "You look gorgeousโjust utterly divine."
Mikasa smiles at her, her red lips parting for her white teeth as she flashes her tiny fangs for show.
"Thank you," she says, her voice only a whisper. She only wishes she could see for herself.
Hera clasps her calloused hands onto Mikasa's arms, rubbing them up and down in a soothing motion before stepping away from her, and all the other maids follow after. They stare at her in awe and a profound sense of pride.
Their princess, their soon-to-be queen, all dressed up and pretty in red. Her dress' collar is cut just low enough to expose the round curve of her bust, her waist is cinched tight, courtesy of her lovingly devoted maids. The skirt was bunched up on her right hip, with an extra layer of fabric underneath, showing her curves. Looking down upon herself, she realizes she certainly feels pretty, but she can only really take the words of others.
Though she's sure they would compliment her no matter what.
Her gloved fingers trail the sharp skin of her collarbone, before falling right before the dip of her chest. Her eyes follow.
She flattens her palm against it, feeling her heartbeat. It sends a rush of pride through her lungs.
There, she would be marked. Their crest would lay on her chest within the year, and she would then be crowned Queen of Venolara for all to see. People will bow down to her and she won't live such a private life no longer. It's funny, it feels as if it was only yesterday that she was running along the halls, searching for her mother in their many games of hide and seek.
She always had a habit of letting her win.
Mikasa exhaled sharply as the memories flooded her mind. Her hand started to shake against her chest as she tried to take in another breath.
The feeling always overtook her in the most inconvenient situations. Her maids started to wrap around her, chiding the same affirmations she has gotten so accustomed to. They always knew the procedure.
A soft knock broke her out of it, the familiar rhythm that she had told him to use since she was six filled her ears. She turned towards the door just quick enough for him to open it, hiding her hands behind her so that he wouldn't take notice.
"Father," she breathed, her lips shaping into a small, unsure smile.
Killian Ackerman smiled at her, so proud and lovingly. His once demanding and intimidating presence faltering at the sight of her. His little girl, dressed in the finest silk in all of Venolara. He nodded towards the maids that stood in the room, bowing at his entrance, and allowed them to leave.
"Mikasa, my girl," he coons, his voice dripping with adoration, "you look beautiful." He steps towards her, taking in his only daughter's beauty.
Mikasa's hands stay pressed against her back, "thank you, father."
Silence encompassed them, the sounds of their breathing enveloped their ears as a substitute. The sweat gathering in Mikasa's palms were getting increasingly difficult to ignore, so she sat down on her bed, her palms flat underneath her behind.
"Mikasa," her father says, ever so kindly, coming over to look her in the eyes as he sits down beside her, "show me your hands." He hold out his own, palms facing the ceiling.
Mikasa shakes her head, eyes glued to the carpet, looking as frail and innocent as she had years ago. Killian laughs softly, looking into his daughter's eyes. All that he could see was the young girl who had taken shelter in his arms after a nightmare, the one who always relied on him so much.
The conversation was taking place in a peaceful climate. Carla and Sasha were engaged in passionate discussions, varying between the latest episode of their favorite slushy romantic show or Sasha telling how she had a huge crush on her new yoga master, that she described in words she would have liked to cover her ears and forget, while Mikasa participated more in comfortable silence as usual, with little nods and quiet giggles. Looking at them, she thought how she appreciates these kinds of moments more than she realized, perhaps because she had never really had them before, enjoying the gentleness of a conversation without judgment, laughter that was not hypocritical or forced. For some people, this was normal, but for her, she knows that she cherishes these moments even more. She felt like she had finally found her place among people she could truly feel safe and loved. She hoped for that with all her heart.
Wandering between the exchange and her own thoughts, she was quietly sipping her tea when this sweet atmosphere was interrupted by loud laughs coming from the garden. She turned her head discreetly to see what was happening.
What a mistake. What a terrible, incorrigible, bad idea.
May God help her.
He was out of the pool, walking casually towards the table where few beers and cigarettes lay. But that wasn't the most important thing, oh no. Eren was shirtless. Shirtless. His khaki swimsuit shorts pulled down just far enough so you could see his V-shape body going down to- She'll never finish this line.
His hair was wet and pressed against the nape of his neck, water drops falling slowly down his upper torso, the sun's rays reflecting off his hair, projecting some lighter brown strands onto his water-darkened hair, as if the sun too were participating in giving him the most magnetic aura possible.
She was about to faint.
She knew she should look away now, right now, that she should immediately return to the conversation. But she couldn't. No, she didn't want to. She could feel her cheeks warming and her heart racing, trying with all her might to control her breathing, and, even though she don't want to admit it, she try as best she could, which meant miserably, not to think about the quivering ache and sensitive heat between her legs.
She followed him bringing his beer to his lips, his adam's apple moving with each sip.
It's not fair, being so ravishing like that.
Just like this, the outside world had disappeared, there was only her and her mind, starting to engage in a heated debate, agonizing over how she wanted to die of shame that she could look at him so...wrongfully and unrefined. Besides, she had already seen him shirtless, she was ridiculous!! Well, in her poor defense, she had only seen him like this on family photos at Carla's house; the reality was much more...appealing.
It's not just "Oh wow, what a handsome young man." No, if her shaking legs and her mind would let her, she'd want burningly to join him now, swimming with him, intertwine her arms behind his neck and lose herself in the infinitely green color of his eyes and the melody of his laugh, so alive and powerful that always made her miss a heartbeat...
Except that every dream comes to an end. And while she was lost in her reverie, Eren glanced quickly into the living room and was about to resume his conversation with Armin when he noticed Mikasa's eyes on him.
She could have reacted calmly, could have simply waved at him, but of course. Mikasa decided his gaze and the fact he caught her staring was from now on the end of the world. And in two seconds, everything happened:
She turn around as quickly as possible to get back to the conversation, except that her knee hit the head of the wooden table, causing all the teacups and cutlery to spill onto the floor.
"Oh god!"
"Shit, Mikasa-!!"
Sasha had tea all over her shirt, and Carla was already starting to pick up the bits of glass on the floor while casting worried glances at Mikasa:
"My dear are you okay? You didn't hurt yourself? What happened?" Mikasa was as red as a tomato and answered breathlessly: "I'm terribly sorry, I-I don't know what happened I'm so sorry, I'm fine, let me help you wait please-"
If Mikasa could bury her head in the ground, she'd do it now. She's a mess, and for a second, she thought this was her punishment for looking at him.
Never again. She vows to herself she'd never do it again.
"Hey...Are you three okay? Do you need any help?"
She wanted to vanish. The deep voice belongs to someone she knows very well, certainly not the person who is partly responsible for her foolishness. She slowly raised her face and saw Eren not even two meters from her. Oh, her apologies, Eren and his six-pack abs, tanned and freshly brilliant from the water.
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He was everything and nothing at the same time. He felt everything: smells, touch, the sound of birds singing above the trees, the echo of water from the river flowing toward an unknown destination, just like him. Overwhelmed by the life around him, by the smallest things that didn't matter, like the reflection of the sky on a puddle of water, by the glint of the sunshine passing through his fingers, by the smell of the earth after the rain.
But as soon as he closed his eyes, as silence enshrouded his mind, he would fall...fall...fall. Into the void that was his own existence, sinking tearingly into the abyss, where his memory reminded him that he was nothing, that he was everything. A beating heart that wasn't his own, a mind that dreamed and desired that did not belong to him, mutilated arms to reach a destination whose purpose he did not know, tears to cry for a past he cannot remember, and for a unreality future in sheer agony. Love, beauty, joy, fear, betrayal, he understood what these unique feelings were the moment his eyes opened for the first time, just as he grasped at the same time that it was not him, that there was no him.
He was more it than him.
He wanted warmth, he longed to feel the embrace of a body against him, gently reassuring him that he was safe, wanting affection, compassion, and empathy from a human, just one person, to know what it felt like to be seen in the eyes of another, to walk side by side with goodness and find this him that he couldn't find himself. He cried every night, desperately calling for help in the silence of his wailing, since his voice only resulted in screams and shouts of terror from passersby, and blood, blood all the time, and so much pain, the doors of death always cruelly closing just before deliverance to him. But, there was a darker part of him that thirsted for destruction too, wanting to scream out his suffering so that others could understand, feel even a fraction of the perpetual torture that served as his body and soul, giving way to the beast and the monster that he is, embracing his fate, giving up the fight for a path of peace and acceptance, letting himself go for his rage and enactment of the devil on earth.
He was exhausted from breathing, an abominable reminder that he was alive, and those, for eternity. An eternity wondering why he had been created in this world if the world itself was horrified by him, what his purpose was if his hands were made for evil and slaughtering? Whereas the flowers or tiny animals he held on sweet afternoons near the fields, so delicate and weak in his hands, seemed so soft and fragile. A feeling he wanted, if he could, to call protecting.
Sleeping was nothing but a nightmare, living was nothing but torment, a perpetual cycle that would never end. So he walked. He walked and walked; he doesn't know how many days or how many nights he wandered, like a ghost, like a soulless shell, avoiding neighborhoods and big cities; he preferred forests, nature, and the company of birds...
...Until one day, at the top of a mountain, he saw in the distance an isolated cabin, which seemed at first forsaken, but laundry was hanging outside, an axe was stuck in the middle of a log, the windows were open, smoke was coming out of the roof of the cabin, and most importantly, he saw a young girl yonder. Her skirt and shirt were completely covered in dust and mud, she was holding pieces of wood in her arms as best she could, her long, dark ponytail swinging with every step she took, and the last thing he saw was the scarf around her neck, red, which seemed to dance around her face due to the strong wind coming from the hills, and she gently closed the door with her foot.
She seemed to live here alone. How was that possible? Wasn't she cold? Wasn't she afraid? Didn't she feel...lonely?
Like him.
He waited a long time at the top of the hill, dusk falling over the plain, the last red-orange rays of the sun falling ethereally on the cabin, and him, disappeared into the darkness, his long, tangled, and dirty dark-brown hair moving in the last breezes of the rising night, hiding his face until it stopped completely, highlighting his bright green eyes, filled with blood, illuminating the space.
Eren.
That was the name the creator had given him, the first thing he heard after his birth, or rebirth. A name that meant everything and nothing at the same time. A blessing and a curse. But at that moment, for just one little, inestimable second, he knew. That name was calling him to that cabin. To that girl. For the first time, it was meaningful.
So he slowly lifted his head and walked. He walked down the hill.
He was everything and nothing at the same time. He felt everything: smells, touch, the sound of birds singing above the trees, the echo of water from the river flowing toward an unknown destination, just like him. Overwhelmed by the life around him, by the smallest things that didn't matter, like the reflection of the sky on a puddle of water, by the glint of the sunshine passing through his fingers, by the smell of the earth after the rain.
But as soon as he closed his eyes, as silence enshrouded his mind, he would fall...fall...fall. Into the void that was his own existence, sinking tearingly into the abyss, where his memory reminded him that he was nothing, that he was everything. A beating heart that wasn't his own, a mind that dreamed and desired that did not belong to him, mutilated arms to reach a destination whose purpose he did not know, tears to cry for a past he cannot remember, and for a unreality future in sheer agony. Love, beauty, joy, fear, betrayal, he understood what these unique feelings were the moment his eyes opened for the first time, just as he grasped at the same time that it was not him, that there was no him.
He was more it than him.
He wanted warmth, he longed to feel the embrace of a body against him, gently reassuring him that he was safe, wanting affection, compassion, and empathy from a human, just one person, to know what it felt like to be seen in the eyes of another, to walk side by side with goodness and find this him that he couldn't find himself. He cried every night, desperately calling for help in the silence of his wailing, since his voice only resulted in screams and shouts of terror from passersby, and blood, blood all the time, and so much pain, the doors of death always cruelly closing just before deliverance to him. But, there was a darker part of him that thirsted for destruction too, wanting to scream out his suffering so that others could understand, feel even a fraction of the perpetual torture that served as his body and soul, giving way to the beast and the monster that he is, embracing his fate, giving up the fight for a path of peace and acceptance, letting himself go for his rage and enactment of the devil on earth.
He was exhausted from breathing, an abominable reminder that he was alive, and those, for eternity. An eternity wondering why he had been created in this world if the world itself was horrified by him, what his purpose was if his hands were made for evil and slaughtering? Whereas the flowers or tiny animals he held on sweet afternoons near the fields, so delicate and weak in his hands, seemed so soft and fragile. A feeling he wanted, if he could, to call protecting.
Sleeping was nothing but a nightmare, living was nothing but torment, a perpetual cycle that would never end. So he walked. He walked and walked; he doesn't know how many days or how many nights he wandered, like a ghost, like a soulless shell, avoiding neighborhoods and big cities; he preferred forests, nature, and the company of birds...
...Until one day, at the top of a mountain, he saw in the distance an isolated cabin, which seemed at first forsaken, but laundry was hanging outside, an axe was stuck in the middle of a log, the windows were open, smoke was coming out of the roof of the cabin, and most importantly, he saw a young girl yonder. Her skirt and shirt were completely covered in dust and mud, she was holding pieces of wood in her arms as best she could, her long, dark ponytail swinging with every step she took, and the last thing he saw was the scarf around her neck, red, which seemed to dance around her face due to the strong wind coming from the hills, and she gently closed the door with her foot.
She seemed to live here alone. How was that possible? Wasn't she cold? Wasn't she afraid? Didn't she feel...lonely?
Like him.
He waited a long time at the top of the hill, dusk falling over the plain, the last red-orange rays of the sun falling ethereally on the cabin, and him, disappeared into the darkness, his long, tangled, and dirty dark-brown hair moving in the last breezes of the rising night, hiding his face until it stopped completely, highlighting his bright green eyes, filled with blood, illuminating the space.
Eren.
That was the name the creator had given him, the first thing he heard after his birth, or rebirth. A name that meant everything and nothing at the same time. A blessing and a curse. But at that moment, for just one little, inestimable second, he knew. That name was calling him to that cabin. To that girl. For the first time, it was meaningful.
So he slowly lifted his head and walked. He walked down the hill.
