Fandoms have become so toxic nowadays, especially on Tumblr, I think. It's no wonder that authors eventually grow tired of it. I just can't understand why everything has to be filled with so much negativity and hate when fandoms are supposed to create a sense of community and bring joy to both authors and readers. Why direct so much hate toward someone who has invested so much time, effort, and love into creating something special? It makes no sense to me why anyone would choose to spend their time being cruel to others.
I'm so sorry for everything you've been through. It's so unfair, especially because you, of all people, deserve nothing but the best for being such an amazing author and an incredible person. I promise you that there are so many of us who love your writing more than anything, and we'll always be here to support you and wait for you, even if you decide to take a break for months or even years. And honestly, that would be completely understandable after everything you've been through.
Your health and your life will always be far more important than this fandom. You should only do what truly makes you happy, and you should always put yourself first. I think people often forget that behind every blog and username is a real person with a real life and real feelings that can be deeply hurt. It's far too easy to say horrible things when you're hiding behind anonymity.
No reasonable person would ever judge the choices you make, whether they're about your life or your stories. I just hope this fandom will allow you to do your own thing in peace, so that you can enjoy creating, and we as readers can enjoy your work the way it was always meant to be❤️
it’s true. everything has become so toxic lately, even the smallest things. somehow, even writing fanfiction has turned into a competition, with this constant sense of rivalry driven by jealousy, envy, and the need to outdo everyone else. it’s honestly sad, because writing is supposed to come from passion. it’s meant to be something you do because you love it, because you have stories you want to tell, not because you’re constantly looking over your shoulder to see what everyone else is doing.
i’ve been in this fandom for a long time, and while it’s never been perfect, i don’t remember it feeling quite like this. now it feels as though people are always waiting for the next controversy, the next person to target, the next rumour to spread. instead of celebrating each other’s work or encouraging creativity, so much energy is spent on comparisons, gossip, and tearing people down. it’s exhausting to witness, let alone be on the receiving end of it.
i’ve tried so many times to understand the logic behind certain behaviours, but i genuinely can’t. i don’t understand why people choose to copy someone else’s work instead of creating something of their own. i don’t understand why some people are so comfortable spreading lies or encouraging harassment over something that’s supposed to be a hobby. i don’t understand why some seem to confuse ”popularity“ with permission to treat others badly (and please, note needed, the concept of “popular writer” in this fandom is something else that i don’t quite understand). maybe there isn’t any logic to it. maybe some people simply enjoy the attention that comes from creating conflict, even if it comes at someone else’s expense.
and yes, if i’m being completely honest, i think i’ve started to grow a little tired of it all. not of writing itself, never that, but of everything surrounding it. sometimes it feels as though you spend more time protecting your work than actually enjoying creating it. i have to keep reminding myself why i started writing in the first place. i don’t write to compete with anyone. i don’t write to chase numbers or validation. i write because i genuinely love telling stories, because i love these characters, and because there are people who read my work with kindness and excitement. those people are the reason i keep coming back, and i never want to lose sight of that because of the negativity created by a handful of individuals.
but well, thank you so much for your message, my dear friend. i really mean that. i’ve spent the last few days away from everything, and i think stepping back was exactly what i needed. when this last straw happened, i was genuinely on the verge of deleting my fanfics, my twitter, and my blog altogether. i’m not exaggerating when i say i was that close. i kept thinking that maybe it simply wasn’t worth it anymore, that it would be easier to disappear than to keep dealing with all of this. thankfully, i didn’t make that decision while i was upset. i gave myself time to calm down, to think, and to remember that making permanent decisions based on temporary emotions rarely ends well. being away from social media helped me realise tgat there are far more people who have shown me kindness than people who’ve tried to hurt me. sometimes the negative voices are simply louder, and they make you forget everyone else who’s quietly been supporting you all along.
the truth is that this wasn’t even just about this one incident. a lot has happened over the past few months, and it’s all piled up little by little until i finally reached a breaking point. i think this was simply the last straw. when enough things happen one after another, even something that might seem small to someone else can become overwhelming because it’s carrying the weight of everything that came before it. that’s why this affected me so deeply. it wasn’t just fandom drama, it was everything at once.
i’m feeling much better now, though. i’m still disappointed, and i don’t think i’ll ever understand why some people choose to behave the way they do, but i’m not going to let that take away something i’ve spent years building. i’m proud of my stories, i’m proud of the people who’ve found comfort in them, and i’m proud of the community i’ve built with readers who have always treated me with kindness and respect. i refuse to let bitterness be the thing that defines my experience.
that being said, one thing has changed. i’ll stand by what i said before, if i see any more plagiarism, copying, or people spreading lies about me, i won’t ignore it anymore. i’ll report it, and if i need to provide evidence, i will. for a long time i always tried to be the bigger person. i chose forgiveness because i thought it was the healthiest approach. i gave people the benefit of the doubt, convinced myself they probably didn’t mean harm, and moved on more times than i can count. but forgiveness isn’t supposed to mean accepting repeated disrespect, and kindness shouldn’t be mistaken for weakness.
so that’s where i draw the line. i’m not interested in arguments, public call-outs, or creating more drama than there already is. i simply won’t allow people to plagiarise my work, spread falsehoods about me, or take advantage of my silence anymore. protecting the work i’ve poured my heart into isn’t being petty, it’s setting a boundary. i’ve forgiven enough. from now on, if someone crosses that line, i’ll deal with it accordingly.
