manic pixie nightmare girl

out here every fall like "no, the haunting of hill house isn't about ghosts, it's about the way that Nell's abuse, repressed sexuality, and desperate desire to be loved have manifested in extreme psychic phenomena that she can't entirely control! it's about the way that women bury their desires so deep that they fester and become malignant! it's about constricting yourself tighter and tighter until you become like the singularity that precipitated the big bang, until you become an awful force to be reckoned with, whether you want to be or not! it's about deciding whether to accept truth or safety! authenticity or happiness! it's about being driven to madness by the knowledge that the real world has no kind place for you, no safe, sane place where you belong, and so you choose the house, not sane, as your eternal resting place! it's about! dreams! even larks! and katydids! are supposed, by some, to dream! and without her dreams of love and power to retreat into, Nell can only live!!!!! not sane!!!!! in the house!!!!!!!!!

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honestly? abandoned/on indefinite hiatus/very slow to update fics, even and especially AUs and longfics, are often some of my absolute favorites. and people who refuse to read them are missing out!

Work isn't vibing with me today. Does anyone have pictures of small wild animals being gently grisped by human hands, unharmed but looking very displeased about it. Like little birds and small mammals being held like this.

Ebenezer Scrooge: Goes outside