Tumblr Survivor: Guyana

I'm worried that I don't have enough on my resumé for the end game. I'm set up "pretty" well to get to that point (watch me jinx my ass OUT NOW) but I believe it's because everyone thinks they can beat me.

I need to make a move SOON. Jones NEEDS TO GO TODAY but I'm worried she has an idol. I kind of want to throw a vote at Alyssa and blame it on someone else because they'd never believe it was me? It would cause cracks in whatever alliances we have with Chelsea/Dani. I just DON'T MORALLY want to do it. I feel fucking terrible and I'll feel even more terrible if it's the vote that tips the scale in the direction of her going :\

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I HATE THINKING ABOUT THE END GAME BECAUSE.. I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO JINX THINGS BUT....

I just know Devon's game is tooo fucking strong and he is HANDS DOWN THE BIGGEST THREAT TO WIN THIS GAME.

Alyssa is second biggest. I honestly think even Chelsea has a better shot at this point than I do.

I NEED TO FIGURE SOMETHING OUT.

If I don't have to use my idol tonight (I'll only do it IF Jones uses the idol)...  then next tribal I may have to be sneaky and idol our target and force either Devon or Alyssa out.

This is the ONLY WAY I have a chance. I rather get 4th and took a swing to DO SOMETHING IN THIS GAME than to get 3rd by doing nothing.

I haven't heard much about the vote but it has to be between Jones or Dani..... Jones voted for Devon last round which worries me even though Dani voted me lmfao. Dani only voted me because she was told I was majority, so i can't be too mad. Jones however, idk what that Devon vote was about. I want Devon with me at the end so I want to knock out anyone who potentially gets in the way of that.

so Jess basically just confirmed to me that the vote to go was on me tonight. like we had a deep conversation about why it didn't work out most of the time and i'm really glad we had that. I also lied and told her Aidan was gunning for them the whole time skfskjfksf so oops. Jess if you're reading this now i'm sorryyyyy for lying i was p desperate BUT UMMMM yeah i'm trying to figurew this out so i can stay so yeah. hopefully it's dani!!! hopefully i make it!!! hopefully I win

sooooooo here i am :) that smile isn't supposed to be sarcastic i swear but I know i'm going home. like, i already cried about it and i think i'm gonna cry about it again, but I don't regret anything and i'm honestly really proud of myself and how far I've come. I'm the last of OG tamaka!! so that's cute. so thank you to anyone who was like,, supporting me in anyway shape or form? i really appreciate it. like genuinely. i'll probably pop off on the tribal - BUT yeah. I really appreciate it. hmu if you ever wanna see the finished doc. I keep hinting at it so i might as well show people. but genuinely though,,, thank you so much. i know this won't be the last time you hear from me, so GET READy for me to rig myself into a game and win or smth. <3

After Jones put my name down, I was shocked to see her drop in the immunity. She HAS to go, just cause she is an immunity threat. Nothing personal whatsoever, but it's all part of the game!

THIS BITCH IS GOING TO FINAL 4! I honestly can't believe it.

This round is gonna get messy. I'm either going to destroy my game and go out 4th or I'm going to somehow end up in final 3. I think I rather go down swinging and making a move than playing it safe and getting beat in the final 3 anyways.

My plan for this round is simple: Promise both Alyssa/Devon I'll use my idol on them. Get them to both dump their votes on each other.. and idol the person I want out of this game. I didn't come here to make friends.. those are a bonus.

Devon HAS TO GO.

If they both somehow want to end up in the final 3 with each other then they are dumber than bricks and I'm done for. But LET'S PRAY SOME MORE!

Yooo so me and Jess are trynna make it to final 2 by knocking out Devon and Alyssa. But everything I type here never happens so LOL

Jess approached me and mentioned possibly voting Alyssa because Dani will be easy to beat in F4 and Devon has been cool af to both of us. I haven't heard anything in hours so im hoping this goes smoothly. I hate to vote out Alyssa because she's been awesome, but i have to think of my game and voting out Dani will be a waste imo.

I hope i don't get blindsided tonight but i can't promise myself that it won't happen.

This one goes out to my Final 3 partner, Devon! Oh wait, you wanted final 3 with Jess. OH WAIT, no you def wanted final 3 with me because Jess and Alyssa NEEDED to be broken up. OH WAIT, wrong again!! You wanted final 3 with ANYONE who would get you there by being a total SNAKE. Devon, I commend you on your tricks to get yourself far in the game, but I am so pissed that you made it this far by playing the way that you did. I have prided myself on not being a sneaky player and always being pretty honest with the people I work with. I feel dirty that I stayed close with you and allowed you to have some control on who I voted and how I felt about certain players in the game. You pulled me and Sammy aside early on to spread lies about Jess and Alyssa so that Sammy and I would say that we want them out, and then you went to Jess and told her that Sammy hated her. All were lies but you caused a lot of drama that was right under our noses.  All of this was on call so that there is no paper trail and I am SO HAPPY that us ladies outlasted you. Karma is a biotch! I should have known that you weren't just "working" with me when you said you were gonna "lay low" about the Aidan vote.

You are probably really nice as a person outside of these games, but I honestly don't think I could ever trust you in a game again. The fact that you so easily made your way through the game at the cost of others makes me think that you have done this plenty of times before. Sorry, I don't feel bad that you got voted out; you deserved it.

Final 4! WOW. If you would have told "Day 12 Jess" she would make it this far I think she would have died.

This game has been a rollercoasterrrrrrrrr.

From feeling alone on the Fans tribe, to losing three challenges in a row, to finding a PERSON in Alyssa, to winning challenges, to constantly being targeted with Alyssa, to somehow being put in a power position, to being fed bullshit until final 5, to discovering this bullshit and taking out the BIGGEST PLAYER in this game.... IT HAS BEEN A TIME.

If I go out tonight I'll be disappointed because I do think this has been one of the BETTER games I've played. HOWEVER, if I'm Alyssa/Dani/Chelsea I would take me out.

BYEEEEEEEE <3

I'm a lil worried that I might not be making it to final 4 so if that's true, i am happy to be losing to a set of queens. In my last game I got beat by 3 men, so this is a step in a better direction lmfao. I might vote jess tonight for the sake of it being easier to win against Dani (imo, idk if Dani might have me beat because we didn't talk as much) so i see Jess as a bigger threat. However, Jess used her idol on Alyssa which leads me to think that Alyssa def won't vote for her. I really do think that i am the easier vote so just in case, I'll leave this here:

I had a lot of fun in this game and did not think that I would have gotten this far in the slightest. I feel like I did really well despite having at least one vote against me for more rounds than I'm comfortable with, and I think I proved a point that you don't always need to be super active and in every tribe conversation to do well. I do a lot of behind the scenes talking and it works for me. I love you all and I'm happy to be in the Guyana: fans v favorites final 4!

WOW I made it to FTC. I'm shook, I'm nervous as fuck, and I'm pretty sure I'm about to get verbally assaulted.

Final Note From MWAH:

So here I am. Maynor got blindsided, TJ had an idol and didn't tell me about it, and I've been on the bottom of 3/4 merge votes (I don't count Unanimous bc that's a twist so we HAd to work together) everyone has basically lied to me at some point, and all of my relationships are fractured in some way or another. Alyssa gave me her explanation why everything went down the way it did: She heard that TJ babbled to Jess that Aidan was going against Alyssa/Devon/Jess, so they confronted him with this information and flipped back to the otherside (alongside dani obviously.) HOWEVER Alyssa believes that TJ and Maynor were the ones campaigning against her, and didn't think I had anything to do with it at all (hehehehe), but because the "majority alliance" had been worried about TJ having an idol, their only options were either me or Maynor. Alyssa then told me that Aidan had been trying to throw my name out all day, but she kept me safe (HEHEHEHE) so boom.  This also lead me to the realization that TJ doesn't really trust me and he never did. If he did, he would've been able to confide in me if he found the idol (which he did) and he DID, in fact, leak to the other side that Aidan/Dani were flipping (when he said he hadn't heard anything at all). If TJ told the truth about the situation, I do think Maynor and I wouldn't have tried as hard to save him, and Maynor would still be in this game. I told him i would tell him if I heard anything, but he's most definitely on the bottom, and i most likely will be voting him out if he doesn't win immunity. (hopefully he doesn't, if he does, it's either me or chelsea.) after all of this information was being processed in my itty bitty brain, I most definitely had a mental breakdown. My brain stopped processing everything that came to mind all together. and all I could do was draw a blank and laugh to myself. I was hopeless, there was no plan moving forward and I was trapped as a "goat" once again for the eventual winner of Tumblr Survivor Guyana: Fans Vs. Favorites 7... who am I kidding? Guacamole Jones doesn't just give up that easily. Aidan and Dani had expressed that they wanted to flip before the whole TJ fiasco. If I can find a way to separate myself from him and squeeze my fat ass into any cracks i can, then I will. but it will probably end in me having to do a bit more exposing to Aidan about Alyssa. (specifically about her leaking info to me.) If I can get them to my side, I have them as allies, and I also have Chelsea. so hypothetically that would be 4 ( + 1 with Aidan's vote steal) vs 3, and we can easily sweep the majority. obviously this is an act to save myself, however, this may mean more to me than that. When I said that I wanted people to play their own games, I actually meant it. Everyone deserves to fight for their spot in the game, and should fight for their case to stay. Right now it feels like everyone is playing into Alyssa's hand, and i'm not here for it at all. so i'm gonna try to do something about it.

Buckle up bitches, it's "Tea-Time" with Jess.

Today's Topic is: "Another round, another mess".

I'm going through some SHIT.

The last couple of rounds I've been trying to do the whole "let's minimize Jess's threat level" and that shit isn't working out. I'm ironically getting credit for moves and taking out people who I can honestly say I had no say in whatsoever. I've literally done nothing in this game except be a NUMBER. The only move I've made? Is getting out Sammy but I don't think I can take FULL CREDIT FOR THAT.

So I'm kind of annoyed I'm getting way more credit than I deserve because I've been down this path before. People are using myself/Alyssa as their shields and making the moves they want to do because they won't get the blame BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT: Alyssa and I will. That'll get us taken out of this game within the next couple of rounds GUARANTEED.

I've compromised so much in this game. I basically screwed my relationship with TJ up. That shit sucks but as a player he's DANGEROUS but he was my kind of dude? Hopefully he can see the numbers/odds are stacked against him and he'll have no choice BUT TO WORK WITH ME. So let's pray that happens or else big yikes x10000.

On the next next subject that is ANNOYING ME TO NO GOD DAMN END.

J-O-N-E-S <INSERT KERMIT HANGING HIMSELF MEME HERE>. I don't get the appeal as her as a PLAYER. I get the appeal for her as a PERSON OUTSIDE OF THE GAME..... she seems awesome, relatable, funny.

HOWEVER IN THIS GAME SHE'S: Messy, annoying, and CAN NOT BE TRUSTED.

YET..... the person I consider my #1, the person who I've basically fucked up my game multiple times for bye putting my foot down every time someone tries to take her out.... STILL FUCKING TRUSTS HER?! <INSERT I DON'T UNDERSTAND DANCING GIF HERE>. I DON'T G-E-T- I-T. Jones went around last round spreading Alyssa's name. I'm almost 99.9% CERTAIN. It's so obvious she threw fucking Alyssa under the bus with the Dani vote. That shit came out when Maynor wasn't even ON. HOW DOES SHE NOT SEE THIS?!

All signs are pointing to Jones selling Alyssa out. Detective Jess will take a look at the EVIDENCE: 1. Maynor was not on when TJ was spreading the fact that Alyssa threw out Dani's name. 2. Alyssa only told Maynor/Jones about the Dani vote (50% chance Jones did it.. YAY MATH!). 3. JONES ADMITTED SHE KNEW MAYNOR THREW HER UNDER THE BUS BUT DID NOT TELL HER? LIKE WHAT KIND OF CRACK IS SHE SMOKING?! 4. We've shaded Jones twice in a row with a vote. Of course home girl doesn't TRUST YOU IN THIS GAME. 5. Jones was M.I.A yesterday however, in the main chat she said she'd be ON.

Alyssa not believing Jones had anything to do with her name going around last vote is something I can't look past. I'm at a loss with what to do right now.

ALSO them adding me to the GOLDEN QUEENS when I SPECIFICALLY asked them to do it after this game is SO SUSPECT. All of a sudden I fucking tell Alyssa I'm doubting Jones... I get added to a casual chat with Jones?! I don't fucking understand these people. How obvious do you think this is? Do you think I was born fucking a second ago? I'm just-

D O N E

This stage of the game is crucial for me personally. I don't believe the F5 will consist of myself, Jess, Alyssa, Dani, and Aidan. I think that Dani is over-paranoid more often than not, and Aidan will be smart enough to not let his advantage go to waste.

I am trying to plant a seed in Alyssa's head that we need to flip on Dani and Aidan at the F7, and hopefully she bites the bait. If this works, maybe we can boot Alyssa and leave Jess scrambling? I would rather sit with Dani and Aidan in the F3

I’m over like, 80% of these people. They really think they’re being “slick” or “sneaky” or “good at the game” just because they’re being vague with me? That’s 👏 not 👏 how 👏 I 👏 ROLL 👏 HONEY 👏👏👏 like HONESTLY did they really think I wouldn’t realize I’m getting voted out? Ofc alyssa wants to go to the end with most of these people, it’s bc they’re so obviously bad at being slick. ON TOP OF ALL OF IT you think you can get away with being “sneaky” after you blindsided me NOT ONCE, NOT TWICE, BUT 3 FUCKING TIMES? Lied to my FACE??? Okay. Sure. Play like that. God, these people are really playing into alyssa’s hand, huh? Do they not want to play for themself for once? That’s literally the only thing I want from everyone. Actually that’s not true but its fine. I want them to be HONEST AND TELL ME IM BEING VOTED OUT. AAAAAND I want them to play for themselves. Like play the fucking game or don’t sign up for it imo. I’m over it. Thank god people like Aidan exists though. He seems like he’s genuinely ready to fuck shit up, and I’m just excited to call him and expose the fuck out alyssa. Hell, even if I get voted out, I trust him to go against the grain and actually take a stance. He’s the hero of the season for a REASON lmao. But yeah I’ll keep y’all posted, but It looks like I’m getting 8th place! Which !!! Doesn’t!!!! SOund!!!!! GOOD AT ALL!!! Last time I found out I wasn’t getting voted Johnny as worried about my mental well being. Let’s just,,,, hope for the best this time LMao

I. Dont. Like. Sneaks. In touchy subjects, i was voted as the person who has no idea what's going on, but apparently TJ made a chat with everyone but Dani, Aidan, and I to keep himself safe?? I have talked to him every day at some point and I'm PISSED that he tried to make a chat to potentially target one of us three (who AREN'T EVEN THREATS) to keep himself safe. I will work with anyone who stays loyal and doesn't make everything a shit show, but when you talk to me all the time and go behind my back........ bye. If he stays, he has some explaining to do. Maybe he *knows* i wouldn't vote for him and doesn't see why I should be in on the chat, but in this case, I SHOULD have been in on it. If I find out that he wants to target me, haaaaaaaahahahaa.

I guess 5th and 8th isn't the worst record ever... It just sucks this is how it's going to end.

I think TJ is finally going home since we kinda forced him to use his idol last tribal. Idk I’m tired

Hi so Aidan is literally the love of my life?? We’re actually on the same page/have the same allies and whatnot, so I’m feeling a lot better knowing that we’re allies. We basically agreed that TJ is too much of a fucking mess to keep around right now, so if we get him out then we’ll still have majority on the rest of the group!! So woohoo!!! Also? TJ proposed that there’s an all fans alliance and tbh I totally forgot we were playing Fans v Favorites. Just Bc aidan specifically wanted to target alyssa the round before. But legit,,,, why wouldn’t you target alyssa is my question??? Um but yeah I wouldn’t be shocked if i got votes tonight, but we shall see?? Hopefully I live to see another round, but right now I wanna fuckin sleep

Okay #2. TJ seems to think that Jess and Devon would vote Dani with me and him which just isn't true. I will not vote Dani because she hasn't caused any issues for me or made me feel threatened. TJ making his chat in the first place tells me that he was perfectly fine if me, Dani, or Aidan went home, but I guess as long as someone else said the name, he wouldn't get as much shit for it. He has really put a target on his back by doing this and I am a little bit hurt by it. But contrary to TJ's belief about voting tonight, we're not as divided as he thinks we are.

Me this round:

Very happy that I have immunity again but I already know that people are going to start saying I'm an "immunity threat" and it's going to annoy me. People look for ANY reason to point a target on anyone and I'm sort of expecting it? I'm already preparing responses for those kind of things.

Today was interesting because TJ was apparently desperate and making pleas to everybody that could listen (which somehow excluded Dani, Chelsea and I) but he eventually made his rounds to Dani anyway. I'm really hoping that he goes tonight because he tanked his whole game and I want him to feel EMBARRASSED and DEVASTATED for even daring to cross me in the way he did. If he listened to me and just followed my lead then he'd still be in the game WITH an idol. Thomas Pascucci is a passive aggressive little snake who loves to play the victim... but I'm hoping as we move into the 7 things get interesting.

I had a good talk with Jonesy today that confirmed a lot of my suspicions and she told me that she wanted to get out Alyssa. I was shook because I thought they were close, which they are, because I had heard she was in her confessional or something. I don't care but this anxious bitch better not be trying to play me either... but Devon seems to want to make a move too because he mentioned something about me/Dani/him needing to decide the next move. I feel like something ALWAYS goes down at 7 in Survivor history so I think everybody is anxious going into this next vote. My talk with Jones also brought my trust for Jess into question... there's a lot she kept from me (and a lot I kept from her, I do admit) but she's equally as messy but I think getting rid of Alyssa will force her into my back pocket more.

At this point there are a lot of small sub groups and alliances and deals and I don't even have an idea who the jury would love or hate. I like to think I have a good shot but it might be my ego... it's all going to be based on who tries to CLAIM different moves I think, or who gets crazy at this point in the game.

In regards to Devon I trust him more now after this round. I think he's more committed to the Massholes F3 than Alyssa/Jess but I'm not sure. I want to get on a call with him and feel him out. Maybe I can offer an F2 to him to ensure his loyalty.

But I also want to go the distance with Dani/Jess. It's a very complicated game and I feel like every boot looking forward needs to be INTENTIONAL. The endgame is near and I'm nervous but at least I still have my Opal Idol. I don't want to fuck up using that either.

DRUNK CONFESSIONAL WOOOO

I keep thinking to myself "how the fuck did i make F7?" because part of me is like,, genuinely shocked i've made it this far? It doesn't really feel real? But then I like, remind myself of where I started in this game and how it got me to where I am now. And THEN i started thinking about Ko Chang, and then I keep thinking about how much I've grown since then? last time around F7 I was like,, cowering in fear that the majority alliance would destroy me? or something like that? it was a few months ago i just remember crying a lot. BUT WOW!! I really did it huh. Final 7. I feel like this time i'm actually comfortable enough to like,,,, do things now. I'd like to say I set myself up pretty nicely? My talk with Aidan was really successful and we're gonna try taking out Alyssa this round with Dani and Chelsea. Worst case scenario - we still have Aidan's vote steal. If alyssa wins immunity - we'll probably go for Jess? we haven't really talked about that yet? but oh well. we'll have to wait and see. hopefully my 14/20 in the spelling bee is good enough <3

Twelve Hours Later........

Wow 👏 love it when 👏 the one thing 👏 that I want to 👏 NOT 👏 happen 👏 FUCKING 👏 HAPPENS 👏👏👏 So like ok alyssa won immunity and I was THJS FUCKJNG CLOSE KM GONNA PISS MY PANTS ok ok besides the point everything’s fine it’s totally fine we’re all fine hahahahjaha But ummm I already talked to Aidan about what we should do and I think we’re both in agreeance that Jess should go? I think she’s the next best thing behind alyssa. Plus even if she doesn’t go,, I want her to HAVE VOTES LIKE !!!! JOIN THE CLUB!!! But also,, part of me is worried that i’m getting played. While I think aidan’s a genuine person when it comes to wanting the big threats out - how am I supposed to know if he thinks I’M one of the big threats, yk? But I do genuinely think he wants Alyssa/Jess/Devon out before anyone else. Even if that eventually leaves me vulnerable at F4, that’s fine. I can always go on an immunity run or smth if I ever become good at comps :)

But rn,, in the words of Jonathan Stockton: “I’m going to kms”

Dear Jones, If there's ONE thing I've learnt in this game..... it's to NEVER trust a girl who cries more than a pregnant lady.. ever.

Your crocodile tears don't phase me one bit. I've been saying for a while now that you're sketchier than a crackhead in an alleyway.

Your attempt at screwing me over was expected.. Your attempt to screw over Alyssa.... now that shit hurts. That's your BEST FRIEND Jones.. someone who literally has vouched for you to SOOO many people when they were coming after you (me included).

I HONESTLY WANT YOU GONE LIKE.... YESTERDAY.

No amount of dad jokes or Kermit memes are gonna get her out of this mess..

However, I do have ONE LAST DAD JOKE FOR YOU.

Me: Jones, I'm on I'm the jury. Jones: Hi I'm on the jury, I'm dad.. oh wait.

Sincerely, Jess. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The fact that Aidan hasn't come to me yet with the fucking lies Jones has been spreading is concerning. I can't try and save his ass now because of that. I want to save him but how the fuck do I try and defend the guy who is paranoid about me? I could sell out Devon but that does me NO GOOD right now.

7th here I come?!

I feel like every round I say something to someone I risk getting exposed. LIKE ???? Ik I said I felt okay before but I feel like I’m /too/ okay if that makes sense. I told Aidan that his name and Chelsea’s name was thrown out there by Devon. He THINKS that Chelsea’s the one who threw it out there though. Which ISNT how it was supposed to work!! We had a plan to get out Jess what are you dOING!!! NOW aidan’s gonna go to Devon to see where he heard it from. Like???? Might as well just call me out for being a snake now before it’s too late :) why’d Alyssa have to win immunity. She’s the only person who COULDNT WIN!! Why? Bc I HAD TO WIN OR ELSE ID BE DEAD. THIS ISNT HOW IT’S SUPPOSED TO WORK IN MY FANTASY!!!!!  But,, at least it’s not my name out there. Better anyone else but mine :0 so I don’t think my name will come up? I think the only person who came up with my name was Aidan, and now he’s like,, my new best friend? So yeehaw that’s nice. ,,,,, hopefully The Godfather— I MEAn alyssa doesn’t catch on to my snakiness.

Ugh this group is so nice and there is no particular person that I want to vote out over the other. Devon and Jones seem to want to vote with me and Aidan has talked to me a bunch. Aidan has been my social game person meaning he gives me info on people and has helped me a few times with staying safe and making moves. Last round, he told me about the chat that TJ made which I would have never known about if he didn't tell me. It wasn't a huge deal because people didn't respond and ended up voting him anyway, but still! Knowing that TJ voted me and was potentially targeting me with other people before tribal was information that I needed and Aidan provided. Even though the vote was unanimous, it was still a good thing to band together with him and Dani to make sure a few others were on the same page for the TJ vote.

Now that TJ is gone, I honestly do not know who to vote next. Do I vote Aidan because even though he has been super helpful, he is still a social threat and is killing challenges? Do I vote Dani because I have talked to her least? Do I vote Jess because it would break up the suspicious Jess/Alyssa duo? Do I vote Jones or Devon just because? I don't know what's going to happen tonight because people might have idols to use (or maybe not!) At this point in the game, I'll be sad with whoever goes but I'm ready to vote anyone who isn't me. Maybe that makes me a huge biotch, but it will get me to where I need to be, especially because I haven't played my best game this season. If I do go home tonight, I'm just happy I made it into the single digits :)

So like, I'm finally coming back around to potentially work with Devon, Jess, and Alyssa which I'm happy about because with me, we are the majority this round. At first I wasn't completely against voting Jess, but after hearing that my name was out there and reaching out to Devon, I needed to talk to Jess and see what she wanted to do. Then, Devon told me that if I want Aidan out, going to Jones and Dani isn't a great idea (since they are probs working together), so I needed to tread lightly from then on out. Thank god I never initially gave a clear answer to Jones and Dani on who I definitely want gone because Aidan might have a vote steal and will come for me or all of us lmfao.

I told Jones that I wasn't totally against voting Jess and told Dani and Jones that I wanted to vote with them, just to give them the idea that they would have majority with Aidan....(but I'm not. I am so sorry for flipping on y'all.) I feel awful lying to people because I hate being completely blindsided and not knowing who to trust, but I am doing this vote for me to help MY game.

I feel so dirty with this vote because I know I am going to lose trust in Jones and Dani, AND Aidan if this doesn't work and he ends up staying. I am the swing vote though and so I feel like I have a lot of pressure on me. Do I vote with Dani, Aidan, and Jones to get Jess out? Or do I vote with my Hosororo people and vote out Aidan? Jess is not a threat to me, because I feel like we play a similar game but I may talk to more people. She seems more predictable imo than Aidan. Aidan however, has won multiple challenges, has a killer social game, and poses as a much bigger threat to me if I was to make it farther in the game with him.

I need to vote to benefit myself for this round and that means I need Aidan gone. I am not good enough to win in challenges against someone like Aidan but I think I *might* have a chance if he gets voted out this round.

I lost immunity by ONE and I'm pissed because now I'm a ball of anxiety and mess. I feel like fucking Jess the way I think I'm going home.

Right now I think it's going to be a straightforward Chelsea vote but stranger fucking things have happened? I'm expecting something wild to go down but my senses aren't tingling that something is happening /to me/ so I'm likely gonna save my Opal Idol for next week which is the last week that I can play it!

I don't know how I feel about the game going forward because there are a lot of deals and I think people trust me but I'm not sure. I'm really solid with my Massholes F3 but also my sub deal with Jess and I really trust a majority of this game. Other people? Not so much.

I think if Chelsea goes we'll definitely have an interesting F6 round

Confessional #3 because things can never just be simple. I ate a bowl of ice cream so now I'm all sugar and FIRED UP. You know what? I'm not feeling so bad if Aidan goes home tonight because apparently he wanted me out and thinks it's gonna be a 6-1 vote against me. Tbh I'm pissed lmao. Devon is telling Jones to vote me so that she doesn't suspect me and Devon working together, so I'm not reaching out to her or Dani anymore until they come to me. Devon doesn't think that Jones will vote for me but honestly who knows? Jones also thinks that I would vote Jess so I can't be too mad if people turn around and vote me. This is probably the round that best describes the "outwit" portion of the game because we're down to 7 people and half of the tribe had their names going around (me, Aidan, Jess, even Dani because Aidan tried to bait me into saying I would vote her.)

JESUS. Now Devon's name has been brought up. Devon told Jones that maybe I should go to get rid of any suspicion that I am working with him, but now apparently Jones told Aidan we should vote Devon..... I'm literally shook by how many names we have filtered through. Who knows, maybe this will be a 6-1 vote for me and I'm going home.

If I go home tonight, I'm telling them in my final words that I had an idol but didn't think I needed it this round, so I gave it to someone else.... and to have fun figuring out who it is :)

I'm literally? so fucking mindboggled right now? i don't know whether I should feel sick or not. like,,, I thought Aidan and I were "on the same wavelength" or something like that. suddenly at 9:45 (15 minutes before tribal might i add) he's just like "we can't do this" like??? YES WE CAN!!! THIS IS THE ONLY LOGICAL TIME TO USE THE FUCKING VOTE STEAL!!!!!!! IF WE USE IT AT F6 WE CAN ONLY TIE IT, BUT IT'LL BE USELESS BECAUSE WE CAN'T USE THE STEAL IN A FUCKING REVOTE!!! THERE IS!!! NO POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!! literally,, if I knew the temptation was a fucking vote steal and I knew I'd end up in THIS SITUATION RIGHT NOW then this wouldn't be an issue. I sound like an asshole. but oh!! my!!! GOD!!! YOU SAY YOU WANNA MAKE A MOVE!!! THSI IS THE FUCKING MOMENT!!!! MAKE THE GODDAMN MOVE OR YOU'RE GETTING PICKED OFF IN THIS FUCKING GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I really can't believe this. and I thought I had hope. sorry i'm so fucking pissed i'm probably gonna lose chelsea over this. this is not her time to go. I fucking hate this. everyone in this game needs to step the fuck up and i'm angry. i'm probably gonna regret this tomorrow, but i don't fucking care.

We were gonna get alyssa out this round for being shady with jones. But she won the immunity. Now we are getting Chelsea I think. I was going to make a video but I’m so tired.  Loool sorry

Aidan has been bothering me about flipping the votes over and over again from Chelsea to Jones to Jess

Odd to see more fans than faves now... I might need to do something about that.

Most of my game rn is trying to act confused and like an ORG rookie to downplay a potential target. I want to seperate this devon/alyssa/jess trio next tbh

what the fuck kind of alliance votes out two of my closest allies two rounds in a row, and doesn't even tell me their concerned or trusts me with their opinion.

alyssa and jess. jsyk.

Well, being completely blindsided doesn't feel good. I just want to make sure that I'm safe moving forward, and I'm feeling very upset about how this just went over. I'm so pissed at Jess and Alyssa for not saying anything. And even Aidan. Fucking Aidan said nothing. I need to look at this situation positively, but I honestly don't know what to do right now.

I guess I need to find a way to strike against Jess/Alyssa/Devon because they are the power trio right now... I just hate doing it because I love all three of them, but if I want any chance of winning at all, I kind of need to do that.

I probably need to start by making sure I have Aidan and Dani with me. Chelsea being on the wrong side and talking with me helps, and then I need to solidify my relationship with Jones and Maynor.

Maybe with all of those combined, I have a chance.

So tonight I fucked up harder than I EVER HAVE FUCKED UP IN A GAME BEFORE (and that's saying something). I've been going through a rough patch the last week and have probably gotten a total of 15 hours of sleep since Friday???? When I was on call with Devon/Alyssa I read something out loud Jones sent me and it mentioned the whole alliance with Alyssa/Jones. I'm hoping I fucking mumbled but Alyssa understood me so DEVON KNOWS. I attempted to play it off but I DON'T know. I just don't fucking know. I'm dumb. I feel dumb.

I'm just trying to build trust with people at this point. I feel like my game fell apart fucking HARD this round. I cracked at final 10. FINAL FUCKING 10. I'm not trying to get DOWN on myself but low-key this is probably why I don't win games lmfao.

I told Alyssa about the idol so I'm hoping this is a sign of trust. I don't know how I 1000% feel about telling her but here goes nothing I guess?

I was in a pretty decent position going into this round and then....until I literally set fire to the rain and fucked shit up.

My relationship with TJ took a hit. That's not going to be good in the future. My relationship with Maynor took a hit. That's not going to be good in the future. My relationship with Chelsea is fucked (but did we ever have any type of working relationship, not really). My relationship with Devon probably took a hit because of my own stupidity. My relationship with Alyssa took a hit when I was sipping on dumb bitch juice. My relationship with Jones is still a major question mark? My relationship with JD is as stable as I am currently and that's saying SOMETHING?

THAT'S LITERALLY ALMOST EVERYONE IN THE FUCKING GAME WHO HAS SOME SORT OF ISSUE WITH ME?

Literally the only two people I didn't piss off or give reason to hate me is Dani/Aidan... and that's.... just fucking sad.

I destroyed my game and that's on me.

Time to pick up these pieces somehow and make them FIT.

Here is a Haiku about my game:

My game is a mess. I messed it up real bad. Jumping of a bridge.

okay so,,, I talked to Alyssa and Jess,,,,,,, and I understand,,,,,, like 80% where they're coming from? Jess told me she and Alyssa flipped because they didn't realize TJ and I came to them and said JD said Jess' name?? Jess went to JD and she said that Tim was the one who threw Jess' name out,,,,, and like,, they couldn't take my word for it when I said I trusted Tim, WHICH I UNDERSTAND that they didn't trust tim, but the fact that I told them how i felt and they just didn't listen to me bothers me.

like,, imagine this scenario,, would you take the testimony of someone who's in your alliance (albeit with some ulterior motives, but still in the alliance) and told their alliance (95% of) the truth,,, or someone who is never online and had been stirring up chaos and drama and was spewing shit this entire day just too keep their self safe? just answer that in the comments below thank you xoxo

so now that Alyssa and Jess know what happened on my end, and I know what happened on their end, we're both in agreement that JD has to FUCKING GO!!!! Tim was fucking robbed, i'm so espresso depresso you have no idea i'm so sad that Tim's gone. what a king,,, the creator of Jones' angels,,,,, robbedt,,,,,

we're rebranded as Tim's Angels btw jsyk <3

but ummm this fucking Unan1mous thing???? more like fucking BOOnan1mus amirite ladies hahahahahah ha h hah ah  um,,, hmm that joke sucked i'm so sorry. SO okay yeah,, Alyssa/Jess/TJ/Maynor agreed they'd vote for JD, and that they'd try to get the rest of the numbers to work for JD, BUT the problem is that if ANY ONE PERSON DOESN'T VOTE UNAN1MOUSLY,,,, they're safe. so we gotta get /everyone/ on board with this. hopefully Chelsea won't want to have like,,, revenge against Alyssa/Jess/Devon or anything sksksks

but ummmm let's hope for the best? I gotta get to school at 6:00 am and it's 2:00 am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO it's snoozeville for me. catch you on the flipside :p

I hashed things out with Devon last night because I was so pissed off about the vote, but I still have a lot of trust to rebuild. When i mentioned my name going around, Devon, Alyssa, and Jess knew that my name wasn't out there and still didn't let me in on the Tim vote. I was completely alone and had to make an alliance with the others out of desperation and tbh, i think I look like an idiot. But anyway, i think Devon and i are on good terms and I hope we can rekindle our old team that i was loyal and comfotable with since the beginning.

This might be a long one Johnny. I am so sad that Tim went home. I was shocked. I thought i was able to trust Jess, Alyssa, Devon but they all lied and now to me personally are dead to me. Like im still going to work with them until i have an opporunity to strike against them. Like Alyssa she’s great but now has to leaving sooner than later. Devon final 2 is dead, i would gladly vote you out but have to time it really well. Dani m Aidan dead even more but seems like they are worried about Alyssa Jess and Devon so might use them to take out Alyssa. But yeah last night was rough. I had this ‘thing’ happened to be that was triggered by this game and my class lab. It wasnt good. There was a dark low moment were i got a negative thought that I should just tell them to vote me out for unanimous week. My friend texted me and told me to think it thru and Im glad i didnt day anything. I still want to play and try to make it to the end. Only person i trust 100% with out a doubt is Jonesy. ❤️ Everyone else can leave. Except i also like TJ amd Jess.

I'm not sure where my vote will land tonight. If I vote JD, I lose a shield in this game. At the same time, if JD goes tonight in a 9-1, we start to build trust among those we previously blindsided.

If I make it an 8-2 or 8-1-1, then I'm worried that people will use the process of elimination to find out I flipped....

Another random note about tonight. If JD stays due to me, the next target becomes Chelsea.

Essentially, I am deciding between playing with Chelsea or JD....

Everyone is saying JD’s name like lets do this. But now everyone is afaid of an idol and i swear if the votes aren’t unanimous, im going to die.

If I get idol'd out in this format I AM FUCKING SUING.

I CAN'T GO OUT ON MY FIRST TUMBLR ORG IN A ROUND BASED ON A ZWOOPER GAME.

HOW FUCKING IRONIC WOULD THAT BE?

YOU WILL BE HEARING FROM MY LAWYER!

In all honesty I'm struggling hard this round. Idol's are so dangerous this fucking round. SO FUCKING DANGEROUS.

The mental gymnastics happening this round is insane.

I'm honestly having PTSD about this god damn format. The ONLY time I've ever cried because of a game was IN THIS FORMAT (thanks JOHNNY).

Today all I've done is try and repair relationships. I've worked harder than a hooker on a Tuesday today. I am exhausted. If I go this has been fun-ish.

I feel fuckig awful i worked too hard in this game to potentially get idoled out and that breaks my heart that that could happen tonight. apparently JD is writing down my name because she thinks i'm "Stubborn" and she wants to save me???? like if you wanna save me then like maybe don't vote for me?????? like i get the intent behind it with like,,,, the idea to save me but this is fuckin wit hme to my c ore . .Jess thinks JD's ly ing ad that she's voting for Jess, I just,,, fuck i really wanna die right noww yk i think i might be getting out there's like a 60% chance JD doensn't have an idol, and if she's comfortable enough then she wont play it. but there's a good chance I'll be going home. fukfalkdsfajsdads don't be surprised if i cry i'm just so upsetti/uncomfortable with the idea of going hope i tried too hard but um yeah

Wellp I’m really close with Aidan and so far I feel like we are doing really good. I feel bad because I lied straight to JDs face about voting jonesy. Instead I voted for her.

ummmmmmmmmmmmmm okay. so yk how i said I had a bad feeling? my bad feeling came TRUE klajdflskfajsdfa APPARENTLY when I thought everyone was on board for the Dani thing, all of my closest allies (Except for Tim, love that bitch) wanted to blindside SAMMY!!! in the process,,, blindsiding ME!!! so lets backtrack a lil,,, the dog emoji alliance (consisting of myself, Sammy, Tim, Chelsea and Devon) got exposed by Devon to Alyssa and Jess, and suddenly everyone knew about it lmao. AND Devon exposes the plan to get Alyssa and Jess out to alyssa and jess, and APPARENTLY there was a plan to get Maynor out??? no bueno for me. not at all. Alyssa/TJ/Maynor/Jess all explained why they did what they did,, and honestly? I totally get it lmao. as long as I'm included and I know about why they did it, I totally get it. I MEAN I may or may not have cried,,, but i'm at peace. ALSO,, i'm gonna try and give alyssa the benefit of the doubt and say she's on my side? it might not,,, seem smart sklafjdslfk BUT but but BUT,, I know I have the numbers and will keep having the numbers if Jones's Angels continue to thrive, yk? we just have to make sure that we're all on the same page from now on,,, then we'll be good!! Knowing that Jess and Alyssa were able to explain everything to me,,,, i really appreciate that yk? I appreciate when people are open with me, and I try to be as open as I can be too. so knowing that they did that made me feel a lot better about it :) but devon,,, oh devon. he's being super sketchy?? like he's trying to make it seem like he's the innocent one that DIDN'T flip on me when I know full well that he's the one who snitched on the alliance? like,, he doesn't know I know, but I can't get a good read on him, and that's p sketchy to me. I think I handled the exposure well though,,, I can't just blow up at people and cry, yk? which I didn't (except to alyssa but she understand why I cried skaldkjf) so yeah!! F11 baby!! guess i'll die!!

Samuel leaving was honestly amazing for my game. His goodbye message not so much. However, if people will strike I just hope it's not this round. I do see people trying to take me out over Alyssa. She's way more connected and people love her.

Devon put himself into such a hole right now and I'm kind of living for it? I think him being the one to make this move happen will put a giant target on his back or at least put some seeds of doubt into others about him. I don't think I'd use my idol on him though.

Jones not telling Alyssa or myself about knowing Sammy was coming for us is her official first strike. It has put her on "Jess's Watchlist" officially. I don't CARE if she was "waiting" to tell us or if it "Wasn't that serious" you fucking tell us. That just proved to me I can't trust Jones and she's acting in her own self interest.

The MOST concerning thing about this current Jones situation is.... how easy Alyssa is dismissing the current situation and all of its red flags. Am I missing something? Because someone who we thought we trusted and have an ALLIANCE WITH.... knew about a plot to get us out, didn't either of us tell us, and is now mad at us for leaving her out of a vote to get out Sammy? LIKE WHAT? This just fucking proved to me that those two are mega-close and I'll be dropped the INSTANT I become useless. As soon as I threw a little bit of Jones doubt Alyssa's way she wanted to call with Jones? LIKE GIRL. I WASN'T BORN YESTERDAY.  RED FLAGS EVERYWHERE. THESE HOES AIN'T LOYAL.

Tisk Tisk Tisk. I come back to the game and I see to my genuine surprise that Sammy has been eliminated from the game. I am genuinely shook. To my knowledge, Jones, Devon, Sammy, and I are the only 4 that voted for Dani. Someone who I have no idea is, voted for Chelsea as a security plan. The other 7 votes went to Sammy.

To my knowledge, Chelsea flipped on the group?? Which to me is super dumb and no benefit at all??? But then again it could be Devon who is lying to me.

UPDATE: DEVON IS LYING TO ME AND CHELSEA IS INNOCENT. 

Devon you lying mothertrucker lmaooo. I am so disappointed in Maynor and TJ especially for not informing me or Jones about the plan. Now we look like Boo Boo the fool. I am pissseddddd lmaoooo and I wasnt even that close to Sammy its just the principle behind it all. Aidan disappointed me too because I had told him that the vote was Dani ahead of time in order to gain some trust with him and this mothertrucker didn't even tell me what was going on.

What is even more funny to me is the pathetic damage control that these people call themselves doing. I am.... disgusted. But DEVON is literally lying to my face and I am on the verge of confronting himmmmmmmmm.

That was HUGE for my game! Sammy was playing a huge role, but I dealt with the circumstance poorly afterwards.

I am afraid that Tim, Jones, and Chelsea may lead a strike against me next round. If TJ and Maynor were smart, they would join that strike and knock me out.

My gameplay has been aggressive, but to the point where I may be losing jury votes. Hopefully I can lay low and keep the target off my back....who knows.

I want to win this immunity because everything is still up in the air. It may not be me leaving but at the same time it can be. Im just nervous from last tribal.

Well, this should be a fun round; not only for rebuilding but for strategizing the next move. How do I position myself correctly.

General groups that I have: Me, Alyssa, Jess, Devon, Jones, Maynor Me, Jones, Maynor, Tim Me, Dani, Aidan (with the help that came with last round)

So obviously my target should be Chelsea or JD because those connections are as easily there, but I feel as if there are divisions I need to make in other groups like Jones, Maynor, Alyssa (even though Maynor just told me he would go for Alyssa). So is this the round to cut those ties, or is there a different plan... I'm glad I'm not the center of attention right now, but damn.

I am so sad that i messed up this challenge, I have full faith that I would have been able to do it too lol all well, shit happens. I feel like my name will be tossed around cus it would be an easy one I think. We'll see if I decided to play my idol or not :) 

Also, im not sure if I brought it up here or not but I am playing the game different then i ever have before. Rather then  ... Caring about the game I am just doing what I want. Telling people what they want to know, or basically if they ask me a questions I am gonna tell them the answer to the best of my knowledge. Including, who said what :3

This round one of the angels will go home. I promise you that. I feel like it could be either me or Jones but Maynor and TJ are also on the table. Me and Jones had a talk about what we think we should do this round and we mentioned blindsiding Devon. All we need is 6 votes and we think we can get them. TJ, Maynor, Chelsea, JD, Jones, and myself would be that 6. All we have to do is try and get Chelsea and JD on board which is gonna be the hard part.

Jones wants to hold out on the Devon plan but I reallly dont want to. The time is NOW.

I am pushing for JD to go. She called me a threat in comps and i dont need that to be in anyone’s ear right now. I hope this works cuz need her gone.

JD or Chelsea?!?! Idek.

This round is so messy....JD is the biggest nut case in the history of Orgs....Let's pray for tonight

Damn, Maynor really got over 2000 on his counting score. He did THAT. I swore my 1200 was going to beat everyone but he killed it. Anyway, I'm pretty sure Devon, Alyssa, and Jess want me out because we have not talked in the alliance chat since Sunday, when Sammy got voted out. Alyssa has reached out, but Jess and Devon had not, which leads me to think that they want me out. I am incredibly disappointed if this ends up being true. Tim brought up voting Jess and at this point I am not against it. I would like to work with JD, Jones, Tim, Aidan, and TJ, even Maynor if possible. Even though we haven't talked much, none of them give me any vibes of being total sneaks. *shrugs* idk, im probably gonna go home tonight so oh well. This has not been the best game for me but since I just got voted out of my other game, I'm willing to be more focused and make alliances if I do happen to stay another round.

If I could describe this round in one word it'd be: MESS My name is being thrown out so in the words of Devon "Uhhhhhk". I'm not too sure if I'm in trouble. I don't even know. I want soooo many people out at this point.

Omg. All chaos broke loose. JD finally coming out to play huh. It looked like Chelsea was leaving this round but JD may have caused her own downfall. I hope because i want JD to go.

So listen up here's a lot of Tea on this messy round:

I have a bad idea... If the two inactive people came online I swear I could make something shake sjdhs but Chelsea and JD are in and out like they're doing the twin twist.

(Tim approaches JD about voting out Dani by using her vote along with Chelsea, Jones, TJ, Maynor, and Tim ofc to get her out. JD then decides to say "fuck all that lmaooo" and runs back to Dani.)

Like JD are you DUMB why would you run back to Dani and tell her I said her name when IM making an effort to play the game with YOU especially considering that you're on the chopping block???

So I came to JD about maybe voting out Dani instead of her and Chels and she went back and TOLD Dani. Now Dani thinks Im pushing her name. She then runs back and tells TJ and TJ tells the Angels and then the Angels do damage control ajdhdbs.

Chelsea made a group chat of Me, Jones, Aidan and TJ with JD IN ITTTTT to talk about the vote tonight after I've told her that the vote is JD. Sis..... She then REMOVES JD and creates a big ole mess lmaoooo. I expose Devon to her and warn her about where Aidan's loyalties lie. The angels DIE of laughter and insanity. JD aka Justgonna Digmyowngrave is hopefully going home and thats tea.

This vote is a fucking MESS and so many things happened and changed but I think Tim might be going home? or JD? But I don't want Tim to go home but I guess I have to learn how to be a good ally and not always get my way.

Honesty I'm just taking the game a few rounds at a time and really trying to situate myself comfortably.

okay,,,, JD is cracked right now. lemme see if I can list what she did in the past 4 hours? hmmmm okay: - she told Tim that she wanted to vote Jess - told Dani that Tim, TJ, and myself are voting for Dani - called Chelsea and TJ a final two - according to Dani she's still being shady skskksks

AND JUST SO YOU ALL KNOW,,, I haven't talked to JD this entire day??? so like??? IDK WHERE SHE'S GETTING THIS INFO,, BUT clearly there's at a printer or something bc these aren't fax. likee,,,,, you really can't just show up to the game 10 rounds late JUST BECAUSE your name's getting thrown out. like,,, play the game or don't sign up for it, ok? it's not fair for the other people who actually came to play ig. idk. she's really making this easier for everyone else tho,,,,

ALSO okay, so i love Chelsea. but she made an alliance and added me (without asking me btw) AND LIKE,,, ahhhhhhh!! she also added aidan,,,, like,,, I love aidan,,, but of all the people to add to that groupchat,,, she chooses aidan? isn't he like, not trusted?? idk??? um but yeah now i'm in a new alliance with chelsea and aidan so that's nice :) more coverage on my entire ass. TJ and Tim are also in the alliance so that's cool too, and Maynor knows it exists this time, which is gucci. so yay :) hopefully everything works out? who knows, time to cry!!

I'M FREE OF THE PURPLE SQUIRREL MAN !!!! Mitchell you were great, but i couldn't let you stay in the game when i knew you were after me <3 at least you made jury though so that's good :) ALSO FUC FUCKF FUCK FUFKC FUCK WE MADE JURYYYYYYYYYY I'M GONNA PEE MY ACTUAL PANTS now all i have to do is make single digits and i'll be satisfied. but then after that,,, it's winning :$ also alyssa and jess are a v obvious f2 they aren't even hiding it anymore wowowow

So I’m already starting to plan how I can go about this next round. I think I would need to go after Sammy next. We don’t have as much of a connection as I thought we did, he is closer to Jones and Alyssa than I am, and this helps me get back into the middle like I need/want to be. I regain the trust of Aidan and Dani, and probably could gain a stronger connection with Devon and Jess (if they’d be open to this vote).

so,,, Jess keeps saying stuff,,, and it's making me uncomfortable,,,,,,??? IT'S NOT LIKE SHE'S BEING CREEPY OR ANYTHIGN AT ALL but,, she's saying stuff that's like,, freaking me out about my game? she basically told me and Maynor over call that everyone on the first swap tribe Hosororo made a video that I SHOULD WIN THE GAME??? like,, k AND THEN!! then,,, then,,, she says that everyone thinks i'm really cool? like "oh yeah i'm okay with Jones!!" LIKE??? wow??? like,, that's a good position,, but also i have to be super slick from now on yk? so yay! love being stressed the fuck out lkdsjafldskfj also,, i have a bad feeling we might have an unmerge. it's like,, a stretch, but we merged so early?? F13 merge is wildt kdsafldksaf idk what to expect just know i'm probs gonna get voted out next lskajdfaldkjf

So, without having to do too much extra work, people also saw the same thing as me and want to get Sammy out; awesome. But now I have to find a way to make sure that it comes into fruition. There's a line between keeping this secret but also building those connections that come with blindsiding someone with someone else... Like can I trust Tim not to go back and tell Sammy? I think I can, but there's a risk in telling another person.

I'm telling you right now, there is no one in the game playing with fire more than me.

1. I made 5 different fake idol charts in the fans vs favs stage to gain trust 2. I jumped ship on the fans and committed to Sammy, Chelsea, and Alyssa after the swap 3. I'm pinning the whole entire cast against one another and taking out the biggest threat in Sammy.

If I can successfully get Aidan to flush his advantage and knock out Sammy, this could go down as one of the best moves in the history of this series. It would be a true tale of going from the top to the bottom in one single round.

I won a challenge *Happy dance* Fuck social challenges *still dancing* Not here to make friends *still dancing* Fuck you Mitchell

hahah, right okay so a confession.... I was super stressed with this the BUZZ challenge really but like, I cleaned my room and still went to play DnD and still one. Extra bonus of the night, I didn't die and my character leveled up. yay's all around.  

THE GAME IS A FOOT!

Things are really happening strategically now and after being on the wrong side of the vote last week I want to be very intentional about every move that I make going forward. Right now there are a few names bouncing around but mainly Dani and Sammy in retaliation.

I don't know why this Sammy/Chelsea/JD/Jonesy or whatever faction is all voting one way but they're all boring so whatever. Apparently JD has Maynor on her ass and a lot of people are sniffing Jonesy' boring ass pussy juice for whatever reason. The game is sort of divided right now and it's weird... and there's currently a plan in place to divert a few votes onto Chelsea to skew idol suspicion and avoid a deadlock. Imagine we pulled a 6-5-1 or 6-4-2 or something?

I really don't want Dani to leave because she's somebody I need in this game but it just seems like the boring bitches want to go after my friends and I'm trying to fake it til I make it with them but it's not working?

***FUN FACT I WROTE HALF OF THIS CONFESSIONAL ON SATURDAY BEFORE I FOUND OUT ABOUT SNAKE.. I MEAN SAMMY****

So JD winning immunity was LITERALLY worst case scenario for me. They say don't meet your heroes because you'll be disappointed well... that's how I feel about JD.

I'm really scared I'm not going to make it out of this round alive. I just hope if there's a push for me to go I can play my idol correctly and not leave this game looking like an idiot because I didn't play an idol I had.

Hypothetically speaking..... maybe I can see votes going down like this?

People that would POTENTIALLY vote for me? 1. Sammy 2. Chelsea 3. Tim 4. JD

I really wanted a favourite to go this round too so I'm super disappointed. I kind of want to push for TIM to go now because out of all of the people left aside from JD I talk to him the least. HOWEVER, I don't want to be "Mitchell'd" so I'm just going to keep my mouth shut and hope for the best.

plot twist.

Apparently I'm a COMP BEAST? ME? JESS? BEING TARGETED FOR BEING A COMP BEAST? I C-A-N-N-O-T.

I'm being targeted because people are scared of someone with an ACTUAL PERSONALITY.

What ended up happening was: Devon called myself/Alyssa and spilled all of the tea about Sammy targeting us. This was HUGE of Devon so I hope he's not lying. What kind of sketched me out during that call was Alyssa seemed kind of relieved that they switched from her to me when I was generally SHOOK about them targeting her too? So that was something? I'm not gonna look to into it though lmfao. Devon not telling us for a couple of days is amood though. That kind of is a giant red flag.

Jones hasn't told Alyssa about that alliance which I personally find WEIRD. I thought Jones and Alyssa were confirmed final 2. Maybe this will cause some doubt OR maybe Jones already told Alyssa and she's lying. I have no idea at this point.

My plan for this round was to get Dani to throw out Chelsea's name as her counter. That way if Sammy or any of them have an idol they'll waste it on Chelsea while we target Sammy. We need to throw off his scent.

I typed a long ass answer and lost it so FUCK you Johnny but honestly this round is a mess and everybody is lying and talking shit

I’m,,, worried. So I lost immunity, right? I got 3rd place behind Maynor and JD. BUT like,,,,,,,,,,, SURE I’m feeling mostly covered, and SURe we have the numbers for Dani,, but what if Dani or Aidan have an idol? Like we know aidan has a vote steal that’s pretty obvious,, but like,,, what if yk? I’m super fucking scared. I know I said I don’t WANt to have immunity,,,, but now I want immunity AJSKNDJD but ummm yeah :( I’m ooky spookied. I have a really bad feeling, but hopefully everything works out.

So Aidan wouldn't reveal his advantage which sucks but I'm working on gaining trust with him.

Pretty sure I’m going home so that’s fun..but Sammy might go home for being too chaotic. Idk djdjdjdjd. I really enjoyed playing though

So, once again I am potentially on the chopping block and I don't understand why. My squad is voting for Dani but I'm over people wanting me out. ughhhhh. I am normally a very likable person and those 5 votes I got last tribal were the most I have ever received in a game. I'm a decent player, but not really a threat so idk why people just want to vote me. Anywho, I am hoping my squad of people can save me yet again (gross, I don't want to be in the position where people have to save me) and people stop trying to come for me.

Tonights vote is going to be very interesting. Its Dani vs Sammy. I hope Sammy goes because he doesnt trust me and he wants me gone. I hpe nothing crazy happens and he goes. Dani and I got back to talking and everything was smoothed over so thats good.

I AM SO HAPPY WE MERGED. I feel so connected to Alyssa, Sammy, Devon, and Jess so I am over the moon excited that I can talk to them again. The vibes were not bad on the swapped tribe, but they weren't 7 rings music video quality. Anywho, it's super refreshing to be playing a game with people that I don't know because I don't know how they play or have any grudges for anyone. It's definitely been a breath of fresh air.

WE MERGED HOLY FUCK I’m shook I made it this far. I’m still very convinced that I should’ve gone home during the joint tribal. But oh well. SOOOOOOOOO HERES the tea. I was right about Jose going home. I saw the one vote for Tim and I was like 👀 don’t try bb ily but don’t lmao. ALSO!!!!! I’m gonna cry,,, because LITERALLY while I was gone Tim TJ and Maynor made an alliance called “Jonesy’s Angels” LIKE????? GUYS OMG IM GONNA CRY!!! And they added me to it and I’m v happy AND,,, and. Jess Alyssa and I have an alliance now. Called “Allergic to Cats Fan Club” and omg,,,, I love them so much jdkdndndmdmd and,,, hhh it just rough. Because in my eyes, Jess and Alyssa are the front runners of this game and they might know that, and I’m too scared to let them go super far into the game. At least with Jonesy’s Angels I feel comfortable going with them to the end yk?? It’s not that I think I can beat them, they’ve been doing a shit tone so far, and it’s only F13 like??? Nice. But yeah. I’ll defintely stick with everyone and see how it goes. But right now it’s just ahhhhh it’s rough yk?? I’m trying to think ahead, but it’s hard when you have no idea what everyone’s doing yet and how theyre feeling. So I just have to hope for the best and maybe cry about it later. Speaking of hoping for the best,;; hopefully I win this challenge!!! I want an idol clue/idol so bad i’d pee my actual pants. I think I’m doing p well though, I already found 23!! Idk if that’s enough to guarantee me a win, but it’s definitely enough for me to go to bed satisfied with the work I’ve done :$ so yeah!!

Im so glad that I made it to the merge. This is awesome. Im back with Jonesy ❤️. Also back together with Devon and Jess. I have to be worry of Devon only cuz we had a 3 person alliance with Mitchell. And Mitchell doesnt like me anymore. 🤷‍♂️ But Jess feels like she is at bottom of fans so im going to get her close to me to take away a number for the fans.

SOOOO THE Hosts missed a huge chance here, why they did not add Volleyball and then used a picture of the one from Castaway... tisk tisk

Im happy to make merge. I have my core four: Jones’ Angels. 🦑  It’s me Jones Tim and TJ. Im talking to the other favorites and they are way better than the fans. Jess ❤️ Is the only fan i trust a lot. Devon is on the fence cuz he trusts Mitchell. Dani and Aidan talked to me but not a lot so nope. Mitchell is my target and will continue to be until he’s gone or i am. Trust there is broke way beyond repair. So im just going to poison his name to all these other people.

So MERGE OMG! I'm so happy that we were able to make merge! I thought that Johnny was going to make our tribe of 3 go through with the challenge I was about to JUMP. So I am super excited to be reunited with everyone and especially Jones. We were able to complete Jones's Angels by adding Jones lmao. I also was able to meet with people I haven't before such as um Devon.  

So the reward challenge was the CUTEST thing I have ever done! I really enjoyed it and it was very fun. The only problem is that I have been terribly busy so I haven't gotten a chance to get a bunch of items but otherwise it was neato! I've been talking extensively with the Angels and really tried to solidify a final 4 with them. 

First of all shout out to Sarah. The only real one in the game lmaoooo. Secondly I'm talking to Jess and Aidan a bit and they seem cool. EXCEPT the fact that I just got on call with Jones and she told me how big of a snake Jess and Alyssa are. Apparently they are a final 2 and have multiple alliance chats with everyone and is trying to play people.... There's a plan to get out jess this round but I feel like it's too early for that at the moment so me and Jones are gonna stick with trying to get out Mitchell this round. Aidan, however, feels uncomfy with  Sammy, Chelsea, and Jonesy. I mean I definetly feelwhat he is saying which sucks buttocks but Jones is one of my good allies and I can't have that at the moment. I'm gonna bond with him some more and hopefully discover what his advantage is.

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DJ is super irreverent... Who the hell is DJ anyway? XD

I feel a storm is brewin'.

Merge is a lot messier than I expected. No one is talking, no one is saying names, and I found the idol. So this is honestly such a wave of emotions I was not prepared to DEAL WITH. 

Yesterday Sammy gave me some bullshit excuse about why he took me out of the competition. Honestly it was the biggest load of shit.

*****INCOMING ANNOUNCEMENT********

Sammy is officially coming for Johnny's brand. He is officially in the running for being the "Biggest Bullshitter" in a game, confirmed. HONESTLY, that move to take me out of immunity just left a really bad fucking taste in my mouth. "I don't want anyone to know we are close" HOW THE FUCK? LIKE COME ON DUDE. DO FUCKING CHELSEA THEN IF YOU DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO THINK YOU ARE CLOSE WITH SOMEONE? DO THE OBVIOUS, SHOCK THE PEOPLE? WE AREN'T EVEN FUCKING CLOSE BUDDY.

I don't know if I ever fully trusted him ANYWAYS BUT..... I didn't expect him to come for me the first chance he got?! He's honestly incredibly hard to talk to. He's like a walking Tumblr blog with his "yassssss" and his cool youthful lingo.  Also something just isn't right. The only time he talks game with me is to tell me "I got chu". ELABORATE BITCH. PLEASE. Usually when people have to be persistent about the fact that they have your back they do not. I NEED TO WATCH OUT FOR SAMUEL.

So I'm trying this new thing called: "No Mess Feb" where I don't get messy in February. So here is one messy situation I'm trying to stay out of: I don't want to put my foot in toooo many doors yet. I have that 3sum with Jones/Alyssa. Do I trust that 3? not really. Jones and Alyssa aren't going anywhere soon. They are also best friend's and have that Golden Icons" chat. That must mean they are somewhat close. I just don't think I'm Alyssa's number fucking 1. HEART BREAKING.

HOWEVER, hopefully they think I'm useful to keep around for a little while? I need to buy some god damn time. I don't know if Jones would take a bullet for me just yet.. BUT maybe Alyssa would at least scream "DON'T SHOOT HER PLEASE" and then leave the room if I was ever in that scenario in this game?

Chelsea still has the social game of a rock. Honestly girl is going FAR IN THIS GAME. KNOW DAT.

Another thing I'm working on is trying NOT to have such a main chat presence. I'm horrible at that. I'm honestly starting now going to limit the amount of times I try and talk in the main chat.

I just... feel like I'm in a constant state of panic in this fucking game. Being a fan is NO JOKE. Being out numbered if people want to play the "Favourites" or "Fans" card is scary.  Not having a history with anyone in this game but TJ someone who knows what I'm capable of is NO JOKE. I'm just not too sure if I'm going to last as long as I hoped in this game and THAT FREAKS ME OUT.

This first vote is making me nervous. Like i know that i might not go but there is still a chance. I hope we are able to get the majority and have Mitchell go since he’s the first target.

I have no idea what is going on.... Chelsea is being voted for apparently but I find it so hard to believe dindhddjjdjs idk. Ok they are telling us between Tj and Chelsea

This is the most annoying merge that I've ever been in. Things are so quiet when I expected some hectic ass chaos. I really don't know what to expect but I'm glad I at least have the Opal Idol. My one fear is that I go out with it in my pocket or use it incorrectly - that's why I'm trying to be cautious with it. Honestly it's ~sort of powerful but for it to be most effective I'd need to ENSURE I was getting a lot of votes and then stir shit up after that.

In terms of alliances I feel like I have bonds with enough people but no sort of set majority. I think I got added to a chat but whatever. Nobody is working for my trust enough at this point.

Tonight it is ether Chelsea, Mitchell or myself.

I swear if I go home before Mitchell, then when I get home imma throw one of his eggs at him

Well folks, this might be my last little chat for this game. The letters have been written, the birds flown, and soon enough the votes will be read and we can all watch as Johnny squints really hard to try and do simple math live for all of us to see......... Only fooling Johnny, I love you. 

But I guess I should talk about the merge:

So as someone who has never played an ORG before, I've got to say I'm impressed i made it to the merge. I would have thought that my eagerness to learn about the people around me might be a turn off for those who are here to play the game. But boy howdy was I surprised when I found that the favorites, who have played before, don't actually talk game, but talk about life and themselves. It was actually really nice to get to know theses strangers from places I've never seen, but have heard of. It's been great getting to know them, and what makes them tick.

Also, fun to know that everyone who has this game is eventually going to die of liver failure if they drink as much as they claim they do. Because I didn't know that the world produced as much alcohol as they talk about around the fire.

You know what? I don't know who to trust in this game right now. I have Jess saying that Mitchell is saying my name, Jones telling me that TJ said Mitchell and Devon are on each other's side, Devon saying that's not true, JD not believing me when I say im not voting her, and overall an alliance that seems kind of out of touch. I understand why people want to vote me but what i don't like is feeling like people are being sneaky behind my back. Alyssa pretty much said I exposed the alliance, but i disagree. Devon and Sammy have been most consistent with me so this has nothing to do with them. I'm also doing a stupid puzzle for another game rn that i can't solve so im pissed off at the world.

So going into this first merge tribal, I know that if I stay, I'm going to have to deal with the fact that I just lied to half of the cast...

okay a lot actually happened this week and i have been very annoyed with Jess and Alyssa. However I’m playing dumb so they think we still tight. BooBoo I’m a favorite for a reason don’t think you can get away w certain things. Devon told me how Jess and Alyssa were basically talking about how me and Chelsea would be cut out of the alliance if it were to go F5. I’m not playing this game to get 5th place sorry. Personally I wanted to lead a blindside against Jess tonight but I decided it was too soon and I’d rather wait till a couple rounds later. So I’m going after Mitchell bc a lot more people are comfortable w that idea. Me and Chelsea and Devon formed an alliance within our alliance. Also jones told me that Alyssa and Jess set up a final three alliance with her too. Like these ppl fr out here trying lmaooo. It’s so obvious that they are a duo and i can’t wait to take them out. Also I found out that Aidan has a steal a vote. Devon gets all the tea sooo yayyy. Mitchell reminds me of Oakley from Mykonos and I can’t have that again so BYE.ummm what else??? Idk but Jones is my f2 and i love her. I’ve ranted so many times in my host chat bc of the whole thing w Alyssa and Jess. Jones is my F2 but she has Tim so i have Devon oop.

HI FUCK I'M TOO LAZY TO MAKE A VIDEO CONFESSIONAL NOT SORRY MY DRIVE IS AT 9.5 GBS OF STORAGE OKAY SLDKFJAFSLKFJ SO I'M IMMUNE!!! DID NOT WANT TO WIN AT ALL!!!! I HATE THIS!!!! this is like,,, the last thing i need going into merge. getting EXPOSED!!!!! first i'm already the second most trusted in the game. NOW I'M IMMUNE ON A LUCK/TRUST BASED CHALLENGE????? GIRL,,, THE FUCK??????? but um? the more i thought about it over the past 24 ish hours I'm feeling better about it? it's good to know who's on your side and who isn't without being a target. PLUS apparently Mitchell still wanted my ass out so,,, k bitch [insert kermit sipping tea picture here] SPEAKING of,,,, the vote is on mitchell :$ it's either him or chelsea, and if i'm right, the alliance that's forming with chelsea cannOT GO DOWN NOW WITHOUT IT EVER FORMING (i'll get into it) also,,,,, hi. i have a shit ton of tea about Alyssa and Jess and im so excited to SPILL IT!!!!!!!!!! OKAY so..... Alyssa/Jess/Myself form the "Cat Allergy" alliance or smth like that right? maybe like,,,, 20 minutes after it's formed, Sammy calls me like "hey i have tea to spill, and it's HOT" and i love all forms of tea so of course i wanna hear it yk?? SO,, he tells me,,, that Alyssa and Jess have made alliance chats with him, Chelsea, Devon,, the whole shindig,, and now they made one with me. SO,, it's very clear Alyssa's now playing the exact same game she did in amsterdam KSLAFJSLFJ LIKE you cannOT get away with this again,,, she and jess are trying to slide by as far as they can and rely on their social skills, so like?? k. I won't let you get away with it this time heeheheh so like,, Sammy pitched an alliance with myself, chelsea, and devon (and either tim/tj) there's no name for it yet, which is extra sad. BUT yeah that exists. and their whole ass goal was to get out either Jess or Alyssa and i'm definitely down, but it's too early. THAT'S why we switched to mitchell. so yay my impact amirite ladies. AND LIKE THE NEXT DAY mitchell adds me TJ and Tim to an alliance with Dani and Aidan like???? as IF I don't know he's after me ???? as IF I DON'T KNOW he threw my name out???????? kk that's fake ish? but i guess it's also fake that i joined lkdfsjlddkjsflks but yeah. that alliance probably won't last lmao oh and aidan has a vote steal i should mention that :P ummmm so now i'm in like,,,, 3 alliances now??? and like?? i'm almost 99% sure Tim Sammy Maynor Alyssa and TJ won't turn on me? hopefully??? idk i guess i'll die :) we love having options that i might turn on eventually

Okay first off, Telephone was hard af and I was not expecting to forget so many parts to the story! I'm really proud of my tribe for winning and staying safe regardless of the difficulty of the challenge. Anywho, I'm really happy that Alyssa, Devon, and Jess are still in the game. I really want to work with them so I hope we merge soon! Their tribal had me nervous but I'm glad they (possibly) voted together. I'm happy that I have Sammy on my tribe but i miss my babes from 7 rings!! I am choosing not to want mutiny because I do not want to possibly end up in a worse situation. I have no idea what the others will do or if they will even choose that route. Guess there is only one way to find out!

So I'm back in my old shelter in Arakaka. The mutiny came at a good time, giving me better odds at surviving another tribal council, should I end up on the loosing side. I couldn't get a full night's rest on the other tribe knowing that my closest alley had wrote my name down at our last tribal.

Mutiny!? Really Mitchell. I thought we were good!? Haha we werent so you made the right decision but also it was bad because you went to the majority favorites tribe. 🤪 When you sat out. I should have thrown that challenge and voted you out. But oh well. 🤷‍♂️ You, Dani, and Aidan are still my targets. If Devon and Jess side with you than they are also my targets. I guess I can be the ‘Villian Character’ how me and Jones ❤️ plan to do.

Rip Nick I called it. I just wished he would have willed our idol off to me!! Ugh!! \

So there was a mutiny as an option and I was pretty sure that Mitchell was going to jump ship. Scurry away you little rat bastard jk lol. If we had gone to a tribal then he knows he would have been toast. FUCK and he ended up on Jones's tribe. He better leave her alone! Thats frustrating.....

Also the inherent bias in this challenge jumped OUT like... not to sound prejudiced but.... the three poc on a tribe of 4 trying to figure out the playlist full of edm and freaking techno made by a random white guy I-. Where is my rap besides the two rap songs that I immediately identified lmfaoo. Spare J. Cole?? Spare Nicki?? Heck even a spare Ariana Grande??? Any Pit Bull or Selena(NOt Gomez lol)?? {Also if you don't know what inherent bias is maybe look it up}.

Hi in regards to my previous confessional about inherent (Implicit Bias) here is a TedTalk link if you want to be educated or check my sources! ( https://youtu.be/kKHSJHkPeLY ).

Let's just hope that we win this challenge and Mitchell loses!!!

Oh man if I had a song to perfectly described the last couple of days for me it'd be: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcC0u9D5OII

Honestly speaking, I feel mega-guilty right now. When I play games I try and play as loyal and straight-forward as possible. I'm a ride or die kind of bitch. I literally don't have it in me to lie. I think I have too much anxiety in life to ever add on added anxiety and stressors. The people I roll with are the people who I give my 1000% loyalty to. I'm literally that person who tells Johnny they can actually see the old tribal chat instead of screenshotting it for myself. THAT'S ME.

However, in this game I honestly had to tell myself several times that no one else is gonna win this game for me BUT myself. So I decided as soon as I knew an idol clue was available I'd snatch it up. I knew that Devon/Alyssa both trusted me to ONLY tell them the RIGHT clue and not the other. SO YES I lied to them both. SORT OF. I did TECHNICALLY give them the RIGHT clues I just took out MAJOR parts. We can therefore conclude that I did not lie. I "Forgot".

BUT NOW MY ASS FEELS GUILTIER THAN FUCKING EVER. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate this.

My train of thought behind OMITTING PARTS OF THE CLUE: 1. Devon has more connections to me to the fans. He tell me all the time that when we reconnect with them he has them on lock. So I would get voted off instead of him. 2. Alyssa speaks about JD/ Jones a lot. I'm sure they will have a beautiful reunion and I will be DUMPED. I don't want to be dumped. I need an idol so I can WIN MY GURL BACK. 3. I KNOW I can annoy people. I need this protection. I talk too much. I'm not used to these busy 20 something year olds with lives. I'm used to the Swooper trolls who live at home, eat pizza for supper every night, and don't shut the fuck up.

I know there was a HUGE risk in getting the clue. Some people might assume I have the idol and come for me because of it.

However, if I did this correctly... both Devon/Alyssa buy that I gave them the right clue and believe it's a sign of trust.

In conclusion, Alyssa is someone who I definitely can see myself going far with in this game. I just hope she sees the same with me. Only time will tell? I know this sounds fucking cheesy and weird and I'm low-key judging myself mega hard for saying this right now BUT I can honestly see myself having an actual friendship with Alyssa out of this game. She's a dope ass boss bitch.

Devon is someone I can also see going far with me BUT I think the fact that he's been stuck with me has bonded us together.

FUCK THAT CHALLENGE ARE YOU SERIOUS? I feel bad because I didn’t find any songs that weren’t already there so I’m not sure how that makes me look. Uhmmmm I lived and it’s kind of awkard with Alyssa since she voted me. I think Jess and Devon are loyal and that tribal proved it so I’m not too afraid to of going to tribal but we aren’t anyway so woot. Only my second time not going to tribal. Goodbyeeeeeeees

After being the only player in the game to mutiny, I was worried that I'd made the wrong decision. That maybe I should have stayed with Maynor and the favorites, just so that I didn't put a target on my back for jumping ship. Well... That was before last night's challenge, and my old tribe came last place. If it wasn't for chance to change sides, I'm 90% sure if be going home tonight. I guess when you find yourself on a boat full of threats, sometimes the safest options is to jump overboard with the Sharks, and swim for the nearest beach.

With Nick gone and presumably the idol gone with him, I plan on using the draft for the pemetic idol as a means to target someone later down the road by saying they told me about their "special idol" and we should blindside them before its too late. Also I lowkey used Nick as a scapegoat within my alliance chat by bringing up his reward clue about "taking a long walk" but I changed it to grab a snorkle for some reason that's beyond me. Anyways it looks like the Angels are gonna stay tight and get rid of José. The guy isnt in our alliance and plus he is one of the least trusted anyways. Rip him. Im assuming its a merge after this round which has me losing my shit collectively.

I am literally the worst player in this game right now,  I have no alliances and I am not socializing with people the way I should be... gah! that top 5 is gonna be a hard goal lol

So I knew I needed to get that idol clue in the case we lost; there’s still paranoia that someone found it, but I think the part of the clue that I should have focused on that I kept from everyone else I didn’t make use of. But now I need to determine with this vote how much I truly trust Tim and Maynor. I think I’ve done enough by giving the clue out to show that I’m someone to trust down the line, but you never know. Everyone is playing their own games at this point and it’s hard to gauge what others are thinking truly.

i realized last night during a mental breakdown that I have a really weird obsession with voting out my closest allies hopefully that's not an issue this time hehe

Okay so for last round...we basically had nothing happening around camp and we got to play a fun game of Telephone. Personally, I like the challenge and have done it twice in the past. After some talking, I was the one who got to go at the end and answer the questions. From the story that was passed down to me there was literally like not enough info for even half the questions. I basically got three correct with the information that was provided to me. Then, I guessed on two of them and got them correct. I felt good about the challenge bc that is typically an okay score to get for these. Anyways, we ended up winning and I avoided tribal once again!! Yeehaw. Also Jones gave me an idol clue and we have been  searching the rainforest a bunch because the clue was to go on a long walk...so the trail? Idkkkk

Okay so for this week we had the scary music madness challenge that literally gives me headaches. I listened for so long and downloaded three different apps to help detect the lyrics. For the most part, it worked out in our favor and we came out on top. For this challenge Aidan and JD sat out....which was perfect because I didn’t want them receiving an idol clue and think I trust them the least tbh. Especially after Aidan took the temptation for his tribe.  So it was me, Mitchell, Jones, and Chelsea that worked on the challenge. Me and Jones did most of the work but Chelsea submitted the doc. Which was fine bc we made a deal that if me Jones or Chelsea got the clue we would share it with each other. Also we got Mitchell in our tribe from mutiny and like I know Jones doesn’t like him...so if you’re an enemy of Jones...you are an enemy of mine. Plus he’s a newbie and this is his first game so for that reason i do not want him getting to the end bc he could win w that statement of making it to then end on his first game surpassing several favorites...no thx. I hope Jose gets voted out. Me and Chelsea are the only two people left that have not gone to tribal oops.  YEET SKEET RETREAT. Bye

Jess is starting to get a bit messy....She tells us her version of what we need to tell others in the case of a swap, and then when I agree, she asks what the story is....Like what??

Alyssa tends to drop conversations as well, so this is probably the riskiest alliance I have ever had. Hopefully I can reel Maynor back in from the favorites, and then go from there.

No idol, no clue where the idols or advantages are, but I think I am somehow still in the best position in this game.  

So pretty much I found myself in a position where the votes will either be on Maynor and Tim... obviously pushing for Tim right now and I do have to say that I'm pretty happy with this shit. Furthermore, I also know that with Maynor... I went him to him and I was like "Yo, did you throw my name utb to TJ" and he FLOPPED LIKE A FISH I SCREAMED AHHHH, HE ADMITTED TO IT AND I WAS LIKE??? I didn't even know, but damn we love my deduction skills figuring shit out.and he actually threw me under the bus to him... Ugh my mind, jk jk, but like i'm shaking right now fjadsklfj

I swear to fucking god if there’s a swap and I get put on a tribe where I know no one, I’m gonna fucking self evict <3

WOW! The mutiny was such a shock to see but something told me not to take it. I'm glad to see Mitchell here and have a friend on this whack ass tribe. I don't really trust anyone but I have the Opal Idol in my pocket.

Sarah was robbed.

Please tribe swap, please tribe swap.

Not really sure how to feel at this stage...

Jess absolutely botched this challenge for us, and it was probably the worst individual effort in a competition that I have seen in years. For that, she automatically created a target on her back.

HOWEVER, I need to control who goes here, and it won't be Jess. It sounds like Dani and Nick were on opposite sides of the joint tribal, and will likely target one another.

I would personally like to see Alyssa go sooner than later, but there is no context in taking her out right now. She is "Hosororo strong" apparently, but the tables have turned. I'm not sure if I am willing to give her the same mercy that the favs gave us.

Honestly I wouldn't mind losing this so Mitchell goes home but then again I wouldn't mind Arakaka going to tribal either. I also feel like Nick is fucked over at Takama. He has the idol but that'd require someone using it on him which I doubt would happen. He better up his social game! If Arakaka goes to tribal then it should obviously be Aidan bc of his advantage and bc of Jones, Sammy, and Chelsea/JD alliance. Wait is Chelsea a fan? Lol idk.

So Ive been talking to Maynor and TJ individually about having an alliance of us 3 since I put them both high on my list! They both agreed and so I formed the alliance called... JONES'S ANGELS! I feel like we're gonna be a good alliance as well. Oh José is on our tribe as well as Mitchell. José is someone that I talked to the least on our OG tribe and from the looks of the trust list, someone who is not very trusted. Mitchell has his karma coming from the joint tribal round and for voting out Sarah. (PSST Sarah I miss u queen I can't wait to see you in Survivor Michigan.)

Another day, another swap. I've officially been on EVERY single tribe now. I am Guyana's Orphan. Honestly, I'm actually okay with how we swapped this time around.

I'm in the majority both in several ways. 1. I'm in the majority if Devon and I decide to stick with the "Fans" (barf). 2. I'm in the majority if we decide to go to Hosororo Way (yassss bitch) 3. I'm in the majority if Favourites attempt something (meh).

BUT this bitch is literally her OWN ENEMY RIGHT NOW. I flopped that memory competition harder a nerd at Comic Con trying to talk to a female. YIKES. I hope the flu isn't what sends me home or else I'm going to FUCKING RAGE.

I was able to re-connect with Dani which was okay? for me? I guess? Honestly at this point I have no loyalty to the Fans tribe (I don't think I ever had any tbh). I don't think a label in front of someone's name should stop me from trying to further my game. That being SAID....

Nick is on A WHOLE NOTHER' LEVEL Y'ALL. This man literally knew me for 5 seconds and spilled his whole game. I expected more from a dude who owns a buff personally. The only thing he didn't tell me last night was his social insurance number. I kind of feel bad for him but I don't want to let him get far. I rather keep Dani around than him at this point. I don't want that to hurt my relationship with Alyssa so.. I AM STRESSING RIGHT NOW.

Speaking of Alyssa...

MY GIRL ALYSSA GETTING FIRST.. fucking SCARES ME SHITLESS. I would honestly consider her my #1 at this point but now this has me thinking.. am I really HER number 1? Does she have the same relationship with me like she has with others? If we merge does she have my back over people like Jones/JD who she speaks HIGHLY of to me? I have my doubts but I think having someone like her on my side in this crucial time is an ASSET. She is VULNERABLE and I need to make sure I make her feel as fucking comfortable as possible. It's times like these where those strong relationships form and I honestly think if we can possibly

That's my bitch, that's my girl. I honestly think Alyssa is my gate-way drug to the Favourites at this point. I also really just want to meet Jones because I'm convinced she's my future best friend.

Something I haven't touched on.... ever BUT I can't wait to possibly re-connect with TJ. I miss being able to strategize with him. The way he sees games is insane and I have a half of a brain cell so it's always nice to have a smart person do the thinking for you.

I NEED TO FIND A FUCKING ADVANTAGE OR A GOD DAMN IDOL.

I cant believe we won immunity. I was really scared that we would have to go to tribal. Me, TJ, and Tim made an alliance called Jones’s Angels and i cant wait to be reunited with Jones. Mitchell is acting like last vote wasnt against me but it was like. How can you say theres 100% trust when there isnt. The Jenna vote was not  as much of a suprise for Mitchell cuz i mentioned my worries about Jenna. Im being buddy buddy but if we lost next round. He is going home for sure. Once you brake my trust, you cant really get it back. Sorry mitchell buddy. And i have eyes on Aidan and Dani. Karma for Sarah is coming.

WOW! That's all I have to say right now. This game is really putting me through the ringer but I'm in it to win it and this fucking tribe swap threw me for a loop. I knew the trust lists would come into play but I didn't know right away. But I sort of made such a power move on my tribe and then got shuffled into this and I saw the numbers and went FUCK.

Like four favorites versus little old me! But I like a challenge... I'm not Sarah, I'm not going to let myself get swapfucked. *gives the camera a shady look*

Having the Opal Idol in my pocket is amazing and I'm glad I went for that temptation. Everyone knows I have it but honestly I think there's an advantage to standing out. I feel like this series is used to a lot of UTR, lowkey players and people lying low and that's just not my thing... I honestly can't lay low to save my life. So my plan is to go after them. Honestly since I was low on the trust list it makes sense to go after people high on the trust list. I'm honestly not that bitter but if I can use it to justify targeting some people, I'm going to do it.

I'm not sure of my tribe because everybody is meh so far? I don't know if I'm dry or they're just all in alliances but I can't get a read on them for shit. I saw how well they all did in their past games and JD is giving me this loner act but she's been to an FTC so I know she's not as dumb as she's letting on. For some reason the fact that there are more girls than guys concerns me because I feel like those bitches could link up?

I guess I like Chelsea the best but maybe that's because she seems a little more exciting. Sammy does too but he seems like a game threat. I think I'm reluctant to share anything with anyone because I'm not sure of their relationships with each other. I think I want Jonesy out though... she has this cutesy act that is relatable and did pretty well on her first season. She was high on the trustlist too.

In all... I feel isolated but not intimidated.

Nobody has asked about the temptation but I'm ready to lie about it being a vote steal like I told Dani and Mitchell. I need to start keeping my lies in order because they're going to be PISSED when I reveal what it really is but hopefully they understand... if I ever see them again. I'm worried about Dani AND Jess over there at Takama because Devon is crafty. They are some people I hope I can rekindle with at merge. I'd consider working with Maynor but he seems like the type to want revenge.

WE WINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN fuck yeah also i wanna elaborate on something i said in my last confessional about using Aidan as a shield bc idk if I ever explained that Aidan has proclaimed that his tribe did not trust him at all, AND he has an advantage, right? so obviously, people would want to vote him out because of it. HOWEVER, if I get him to trust me/on my side, not only can we work together, BUT everyone will always target him over myself, so yeah, logic ;)

Unfortunately we didn't lose and just as I feared Nick's tribe lost. Welp you had a good run Nick.

So this round has been messed up.  I was swapped to a tribe with 1 person I talked to breifly on our original tribe and had an alliance with to search for idols.  The other 3 players were all people I never spoke to.  Furthermore Dani even voted vote for a few tribals ago.  After a botched challenge I’m hoping that it’s going to be Dani tonight and not me.  I’ve spoken with Jess and Devon and get good vibes that they want to play together.  Let’s hope their not playing me.

So pretty much I’ve been able to establish a strong relationship with Maynor this game... now I just need a majoritu on this tribe to be able to cause some damage within the merge, so we’ll see how things go when I reach that phase 😤 I want to work with TJ tbh, but we’ll see how that goes I guess haha

Ugh I hope Jess and devon aren’t ducking with me but I think it’s me or nick. Really hoping it’s nick. Sorry for typos drubk

So... Dog food is salty as fuck. No wonder my dog downs the whole bowl of water after he's done eating... What the hell dog food makers

SO THIS WHOLE dare challenge this has got me GOING right now. The whole impersonations and "Who will Win?" videos are going to be BIG indicators of who is close to from my tribe. BUT DEVON.... TOOK IT TO A WHOLE NOTHER' LEVEL. A NORMAL person would do a silly one y'know? Does this guy NOT do Sarah (someone I know he's close with) and state all these things he obviously knows about her. She goes to Michigan state, has a finsta, likes to make friends in games... etc. THEN THE PICK TO WIN VIDEO.... AGAIN A NORMAL PERSON WOULD DO SOMETHING SILLY. For example: I did JD and went on about how she is CANADIAN. DEVON GOES AND DOES: Jose and how he could be tricking us... and it's actually his strategy. I can not with this being anymore. BUT tbh I'm just GLAD he's making himself a bigger target than me in case we lose. ALSO: Chelsea showing that she knows stuff about Alyssa... ummmm NO. I'm scurrrred. As say they say in French I am "le fucked" here. TBH i'm NOT lying when I say I wasn't close to my old tribe. I literally was only close to Aidan but aside from that no one else. There was an alliance of Sarah/Aidan/Devon inside of the alliance of Dani/Maynor/Sarah/Aidan/Devon/ myself. It is driving me BONKERS that Devon (the one person I NEED on my tribe right now) is unintentionally and potentially fucking his game with his videos. This was avoidable imo. Johnny didn't say "you MUST put a target on your back"... THIS IS THE GUY I NEED TO STAY WITH ME. ALSO if I ever find out Alyssa is playing me I might cry. She's literally my bitch. She's awesome. I NEVER GET ALONG WITH GIRLS IN GAMES. EVER. I just know Sammy/Chelsea are close. I could see Alyssa being close to them too so I'm just trying to make myself as relevant as possible with Alyssa because if I don't she won't feel bad sending me out. If she has doubts about it I CAN WORK WITH THAT. Sammy is totally the glue between the faves on my tribe IMO. I just know I need to somehow get closer to Sammy. I just don't know HOW! Chelsea seems super quiet and it's hard to really get a read on her. I just hope we never have to lose because I will actually cry if José pops up with an idol and my ass gets sent packing.

So me and Jones have gotten closer and closer!!! So has me Jones and Nick as an alliance. The challenge went pretty ok but we eventually lost in the end. There's a joint tribal happening right now so we're all a little shook. The Green team is thinking of a way to stay safe through it all. The other tribe seems like it has some pretty nice peeps on it honestly lol. I watched their intro videos and Danielle's stands out the most. (I think she's the pizza one lol). The Green Team was originally going to try and get Jenna to flip back with us but we're not sure if she even values us so now we're going to try and flip with the fans and somehow vote Jenna out.

First of, can i say that i missed jones and tim. 😭❤️ Like im so happy i finally got to talk to them. I missed my DAD Jones. We have a duo alliance going on. I brought it up right when the joint chat was made. Its going to be great. As for the vote tonight. We are going to target Nick. And hope that Jenna stays with us.

HNNNNN Jenna isn't going to flip on the fans to my knowledge which really fucks over a lot of things. Now I'm not sure if I'm gonna be targeted or Jones or Nick. TJ and JD can go home and I'll be fine but I'd hate to get out right now. In my head I'm like UGH JENNA JUST FLIP BACK TO FAVS you'll be in a good spot and won't jeopardize anything!!! And you'll almost surely guarantee Jury!!!! But on the outside Im like.. omg ya fans vs favs is over the swap did that snatched wig tea okurrt PEriod. I just wanted a simple tribal but now I'm losing my shit. If I go after Nikias I will JUMP.

Honestly my allies bore me. I guess I trust them but I don't know... this other tribe seems to suck too. I just want a favorite to leave at this point because the fans are getting slaughtered. But Thomas is an interesting situation. We definitely have a past and he's the biggest threat but the devil you know is better than the devil you don't? But I know he'll pick Jess over me any day of the week I've been a little quieter so I predict people might have doubts but I'm loyal to my alliance for now. I'm just trying to lay low and make it to the merge before I can really be a crazy cunt. Nick is apparently the vote and I'm sad because he's also a minority? But not too sad because idk him.

updates: Maynor, Mitchell, Tim and I make an alliance maybe possibly? also,, we're probs gonna surrender to the fans lmao sorry JD :(

I think nicks going home but I’m kinda nervous. Jenna’s sticking with us fans apparently. Jonesy wants jenna out that’s all the tea I have

I was prepared to flip when they brought up Jones’ name. Like nah. I would lay down my game for Jones aka Dad. For this vote cuz i think theres a swap coming after this vote. Hopefully. It looks like its Nick tonight which i am fine with.

(i don't have the time/energy to film a video confessional) THEY'RE REALLY GOING FOR ME HUH MITCHELL THAT FUCKING RAT threw my name out to the rest of the fans because I suggested Jenna, and now they wanna vote me out (the only reason why I know is bc my king maynor told me) Maynor said he'd try to switch the vote, but right now, it's on me, and that's NOT OKAY HAHAHA. if it stays on me, then he's gonna flip. it's so INTERESTING how all I do is suggest someone who's a CLEAR MINORITY ON THE OTHER TRIBE to be voted out!! and then SUDDENLY some fake vague ass people wanna cherish her???? like suddenly she's the token person on the tribe??? that's fake as fuck and they know that. ok while i'm writing this,,, apparently the vote went off me. but it's also all up to JENNA like ARE YOU KIDDING. like,, y'all are a group of 5 people, you can come up with a decision on your own and she can go with it. like she's really chill, I like her I think she's cool, but she shouldn't be getting this treatment from a tribe that had her on the bottom before. i'm at a point where i'm just trying to get Maynor to flip to our side, because h's just as frustrated about this situation as I am. and I don't really want Nick to will me/tim his idol if we can get him to flip. ,,, so yeah *does fake ass stick out tongue thing*

This vote is a MESS. At one point it was Jones and then its JD and now its TJ and now I want to JUMP from a cliff. Also Nick is two faced. Apparently he had an idol hunt group composed of Alyssa, JD, Whats her face, and Himself. He probably used MY idol clue and I want to fite him.

Hi I’ve been very tired owo so I come out of nowhere and honestly I’m like, this is cute owo so now I’m just going to come out of nowhere when we swap, and honestly that’s cute :,)

so according to Maynor it's between Jenna and Nick, i'm still trying to work my magic on Maynor, and I think it's working. hopefully a swap is coming sometime soon though so i can kick Mitchell's ass laksdjflsdkj

I can't imagine being in a better position in this game. Think about it:

1. I got almost everyone's trust from the fans tribe. 2. I got swapfucked alongside Jess, who I barely spoke to prior. 3. I got connected with Jess and solidified a relationship. 4. I made connections with Sammy, Alyssa, Chelsea, and Jose. 5. We haven't lost a single competition, and now the other 2 tribes will be pitted against one another. Whoever votes in the minority will be forced to come to Jess and I, so in essence, we hold every ounce of power. Best case scenario: We get swapped into a tribe with current Hosororo and old fans, giving me the ability to pick and choose who stays and who goes. Worst case scenario: We get swapfucked and I need to make new relationships with alternative favorites. I would also be more than fine staying in the same tribe, considering there is a clear gap between our tribe and the other 2.

Our tribe really thought Jenna was the swing vote. Bish it was actually me. Im pan with a plan and im here to make messy as moves. Jones aka DAD. ❤️ I think im going to flip and do Jenna. While my fans + jenna are doing Nick. Im really hoping there is a swap cuz if there isnt im screwed. But its a move and me and Jonesy are going to be the villians of the season. But at the end of the day. A favorite is still going home.

Me and Jones went on call for an hour and talked about the vote. We're sticking with voting Jenna out. Jonesy worked her magic on Maynor and is getting him to flip. Also Mitchell is a bad bean akdjdjs. Anyways ... Me and My wig have decided to vote ... for Jenna Nick wanted me to play the idol on him since he's getting votes this round and Maynor may not flio but HNNNNN i dont want that target on me just as of now. It'd be too risky and since he made an idol hunt group without me on our OG tribe... I considered letting him will me the idol and then him getting voted out ajsjsksks.

Well, there's no way of getting this to work unless Jones works her magic. I'm simply trying to get people to realize that I'm social and understanding of how this game gets played. Hopefully I can get people to want to keep me and play with me come a tribe swap or a merge.

It’s been a weird round.  I fought my ass off in the challenge but to no avail.  This joint tribal has been a battle.  I think Maynor is flipping to vote out Jenna.  If I’m wrong it’s me with an idol in my pocket. But my allies Tim and Jonesy both feel confident in Maynor and you can’t win Survivor alone so I’m going to stick with my homies and not play my idol.  Gulp.  Wish me luck:

Curse you hosts! Throwing us into a blender to vote someone out! RTQ-read the question, or so my professor always said. What do I do not not read the whole thing and forget to put a Guyana sign or even say it In my videos. Which leaves me scrabbling to do it all again. Dog food and fucking hot sauce bullshit is not something you want to do twice in one night, let alone in one week. Lesson for the day? READ THR MOTHER FUCKING QUESTION FOLKS!

YALL I am so sorry about not making confessionals. It's just I always have a fear that I am wasting my time and that the confessionals won't even got posted...and like nothing interesting has happened on my tribe.  Here are some fun facts tho: after tonight me, Alyssa, José, and Chelsea are the only ones that have not gone to tribal. YEEHAW SKEET SKEET YALL.  I am living in paradise, I have connected w Devon and Jess pretty well.  Devon I know I can trust 100%, I am sure that Jess and Alyssa are pretty close but I still trust them too. I want to be reunited with JONESSSS I miss her.  CRYING IN THE CLUB RN.  We had a mini tribe call just to like chit chat and that was fun.  Jess also destroyed the comp and if José would not have been on our tribe I would have asked to sit out bc like I was still recovering from editing the music video. UMM what else. Oh we have that lit joint tribal that we do not have to go to #BLESS and Idk yall I am just waiting to go to tribal so I can play the game, it's hard coming up with stuff to do and have fun when u winnn.  I have just been collecting tea about the fans sooo

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THAT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO WORK OUT OH MY GOD BLESS MAYNOR HOLY FUCK I LOVE THAT MAN SO MUCH that's all for now xoxo, i'll do a more detailed video confessional later

Not even going to lie.. I'm shitting bricks that José is going to fuck up this challenge for us. If he does RIP me in this game. I think I'm the one on the outs out of the 5 of us. Devon is connected with people like Chelsea who won't even give me the time of day.. I'm fucked. SO FUCKED.

Lets start off with Jenna.  I am very sorry. Im sorry that i voted for you. Im a sorry that i made the move? No. I felt you were too close to Dani and Sarah and Aidan and Mitchell. And you had lots of power that tribal. I guess you can say you were sarah and i was kass in this vote. And chaos struck. No one knew my connection to my dad aka Jones and Tim. They are ❤️. I would protect them and i did. Am i ready for the fall out idk. Hopefully no one takes the temptation on our tribe cuz my ass will go right behind Jenna. If I cant do damage control.

Welcome to my: "I Think I may Just be PMSING" rant for this round. BUT I JUST NEED A FUCKING PERSON IN THIS GAME. Someone who I know has my back at least 75%. I'm not asking for a miracle here.. I know someone having your back 100% isn't realistic at all. However, I just need someone who I know going forward will pick me over their old friends or tribe-mates if when we swap or if I make it to merge. Where is this all coming from? I have no idea. I just have a fucking weird feeling. I felt good with my tribe but for some reason something just feels OFF to me. This is probably my paranoia kicking in or my hormones? Only time will fucking tell.... If you'd ask me currently who I considered my person I would say it's Devon by fucking default.  WHICH IS REALLY SAD CONSIDERING HOW WE WERE PRE-SWAP. We swapped together, he has ACTUALLY given me information. BUT..... I know homeboy is looking out for himself first and will sell me out when time comes. SO that's not good for me in the future... I know he has a tendency to tell people the same things too so.. that’s a mood. I would have said Alyssa is my person HOWEVER, I don't see a scenario where she chooses me over Chelsea or Sammy on this tribe right now. In the future? Possibly, I won't rule that out at all.  But for the remainder of however long we have on this tribe... I don't feel good at all. She gives me almost no information and that could be a result of me not giving her information but I’ve honestly told her everything I know. Mitchell possibly being on the bottom, what went into the Lucy/Bee vote. That’s all I got. I physically can not give her anything else. SHE KNOWS EVERYTHING I KNOW. Maybe she doesn’t know anything? I have no fucking idea. I want to work with her SO BAD. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to work with SOMEONE MORE IN A GAME. BUT I fucking can’t shake the feeling of her stabbing me in the back if it came down to me or Devon. I'm trying not to let my paranoia show and I know I've let it slip a couple of times in conversations with Alssya/ Sammy. They ignored me for a good 20 minutes when I said it so it was obvious they were on a call or communicating someway. OR MAYBE IT’S MY PMS OR PARANOIA?!!!! I’m just sure I’ve STRESSED THIS FACT ENOUGH BUTTTTT: I AM FUCKING NERVOUS. I’m almost as nervous as a drug addict taking a fucking piss test right now.  If José pulls some shit in this challenge I’m going if we LOSE MY FUCKING COOL LIKE NO TOMORROW. The way I see the connections on this tribe right now is simple: Devon has connections with Sammy/ Chelsea.  Side note: Chelsea acts like I’m the plague in her pm’s.  She ignores me harder than I ignore all of my life responsibilities and I ignore them pretty fucking hard. I believe I’m closer to Alyssa than Devon is but will she have the votes if it came down to it? NO. Sammy is close to everyone. He’s my pick to win right now. He has everything a future winner has.

Color me SHOOK. Im very surprised that they are handling the Jenna very calm and understanding. I might not have been in as much danger as i thought. I told them the truth about why I did the vote and all the reasons. The paranoia. My anxiety that was spiraling out of control. I didnt tell them tho of my connection to Jonesy 🦑❤️ But i want to thank Jones for calming me down from my anxiety before the vote. And to Sarah who helped me after tribal cuz my anxiety kicked up again after i couldnt talk to jones and people were confused on what happened and were asking around. I am much better today tho. A little calmer than last night.

I am really bad at this, I so imma spill some tea, which I don't have much of. Me and Mitchell agreed to work together until merge then we would kill each other whenever it best suited us. Which was a good think to do because apparently I'm a scary comp beast :D If that is all I am remembered for at the end of this game I'll be happy <3 More to come but I am at work soooooo yeah, more to come ~finger guns~

Also I have NO idea why everyone trusts Mitchell so much!! He’s a snake and if he doesn’t go home this week, the rest of my tribe are idiots

Well...that was quick. Aidan taking the advantage is really interesting, and also very telling: 1. Do the fans have a clear majority? Sarah and Dani didn't trust Mitchell, and this would be the perfect time to knock him out. 2. Is Aidan ACTUALLY playing the game? He seems to have a grip on what will happen tonight, which is fearsome, considering he didn't do jackshit on the original fans tribe. 3. What is this twist for later tonight? I predict the advantage has to do with either picking the swapped tribes or sending someone to exile at the F15, making it 7 vs 7 with 1 at exile.

It looks like they may have thrown the challenge? I might be screwed? Like not in the good way. 😏  They said Mitchell’s name and i want to believe them but how are you going to be like i dont want to go to tribal and hope someone else takes it to taking the temptation. Its very clear of their intention. I just hope they are telling me the real target. Cuz if not im dead. And ill be gone. If its me, its been great. Its been fun. I wish i could have lasted longer. But oh well. Sarah i hope you make it far. Jonesy ❤️ Kill it and take the title.

oh my godddd, so sorry I forgot to do a confessional. I completely forget to do them when my tribe doesn't have to go to tribal. ;) I genuinely love my tribe so much and have actively talked to everyone ever since the switch. Now there's talk about swaps that may happen, but I don't want that to happen. :( The only good thing that could come out of a swap is that I would have an easier time choosing someone to vote out if need be, because by the looks of it, my current tribe is the most active and serious about making it to the top. I really don't want any switches to happen unless it's merge! Also, I don't think my tribe is ever going to talk in the temptation chat because we're all so on the same page. Ugh, I love them.

I forgot what i said last but this tribe swap was very good for me. I kept two allies Mitchell and Sarah. But also Aidan and Dani were in my “best fucking people ever” alliance so thats good. We have a fav Jenna with us. I dont want to lose but if we do its gunna hopefully be her. Im sorry but u guys are up by 2. 👀 keeping eye out for Jones and Tim.

I was honestly sad about the swap because i liked my tribe so much. However, im excited to see how this all plays out. It seems like we got active fans on our tribe so hopefully group challenges will work well!

TRIBE SWAP HAPPENED FUCK originally I was gonna sue the hosts,,, ORIGINALLY I was gonna file a restraining order,,,,, but,,, the more I thought about it,, and the more I talked with everyone on my "new tribe",,, I'm feeling okay? which is SHOCKINg for my standards let me elaborate,, I put "new tribe" in quotes because is it REALLY a new tribe when 5 of the 6 people are from the same original tribe? The tribe consists of myself, Nick, Tim, TJ, JD, and Nikias. Which is GREAT for me for a whole list of reasons... I don't think we'll lose as much because we have comp threats like JD and Nick on our team. If we DO lose, we have an easy boot in Nikias. And if we lose AGAIN, I'm in a 3 person majority with Nick and Tim (and maybe even TJ too) .So no matter how this swap ends up, I don't think I'll be the first person booted if we go to a tribal council at any point. which is GREAT. Actual now that I think about it, if we never go to tribal, that would be even more incredible. Because I think I'm doing a decent job at pulling Nikias onto my side. I don't think he's a bad person, and if we do lose, it would absolutely SUCK because he's really cool/could be a good ally down the road. actually now that I think about it,, I've talked more with Nikias in one night than I've talked to JD in a week? is that saying a lot? I think so. I ACTUALLY MESSAGED JD TOO and she was like "can I get back to you later? I'm busy" WHICH IS FINE and it's a lot better than leaving me on read BUT LIKE,,,, okay Jan. If I WERE to hypothetically go to tribal,,, I'd much rather see JD go than Nikias, but I'm not sure if I can help that? It really depends on what everyone else wants to do, because I don't really wanna stray away from the majority of the group at the first tribal I go to yk? Like,,, everyone on the tribe knows she's good in challenges, and if we ever LOSE a challenge, why get rid of the person who's best at challenges? IDK. hopefully we don't go to tribal at all? and I don't have to worry about losing ANYONE? that'd be great, thanks! god why couldn't i have been switched onto a tribe with Jose, thinking about this would've been WAY easier.

So the swap: I feel really good about the swap bc 4/6 people in it are in an alliance. First of all, I want to win the challenge. Second, if we don’t win the challenge, I’ve wanted Mitchell out for a while now and I think Jenna will vote anyone to save her ass. I just hope the others stick to our alliance. It would be completely idiotic for them not to bc we have the numbers already, but who knows

SO THIS REWARD CHALLENGE IS scary,,,,,, not because I think I'm gonna lose or anything,, but it's because I think I have an actually decent score? Idk what Obey the Game standards are, but I got to level 108. which SUCKs if it actually is a good score, because I'm not too sure if I want to win this challenge. I feel like i'm in somewhat of a good position right now, and I don't need the idea of having an idol clue putting a target on my back. I have other people on my tribe (and on other tribes) that would share their clues with me,, I don't need people to know that I have one. hopefully that makes sense Best case scenario: Nick/Tim win - and they share it with me either way Maybe Okay Scenario?: TJ/Nikias/I win - not sure if either TJ or Nikias would share it with me, and I don't want to the target on my back. Worst Case Scenario: JD wins. She won't share it with me. And she probably wouldn't say anything if she won lol. so lets LOSE THIS THING, BABY, WOOHOO

Tribe swap... Tribe swap... Tribe swap... Tribe swap...  I still don't know how I'm personally doing in this game. This tribe swap is either going to make me or break me. There are four people from the other tribe and literally the ONE person I didn't want on my new tribe from my old tribe.. is honestly the ONE person I got stuck with. Is this some sick joke? Am I being Punk'd? Is this some sort of karma for being a bad human being from time-to-time? It's always hard to figure out what exactly my game plan is going forward. I'm honestly terrified of having a bad score and being voted out because I'm a weak-link. It's so much harder when you lose and there's only 5 other fucking options. I guess as of right now I'm trying to focus on making some social bonds. Sammy gave me that super idol so hopefully there is something there... Alyssa is basically me if I was 21, American, and like super pretty. Chelsea has some potential and José is a stoner like me? So I can work with this.. I just need them to want to work with me....

FUCK THIS PARANOIA OKAY I gotta give myself a lil more respect I've been freaking out for like,,,, 7 years now about who my "number one" should be - whether that be Sammy, Tim, Alyssa Nick TJ etc etc etksjadslfk the only person that can be my number one is me I can't keep looking out for every single person in this game - sure, it's nice to have people looking out for me, and I can always reciprocate it. But my top priority will always be the betterment of my game. I can't devote so much trust to so many people. If I had to rank the people in trust that I've met thus far (from most trustworthy to least), it would be Sammy > Tim > Alyssa > Nick > TJ > Nikias > JD > Jenna > Chelsea > Jose. So yeah.  This is Guacamole Jones' Decree of Solitude: I will resort to writing down all of my info (so I never forget) I will be honest with the people that are honest with me. But I will not share this information with anyone, but myself. If anyone wants to open up to me, I will consider sharing a piece of my info but never the whole truth, and never anything more. I will share what is best for me. So I may receive the hypothetical One Million Dollars (- tax) Signed, (with love) Jones.

So I feel pretty great about my new tribe.  5 original favorites and only 1 fan.  Nik got 2 votes last Tribal and seems to be on the outs with his old tribe.  Furthermore he seems like a good dude who if I can protect may give me his full loyalty going forward.  I also was lucky to swap with both Tim and Jonesy.  I also have a deal with JD and TJ.  So if we have to go to Tribal I’m not sure who is best for me to vote.  I’ll likely let the rest of the group decide and play along.  I am trending towards a leadership role, which is good for building a resume to win but with 18 ppl left it’s kind of early to be looking that far ahead.  As of now it’s better  to just stay under the radar and not make any waves.

Well, this swap was interesting. I reconnected with a great friend in Nikias and think I have a solid ally there moving forward. I’m glad I get the chance to build my relationship with Jones and Tim more, and I’m excited to learn more form Nick and JD. Overall, I’m very curious how this is going to go!

So how do i feel about my tribe swap? well in one word pretty weird.. The thing is that i am in a situation 5-1 which is pretty scary and it will be almost imposible to find cracks but on the other side i really like some people on this tribe. I feel like if i can make connections and play the card that i was on the bottom on the other tribe and that i hated my tribe, that could make them feel more secure with me. Its like i am in a bad position but it's a new begining in this game but i will just try to put myself in the best position possible. I am gonna try to be as carefull as i can be with my words and be better socially and work with people that are working together. But what is the best thing and the worst thing at the same time is that these 5 are strong competitors and i am like... a very good person. They can help me stay safe by winning immunity, but there is no doupt in my mind that i am gonna drag them down in the challenges and that's a really good argument of getting rid of me apart from being the only fan there.

ok soooo I have been talking with a bunch of peeps and I am trying to get a solid group that I can rely on.  I am super tight with Jones and TJ and I have talked a lot.  Also I am trying to get close with Alyssa.  Anyways, I think I have covered my ground with the active people.  Jenna is on and off a lot so I am not sure how well I can depend on her in the future but ya never know.  I feel bad for the fans tribe too tbh bc like they really flopping lmaoooo.  I hope there is a swap soon so that I can meet new people but also switch the game up a bit.  ILL TALK TO YALL LATER

So I go to bed early, cus I'm super tired from the competition (no I will not stop bragging about it lol) and when I work up, we won the challenge but i have like... 3 less people on my team. No need idea what happened. But I like it..oops to the person I'd just made an alliance with who is now on a tribe alone.... Was that one in the Alliance? I'm gonna have to check that lol the host are amazing, you've all been so go to me while I've been super busy, sorry of rigging me an idol, and trust me... I asked :( they are to good lol

I am a little it annoyed with how this game is going for myself, I am not sure if I want to trust Nick as much as I did before, we will see I suppose. But something that struck me funny is that out of 6 of us on this tribe 5 went to search the Rainforest, and I was the only one that went to search the mountains. Now, the only thing I can think of is that the clue had something to do with Water, close to it or around it or, like 'hey, dont get wet'. BECAUSE GUESS WHO FOUND THE IDOL? The one that didn't go to the rainforest, the one that didn't know anything about the clue! But I found it over by the stream on the mountain sooooo that is what I assume the clue said.  Anyway, I'm feeling really on the out's and right now I am only really liking talking to Jones, I know its not just about liking to talk to people but you gonna have something to talk about right? *sigh* anyway, sad JD here, sitting on the outside of her tribe, but still bringing home the challenge cus I was the only one that did the rap part in the Riff-Off. I wish I could say like, Canadian gotta rep that Drake, but I dont know much of his shit but I love that part of the riff-off (sunglasses) ((((  https://dumielauxepices.net/sites/default/files/sunglasses-emoji-clipart-oversized-784794-395105.jpg   ))))

(half of this is yawning)

So this Immunity challenge my team didn't work together very well.  We picked IMO a hard song to build a theme and story with.  In addition I was a very weak teammate this round.  I had a bunch going on and didn't record any video.  I tried to give input in ways we could be creative... but all in all I was one of the weakest links to the losing team.  For that I am a little nervous.  However I think I am in a good spot with Tim and Jonesy.  I have shared my idol clue with them and am working on building a trusting relationship to help me get to the end.  IN addition I've been having good one on one talks with JD, TJ, and Nikias.  I don't think my name is coming up from any front as a result of the work I'm doing sharing info with them all and making them feel apart of my gameplay.  TBH I don't know who to vote.  I like Nik alot and I believe him when he says he is on the outs with his old tribe and I think if I saved him he would be in my pocket for the rest of the game...  but I also think voting out a favorite could make me a target in a new swap to a group of favorites that want revenge.  So, really no reason to make waves.  Prob going to have to vote Nikias because it makes the most strategic sense.

Well that was a rough first week, back to back to back losses and tribal councils. Thankfully I wasn't among the first two leaving the game, but before we could even reconnect after Bee's departure, we were  thrown into a swap unprepared. Desperately wishing that my alliance had planned for a swap this early, but we were all thinking it wouldn't be for another tribal or two. My tribe broken and divided, I was lucky to land in a tribe with a majority of fans, while three of my tribe mates were thrown to the wolves in the other two tribes. Im worried that our success in the last immunity challenge, will be the death of Nikias, as he's the only fan in his tribe.

Shit I almost forgot to confess!! Im so glad that my tribe consists of mostly OG favorites and one fan! Im also HAPPY that I got to swap with Nick and Jones. At this point she's my number 1 ally. Together we searched the idol system but found NOTHING I'm- . 

We swapped this week and have 5fans/1fave AND we aren’t going to tribal this week. Life is good

Omg we swapped and I’m on my same tribe basically. 5/6 of us were originally on arakaka. But we finally aren’t going to tribal so thank god!! Judges were harsh though because we tried pretty hard okkk. Anyway I love the tribe still.HAPPY??

I think getting the numbers at the tribe switch is a blessing and a curse. I'm glad I'm with most of my "alliance" from the first tribe and definitely glad that I'm with Dani but I think it's going to give me this facade that I'm Arakaka strong until the end and I'm not sure. Playing in this new ORG environment where I don't really know anyone makes me feel like playing with no regrets. I don't owe any of these people anything and I trust absolutely none of them at this point...... I'm warming up to Mitchell more and more but I'm not sure how he fits in with the others. I do think he'll be loyal but who knows. I don't want to fry his chickens up in a Popeyes three piece just yet. As for Jenna... she's funny but bland with me? Maybe I need to try more but I'm threatened by her social game. But apparently she got 20th last time? I don't know how to feel about her. I think somebody on the ther tribe mentioned knowing her or being threatened by her. Maybe her scores were good? I have no idea but eh. At this point I just want to find a core three to move forward with but most of these people suck and I don't know if there already is one. 

So I've been with my new tribe for about 3 days now and I honestly still don't 100% know how I feel about this whole tribe swap ordeal. I PERSONALLY like the people on my new tribe better. My new tribe members are more personable (with the exception of José) and I don't feel like I'm wasting their time by talking to them like I had previously felt on my old tribe. As of right now I do feel a tad bit more comfortable with Devon. He gave me his idol clue but I'm not too sure if he's just really trying to make me fall for this or not? Maybe he has already found the idol? WHO KNOWS? Alyssa is super fucking cool. We don't really talk about the game as much so that kind of scares me BUT there hasn't been a lot of game to talk as of yet? SO maybe that will change going forward (I hope so). Alyssa is someone I can see myself working tbh. Alyssa and Sammy are definitely the two from the old Horososo Tribe who have reached out to me the most. They are the social King and Queen of this tribe. CONFIRMED. Knocking on wood here.. BUT if we ever go to Tribal MAYBE just MAYBE they'll not vote out José and not me? Praying to Gaga.

I won reward which was the idol clue. It doesnt really help me much but it does say there are other items as well in the game. And we won immunity whichbis great. Im so happy not having to go to tribal.

moooood ok i don’t mind the swap bc everything’s going ok and im still not pming people meidgjskdkf but the comp went rly good!!! we came in second but i found out there’s three tribes so it’s ok! judges think there was literally too many ads and it wasn’t the challenge but have u ever seen a full video without ads on youtube lmao

So my file corrupted on my original video for the challenge but I was able to submit something thanks to Jonesy. We lost anyways lmao and it looks like the vote tonight will be Nikias. Sorry pal but the numbers are just there.

I’m going on a date tonight so I’m case I don’t get to submit a video tonight, I just want to be VERY clear: I fucking LOVE Jess and would DIE for her. F2 homie vibes

So pretty much, I've been pretty much invisible the entire week, and it's been great. I'm letting my tribe drag me for now, and personally, i think with how things are going, we're going to continue to win challenges, and I don't have to worry until I reach another swap, which at that point, personally, I'm just going to go all in and people are going to be like... where did this bitch come from? LMAO

I couldn't be more happy to be on the strongest tribe! Sammy and Alyssa are quite close, but they are also tight with Chelsea. That leaves 2 options: 1. Get them to vote out Jose, based on inactive attitudes. He won't supply them with any use later down the road. 2. Get Jose to draw rocks with myself and Jess, leaving the odds in a 1/4 against me going in rocks. I'm torn on what the best strategy is, but for now, I need to establish the best personal connections possible and hope our tribe secures immunity all the way into the next swap/an eventual merge.

I really can't believe I slipped out of last tribal...where to begin. I woke up from a 4-hour nap and was surprised to see Lucy was throwing out my name to about the entire tribe. I had to think to myself "why would Lucy do that if I have been so respectful towards her?"  I immediately got onto a 1-on-1 call with Sarah, who confirmed there was a female alliance chat (one including Lucy, and one excluding her). Sarah then stated that Bee was gunning for me publicly, which I found odd since Bee is also consistently in my PM and part of 2 of my alliance chats. 

I then jumped on a call with Dani, who confirmed everything Sarah stated previously without context. She also gave up the female alliance chat, and I confronted her about rumors of her targeting myself and Aidan. Little did I know, it was Bee spreading those rumors around.  THEN, I jump on a call with Mitch, and pin him to the idea that the girls are all working together. Do I believe that's the case? No, because everyone is working with me, and not each other. Mitch and the females will bash heads now until 1 side remains standing.  I went from being a possible blindside candidate, to someone with 0 votes on their name and a new life in this game.  Next round, it will be Bee going. Screenshot it and spread the word, because I will be attempting to throw together a plan that involves the girls casting away another female. 

So Lucy went home for the fans and I’m kinda bummed. It’s not that I knew Lucy or anything, but I kinda wanted to see the fans fight a lil :p but at least they’re united lol. The challenge is,, puzzles. FUCK PUZZLES thank god im sitting out. Every time I participated in a puzzle challenge I lost :/ so yayay hopefully the team can pull through and kick ass again. It sucks that I have to sit, I really don’t like sitting out, but it’s hard for me to do challenges rn :( Sammy and I were talking about people we could trust. Theoretically, I SHOULD have at least 5 people on my side in Tim, TJ, Nick, Sammy, Alyssa, and maaaaaybe Jenna - but I only told Sammy I had Tim and TJ. Mostly because I still had to work on communications with the other 3 (for the most part). But Sammy said he really liked alyssa, so that should work out really well for me :P Also,,,, I feel so bad for Chelsea :( SHE’S TRYING HER BEST and at least she’s available to talk (unlike some people cough cough Jose) but I think she has a tendency to be messy. Like,,, she got caught idol hunting TWICE. I just feel bad. At least we know there’s at least one spot near the waterfall that doesn’t work Bc of her, but idk. SPEAKING OF THE IDOL - sammy and I were able to clear 4 areas, which is great, but also sucks if you can only search once per round :/ hopefully we can find that idol soon, and if not, hopefully an ally finds it <3

Me and Nick are really bonding! I decided to share my idol clue with him and now we have a doc together! We're really bonding and hopefully we can find this idol together! Chelsea also told him about the waterfall and we found out that there is a hidden cavern at the waterfall!

I cant remember if i wrote a confessional so I'm doing (another) one. That puzzle time i got was the best one i ever received. I wish more puzzle challenges were done on call! Anywho, i like my tribe. Everyone is super active and i have been talking regularly with a decent amount of nice people. I can see why they are favorites! Im hoping that our love for the game grants us safety from another TC because i can't see myself voting anyone out atm.

Let hope we win this immunity. Kinda nervous. Dont want to lose again.

So Today I was nervous about my score in the challenge so I got a little more aggressive with trying to position myself to be safe in case of tribal council.  I've been working pretty closely with Tim.  He told me he found the clue to the Idol and shared it with me...  "The idol would be in a damp place where you can hide."  With that clue I started to think maybe the Waterfall would be a better place to hide because of a possible hidden cave.  I also googled Hosororo to see if there is anything I might have missed.  I came upon a webpage that translated that name to "Water Flowing".  Which really made me think the idol has to be at the Waterfall.  So then I started asking around.  First Chelsea... who told me she had searched there and "hidden cavern" was one of the places to search.  So if Tim is sharing a legit clue, I think I have the location of the idol narrowed down to 1 of 9 spots.  So I continued trying to set the ground work for an alliance with JD, Alyssa, Chelsea, and myself.  While also sharing my River idol hunts for hopefully more Waterfall info.  Both JD and Chelsea tell me they have been to the same location in the hidden cavern.  Which makes me skeptical that one of them is lying and not revealing their true searches.  Which is strategically smart, but not good for trust building.  So I am skeptical of that group as a result.  Meanwhile Tim suggested Jonesy as a potential ally for us.  So we are going to start a group together and hunt for the idol together.  I actually trust Jonesy and TIm most right now and those are the people I'm going to stick closely with for now.  Tim told me he shared his clue with Jonesy as well.  So hopefully next round we snatch an idol together.  I'm doing work.  But with another victory, we can chill another night instead of having to got at each other.  

I think Bee is an old, jealous bitch. She has nothing better to do than to be shady and tell her whack ass stories while targeting my black ass ass. Do I think she's a racist? Likely. Do I think she's going through menopause? Also likely. Do I think she's going home this round? Also likely. Will I be voting for her? Very likely. 

 ~Trust List~ 

1. Jess 2. Dani 3. Nikias 4-7. everyone else in my bitch ass alliance chat i can't remember 8. Mitchell 9. Menopausal Whore

Well, looks like my puzzle skills helped on that one. Still kind of surprised everyone struggled the way they did. Hoping this didn’t put too much of a target on my back. I’m also very much anticipating a swap come this next round. From one ginger to another, I have a good feeling that’s what the ginger host would try doing to the ginger player.

Me and Devon are a strong duo. We are part of 2 alliances in the game. On one said its me devon bee sarah and mitchell. The other side is me devon aidan jess sarah and dani. We have the power to decide which side we could go on. The only one really on the outs as far as i know is Nikias but gunna talk to him and make bonds with him so he trusts me more than others.

So I decided to share my idol clue and searches with Jones! I really want to solidify something with us. Hopefully with Me, Her, and Nick becoming a trio. Lets just see how it goes!

Bee likes to spread lies so I think she’s going home this tribal. She’s going for aidan and I think she has no idea people are going for her.

Even if we keep winning immunity,,, things are really happening rn So, yes, we won immunity! Or, the rest of my tribe won immunity. I had to sit out :p IM STILL A PROUD GUACAMOLE BOWL THO I’m blessed with my tribe. If we get swapped then I’m suing the hosts and that’s the tea. Now,,, okay. This next portion happened really fast so bare with me here. Sammy’s already giving me his idol guesses so far. Which is rad. THEN Alyssa comes to me and asks me if I wanna make a google doc for all our guesses, so we know what’s up. So that’s 6 places I know don’t work. TIM COMES TO ME like “hey, I wanna work with you, I got a hidden immunity idol CLUE and I wanna share it with you AND I wanna share my idol guesses” So now that’s 8 places, AND an idol clue. Nice! NICK THEN COMES TO ME “hey, you me and Tim should try and start a group for idol guesses!!” And of course I say yes Bc I’m desperate. that’s now potentially10 places PLUS the idol clue. Then alyssa tells me that she’s in an idol alliance with TJ and Chelsea, and that she’s gonna tell me what THEY SAY and she’ll add it to the doc. So,,,, theoretically,,,, I will have the potential to know all of the idol guesses of 7/10 people on my tribe,,, This is too much power for me and I’m scared I’m gonna fuck it up! I’m not gonna tell anyone how I’m set up right now, and if I get the idol, I’m probably gonna keep it to myself? If I do tell someone I have it, hfhfhfnfjjdjd idk, I suck at finding idols so I shouldn’t be thinking so much into it.... but FUCK Okay I’m gonna die uhhffjdndn wish me luck my guacamole gang

Also if this wasnt evident: girls alliance is dead, been dead, never was lmao

I don't trust this group of 6 very much as of right now. There are wayyyy too many little groups within the group. We have a connection between Sarah/Devon, the group of Aidan/Devon/Dani, and then there's just me and Maynor. I wouldn't be surprised if Devon had something with Maynor too. This bro has his basis covered. I need to focus on establishing some sort of solid relationship with Maynor and I'm going to need to do some major damage control with Mitchell after this vote. I don't really want to get rid of Bee right now but I literally have no choice. Sister is crackedt but she does give me some info which is like gold in this game. I feel super un-easy with this tribe and I just need to re-connect with TJ somehow on the other tribe and I think I can re-invent myself somehow.

This round i am in huge problem. I am completely useless in challenges and i prove that. The thing is how can i hide it and survive this round. My only hope is to play the loyalty factor and blame my pc for the challenge score when it wasnt my pc at all. Also bee is making herself a target and i am not gonna lie, i am pushing it even more. I need someone whose name is not Nikias to be voted out. I am really at the point that Idc who, i just dont want to be me.

so the game has been going pretty smoothly, im excited to see where this goes! idk what to say tho lmao so ya

We stan a tribe that can win challenges :)

So this round is far more interesting....Bee is targeting Nikias and Aidan publicly, but is stating that Mitchell and myself are running this tribe. She is far too dangerous, and i think I have managed to control this tribe enough to force an 8-1 vote against Bee tonight. Arrogance is a simple downfall for most players, but learning to control it can make you a dangerous player to watch and root for. Right now, Sarah is the only one that knows my game. To manage her gameplay, I am working a bit of "charm" and "flirtation" in order to persuade her to keep me long enough. I know there is a battle on the horizon between Mitch and Sarah, and I don't know which side will advance me further into the game. Mitch and I play the exact same game, but is he just as dangerous as I am? Is Sarah the female version of myself when it comes to Survivor?

Second vote.  This tribe is a bit of a mess.  I think Sarah and Devon might be keeping Aidan for a reason but at this point, I don't really care.  Whateverrrr.  I've already worked too hard on this game than I wanted to.  ;). I just hope there's a tribe swap to break things up some.

It looks like everyone turned on Bee and thats okay with me. She never reslly talked to me.

So this week started out with us losing a member, which was hard, but the vote went my way, so I that was lovely. However after the vote we found out that our happy little tribe had a bit of a tapeworm, feeding off of everyone in the tribe without us knowing. But if I get my way, the vote will pull the wings off of a Bee, and I don't mean that hard as shalf an hour puzzle! If not, well I might not be here next week to bitch and moan. Peace!

I won't lie, I was really nervous, just because I haven't played in an Org in AWHILE. That being said, my ability to connect with everyone seems smooth. Dani and Aidan and I are from the same area, which may appear threatening to others, so perhaps cutting Aidan early on would establish a sense of loyalty. In terms of others, Mitchell worries me. He wanted to play the game early on, and told me that he told the hosts he would be at the end of this game. That type of arrogance worries me, and will eventually be his down AT the right time. I feel like I can trust Maynor and Dani and perhaps Lucy, all inexperienced players who will look for someone to take the lead. I am ready to see what this game brings, but also need a killer mentality. Doing well in this reward challenge is a good way to prove my worth.  

Goal = Final 5

I’m less than 24 hours in, and ALREADY say the top of this game. 3 alliance chats?? I can basically pick and choose who goes for the first few rounds. Unfortunately, I think Mitchell is too dangerous to keep past a swap or merge. I like teaming up with sheeps/followers, not those who choose to distribute a plan/alliance without my “permission”. A wise man once said: “THIS IS MY ISLANDDDD”

Who has the most alliances day one into the game?  This girl.  I did say I wasn't getting into this though, so I'll just breeze through the next couple of tribals without having to do anything because yeah...  Oh, and Nick G is a jerk.  That is all.

(lots of incoherent mumbling btw)

This game is going good so far. Im already part of a 5 person alliance. I have 2 duo from that 5 perskn alliance which is great. I hope this 5 person alliance sticks together for like a few rounds if we do lose to the favorites

Spill the tea? Why not dump the whole pot?  Well I guess we have another Flash fan on the tribe, and the fact that in both of our intro videos, gave Devon and myself some ground to start building something on, and by the end of the first hour of the game we had a solid idea of who we wanted sitting at the end with.  By the end of the night I was approached my more than half the tribe to chat, and several of them were throwing me into group chats and alliance chats after only 5 minutes of talking to me. I said in my application that I was going to make as many alliances as I could. Looks like my game Is starting off just like I said it would.

While everyone else concerns themselves with winning the competition, I need to be concerned with remaining safe in each vulnerable round. Bee is going to cost us round 1, and Lucy is too inactive to hold her own in part 3. At first glance, it seems like it could be Lucy, and then Bee for the first 2 tribals....HOWEVER, I may try and mix it up and break the 5-man alliance...I haven't decided, but Mitchell is the only other power player on this tribe. He is tight with everyone I am tight with, and perhaps has a stronger bond with Jess right now. If I can use his own actions against him, perhaps I pull off a crazy upset in round 2. This is all thinking out loud though, and everything changes every hour of every day we play.

I love being the person that beats the other team on my own, I have played a lot of Casanova though.... Anyway, I'm just glad that the others on my team did well, I was really worried about some of the scores but we did ace. 

I WANNA DO A SLIDING PUZZLE!! I am boss at them and I wanna do one.... There had best be another >.> I'll be sad if I missed the only chance I had to do one... Imma ask if I can do it anyway for fun :)

I'm super excited to play again! My tribe seems so neat and fun. There are a couple of old faces mixed in with a bunch of new ones! We won the reward and I ended up getting a clue to the hidden immunity idol! It stated that the idol is in a damp wet place where you can hide and honestly I have no idea where that is.

So one thing I forgot in my video: Mitchell is a damn snake. I’m close with Devon and apparently Mitchell thinks he is too bc he’s telling Devon that he’s been lying to me bc he doesn’t know that Devon and I are close. Also: sorry I keep forgetting things, but even though I’m close w Devon and I am considering him my greatest ally right now, i am not telling him about the girls alliance, and if I ever do find an idol, I’m not going to tell him about it. Oops

JD goes down step 10 .  JD goes down step 9 . JD goes down step 8 . JD goes down step 7 . JD goes down step  6 . JD trips on step 5 . JD falls down step 4 . JD keeps sliding down step 3 . JD slides more down step 2 . JD catches herself on step 1 . JD Fall on her face on solid grown.   "Ohhh JD took a hard fall" - Jeff Probst 

(i'm sleep deprived send help)

So within my tarp I found a clue to the idol! Its somewhere that is wet and damp... which could be a lot of different places. Yikes! I'm really getting along with the people on my tribe! I think everyone is pretty nice. I feel like me and Jones would get along well especially with our meme abilities. I like Nick as well. His Favorites till the end strategy is one I've heard time and time again but honestly Im up for it.

So I just found out the pans found a super idol to gift the other tribe.  To me this is a meaningless prize for us besides a tool to use to gain trust with your tribe. I like that Sammy decided to use it that way.  I actually picked the pots cause I thought maybe there could be an idol clue hiding in them most easily.  I suspect that there is an idol clue out there as well but for now I’m not going to bring that up with my tribe mates.

I think this vote wont be too bad hopefully and we take out someone who is not as active as everyone else. I would have preferred everyone to stay but we lost. Everyone is all good and nice.

im alice and just beat my placement and yeehaw

So I might be crazy but I do think that super idol exists OR the other tribe got some sort of reward for winning last reward. I NEED to lay low for this vote. I don't want to break too many promises this round. I want to make sure I just DON'T GET VOTED OUT. I hope there are no god damn idols either.

8:51 PM Well we suck..we really suck in challenges. And the worst about it is that i suck in challenges do 0.0. Which means people can't rely on me for the next stage of the game. Right now its the first vote. I can either push for Lucy  or Sarah. Maynor is better in comps and i think compare to other 2 its the best option to keep compare to that. So i know devon trust's sarah and maynor and i have a feeling he will want me to have a bond with them and potentially alliance. So is it a good time to get Sarah out? i think it could but... i need the tribe united and i feel what will make the tribe united is to vote lucy out. It's an easy vote. The problem if we go on tribal again with out Lucy there i could be expose. On the other site if Sarah is out for whatever reasons and i play the card to some people that i am just following majority while that wont be the case no one is gonna be mad at me. it's hard and we havent been on tribal yet :/

ok ok, so let's start from the beginning.  I got into the tribe and saw two people I knew.  That is all.  Tim and Chelsea.  Tim and I have had an interesting history but he promised to be different this game so who knows.  I started talking to everyone and so far my favorite person is Jones.  She is so funny.  Jenna and Alyssa are cool to and I see myself working with them.  José is a mess cause he isn't sure if he like wants to be here and play hard? idk but the others are cool too.  The challenge went great and we won the reward so I picked the pAnS cause idk?  Anyways, the pan had a note that told me I had won a super idol and could be played on someone at their first tribal pretty much.  So I decided to bribe Jess and tell her she would be safe if she threw the challenge but she was already out anyway.  I think I will give her the idol anyway for like staying and trying.  Idk what else to say cause I am watching CelebBB.  sorry Ryan I know you wanted a good confessional.

(update - WE WIN I'M NOT FIRST BOOT <3)

WE WON! Everyone collaborated and we played excellently! Sammy has a one round superidol but its for the other tribe. He got this from the pans. Nick mentioned in the tribe chat that his pots didnt have anything. NOW THIS I DOUBT. I feel like he has a one turn idol/superidol for our tribe. This is pure speculation so idk. Also Sammy wamts to give his idol to Jess who is most likely gonna be safe for this round. I suggested that he give the idol to someone who may go home so that their weak stays and one of their stronger players goes. Idk if he listened to me....

I hope that Sammy does not give his Superidol to Jess!  Imo that would be an incredibly not smart move. Although he would be forming some sort of intertribal loyalty to Jess but he would be sacrificing his tribe's loyalty in doing so. At least he would be sacrificing mine. Don't get me wrong, its his idol and he found it but once he told the tribe about it, it became the tribe's super idol. The scary thing now is that if a swap happens soon, Sammy is going to be here because he's valuable and he'll have a one up on tribal relationships. I know that I'm not going to be able to get him out with this mentality but If I want to think ahead I should work on forming some allegiance to him.

I feel like I am off to  a rocky start because i failed to get online for the challenge on time. Thank god we won bc i would probably be getting the boot. Im going to try to be more active; my mental health has been a little bit wacky so I havent been on my A game. Anyways, im excited for the next challenge.

So I'm having a hard time building a relationship with anyone one on one...  and I haven't been invited into any groups yet.  Part of me wants to play aggressively and make a chat with the 5 of us who scored over a million in the first challenge and call it "the Millionaires Club" and explain to them all that I want to play the game with the strongest players and I see them as the people that will keep the favorites Tribe the strongest.  The 5 of us would be Jose, myself, JD, Sammie, and Jones.  I'm gonna sit on the plan for a bit longer in hopes that I will be invited into a group soon.  But if stuff doesn't start happening soon than I am prepared with a plan to get some numbers going in my favor.

Aight so I’m voting against the Girl Power alliance this week bc Lucy is the obvious choice this round. She’s inactive, hasn’t reached out to me a single time, and she’s 6 hours ahead time zone wise so that’s hard to keep contact with her. I made a DIFFERENT alliance called “Ladies w/o Lucy” and they’re all cool w voting for her also so I don’t feel as bad bc I think we can be a solid 4 person alliance.

Well, first round back has been slightly uneventful. Just trying to meet some new people and find a place when we are forced to go to tribal. I immediately connect with Alyssa and Sammy, so I hope that they are as genuine as they seem. Jose doesn't seem to want to talk much, so I'm hoping maybe some others see the same. Other than that, no early tea. Just some more investigating!

At this point the small talk hasn't really evolved and I can't stand most of these caucasians but I'm TRYING to make the best of it and establish myself decently. I've found myself in two three person alliances. One called the Massholes with Dani and Devon. I like Dani yet I'm cautious of Devon... he seems too nice and apparently he's wheeling and dealing all over the place. Contrarily I'm in a group with Jess/Nikias called the Zwooperoos because we all originate from Zwooper.com. I hope people don't start connecting the dots with the Zwooperoos but who knows. I think some of these other cunts might know each other but I definitely trust that group too.  In regards to the vote I've mostly heard Lucy and I don't mind bandwagoning on that Dutch bitch. She hasn't done much for me and I don't really feel like making waves. Moving forward I want to be in an established majority though and I might try to get a group of 5 maybe if I survive this vote. At this point I'm fine with anyone that isn't me because I only really trust Jess and to a lesser extent Nikias and Dani.  I think our tribe sucks physically and I don't foresee us doing too well in tihs Fans vs Favs format. Like honestly... but personally I think I'm okay. I was one of the MOR competitors in the reward and sucked in the Paintball but I provided a strategy. It's not my fault I missed a period! At least I got that cunt Jenna out :)

Ok so not a lot has happened yet but I feel like I have a majority of people that wouldn’t vote me out if it came down to it. Also people want to get Lucy out this round. And people are seeing Devon as a threat since he is very friendly with everybody. We have a girls alliance but sadly we cannot save the first girl to go (as far as I know)

So far.. i'm not too impressed with my tribe tbh. This Bee girl already has me in two alliances without even asking. It was like of just like *adds you to random alliance* "I THINK WE SHOULD WORK TOGETHER" without even consulting. I'm pretty sure she has other alliances just because of that fact. "YOU HAVE BLUES EYES! WE SHOULD ALL WORK TOGETHER!!!". I need to watch out for her. 

Devon is another dude I need to watch out for. Pretty sure homeboy is saying the same thing to EVERYONE. I want him out SOON but if people have fallen for his act it'll go straight to him and i'll be toast. 

Even though these people are fans I can't underestimate them either. They may just be like me and this is their first tumblr game but they know how to play these games. So mama needs to WATCH OUT. 

Honestly trying to have a convo with these people is like pulling teeth. I’m guilty of it too but my god, come on people! SPILL THE TEA. GIVE ME SOME LIFE! PLEASE! FOR THE LOVE OF BEYONCE! 

With this super idol I’m honestly torn on what to do. If I don’t use it on Aidan I lose my #1 early on in the game but I do keep all of these girls happy. If I do use it on him the girls will be upset with me. I need to get this target off of Aidan stat. 

This all would only happen to.... me.

Looks like the 5 person alliance was able to get everyone outside of the alliance to target Lucy. Which is okay since they are unknowingly giving us the power and majority for next tribal. It feels great being in the majority. Sorry Lucy.

(No video confessional today Bc my WiFi is WHACK) So It’s the day after we won and I’m kinda just,,, chillin. Yesterday Sammy Jenna and I live-blogged the CBB2 premiere together, and that was a nice bonding moment for us (ps - cupcake man better not be the first nom or I WILL have a fit) - it was fun! Maybe it could become something down the line? Who knows. I also got to talk more with Nick today, and we were able to bond over personal stuff (not gonna share what’s it was, it’s his to tell) and I have such a huge respect for him as a person and a player. I’m really glad he’s able to play this game, he’s a real legend, icon, AND star and this cast wouldn’t be the same without him. I’m glad I was finally able to talk to him :) I still haven’t really talked to JD, Chelsea or Jose that much. I just have a hard time starting a convo with them Bc they aren’t always online. Also I’m p sure sammy gave his super idol to Jess, which is p good- if she’s ever on the bottom, she’ll have a reason to join our side lol. Or she could be voted out next? Who knows lol. But right now,,, we’re safe, and we can chill. So let’s just do that :)

So currently it seems like I'm one of the targets at tribal, because I wasn't able to perform in the first challenge that we'd have lost either way with or without my score. But that doesn't matter rn, what I have to do is get myself off of the chopping block. Bee seems to trust me, she was the one who told me that my name was going around. I've also been talking to Aidan now, to possibly come together as we're both targets this tribal it seems. We hope to take out Devon, since he's been rubbing people the wrong way a bit it seems, and may luck be on our side.

Here they are below: I worked very hard at these throughout the entire season, and I’m very excited for them to be released. I ALSO kept track of every single alliance they were in throughout the season, and that is in this post as well! 

So here we goooooooo:

The Edgic for the Season is:

The Episode Titles Are:

And my personal favorite... The Alliances :)

First off, it has been an absolutely amazing season. Congratulations to Alyssa for winning the title of Sole Survivor! However, we had a lot of other influential players this season, and I think it’s time we reveal our Fan Favorite, POTS Runner-Up and POTS winners.

I am going to start with Fan Favorite:

This season, I did something a little bit different that I thought of when Roxy was bitching about the Seychelles Fan Favorite not coming out. I kept a little mental tally every week of who the VL was TRULY pulling for, who had the most support, who everyone empathized with, and who EVERYONE was disappointed got voted out when they did, so without further ado, I’d like to Congratulate the Fan Favorite of the season to........

Jones! Congratulations Jones! Not only are you loved by literally everybody you meet (except maybe Aidan), but you are also such a compelling character! You were losing allies left and right throughout the entire merge, but still utilized your relationships, and kept surviving tribal councils, with a lot of emotion on top of that. I think the VL really pulled for you to win, and Congratulations on being the Fan Favorite of the season!

Now time for POTS Runner-Up and POTS. I had such a difficult time picking between these two players, and I was going back and forth for a very long time, until the final few days of the game occurred, and I realized one just had a slight edge over the other. However, to start, our Runner-Up POTS is......

Aidan! Congratulations Aidan! You took your first Tumblr ORG by storm, being arguably one of the ballsiest players of the season, and being very transparent about your game, yet still making it to the Final Seven without receiving a vote against you. You had your name going around at the very first Arakaka tribe, when Bee was trying to target you, and you had built such strong relationships early on that you were able to get yourself out of that situation. On Day 13 of this game, you took a temptation, sending your tribe to tribal council and claiming an advantage. Not only did you not receive votes that night, but you took out someone, who you were consistently saying was a problem for your game. Then after being the ONLY CAPTAIN from the trust lists to survive to the merge, you had a target on your back for being untrustworthy, and having an advantage, yet you wiggled yourself into a dominant majority alliance of five, and with two immunity wins, if you had played that advantage, you would’ve been guaranteed a spot in the final six, with probably a very different end game story for you than how it played out. I think you played an absolutely amazing game, where you were consistently clawing your way out of having a target on your back, and right once you got in the prime position, your alliance noticed and took you out of the game. Congrats on the amazing game you played! I was so happy you finally decided to play a Tumblr ORG, and you took it by storm!

Now.... for our Player of the Season. Our winner is...

Devon! Congratulations Devon! You are the Player of the Season! You came into the Fans tribe guns a blazin’. Even before the game started, you posted your intro in the VL by accident and made a funny name for yourself. You were obviously playing everyone, yet you had this charm to you that made other power players trust you once the merge came, and you used all of them towards your advantage. The blindside on Sammy was one of the biggest moves of the season, all orchestrated by you. I really think the Aidan vote was another big mark on your resume, and maintaining your relationship with Chelsea right up until your vote out and the girls started comparing notes. You were making moves left and right, and maintaining your social relationships to give you a dominant power position in the tribe. You voted for the correct person to go home every single round, and never had a target on you because of it. You set yourself perfectly to make Alyssa and Aidan the biggest threats in your alliance, and you got people out when YOU wanted to. Mr. Slithers, Congratulations! Everyone who played with you would probably call you a snake, but without a doubt I think you played one of the most entertaining games of the season, and it would be an honor to host you once more in the future. Thank You for playing!

By a vote of 8-1-1, Congratulations Alyssa! You have won Tumblr Survivor: Guyana and you are the Sole Survivor! I am so proud of you and you played an amazing game! Jess and Dani, I spoke about both of your games during the finale, but you both KILLED it as well, and have nothing to be ashamed of. I am convinced that this is not your last Final Tribal Council at all. Be proud!

Finale can be watched here:

The Link to FTC is Below: