((Hi! My antidepressants have been working really well! Actually, thatās why I havenāt been so active these past few days. I wasnāt addicted to the Internet or anything, but I didnāt have the energy to do anything other than lay in my bed, so at the very least scrolling through Discord and Tumblr on repeat made me feel like I was doing something, as opposed to just...staring at the ceiling and occasionally turning over in bed. Thatās really why I was able to respond ~immediately~ to posts/responses.
While I work on recovering from my severe depression and anxiety-- which I use that word knowing that they wonāt just go away, rather I use it to say that Iām dealing with them to start functioning in the ways that I need to again --Iām going to be taking a step back from this blog for a while. Itās not going to be forever! I just...need some space to breathe. Gonna be stepping back from Tumblr in general (my main is @itsya1upboy and my other RP blog is @sunyshore-leader-volkner).Ā
Though Iām also taking a step back from this blog because...well... My writing isnāt entirely vent art, but it can get pretty dark. To be entirely frank, while Havardr is his own character and not a pure self-insert, a lot of my writing him was and is a projection of my own issues with mental illness and my fears about where Iād end up down the road.Ā
I mean, these stories need to be told, and Etrian Odyssey was the framework in which I was able to do so-- not just Havardr but everyone. The disabled, the mentally ill, PoC, LGBT+, everyone of every shape, size, and color--- they deserve to have stories told too, and people should see stories that they can be inspired from. I never consciously say,Ā āIām going to add an X character now.ā but I do want to make sure I handle things respectfully and tell these stories right.Ā
But itās also with the sorts of stories I tell, where Iāll need to step back for a while to deal with my own mental health. My writing didnāt causeĀ my depression and anxiety; Iāve had them for years. But writing was part of the process in which I was able to open the Pandoraās box of my emotions and begin evaluating them and working through them, and right now, writing darker characters is not what I need to be doing.
Thatās why Iām going to be stepping back from this blog for a while. I donāt enjoy RP any less, and I really love everyone Iāve met here in the EO RP community and the general EO community here on Tumblr! But for the sake of my mental health, itās going to be necessary for me to do this. Thank you so much for supporting Guild Phoenix thus far, and I hope you will continue to support them in their future endeavors!))














