soft boyfriend Jinu

only smiles and laughter when he’s with you.

Jinu likes going to the beach with you. 

He likes to see you feeling the sand in between your feet as you squealed. 

Jinu would always drag you to the waters as the both of you stood by the edge side by side, your arms in his, letting the waves wash over your ankles.

The two of you like the calmness and the serenity of the beach as you both watch over the sun setting.

When he is out with you, he no longer is Winner Jinu, he is your Jinu. 

Jinu is attentive, he loves hearing you talk about your “mundane” life. He observes you a lot, the way you blink twice when you lost your train of thoughts, the way you would slightly scrunch your nose when you see babies. 

“Stop looking at me like that!”

“Like what?”, he smiles

“Like I’m so interesting!”

He would look at you softly, “you are”

also, a lot of selfies. Probably won’t upload anywhere, just for him to keep as memories.

He likes being with you. With you, he is at his most natural state. 

fun excited boyfriend Hoony!

brings you to all the trendy food places

sometimes, dates with him can be as short as an hour. 

and even within that one hour, it always felt like you spent the entire day with him. 

Hoony enjoys going out with you, you always make him laugh. He appreciates that your humour level matches him.

countless cafe dates!!

often time people recognise him, and when they approached him, he will usually talk and take a photo for a while. 

You understood, but when the both of you are in the midst of talking and eating, he would politely decline. 

Hoony likes listening to you talk about your work, he makes you comfortable.You would often tell him incidents that happen on your way to work or just work in general.

When you talk, he listens. His reactions can be over the top but it’s never like he’s making of you. Just hyping you.

“So, I ordered a grande iced coffee and the barista gave me a venti”

“REALLLYYY??”, he would say *refer to gif above*

He would also refill your glass with water and pass the glass to you so you can drink. 

He would also sometimes feed you in between as you tell him your story. 

He just like doing that. You two match other well.

chill boyfriend mino!

loves bringing you to art exhibitions and museums. 

Mino gets excited when he explain his interpretation of the art piece, and you like that. 

Often times, Mino would ask you for your opinion. He just likes hearing your thoughts. 

“This portrait makes me feel safe? I feel as if I am looking through the eyes of the painter, does that make sense?”

“How come?”, he would ask again.

“I can’t explain, but looking at it gives me the same feelings when I see you looking at me. I feel protected, I feel loved,”

Definitely caught off guard before he tries to hide the redness forming on his cheeks. 

You would just locked hands with him and drag him to the next painting.

also, your biggest fans. 

loves taking pictures of you secretly. his favourite is you failing hard to blow bubbles, best believe he has that photo of you printed.

“Babe, smile!”

dates with you is like his mini getaway from his busy life and he loves every second of it.

cutie pie Yoon!

loves going on drives with you.

sometimes to a neighbouring city, sometimes to nowhere, other times just driving around the city.

Seungyoon would take this time to update you about his life. All the small details, all the missed time together. 

“I had a chocolate cake the other day and I think you will love it!”, he shares.

Sometimes, the two of you would go to a neighbouring city and stop at non busy spot overlooking the city

Sometimes, the both of you don’t talk. He likes the calmness. 

“I like this”

“What?”, you’d ask as you turn to your sides to face him. 

“This. Just us two, the peace the calm.”

You smile and he would always take your hands and leave kisses on each knuckles and the back of your palm. 

Yoon would never let go of your hands and you two would more often than not, wait for the sun to set. 

Like Mino, he loves taking pictures of you. 

Both of you are each other photographer and hypeman for each other’s ig. 

“Stand there and look pretty!”, he would say to you.

Boyfriend Leeteuk would never fail to monitor your performances.

but, it’s not like would comment on your skills or abilities.

it’s the small things like, how you gaze at the cast in some scenes, or like your hand motions when you do some actions.

he won’t criticise but would give you his feedbacks, which you appreciate most of the time.

also, it’s his thing to attend only the last performance. 

“end it with a bang!” he says

and when he does, it’s grand. Him dressing to the nines, biggest flower wreath for you, packed dinner box for all the cast and crew.

however, will always send you an encouraging text each night of your performance.

your relationship with him was not low key at all. it was kinda hard to keep it on the DL at first but you were relieved when you two went official.

You two now go anywhere and everywhere without caring a bit of the cameras and papparazis.

ooh biggest supporter Kim Heechul!!

he would always say, “not bad,”, but then you see him going on his youtube live and showering you with endless compliments.

“I thought you said it was not bad?”

you would then see him smiling shyly scratching the back of his head shyly.

Heechul is a busy man, so it is expected that he would miss your performance often.

but, he always makes it up! Either by sending gifts to the whole cast, or a simple dinner when you come back home.

dates with Heechul are mostly Netflix and Chilling at home. 

both of you being popular sometimes made it hard to go do normal couple things.

you mentioned once that you want to go picnic

lo and behold, Heechul prepared a picnic in his house. Set up fake grass, with a mat and picnic food.

constant harmless bicker but Heechul accommodates to you a lot. He probably would do everything for you

OKAY HE”S SWEET PLEASE!

Boyfriend Yesung would always go to your performances. You told him going once is enough but he insisted that you are too good to only watch once. 

Every performance he goes, he is always bringing different people. He says he wants everyone to see you perform.

Yesterday was his brother, the other day was two of the members and tomorrow will be with his school friends.’

Always a single stalk of rose for you which he will give once he meets you backstage at the end.

as much as your relationship was publicised, Yesung rarely ever posts about you on his social media. 

at first you thought it was because he was ashamed of you, but later you find out he didn’t want you to just be known as “Yesung Girlfriend” or get hate comments. 

also, you two would travel a lot together. If it’s not to a new country, it would be a short drive to the neighbouring city.

you liked that because people don’t swarm the both of you. you have your privacy and it’s usually one or two people who recognise you. 

also, both of you love going to record stores to find some hidden gems. 

a lot of cafe dates! and also museum dates!

for some reason Shindong do not want to publicise the relationship.

he went through it once and he don’t want you to go through the hate or scrutiny especially not when you are the country’s best musical actress.

Shindong is very careful. At first it kind of frustrates you but you slowly got to understand where he is coming from and to be quite honest, you like keeping it low key.

Dates with him are usually evening drives, watching movies in a less crowded theatre or walks at his nearby parks.

But, mostly chilling in his each other house.

No fancy public gestures, no surprise or anything on your performance day.

But, he will attend at least once, at least with his group of friends to not make it obvious. 

Come the end of the performance, you went to his home to relax and wind down.

You entered to his house decorated, with balloons and music and stuff, with CONGRATULATIONS hanging off the wall. 

He took your hands and made you sit.

Shindong would play the video he secretly took of you performing, you practicing in his house. 

You know he feels apologetic.

“I love it,” you would say as you softly caress his cheeks.

shut up our favourite dumpling is married to an actual musical actress!!

so cute okay!! please!!

Sungmin would be the most supportive person ever okay! Making time to see his wife before she starts performing!

Always sending her words of encouragement!

If he can attend, he would in a heartbeat. But when he can’t he would send you a text to ease her nerves!

He would definitely post on his social media about her performances night. 

Going on YT live together, doing fun tiktoks together, featuring on each other channel!

Just cute married couple things okay?

A lot of dates at home because our resident married couple gets tired easily!

Eunhyuk appreciates musical but even more so after dating you.

He admires the effort and hours of practice you do every single day. 

You would say, “babe, it’s the same for you?”

“Nah, I just dance. You belt out all your high notes like you’re talking!”

You would often shake your head and he would always like gently pull your closer using his arms and kiss the top of your head.

Man would attend your first performance, sitting first row. Doesn’t matter if he’s alone or with his members. 

When you would make eye contact with him, he would put out a small wave so as to not distract you. 

Somehow, this always makes you more confident. Like a boost of adrenaline. 

your relationship with him was mostly “accepted” by the general public and his fans. 

in fact, his fans would sometimes do an ad for your performance or even like send your cast and crew gifts.

likewise, your fans would sometimes send a coffee truck to his concert.

Dates with him were more free. Shopping dates, food dates. Basically normal couple dates. 

But, every date must have a slot for the both of you to eat ice cream because both you loves ice cream too much. 

sometimes, you two would go to the park, get a tub of ice cream from a convenience store and people watch as you dig in to your tub. 

Hae is the biggest fool for you to be honest

like everything you do is beautiful to him. Your smile, the way you smile, when you sing, when you focus on your script. 

He just loves everything about you OKAY

your biggest supporter! He would always post your performance on his social medias, telling his fans and followers to go support you!

He just loves tagging you, in the most random meme, edits of the both of you made by yours or his fans.

Donghae would never miss your performance. He goes to any night available if he’s free.

The one time he couldn’t was when the group toured South America.

Facetiming you to send you his words of encouragement and support! He would also ask his brother to send you a flower wreath on his behalf.

Donghae enjoys going out with you. Whether it’s to run errands or exploring new food, or even going to museums. 

His camera roll would be filled with his secret recordings of your perfomances or your candid photos he couldn’t bare to delete.

siwon is your #1 fan without a doubt!

siwon wouldn’t show his support publicly but he motivates you to be the best musical actress you can be.

“what is one challenge yo want to embark as a musical actress?”, he would ask one day randomly.

It took you a while to give him an answer. 

you eventually did

“I want to be at the top of my game. I want to perform at Broadway and have the public acknowledge my hard work”

He looks at you, only amazed and respect.

and that has become your goal since then. you were thankful for siwon for helping you realise your directions.

Siwon would usually attend at least one of your performances because #1 fanboy.

When he couldn’t he would make sure he calls you and cheers you on.

Siwon loves going on dates with you.

Sometimes, it’s exciting dates like a theme park or disco roller skating. Other times, it’s cultural appreciation dates. Occasionally, quiet chill dates at each other’s houses with books of your choice and coffee.

definitely each other support system! 

somehow, loves taking selfies with you!

“for memories,” he would always say. 

being an established musical actor himself, Ryeowook would always ask you to monitor him. 

More so than he monitors you.

Ryeowook would want like one feedback from you after each performance you attended.

It’s always things like “maybe you can vibrate your notes at the end?”, “keep your hand motion smooth?”

He takes your feedback seriously and he respects you. 

Wook also likes the fact that he don’t have to keep his relationship private.

Would also attend your performances and like standing ovation each time, even if he is doing it alone.

But, he does keep it low key. Only ever mentioning you vaguely in his vlogs.

with him, it never felt like you are dating a celebrity. likewise for wook. And he absolutely loved that feeling.

It makes going out with you easier. 

He absolutely loves going on walks with you. You were sure you went to more parks than you ever did your entire life. 

Dates with him are mostly at Incheon because he likes to show you the places he grew up in. 

You absolutely love going on coffee runs with him. You enjoy just grabbing coffee and sitting with him as you talk about your lives. 

in private, both of you love drinking. It’s like a thing for the both of you if both of you do not have schedule. 

also, a private duet when you are your house. Him playing the piano and harmonising as you sing.

power couple OKAY?!?!

Top musical actress and idol turned musical actor was sure to get people talking. 

it did!

but it was a lot of positive reactions and endless support.

so much so that the public and fans wants the both of you to star in one musical together. 

when it happened, tickets were immediately sold out. They had to extend more slots. 

Ads and news of the two of you were everywhere!!

Both your fans were always sending gifts to the cast and crew, and there were always endless flower wreaths on your performing nights. 

Despite the blow up in support, Kyuhyun and you were still wary. You realised that one wrong move could backfire the two of you and the support you two have been receiving. 

wary or not, the two of you still go on dates, sometimes public sometimes private. Mostly private. 

“hey, can you come over?”, you whispered over the phone.

“okay, in five minutes,”

You let out the breath you didn’t realise you were holding as you let your hands fall to the floor. Hot tears streamed down your face and you slowly feel your head getting light.

You tried to ignore the image playing in your mind. You tried. You closed your eyes to think about anything else. You dug deep, only to replay the scene over and over again.

The doorbell rang and you hear the door unlock. The door swung open and you see your best friend rushing to your side. You smiled at him as he looks over you, worry plastered on his face.

“Donghae, you are here,” you muttered.

“Of course I am here,” he replied, tone laced with concern as he took a seat beside you.

The both of you didn’t talk. You were hugging your legs as you faced him with your eyes closed.

You hear the stillness in the room, the sounds of both your breathings filling the room. Your ears perked up to hear Donghae gulping the can of soda on your table.

“Am I pretty?”, you suddenly asked.

Donghae stopped drinking. You slowly opened your eyes and continued resting your head on your folded knees. Donghae passed you a confused look as he leaned over to put down the soda on your coffee table.

“Am I good person?”, you changed your question.

He took a breath, “of course you are, you’re the most pretty and best person I ever know,”

You smiled, but as the images played on your mind, you feel the tears pooling in your eyes before it rolled uncontrollably.

“Hey, hey, why are you crying?”

You tried your best to stifle your sobs as you used your hands to wipe your tears.

“If I am pretty, why did he chose her!”, you let out, “If I’m such a good person, why did he do me like that?”, you continued.

Your sobs got louder and your tears streamed endlessly. Donghae kept silent. He had a lot to say, he wanted to say a lot. He wanted to scream at the top of his chest. He wished that you could hear his loud thoughts in his head. 

He turn towards you, carefully placing on your shoulders. 

“No one wants me. If I were him, I wouldn’t want me either,” your voice soft, as you slowly regain yourself. You stare at the water marks on your coffee table. He was a jerk and you deserved better, you knew that. But, why did the break hurt so bad? 

You look at Donghae, “maybe I’m just not worth it,”. You feel his hands on your shoulder slowly tightened.

“You are,” he starts, “worth it,”

You couldn’t hear. Or maybe you did, but you couldn’t trust yourself.

“You are worth it. Every bit of you”, he spoke louder, clear as a day. “Your mind works in the most unique way, you look the cutest when you drink strawberry milk. Your eyes lit up in the most beautiful way when you talk about the books you like. The way you would smile and make faces to babies, god you smile.”

You opened your mouth, failing to form sentences. You didn’t know what to reply and when you finally wanted to, 

“You deserve all the happiness. I’m so mad that some other guy made you cry. I’m even more mad at myself knowing that this could have been avoided.”

“Hae...”, was all you could manage.

“I know, I know fully well that you only see me as friend. But, I’m saying, you deserve someone who appreciates you. Someone who helps you be the best version of yourself. I’m saying..-” he paused. You took note of his clenched fist and the nerves threatening him. 

“I’m saying, I like you more than a friend. I want you to see me a man. I want to be the person you wake up too, your haven in a stressful world, your runaway car if you need.”

He finally looked at you, you see the sincerity in his eyes. You see the slight panic, the worry on his face. 

“I.. I don’t know what to say..”, you admitted. “We’ve known each other since forever, how do I.. I can’t just say yes..”

You saw him pursed his lips as he inhaled, “you don’t have to say yes now. I just want you to see me as a man, A man good enough for you.”

You couldn’t form anything. 

Donghae stood up, gathering his jacket and beanie. “I’ll.. go,”

You grabbed his wrist, “you can’t just say stuff like that and leave!”

“What do you want me to do!  Watch me clown myself? I can’t just sit here and make you uncomfortable!”

He gently shook your hands off. You watched him leave.