gangsta

so i’ve kind of been on and off about shifting for probably ab two years now. nothing too serious to me up until recently when it’s been something i think about multiple times through the day. i’ve never had much success and probably have only had one significant out of body experience but i love the community and the way even just attempting to shift makes me feel instantly at ease. OKAY BUT WALK WITH ME so last night idefk what was going on bro but it’s finals week and im stressed and everything has just been so crazy overwhelming right so after i did some work it was somewhere around 2am and i decided to garden 😉 to help me finally calm down. well during the height of it i decided i was overly annoyingly tired so i closed my eyes and for some reason i couldn’t really think about anything significant so i just focused on the sound of my fan while i was laying down and eventually i stopped being able to feel my body at all it was like it wasn’t even there like i couldn’t feel the way my arms were touching my torso or the way my hand was like laying between my knees but i could still hear everything that was going on around me like my fan. so then i kind of did start a train of thought but it wasn’t my memories that i have here they seemed very familiar but not mine. then i kinda start freaking out and bro believe me my heart was the only thing i could feel and it was going ab a thousand miles a freaking minute bro. well then like yk how when you’re in a dark room and your eyes are closed it’s nothing there but when it’s bright and you close your eyes you can still tell it’s bright? it literally looked like from behind my eyes that i was outside. and then i started feeling things on my skin like movements and then here’s the climax guys…I GOT SLAPPED? like what bro. literally i got slapped across my face. i could hear the noise and my whole face moved to the side. it was so freaking scary guys but the whole time i was doubting myself and what was happening in my mind so i stopped myself from fully getting there yk? idk the point of this post guys i js was overly scared but now it’s like im scared because im actually seeing something i wanted for a long time actually be something i see as obtainable and it’s intimidating i guess BUT GUYS IS THAT SHIFTING LIKE DID I SHIFT EVEN IF IT WAS JS A LITTLE BECAUSE I WANNA FO IT AGAIN IT WAS ACTUALLT FUN!!! (i practice manifestation and LOA but for some reason shifting has never been something i could fully fortify my belief on)