for the longest time i genuinely hated my body. all my rolls and how soft and pudgy i am, i hated it all of it.

but recently i've been thinking... maybe i was never supposed to hate my body. i'm middle eastern. my ancestors had bodies exactly like mine, and i can't change my genetics.

i've come to appreciate the fact that my ancestors created belly dancing. imagine loving soft bellies so much that you built an entire dance around it being the centre of attention, the fact that it could hypnotise men.

and ngl i can imagine myself wearing one of those beautiful little outfits with little gold coins stitched into the fabric, my fat gut hanging out underneath, my fat tits just spilling out of the top because they've gotten just a little too big. i know my core isn't strong enough to do all the fancy moves... i'd probably just end up jiggling my tits and double belly for you to show off how breedable and fertile i am.

i'd want to belly dance in front of a crowd, and maybe the first man to toss a little gold coin at my feet gets promoted to be my feeder or just play with my belly however he wants.

Piggies, I am almost at 1k followers and when I hit that number I plan on celebrating in ways you will enjoy 😉

literally thank you all so much for 128 followers in the past than 24 hours!! i genuinely never thought this many people would wanna follow my little feedee diary/blog. putting myself out here has been kinda overwhelming but it felt so much better once i saw everyone liking and reblogging my content, and reaching out to me! so all the love means the world 💗💗

300lbs is undeniably fat - you're not chubby or thick or husky. You're fat. You either like it, or are ambivalent enough it doesn't scare you the way it would other people. You can still participate in society, mostly, but the world doesn't have to stop to accommodate you.

+400lbs is definitely eyebrow raising for society. It's being unable to clothes shop at even Walmart. Its forcing you to slow down, forcing you out of normal society because you simply do not fit. It's modifying your habits, changing to more sedentary hobbies. It's having to take up 2 seats on a packed flight, impacting a strangers life when they find that plane full. But instead of letting all that mortification spark change, no, something pleasurable coils in your belly and whispers "its not that bad yet"

500lbs?

Thats a level of obesity you're not ready for. Trust me, and I barely dipped my toe in that class of obesity.

Simple things that you've taken for granted, things that have remained as your athleticism dwindled, now suddenly seem like Olympian feats. Waddling through a store? Might as well call the ambulance to wait for your inevitable collapse. An incline? No, silly, might as well call it Everest. Standing at the stove to cook? Bold to not have a chair nearby. Clothes for fat people? Ha, you've sized out of specialty stores. Now you need custom clothes. Getting off the couch? Now you gotta plan how many times you can get up and so you make those one or two attempts count by stacking snacks around you.

Once you hit 500lbs, and you ignore that tiny quiet voice saying, "woah, hey, lets slow down" and instead listen to that roaring hunger in your belly...

Like, the more you eat, the bigger your stomach expands, the more you can eat in the future.

The more you overeat, the bigger your portions will become, and the more often you'll feel hungry between meals.

The more you snack, the more often your body will 'expect' to be fed.

The more fast/junk food you eat, the more often you'll feel cravings for those foods.

The fatter you grow, the less you'll be able to exercise. You'll be too big, too heavy, too tired to move yourself around. Your arms and belly will get in the way of themselves. Your body will lose its strength and tire out easier, faster. Meaning exercises become shorter, less effective. More daunting.

The fatter you grow, the less you'll WANT to exercise. All those lazy habits will add up, and you'll prefer to do something sedentary instead. The less you exercise, the easier your body will grow fatter, and the harder it will be to lose weight.

It's like... Once you start gaining weight, your body sets off a snowball effect to become even larger, even faster, and... and...

literally thank you all so much for 128 followers in the past than 24 hours!! i genuinely never thought this many people would wanna follow my little feedee diary/blog. putting myself out here has been kinda overwhelming but it felt so much better once i saw everyone liking and reblogging my content, and reaching out to me! so all the love means the world 💗💗

who will help me get my gaining journey to the next the level? 🐷