crazy mary tudor stan?? tis i

Officer K my beloved

inspired by The Kiss by Gustav Klimt :-)

Because no, Shauna doesn't like Jeff, but Jackie wouldn't know if she did.

The same way that she doesn't hate soccer, or being called Shipman, or even Jackie herself. What she hates is that Jackie never asked.

Of course Jackie wanted to go to college with her and live out their lives together because all she wants in her future is Shauna. It would never occur to her to ask if that's what Shauna wants, because they're ShaunaandJackie. Of course they want the same things. Jackie doesn't want to be her own person seperate from Shauna, and she would never assume that's what Shauna wants.

They have morphed into one person and Shauna doesn't know how to get out of that except by lashing out at Jackie.

But then Jackie dies. And Shauna's free. She doesn't need to be in a toxic codependent relationship anymore. Except, no, she's not. She can't escape Jackie, and she doesn't want to.

I don't know where you end and I begin

he is! catherine's! childhood friend! she doesn't see him as a handsome mysterious stranger she sees him as her other half and as someone who was there for her and loved her when she was a kid running around and being dirty and improper and deeply disliked by everyone in her house including her father for daring to not live up to the gendered excpectations of what she should be. and she misses being that kid so so so bad, and she hates married life and she wants to go back home even though home was awful and abusive and she ran away from it because at leaaaast she was allowed to be herself there. and heathcliff is home.

and heathcliff isn't obsessed by Cathy the way people describe him she's not a thing to own. she's the only person to have ever loved him apart from his dad for like a few years. she's the only one that doesn't constantly dehumanize him or wait for him to turn into the savage beast they all think he is. he's deeply alienated from the society he grows up in because of his skin color and she! doesn't! care!

sure sure their love is bad for them and those around but you know why it is that way? not because they're toxic or whatever (i mean sure, in part, but) but because they're not fucking allowed to love each others. because god knows and Heathcliff knows and Cathy knows they could never get married. because the only way for Catherine to hope to help him is to marry a nice guy she kind of likes because as a woman she's powerless because even if Heathcliff comes back a gentleman he's only ever be perceived as a crook! because even if he owns "Wuthering Heights" he's "cheated Hareton out of his birthright", because Heathcliff doesn't and will never have a birthright!!