Why won't you love me like I love you?
God, every single time I look at you, it feels like my chest is crumpling in on itself.
The pain is unbelievable.
Why do you smile like that?
That smile hurts so fucking much. I want to bite your face. Just.. latch onto your cheek, just hard enough to draw blood.
It's infectious. Even if you were smiling because of someone else, it makes me smile too. And I hate that.
Why do I feel like clawing open my skin; ripping the corners of my mouth so I can never smile again?
It feels so good when you look at me.
It still hurts. My ribcage is still cracking and my heart is throbbing so heavily that I can feel it as it threatens to fall out in front of you.
But what hurts the most, is that you say you love me.
Why don't you feel this way too?
Why aren't you grabbing my face with both of your beautiful fucking hands and sinking your teeth into my nose?!
Why don't you look at me like you're going to puncture my eyes just because it hurts you for me to look at you?!
What do I need to do to make you love me like I love you?
If I disappeared, would you go mad searching for me? Or would you move on almost immediately?
Maybe, if you were "abducted" and I rescued you, you would realize that you can't live without me..
You would finally see how much you need me.
Then your eyes would look at me with the same hunger I feel for you, and your body would ache with the same agony I suffer.
I would give anything for that.
