Just a girl

I don’t know if he is the one for me anymore. If he is the one my heart wants. He makes me smile and laugh but my heart is still wanting more. I don’t know if its me being too needy or asking too much of him, but he just doesn't satisfy my heart like he used to. It hurts to think about this and think that he could no longer be in my life. There are some moments where I can’t picture my life without him but then other moments when I look into my future and I can’t see it with him. 

Isn't it great when your boyfriend goes out drinking and leaves you at home?

I wait for him to call maybe, text maybe, message me on Facebook. I look at his Instagram and see how good he looks and think how bad I look and think what did I do wrong. What did I do wrong?? I miss him and he probably doesn't even think about me which kinda hurts. I just wish I could know what happened and if he actually liked me. I just want answers. I kinda hate him well I just really really don't like him he was a coward and I shouldn't want him back but I do maybe because there's no one else who has treated me better so he's all I have.