Raven A

From those who's most against it?

When the loudest of defenders

Become the offenders

In our vulnerable state...

I can't understand it

I'm afraid of some things

So clearly out of my control.

I feel selfish for fears,

And I hide away tears,

For the choice we never had

Now makes everyone mad

The fakes and lies surround me,

I don't know who to trust,

The lies come from both sides,

And truth's nowhere in sight,

With information boundary

Dividing Them and Us

Why do my people face hate?

Why must we shamefully hide?

And our pride has been striped,

As our ancestors weep,

Why do we carry the weight

Laying undisturbed, yet staying wary,

On guard!

Go hunt the monsters of the past,

This daily fighting is a must.

Late night, the sun will soon arise,

I'm still awake to no surprise.

Another turn, the body's getting sore,

The mind is racing even more,

Still hopeful the exhaustion overtakes

My reminiscing of mistakes,

No shot!

So when tomorrow turns today

Of unbelievable smooveness

Food of sweetest sin -

What is happening?

What is that ringing sound?

Everything is so distorted, distant, loud...

And the sky turns red,

And the vision goes black,

And my heart filles with dread,

And my grip goes slack

The word goes out with an explosion

I'm overwhelmed with pitiful emotions

And suddenly - release

The word returns to normal back again

From the tips of my fingers

Down to my heart

Can't move an inch

To move on, to forget about the past,

And start walking forward at last.

But I struggle in vain,

Unable to forget

The things you said.

Those words, not last ones but the first

Still haunt me in my worst

Invisible force

Like carrying a thousand tons

The darkness manifests upon my brain,

It feels like I have gone insane.

In nights as cold and lonely just like this

My face grows tired from the tears,

My only thoughts are distant,

No power to resist it

Soft, even pressure on my skin,

My fingers trace my thighs and chin.

Move slowly, it's a ritual,

Time is moving fast

It's overwhelming,

No escape, no relive

Not through words,

Not even though art.

I can't express myself

Alone and insignificant,

Like a drop in the ocean

Or a pebble on the beach.

Overwhelmed with emotion,

Hope is slipping out of reach.

I roll into a ball,

So pretty and light

And good with her flight,

Smelling like honey,

Buzzing so funny,

So warm and fuzzy,

Confident and snazzy.

Helpful all around

So unreal and hazy.

And minutes go by

Moving past heavy and lazy.

What's usually loud

Now is eeriely quiet,

No voices, no sounds,

There is delay

Between my actions

And my thoughts,

All the distractions