Sunney🔆

Suffer they grow

Either it slinks into your heart

What would I know

Flailing and wandering they walk

Looking at me

Tempting a knock, flutter, a breath

Ever so

Slightly

Ever so slightly

Younger now

That I feel

Than when I was so old

I was there

When you weren’t looking

Why did you

Look at me

Like that

The world is so wise

And I feel

So small

I live in

A whisper of memories

Of sights I may have seen

There are so many things

I may have done

I grew up

The only

I grew up one of many

There’s so much

I wish I had

I don’t want

Any of it

I needed something

I’m reaching

I’m grabbing

My palms are open

I beg

I despise

Have I done

Anything

To deserve it

When will I earn it

You make your keep

I watched you

When you weren’t listening

Or can I not hear it

Say it again

Younger now

That I feel

I never saw you in that way

I mean

The way

I never saw you like that

Maybe in a different direction

Though I’ve never quite known where we were headed

The closer we are the more I wonder

About

Where we’ll be

If we will be that way

I mean

The way

Isn’t that us

Will our attachment drift into indifference

But what is it that I worry for

I have you now

You’ve got me don’t you

Don’t do that,

It’s bad for your health,

And it’ll only stealthily rot your brain.

This, and think.

This, and learn.

This, and do.

But what can I do?

Help me.

You’re gonna have to help yourself.

Ok, sure, I get that.

But let me find my raincoat —

It’s the season for rain.

It’s the time for sleep,

It’s the time for rest,

But a blanket over my eyes never helped.

Then what will?

If anything.

I told you.

Did you listen? Did you hear?

And if I were to bend my ear,

You couldn’t speak?

Why don’t you do better,

Why don’t you show better?

No one should be out there

Storming the weather.

It’s the world,

As we see it.

Seek it out,

As we made it.

Can you make it

Pricking fingers with a switchblade

Begone, reason; begone, pain

Always thought you were so brave

And you didn’t like me either

But I remember, and I awoke

And when the hands of the clock

Beat closer to me,

And you were there,

And you said it out loud —

I was scared.

Inevitably, I was scared.

Am I making you proud?

If I survive the masquerade,

Will it come back to town?

Forget it, never mind —

The music is just too…

I think I spoke too…

Screaming while I’m running,

Loud?

Loud.

Loud.

Cell Block T (Extended)

Pricking fingers with a switchblade

(Finger poke? Finger poke. Finger poke.)

Begone, reason; begone, pain

(Breathe. Count to three. Take the pills. You need to take the pills.)

Always thought you were so brave

(So strong! So strong? So strong.)

And you didn’t like me either

(It’s okay, I didn’t like me either.)

But I remember, and I awoke

(When’s your birthday? Full name?)

And when the hands of the clock

(You’re only getting older)

Beat closer to me

(You’re only getting weaker)

And you were there

(And I will always be there)

And you said it out loud —

(You’re only getting worse)

I was scared

(I’m going to die)

Inevitably, I was scared

(I’m going to live)

Am I making you proud?

(I did it. I did it? I did it?)

If I survive the masquerade

(Everything’s gonna be okay)

Will it come back to town?

(I don’t feel so good, and I feel so scared)

Forget it, never mind —

(I’m overthinking it)

The music is just too…

(Why are you even thinking about it?)

I think I spoke too…

(Don’t say it. Why are you even talking about it?)

Screaming while I’m running

(That’s the wrong way…)

Loud?

Loud.

I am lost but am I free

All the fears I cannot see

All the lives that will not be

Wasted Potential

My love My voice

I cried out

My heart My choice

Through every window I peer into

I always fall back into you

Tear me apart

Rip me up

Give me mercy

Give me grace

Bury me under your body