Conclave?

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It’s been forever since I drew this series 🤣😭😭😭

Bob?

Lawrenitez 🤭

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Unfinished merchs proj again 😭😭

Postcards that I have printed before!

So many unfinished projects 😭😭😭

Idk if I would ever finish this Innocent xiv coin merchs design…… it is front/back

idk why I am stanning every cardinal help

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Let us pray that god will grant us a Pope who doubts

I don't remember any of that me writing that kinda shit wtf WHO DID THAT

I found that my plans that I made previously work not well and not finding solution even if I google it. So I made a decision that I am changing. Maybe this is too late, but this is an idea that I really want to work on. I am now trying to make a video that pretends to be a simulating game. For UI effects, I am going to use After Effects to simulate that because it is just video pretending playing a game. A player should survive in the room in any way, and if something attacks you, they can choose what they are going to do by clicking options. So it is going to be mixture of animation made through Maya and After Effects. The reason that I decided to make a simulation video instead of real game is, I found that it is hard to put myself and think about a meaning of the game because I am just scared during playing games. My brain stops and just trying to escape from this fear. So I want to experiment if simulating video makes difference from actually playing a game.

I found that controlling an existing puppet can be the option for me if I want to make realistic figure. I found that the original rig is not that great from what I have downloaded, so I may want to make my own skeleton. Snow taught about it to me briefly and I think that would be helpful. It would take time to make the one that I want it to be, but it might be worth. At least it is not moving animation, when I am done with making skeleton, I can just make a posture and do not have to sculpt. But I am not so sure if I can make this figure hollow inside. I do not have clear idea how I am going to make this final project that I want it to be, but hopefully there’s a way. We do not have much time until final, and I am kind of frustrated because I am making progress super slowly. 

I am not so sure what makes me be satisfied with my work. Even if I liked my work a lot when I finished my work, when I start to prepare for crit and get it, I start to lose my confidence and don’t like my work anymore. I know, I know that I don’t have to take it personally and think that everyone would say like that. But it is pretty hard. I know I should keep working on what I like, but if you are distracted by other people’s comments, you start to be confused. Everyone gives different comments on my work. And I have one friend who studies at different art school. I found that my school takes more time and heavily focus on critique. I am not sure if this is helpful for me. Not many people talk during critique and if no one talks, you start to think like your work is garbage. Yeah, I know, this is also related to self esteem issue but that’s how I feel. If no one is going to talk, why do you have to sit there for 6 hours? And also, even if someone talks, I found that not many helpful comments were come out. I am going to work on my final, and I hope that I can reserve some. I know it could be work in progress, but I feel like I should finish this. It is hard to go forward, and I am not sure if this journal is quite not fit to the purpose, but since I do not have any progress, this is what I can write. People just say keep working and do not discourage yourself from just critique but I don’t know. I know what it means but.. I am tired. But I am trying.