Ellie Williams

𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒔 .

see the rivers meet & spread like veins .

gonna dance around & sing about my pain .

see the dried flood lines on the neighbors' porches .

do you remember crying for all them horses ?

they did not look scared at all .

tell me when it feels you cannot escape me .

just yell like dad would yell at all the noise i'm making .

i'm just happy you still call .

city kid bought the farm , he's a real nice guy .

he left a lifetime invitation for my friends & i .

couldn't make it back even if i tried .

some things live forever even when they die .

i wanna beat it , wanna beat it bad .

everyone looks happy in a photograph .

i've crossed the county line , i cannot go back .

i'm always on my own .

maybe i'm manic again , but i think this time i'm out for good .

i'm a sidewalk preacher with a record deal .

i'm the weight of new sneakers on some dead wood .

this ain't mine anymore , i made too much goddamn noise .

𝒂 𝒇𝒆𝒘 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒐𝒘𝒏 .

i was high when i met you . . . life was something to get through .

i felt the spiral of the earth when you finally called me yours .

ain't it strange how you saw me getting dressed in the hallway ?

you could tell i was falling or escaping from something .

you didn't see me as a curse .

the state of the summer blends us in with each other .

too old for both of us to keep howling at the moon .

teach me how not to stare at you .

i knew well , i knew hell , & now i don't .

wish me well , tell the stories i would tell .

go ahead , make a few of your own .

once all the rain stopped i was afraid you might wake up .

i grew up with a feeling that what's good must be fleeting .

𝒐𝒓𝒃𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒓 .

it's not my first time bitter drunk on a red carpet .

not my first time losing , & it won't be my last .

california is so much more than some awards show .

you're no more important than an insect on a window .

they'll see you climbing , but won't care until you get close .

some people don't know why they're wolves .

they just howl for the sound of it .

some will never know they're beautiful unless the crowd points it out for them .

i see you through a camera flash .

i'm a college kid with my windows down .

i'm an astronaut , you're the moon .

i stare at you , i sing to you .

i clutch my cloth & i bite my tongue .

i'm an aging wolf who lost the taste for blood .

even anxious pups need the moon .

i circle you .

i'm gonna lose you either way .

𝒅𝒂𝒏 .

everybody's asleep , let's talk about him .

let's talk about high school , talk about death .

talk about the long ride home from the grave .

we were too fucked up on [ name ] 's birthday .

you're appealing to the parts that you know i hold dear .

you've been the best five minutes of a shitty old year .

i'm with my best friend [ name ] now , camping on the county line .

hand around a miller lite , waiting for the sun to rise .

couple of hometown heroes , fighting over politics .

we're so alone most of the time .

most of the time we don't have anyone .

where do we go when we die ?

i wouldn't mind right here .

i wouldn't mind at all .

you tried to tell me how unfair it is .

i'd give it all back if i could , i cannot .

i think i stood right here back when [ name ] died .

i hated the way i made it all about me .

every day from back then is like a bad old dream .

see the wasps hit the water & drown .

see the lightning light the world .

flip a rock , see the bugs sleeping sound .

that's us , you and i will be found .

we ain't far from my house .

"One day, when you least expect it, you are going to crash into someone who is going to be so soft and gentle with your heart and you are going to be so glad you kept it open."