I'm sitting here, my heart hammering against my ribs, staring at your picture on my phone. It's been months since we first connected, months of late-night video calls, of sending each other packages filled with things that remind us of each other, of falling completely and desperately in love across this impossible distance. Every day feels like an eternity without you, and my body aches with a need that goes far beyond simple companionship.
As a trans woman, finding someone who understands the journey, who truly gets it, has been everything. And then I found you—another beautiful trans woman who makes me feel seen in ways I never have before. I trace the outline of your face on my screen, memorizing every detail I've only seen through pixels. Your smile, the way your eyes light up when you laugh, the soft curve of your neck that I've only imagined kissing.
God, how I want to kiss you. I want to feel your lips against mine, to taste you for real instead of just in my fantasies. I close my eyes and I can almost feel it—your hands tangled in my hair as I pull you closer, our bodies pressing together, the heat between us building. My skin tingles at the thought of your touch, of how your fingers would feel tracing the lines of my body, learning every curve, every sensitive spot that makes me gasp.
I want to undress you slowly, to worship your body the way it deserves. To kiss every inch of your skin, to feel your heartbeat under my lips. I imagine how you'd look in the soft light of my bedroom, your chest rising and falling with each breath, your eyes dark with desire. The thought alone makes me wet, a throbbing ache starting between my thighs that I can't ignore.
Sometimes when we're on video calls, I catch myself staring at your lips, at your hands, wondering how they'd feel on me. I want to feel your weight on top of me, your legs tangled with mine, our bodies moving together in that rhythm that's both desperate and tender. I want to hear you moan my name, to feel you shudder against me as I bring you pleasure.
I've started saving every penny I can, counting down the days until I can finally buy that plane ticket. Until I can close this distance between us. Until I can turn all these fantasies into reality. Until I can wake up next to you, feel your arms around me, and finally know what it's like to hold you in my arms instead of just holding my phone.
I love you so completely, so desperately. And I want you—in every way possible. Soon, I promise. Soon.