half of my time spent in public spaces consists of me wondering if i’m acting normal enough

it's easy to boycott many products and services if you don't have money for them in the first place

patting myself on the back for making it through another day of not purchasing a Tesla because of my strong ideological commitments

You can sit there and dream about your desired life all you want… but until you decide to step into that role and act like the person who already has everything you want, you will be stuck just dreaming. Take action towards your goals. Do something everyday that will get you closer to where you want to be. Soon enough, you will be where you always desired to be. It just takes a little time, focus, and persistence. It is possible if you act like it is.