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trying to embrace boredom ( ´ ∀ `)ノ♡ the days are passing by very very slowly. i am in a period of waiting.... it's completely out of my control and there are so many things ahead that i can't do yet. does it make me feel insane? absolutely. this whole summer was about that. but then it clicked. with all of these plans in my head this is probably the last time my life will be this calm and peaceful....... so i want to make the most out of it ( = ⩊ = )

it doesn't matter what it was, but what i have now was so worth it. the loneliness, the hopelessness, the trying over and over again. because i learned to love myself. and on the way, i found someone who saw something in me that made them try and try again. for me!!!! in the past i never even considered that was even a possibility...... every single day i'm grateful everything happened this way.

the dreamiest plushie ever......... she is so adorable......... i am so lucky to be able to hold her in this life.......... my precious baby.........