sukii

you genuinely have no idea how troubled i am over you

i’m delusional i need to be sedated

energy cleaned

taste refined

This time around it’s from answering a simple text.

i’ve been made fun of my whole life and i don’t really get why.

at first I didn’t feel different but now I definitely do, like why am i this way?

id rather not talk about people because you don’t know their whole story.

i mean hell; I barely know mine

yesterday I bought a monster(viking berry-kinda bad) and went non verbal at work

I don’t like my day job.

anyway so like, I had half a monster and was given half a cherry limeade “Ghost”(how’d it get that name?) and perked right up. still

non verbal but I felt decent afterwords

I think I’m caffeine dependent.

either tuesday or wendsday i ran into old school oerson(wont say friend but def not that not acquaintance) i hate this small town

also we are looking for a new place to live

anyway im drowsy ttyl

i have had so many bagels today 🥯 🪦

Pink Whitney taste like cough syrup and not the good one

7.27

sitiing in a chair at a small desk in my empty apartment i contemplate my next move. Seems like i don’t create enough. Or maybe it’s that i create so much different stuff that a train of thought is just a lose string on a sweater barely holding up.

Anyway, I made a new song and ended my current personal project because I can feel change happening and it make me want to v**** and **** in front of a ***.

Too many sounds, always tone hunting, I love effects but sometimes you don’t need them. for guitar right now I’m using jaguar through a purple Soldano SOL100 head with a Marshall 4x12 and like four pedals[big muff, chorus,reverb,delay]

this is a basic signal chain

it sounds very good

the song sounds very nostalgic for a time I can barely remember

and in the act of ending my personal project i want to start a new one.

this song feels too run of the mill

this song feels how I feel

I get tired of the same thing easy(be it the ADHD or whatever) and when things have been overdone i want to distance myself from them.

I have listened to this song already 70 Times in the Last. Week.

even when mixing I don’t listen to a song that much and tire of the song quickly.

but not this time.

it’s that good.

at least I think so.

but I also think the song is too cliche.

but maybe that is good.

I’m usually embarrassed of my music.

but it’s that good.

story of a cappuccino