when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

I always end up spiraling and immediately wanting to kill myself every time this happens

Being passively suicidal is funny as fuck like yeah i don't plan on doing anything and knowing me i never will but the idea of a gun to my head sounds really fucking good right now.

cycles of yearning

please keep the thoughts away please keep the thoughts away please keep the thoughts away

i just want to be heard without having to scream.

i’m sorry i’m sad a lot it just gets really hard to be alive all the time

I wanna mute my overthinking.

I feel like I’m nothing more than layers and layers of trauma