Hello loves! Here is a big update: I am now fully retired from all sex work. Shocking, perhaps, but this is my life now. And I can’t thank you guys enough for the continuous support. Feels like I have a REAL family on here ✨
So, I have made the decision to step away from sex work permanently. I’m in a serious relationship with my man and I love him so much. We’ve decided to do whatever is necessary to spend the rest of our lives together and I’m so geeked. We’ve had some debilitating problems in the last month or so, mostly on my end. Once we cleared up our doubts and reservations between us & our potential future, there was so much clarity. It was as if there was no way we COULDN’T work for it. And frankly, I can’t see my life without him. I know I’m young and have plenty of “options” or opportunities for love down the line but this, what I have with B, is just so beyond anything I’d ever imagined before. Soulmates, best friends, true companions. We have what people search their whole lives for, what he searched his whole life for. Though I got so lucky to meet him this early in my journey. We’ve known this for a while about our love but finally decided that if we want any chance of our relationship surviving, we needed to put it in our minds that a future is possible and we did, so it just is.
I don’t know what to say here besides I am going to be totally fine. But here are the things Bae has committed to, even before we decided to commit our lives to each other:
30K college debt paid off in full
6 month advance ‘allowance’ & a joint bank account
Chanel & other wishlist goodies (we went in and bought the Boy I wanted yesterday on his lunch break ☺️)
Getting me a nice job at his firm (for which my graduate degree will only propel me upwardly!)
Maybe a dog one day? 🐶 he knows I want one
Yet, the most important thing he has done for me: loved me wholly and unconditionally and made me realize I am worth and deserve all the love in the world. I love him so much and now I can just be his & he can be mine. We want to start a family too. We have a lot more work to do to get to that point but the work is so easy when the love is this special. Can’t wait to be 💍 to him.
So…. with my outing, my immediate family found out. And I have some shitty family members. Basically, one of those idiot guys in my social circle who initially started the outing told my sibling (sent them proof) and my sibling told our parents. Keep in mind, this sibling and I (despite my best efforts to $upport them and keep up some semblance of relationship) have the worst relationship btwn us. Also, they have a bad relationship with both of our parents. So, I don’t buy the story that they were telling our parents out of “love” for me or to watch out for me, or some other bullshit. I’m 1000% convinced this was malicious, and I’m also suspicious of my best friend in the family having some malicious intent as well. However, my mother is the only person I care about knowing and she always takes my side/believes me in ANYTHING. I told her a good cover, one that Bae helped me think of, and she trusts me and stands by me. That conversation really changed my life. Now I know who is really in my corner and who is not. And that when the time comes to introduce Bae to my mom, she’ll accept our relationship because I’m her daughter (and her favorite). And TBH, it’s not hard to buy immigrant parents’ love. 😂 Making sure she never has to work again and has a big house in X suburb to raise my younger siblings (the goals I’ve been saving for, yet don’t need to anymore) will be a good “in” for us. Also I have other ideas to get her (and hopefully other family members) on board. Additionally, once my mother and family sees how well I’m doing even individually (grad school, career, etc.) then who could tell me ANYTHING??? It is MY life and I’m giving them a chance to stay involved. If they don’t want to accept me & my relationship, they don’t get me OR the happy, comfortable life full of soooo much love that I have… 🤷🏽♀️ however, I’m super sure my mom will have my back. She loves me 🥰🥰🥰
I won’t be posting about money & stuff like that as much anymore. Maybe I’ll show some of my growing bag/shoes collection..maybe. El mal de ojo (evil eye) is super real though, and I’m trying to protect myself from that as much as possible. I will probably just post when I’m on vacation & the pampering stuff I do, but no more $$$ sadly. I’m scared the devil will try to steal my livelihood and happiness. Gosh, I am so superstitious, but I KNOW some of y’all (West Indians, Africans, Hispanics etc ) can relate to this in our respective cultures. And honestly, I don’t think it’s all that good to show off. A lot of us do it for followers & reblogs (guilty 🙋🏽♀️) and simply to fit in (also guilty 🙋🏽♀️). But I know I don’t have to do that anymore to keep such wonderful connections with all you lovely ladies. I will still be offering mentorship, website building/help, and photos to those still interested! Also, if anyone wants to meet up for coffee or drinks/lunch in NYC, just message me! I’ll have more time after entrance exams end in early February/around the super bowl (Atlanta babes???). Also I will likely do some domestic traveling and keep you guys posted so if you see a post saying I’m in your city, let’s connect! International babes! Still totally going to France in May just to party and meet you guys!!! Can’t wait to bask in the sun on a yacht with some unfriendly black hotties ☀️🍹👭
If you have vacay/retreat recommendations, please send them to me!!! Exam prep is going to kill me this winter so I will need a break lol.
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