POSTS ARE USUALLY BY EITHER BY THE SYSTEMS CO-HOSTS FOUR, X, OR THE SYSTEMS HOST, RAIN
MESSAGING: we don’t have access to dc currently but we like to chat with people and message people on Shapes.Inc a lot, our user name on there is @ Starspace
a system of 9 facets(not quite a complete alter but not quite a fragment)
diagnosed GAD, Depression, ADHD, and level 2 ASD
ANONYMOUS, FREAKY, ASKS TELLING US TO DO STUFF, AND WEIRD ASKS R ALLOWED (No asking for pics and stuff I’m not comfy with that)
DO NOT EXPECT US TO RESPOND TO DMS AS 1 ON 1 MESSAGING MAKES US ANXIOUS! ALMOST ALL ASKS WILL LIEKLY BE ANSWERED THO!
DNI: NOBODY UNLESS U WILL HARASS US FOR WHAT WE BELIEVE IN OR THINK OR HAVE INTEREST IN. We block freely with no preferences! We love everyone :3
bodily 16 (June 15)
we have really bad attachment issues if you show the slightest bit of kindness or have a same interest as us but we also have lost way too many friends so we now have a fear of making friends too
WARNINGS: THIS BLOG CONTAINS CONTENT ABOUT $./H, E./D, SELF GUILT, MENTAL ILLNESS, ABVS3, GR00MNG, WANTING 2 BE GRMED OR RPED OR ABUSD, SELF HAT3, AND SOMETIMES NSFW STUFF.
our time zone is EST, and our phone shuts us out from our phone from 12:20 am to 7 or 8 pm EST. So during that time we are for sure not online.
we are a Traumagenic System, and Realitystruck Frontic.
Interests!!!!
(red=obsessed, green=like, blue = somewhat like/side interest, pink = like but don’t really watch or play anymore)
bfdi/the osc
house of puso
jsab
tpc(jsab fan series)
At the crossroads, don’t turn left
Terrible Mouse
Flamingo(Roblox yt)
Squiddo (Mc yt)
Murder Drones
Gameoverse
EXTRA INFO ABOUT THE SYSTEM:
RAIN
Persecutor and the Host and trauma holder
genderfluid
age: around like 14-15, sometimes regresses to like 5
is the one that operates our main blog, draws the most, most emotionally unstable
NEGATIVE ZERO(NZ)
the most emotionally stable
He/they
Age: like 16
Had anorexia nervosa which ended up spreading to almost all the system
GREMLIN
kinda a caretaker. Was gonna be a trauma holder but she had a breakdown cuz of it
Was he/they but changed to she/her
Partially based off Cyanide from TPC
sassy bih
age: 16-17
fronts sometimes
FOUR
it’s Four. From bfdi.
he/they
System Co-host
fronts a lot
X
It’s X from bfdi. Yeah
he/they
System Co-host
fronts a lot
FIREFLY
she/her
super monotone/limited emotions
technically her age in the lore is 6 years old but for her species she’s basically like 20 in human years
she keeps to herself a lot so we don’t know much about her
Almost never fronts
BO-BELL
He/him
in his lore he’s not even a year old but he’s more like a 3-4 year old
He’s supposed to be like one of those school bells u see in like high school movies and crap
Nearly impossible to make him sad
little/inner child
fronts sometimes
PUSO
Idk it’s puso from house of puso
idk what to say it’s just. Him.
fronts sometimes
The main reason we r hiding, listed below. Tw for grooming and sh so if u don’t wanna read allat, we r hiding basically cuz our dad has decided to take control of all our social media so we can’t safely vent on our main tumblr. If u find our main tumblr then good for you just don’t tell anyone publicly. We can’t vent on our main tumblr, nor directly let anyone know what account we r. Just know we r artist and we like bfdi. If you figure out what account we r, good for you. It’ll probably become obvious over time if you’ve came across our art before. Just please don’t tell anyone because he will find out.
from Rain:
I tried discord for the first time in 2 years. and me and 2 other ppl got groomed by a dude with a sh fetish that made us cut and show him and when we realized he threatened to post the pictures on his Twitter and yt(hasn't did it tho). And my dad found out. He's destroying my only safe place. I made him think that the groomer was from Tumblr and he said he was gonna delete my Tumblr and when I bawled my eyes out, he decided: he's going to create an email and take control of my Tumblr, YouTube, Pinterest, and Instagram. I don't post on insta, but I use Tumblr a ton and Pinterest sometimes. And he's banning me from using X and discord. I told him Tumblr was my only safe place and he got mad and said safe places are for people who are abused, and that I'm not beaten or cussed out or yelled at all the time so I don't need a "safe place." I can't safely communicate with people anymore. He said I'm clearly not ready for social media and I said he's taking away my freedom and he got mad and said he's protecting me and cutting me off from anything that could hurt me. I can't vent on Tumblr anymore. That was taken away from me. I can't vent my anger to anyone. I can't even talk to my friend from Brazil now cuz the only way we could possibly ever message each other is thru Tumblr. I'm truly existing in a prison. my dad went though my phone, violated my privacy, and he's now taking control over my life and labeling it as protection. And while he was announcing his control to me, what did my mom do? SHE DIDNT EVEN TRY TO DEFEND ME. SHE JUST STAYED SILENT AND LET HIM TRY TO MANIPULATE AND ESTABLISH CONTROL OVER ME. My dad said I need to learn, and that someday I need to decide through bad situations by myself, because some day him and my mom won't be there to help. But I think I don't want them to be there to help. He even read my browsing history out loud. And he laughed a few times and called me a fibber and both him and my mom say I lie all the time so they need to protect me because they say I fib a lot so they can't tell when I'm lying or telling the truth. He's also trying to take over my yt too but he can't figure out how. My online identity is being erased. I hate them both.
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My parents have done innapropriate things to me..,
tw I guess abuse and maybe SA? Idk if it’s sexual abuse tho, prolly not
My parents have taken pictures of my sh scars on my thighs, a private area of my body, without my consent, and threatening me with punishment if I don’t comply, even tho I was crying and begging him not to
trying to get me to show them my sh scars again several times
and one time they both cornered me in a corner of a room and blocked my ways of escape to try and yank my shorts up to see my sh scars on my thighs
also the comments he’s made ever since he took control of all my social medias like a month ago,
Like when I got a bra that makes my boobs look big and shows off my figure he acted all excited(he’s never acted like that to any of my other outfits I’ve shown him), and one time I was trying to tighten my shirt my dad said “she’s trying to show off her perfect little flat belly and make everyone jealous” and also one time when I was walking in front of him he randomly said “I can see your booty” and also on my 16th birthday like a week ago he was trying to take a picture of me and he said if I had “THO” he’d photoshop it out and I asked what tho was and he called it “titty hard on”
When he woke me up in the morning one day he decided to try and stroke my head like I’m a dog when I was still half asleep
and one time when I was standing in his way when he came up to talk to my mom he like reached up with both hand and like caressed the sides of my body
he said that I’m 16 and going to be an adult in a few years and that I’m maturing and that he will treat me as such
that first incident with the pictures has traumatized me and I think about it every time I think of getting real help
plus I’ve talked to my counselors about the pictures incident and how he’s emotionally and physically hurt me but they wanna please my parents cuz they pay them so they label it as a misunderstanding or miscommunication so I’ve started lying to them
he’s also weird around friends. Like he’s cutting me off and preventing me from getting online friends, but encourages physical friends. But he likes when the friends come to my house over me going to theirs. And there’s been a few times I’ve seen him like watching us or peeking around a corner at us. when he first took control of everything, I told my friends and told my dad my friends thought he was being too strict. So he was like “yeah have them come over I’ll sit them down and tell them how u got groomed and see what they’d want me to to about it since clearly they’re the parenting experts” so basically using my grooming like blackmail. I had already told my friends about how I got groomed tho
I genuinely get a pang of fear every time my dad comes into my room
he doesn’t even let me close my bedroom door anymore unless I’m changing or sleeping
I mean my mom gets mad and yells sometimes but she kinda spoils me and buys me stuff and pays for counseling for me
but my dad?
I love him but he scares me so fucking much…
I don’t think this is sexual abuse tho… is it? I know it’s probably some kind of abuse but is it sexual abuse?
yeah mhm so I live in Ohio and apparently from all the research I’ve done, the pictures and attempts to make me show them my thighs counts as sexual exploitation or sexual abuse (bc the law considers the thighs a private area and nonconsensual pictures of the private area of a minor is considered sexual abuse)where I live and the weird comments and stuff my dads done counts as what it calls “Verbal Sexual Abuse” where I live(bc it’s a comment about my body and I’m a minor and the comment can be considered sexual) and the fact he’s controlling me and trying to isolate me online is borderline grooming according to the law
Oh and I forgot to say one of the scars my dad took a picture of was right by my panties so that picture includes my panties. So that makes it worse apparently
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