gallavich [taylor’s version]

therapy notes & journals over the span of Ian, Mickey and their children's life. Inspired by the fic 'The Good Part' by @doodlevich

CW: bipolar disorder, anxiety, mentions of childhood abuse

March 7th, 2022 - IAN 

I can practically hear Mickey’s snicker about how I’m like a twelve-year-old girl writing in her diary. He’s … probably right but fuck it. Dr Grayson said I should write my feelings down, that it's easier to find patterns in episodes and when they're coming so I guess the whole journaling won’t be that bad. I did once, a long time ago. A fucking lifetime ago. It was a good outlet then, so probably will be now too. Just hope have to make sure my mind isn’t going everywhere this time. Clear head, clear thoughts. Plus, Mick always says I’m full of shit because I think we should have more hobbies than all we do is sit around and smoke all day which - i’d like to defend is a great hobby. But what’s one more - This counts as a hobby right? It should this feels like shit ton of work already. I don’t know what I’m supposed to write, I feel like that’s coming more clear with every sentence I write… Grayson said to write a full page.  Why is this fucking paper so long.  Ummmmm. Today’s Sunday. Pretty decent week, boring. Maybe boring is good. Mick and I signed on another farm to our schedule, they’re paying us pretty good considering they’re kinda far. They’re giving us fruit too. Like organic fresh fruit. I know is kinda trivial but I mean it’s something right? OH Lip, Tami Freddie and Robbie came down from Milwaukee Friday. The kids are getting so big. Last time I saw Tami she was pregnant and now Robbie can hold his head up. Time fucking flies. Anyway, I’m glad Lip’s back, missed him. He, Carl, Mickey, and I are supposed to go to this axe-throwing thing Carl found. Sounds like it's gonna be a shitshow but I think it’s also gonna be fun.  Fuck  maybe Mick was right I do kinda feel like a teenage girl right now.

Whatever. Ian fucking focus. I’m supposed to write how I’m feeling. I feel good. Better than I think I ever had. That’s a fucking crazy thought. Shit. A large part of that is Mickey. He’s in the kitchen right now, I can hear him curing at our pots and pans. Think he’s trying to figure out how to use the oven.  Dumbass. We have our problems, and probably always will but that's okay. I should probably stop my fucking diary time -fucker’s in my ear- and help him before he blows our apartment up. 

Final thoughts: It’s good. Life’s good. He’s good great

How am I feeling today: Good, Hopeful, Content. 

omg I (simple old me?) have been bestowed upon the honour of coming up with these questions??? i would like to thank the academy for this most sacred honour 😋

1. if you could switch bodies with anybody for only one hour who would it be and what would you do? I think I gotta say taylor swift OBVI. first off im gonna dropping ME! acoustic version. Then I’m gonna hope lover deluxe is already recorded, drop that. If not i will make sure to text Jack and tell him that we need to record it so that i get it either way 😼. Then I would find out the definite truth of what happened between her and Karlie Kloss. I’d wire myself (as in me- me) a few million dollars, pet the cats and then post something really random on her instagram story. Literally want to make the public go absolutely bananas trying to figure out why taylor posted a random twitter meme. I have a lot of faith to believe this could all happen in an hour but I would try. SO hard.

2. whats your most trivial / dumbest hot take?I don’t think we should still be discovering animals. like what do you mean in the year of our lord 2023 we are STILL finding animals?? no they should all be discovered and if they havent been then i think they should stay undiscovered.

3. if you had to teach a college course what would it be in? I feel like we’re all expecting me to say something Taylor related but honestly I could teach a masterclass on the psychology of Ryan Murphy. I hate that man and i have so much to say about him and his productions

4. season 12 of shameless is suddenly happen and youve been put in charge! what plot point(s) are you gonna make happen? I cant think of anything substantial to actually contribute but i want Carl Gallagher to have a fruity little vape. I also want to see him quit the force and flourish in a new job!

5. who would be your godly parent? (can be any mythology). I’m gonna go with greeks as a Percy Jackson stan. I asked my bsf who is an expert in greek mythology. She said: “you’re a Aphrodite child cuz you’re a hopeless romantic and you appreciate beauty. You’re very particular in how you’re viewed and how everything you produce is viewed (what you write, how your feed looks like, etc.)” - I’m gonna have to agree with her on Aphrodite

6. what’s something you love about yourself? I think i’m so very very funny

7. describe your day in 5 emojis: 😴👁️👩‍💻✈️☕️

8. what shameless character do you think you could beat in a fight? Realistically i think the ONLY person i could beat in a fight is Liam and honest to god im not even sure i could.

9. tell us 2 truths and a lie, we’ll try to guess the lie!

- I’m double jointed

- I sleep on the left side of the bed

- I’ve never had pumpkin pie

10. do you have a pet(s). if so how did they get their name? I do! my son (cat) is named Chidi after the good place!

11. show us a meme (or picture) that captures your essence

self explanatory.

12. whats your typical coffee / tea / beverage order? see i gotta have a special lil drinky drink everyday and i mean my little drinky drinks are free so i am likw 80% gingerbread chai at any given time. Alternatively, an iced chestnut praline latte w/ praline cold foam.

13. use a song to describe the last 5 years of your life?

2019- its nice to have a friend- taylor swift

2020- ribs - lorde

2021- nothing new - taylor swift

2022- first love / late spring- mitski OR orlando- leith ross

2023- true blue - boygenuis OR now that we don’t talk - taylor swift.

Thank you friends thats all i got :)

let’s please ignore that i’ve missed the last several of these please !! i have been going through it 😍

anyway! was tagged my the wickedly talent, one and onlys, @mybrainismelted @deedala @sam-loves-seb (😙😙😙😙)

Name: elle, elle, bo-belle Banana-fana fo-felle Fee-fi-mo-melle ellie!

Location: the city thats exciting the city that’s inviting the city for a woman just like me??

We'll start with some easy ones! Is there a celebrity you think you look like? If so, who: I was told my ENTIRE preteenhood that i look like rowan blanchard. which to be fair was true we were like identical at one point but now i think we dont really look alike. idk?

Do you still have stuffed animals in your bed? I dont ☹️ in not a big stuffed animal person. I know i have a stuffed garfield somewhere in my room tho.

Who is your celebrity crush? forever and always Diana Agron. Also admitting Jessica Lange. Honestly any blonde has be gulping and acting a fool ✊😔

Have you ever accidentally sent a naughty message to the wrong person? No and i would like to keep it that way.

Have you ever snorted your drink out your nose on a date? i love that this is specifically on a date lol. But i haven’t in general but i have like full on spit out a mouth full of my drink laughing multiple times

Have you ever peed in a public pool? I mean probably? when i was a little kid? not in recent years but who am i to deny the piss allegations?

And we will close it out with some Shameless

Characters Bang/Marry/Kill:

lan/Mickey/Kev: Ok this is gonna be controversial but mind you i am a lesbian and i dont want to fuck any of these men. I’m gonna fuck Kev, Marry Ian and kill Mickey. I KNOW I KNOW THIS IS TREASON. IM SO SORRY MICKEY BUT I REALLY DONT WANNA FUCK YOU AND IAN AND I COULD BE ICONIC GAY BIPOLAR BUDDIES TOGETHER 😭. If Kev had long hair i can also close my eyes and pretend he’s a woman :/

Fiona/V/Svetlana: this is actually sophie’s choice. Im gonna bang svet, marry v and kill fi. like I love you fiona but i dont thini i could stand her enough to be married. and like im gonna have to fuck svet have you seen her??

Frank/Kermit/Tommy: there is actually no right answer here. like kat please go to jail. sigh. I guess if i have to im gonna kill Tommy, marry Kermit and fuck frank 😟

Karen/Mandy/Sandy: immediately kill Karen. Bang mandy, marry the actual love of my life ms sandy milkovich 😍

Jimmy/Sean/Gus: um. fuck jimmy, kill sean, marry gus. honestly i could treat gus better than fiona granted thats not saying much but still.

Thanks for coming to my sleepover! Hope you had fun, we are having banana pancakes for breakfast.

fuck yeah i’ll bring the coffee!!

September (& some) receiptify

this has to be my fav piccrew so far its perfect

um i can explain myself. I am like 99% spotify glitched bc i did NOT listen to begin again that many times. I have actually no clue what happened there 😭

also i blurred out one of em bc i share my spotify account (read i dont wanna pay for my own) and that wasnt me so ☝️

Rules: spell your url with song titles and then tag as many people as there are letters.

S even- Taylor Swift

U nder the table- Fiona Apple

C hiquitia- ABBA

H it’s Different- Taylor Swift

A ngelina- Lizzy McAlpine

G eorgia- Pheobe Bridgers

A ll too well (10mvtvftv) - Taylor Swift

L inger- The Crandberries

L etters to an old poet- Boygenuis

A merican teenager - Ethel Cain

B illie Bosa Nova

I bet on losing dogs- Mitski

T he chain - Fleetwood Max

C eilings - Lizzy McAlpine

H aunted- Taylor Swift

my pics:

💌cat!

💌mamma mia

💌autumn

💌quinn fabray

💌pink

💌writing

💌the seven husbands of evelyn hugo

💌seven

💌coffee

Hello! I was tagged by the beautiful and radiant @celestialmickey & @thisdivorce 🥰🫶

name: Elle !

age: looked it up i am like 2 and 3/4 in cat years (math may be wrong i am not a doctor)

favorite season: Autumn 🍂🍂

movies or tv shows? I need as much media as i can possibly consume so TV shows.

do you carry a bag/purse? what kind? I have to fufill the queer stereotype of carrying a beige tote bag 😔✋ it has all the taylor swift albums as little stamps on the cover!

what color is your water bottle? I have lost my beautiful pink water bottle and now i am cursed to carry around a stupid plastic one

what color is your phone case? It is beige with red roses on it!

do you sleep in silence or do you need white noise/ sounds/music? Sometimes I will fall asleep to music in the sense i literally will pass out but I have consistently watched a Danny Gonzalez / Kurtis Conner video to fall asleep every night since 2018 ish 🫡

top sheets: yes or no? Im not gonna lie i didn’t know what a top sheet was before this question so i’ll let that be the answer 😭

you're in the candy aisle at the corner store, what are you grabbing? I am not a big fan of chocolate but I do LOVE candy. I’m going with a sweettart product of some kind

preferred mode of travel plane/train/car/bus/on foot/etc?): God bless public transit I hate driving so much. For whatever reason I fucking LOVE being on a bus

what's your phone background right now? i have been patiently waiting my whole life for someone to ask me this I have curated my perfect rotation.

are you more of a minimalist or a maximalist? I am very comfortably in between which is a very boring and typical answer I will say.

it’s time to paint your bedroom! I am a hater of coloured walls i am so sorry ☹️ gonna have to say beige 😔✋

and finally, tell me something that brings you joy: My mom! my wonderful friends! all you gallabitches! Taylor Swift! writing! my cat! women! bees! fun earrings! Loving stupid things!

Hellloo I was tagged by the lovely @thepupperino & @auds-and-evens 😽😽😽

Name: Elle 🐝🐝

Sun sign: Aries season bbb

What day of the week were you born? Monday

First app you open in the morning: is it sad if i say instagram…. its true but that doesnt make it any less sad. I have a deep fear of missing news so i actually know for a fact every morning a check insta, then messages then discord than email

Last song you listened to: The Moment I knew - Taylor Swift (shocker)

What type of phone do you have? Iphone 14 pro max my pride and joy

Something you'd like to learn how to do: Spanish desperately. Crocheting is a close second

Art gallery or history museum? Ummm probably art gallery

Your least favorite chore: Mopping 👎

Do you believe in fate? Uh probably not. I dont know what else to say here so sorry this is a boring answer

If offered immortality, would you take it? Absolutely fucking not

How are you feeling right now? I’m tried and my stomach kinda hurts but I’m still vibing

Finally, tell me something you're looking forward to: Speak now TV is currently the driving force keeping me alive. My friends and I are also gonna have a picnic soon and I’m excited for that :)

Rules:

1. Write "hello"

2. Write numbers 1 through 9

3. Write the alphabet

4. Write "sphinx of a black quartz judge my vow"

5. Write a quote or song lyric