Searching to get my focus back on Lab2
you know, at this moment i'm stuck..
And the strange thing is that I should be the last person who should be stuck in this kind of environment, that you can explore your fascinations.
That you can work by curiosity, work by feeling and just see where you finish. That's totally Nando, but now somehow i'm just dealing with a frustration of having the feeling to continue a marble system.
If I can't make the "perfect" marble machine i'm not doing it..
Making a machine in general is should make sense ( in my opinion)
And a marble machine sounds maybe childish, but I was working on of the most complex design of whole Lab2!
I think I was the whole time trying to reach my own limits, and now I have to reset myself. But then now when I have to do it I just want to reset it all!
Leave all my proces behind feels like failing..
So now i'm stuck in the heavy hardcore machinery and complex mechanic's but what I just want to do now is woodturning..
Woodturning because then i'm able to work with a machine that I understand, and master, then I can make it to the next step...
SO perhaps I will do this, but I sense know that I have to make the fascination of marble machine my own, and I just don't feel like doing that.
A "good" student handles is, and makes his own creation, but for me this kinda stuff seems boring and I just want to create awareness of those mechanic rather than making lame copies of it out of cardboard..
At least with the time we have... I just want to have fun so maybe I' dropping the mechanics and keep them as fascinations, but then again I have the feeling my "teachers" will see this as an student who can' t cope with Lab because I neglect the "hacking"
But Hacking mechanic's man, let me first try understand them, please?