¡Hello!

I feel like my only way to get away from my family is to kill myself.

I wish i could be in an accident that removes me from this earth so i don’t have to make that choice. I’m so tired of feeling like I’m falling short on everything in life. I don’t have a future and I should stop trying. I’m just a massive fuck up and I should have just died in China as a baby. It would have been better than this

The more I think about it, the more I realize that I’m doing really bad emotionally. I just feel like I’m one small break away from just exploding. I don’t want to be on this earth.

I’m so tired of this bullshit drama between me and my friend. She fucking always decides to not speak to me at work for no reason so then I think she’s mad at me so I don’t say anything and then we are both just silent. And it’s giving me such bad anxiety and I’m so tired of it. I feel like I’m already hanging on by a thread. Like I’m not actively suicidal but passively. I just feel like I don’t have anyone anymore. I feel alone. I just want to disappear.