StrawberryGothy

More about the idea I was yapping in the last post. A socially awkward nerd gets adopted and finds some happiness with his new cool friend group.

I miss my old instagram account that I could post on and all my friends would react to my art. We would chat late into the night, send memes and do art channels. Now, we all left for different social media platforms. We lost touch. No one looks at my art in the way they used to. I miss it. The internet feels more lonely.

I’m so down bad

Some poetry I wrote and wanted to share.

I feel like you took something from me

I can’t be myself when you are always by my side

You whisper to me what to say 

You whisper to me what to do

You whisper to me what to feel about myself and others

I wish I never met you

You have a name but you have no face

You touch my body but you have no hands

You can speak but you can never yell

You live with me 

You are always by my side yet I am still alone

Each day feels like hell with you 

I wish I never met you 

You make me feel selfish for wanting more

Every words feels like another cut 

You tell me you love me 

That you only want the best for me but that’s only in the very worst ways

I wish I never met you 

You scare me

They tell me that one day you will leave. 

That I’ll be free 

I don’t know if I believe them

I want to be cured but ever since we met my body, my mind has been yours

lol

I can’t believe it’s been over a year since I last posted here. My life feels like a non stop battle. And I’m too tired to deal with it all sometimes. BUTTTT it’s a new year, new me and I want to try again. I’m going to start writing again!! I’ll post one thing one January.

I don’t think anyone will see this so it’s more for myself. Writing is one of my passions and it hurts every time I think I can’t do it. I need to forget about being good. I need to just do it.