He’s been chirping outside of my room for hours and it’s been driving my cat and I crazy so then I finally look out and he’s sitting on the fence just staring at me

Then I tap on the glass and he literally flies up to the window right in front of my face

I went outside to check on him and he’s completely fine so I don’t know what is going on

Is this an omen I should be aware of

Basically translating what’s on my Pinterest to here

Like sometimes I think Maybe if I put it into visuals it will come true

And it’s not that I believe I’ll eventually have it instead it’s simply having that hope when nothing else is going right

And like yeah I believe in mindfulness and the present moment and appreciating what you have but for some of us our happiness lies within our potential future Ok

And the thing is I’m not even asking for much yet it still seems improbable to even wish for

Can’t believe I haven’t done that by now

Then I turned on some music and I was naked and still a bit tipsy and I hummed and danced and daydreamed around my room while gazing out the windows

Then I got into bed and got so turned on by my body (rare occurrence) and I simply surrendered and touched myself everywhere and and allowed myself to simply Feel all of the sensations swirling in my body

It was so lovely the cityscape the sexy music exploring the softness of my body and then everything that followed ………….

It was truly a euphoric sensory experience

Just surrendering yourself fully

I think it’s gotten even worse in the few months I’ve had it up

This is posing problems for me because I don’t live alone

It’s more a intriguing existence when you don’t appeal to the masses

And yeah sure I can just write them down somewhere else but I love my Goodreads lists