Stranger Than Fiction

“No one is going to rescue you from yourself—your inner demons, your lack of confidence, your dissatisfaction with yourself and your life. Only self-love and good decisions will rescue you.”

I am not just losing paths but I am losing lives, the ones I will have never lived; I can see them all. I can hear my future with the drum of my mind and the beat of my heart, and feel every battle in my existence. Even the ones I have not lived. Every choice that will or will not cross, with every no or every yes, and every right or maybe left— I can't possibly tell you what I foresee without a future convulsing. The small offers of given hands or the ones they never lend. I can foretell what would happen by virtue of seeing life woven like a spider's web. Each decision could link or cross or cut or blend within the other— and then those threads that never meet until the very end, and those are the ones I call fate. So when the time has come to ask me for a choice, please sit back to watch— and try to see the calculations of the universe progress, because that is all I can ever see. Even in the corners of our current reality; I can see them all.

“So much of what we learn about love is taught to us by people who never really loved us.”