I havenāt used tumblr in ages, but Iām incredibly frustrated with my life and need to vent to the universe.
I was abused as a child by my mother. I am one of four children, and she abused only me. Physically, mentally, and emotionally. When I moved out of my family home at 18, I had no intentions of speaking to her ever again.
I went over three months without hearing a single word from her. She didnāt reach out to me at all. She didnāt even notice. She didnt call me on my birthday. Didnāt call me at Christmas.
Iām unsure how she wormed her way back into my life, but she did.
And since then, sheās continued to abuse me mentally and emotionally. She insults me, tells my family Iām a horrible person and not to talk to me. She makes fun of my physical appearance, and guilt trips me if I want to talk about my life instead of listening to her rattle of lies about my siblings.
I am 26 years old, and my mother continues to abuse me. I donāt know how to sever the relationship at this point. Every time my mom calls or texts me, my entire day is spent ruminating over how bad I feel, and how I must be a piece of shit. Even if it doesnāt logically make sense.
My youngest sister is 11. My mom would never let me see her again if I decided to cut ties with her. Iām trapped. After my wedding, my mom turned her entire family against me, and most of them I havent heard from since.
Im just lost.
