today a woman said that i look pretty omg i want to cry i hope yunho will think that too

i wish i had people around me i could talk everyday like in a village, i wouldnt have the time to be depressed when i would have community and an active life, literally real people and not being on your phone all day. the only people i talk is the supermarket cashier and thats it... no wonder i feel so lonely

today in my dream i hugged someone and he was a little taller then me and skinny, and we hugged for some minutes and i was flustered so i looked at his face and he looked at me and it was so heart flattering...

going to the ateez vr movie everyday just to feel something and pat yunhos head 😭

i am so insecure about myself i dont want to meet yunho anymore even if i still love him so much and because of that i actually just wanna disappear because what is life without him, without him smiling at me and having a cutely interaction

i love yunho so much i hope i will never meet him again i know he dont like me

some day everything will be forgotten and rotten

tomorrow i will bake a strawberry cake for yunhos birthday, my first time baking a birthday cake im more exited then for my own birthday it literally feels like its christmas