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i go by elliott, but also by dazai if you like!!

this blog is mostly posts about the day to day life of the super epic osamu dazai :3

things to know about me!!

he/him

minor!! i do not mind interacting with adults on here but please do not be weird :D

im a dazai fiction kin (which is why i post as him, i mainly kin pm dazai but i post as ada dazai)

multi-fandom!! although most of my posts will probably be about bsd, i "enjoy" a lot of other stuff fandoms im in: BSD, Mouthwashing, Deathnote, Everything But Your Life, A Silent Voice (im open to joining new fandoms)

also i love psychology horror and psychology hehe

please do not be afraid to interact with me even if you are not into bsd!! i love talking to others online!! if you are not comfortable with me interacting with your blog, please let me know or block me!! ^^

other dazai fiction kins are always welcome!!

dni if: transphobic, homophobic, racist, trump supporter, pedophile

please be wary, many of my posts may contain triggering content!! please block me if any of these bother you!! TW: mentions/themes of suicide, sh, toxic relationships, vents

also if you somehow recognize me i did delete my old account (@bedbugisdead) on accident hehe

my tags and their meanings:

#bloody bandages 🩹 - vent

#crab cakes 🦀 - regular post (usually as ada dazai)

#kunikidas making me work 📃 - asks

#off for a new attempt 💊 - personal posts/not as dazai/about other fandoms

#demon prodigy 🍾 - posts as pm dazai

i love the art style it's so pretty, sigma is so freaking cute ^^

I finally went to see a therapist

She told me, "Easy, just get off the internet"

But the idea of never seeing you guys again hurt me deeply

Who gives a shit about the real world?

Things are fine hereI can still remember the day I started getting followers

Finally feeling validated by strangers put me on cloud nine

Oh, what the hell?

Nothing matters anyway

1: cut off my entire family

2: get shark bite piercings

3: get top surgery and start T

4: get my uterus removed

5: look the way i want

6: get a boyfriend (optional)

any accomplishments i make she ALWAYS has to take credit for them.

even if im saying something negatively she had to make it about herself.

"wow i'm not failing my classes" (a difficult task with some of them, i'm only doing okay because i really tried hard)

Mom: "see, that's why i trained you and taught you how to read when you were a baby"

"im having issues in my math classes because i have issues retaining information, especially if it is complex, if it's not important to me (and my memory issues stemming from trauma don't aid in any way.) i don't know why i am in honors"

Mom: "that makes me sad you think that because i worked so hard to make you smart when you were young, it's all in your head, you're just being lazy."

"i just seem to fail no matter how hard i try"

Mom: "you're being lazy. you're smart and you know it, you're just not trying. you could have grades like [insert smartest peers name] if you tried."