“ if that's not what you got , then clearly you don't deserve it . ” she mutters , glancing around the room . fingers card through her hair , eyes meeting his once more . “ if i didn't want to answer your calls , what made you think i wanted to see you ? how does that make sense ? ––- couldn't you have been normal and just .. maybe showed up at my house instead of a public event ? ”

❝ that's hurtful baby . ❞ watches her . manicured fingers through dark strands , the glance around the room . taking the distraction to step closer to her . ❝ if i showed up at your house , you'd keep me out in your front yard like a dog . ❞ shoulders shrug . ❝ you cant make a scene here . ❞ another step . ❝ im not gonna ruin your night . meant it when i said i came for you . ❞

"yet anyone in your position would have walked away but here you are ." which fueled her fire , manicured tips grasping onto the stem of her champagne glass , leaning back in her seat . "you have five seconds . one .. two .." taunts with a purr of indifference .

irritation settles across features , ❝ cut the bullshit . ❞ a step forward . his own fingers , stealing the champagne glass from hers . ❝ this , is getting old . ❞ her attitude , the way she was looking at him . ❝ you wanna talk about what i should've done , not about your tantrums every time i tried to . ❞ a shake of a head . ❝ this shits gonna catch up to you , then who you gonna blame ? ❞ glass is emptied into his mouth , before placed back onto the table beside her .

     swallows as brows knit together , “ well if you had a problem with all of that you could've said something . i would've stopped . ––– i didn't think i was confusing because we had an understanding .... ” cheeks pink because for the first time ever , she's second guessing her actions . “ we don't have to do any of this anymore . maybe it's gotten too ... complex . ”

❝ causal was our understanding , but nothing we've been doing lately has been causal . ❞ and maybe that fact hadn't bothered him , before he was the one being accused of screwing up . ❝ its not complex . . i'm not a fan of saying one thing and doing another , that's all . and i'm definitely not a fan of you looking at me like im the problem . it's not cool . ❞

     “ yeah , so he's just makin' it up ? ” knew he wasn't . unfortunately wes wasn't very trusting , and the confirmation was in the look on his girls face right now . “ i feel sick right now , arina . ––– no , you let him win . we get into one fight . one fuckin' fight and that's all it takes for you to hop in some other guys bed ? what i'm not good enough for you ? ”

franticness amplifies , ❝ it wasn't just one fight ! you were being awful , so mean ! i tried to talk it out and you wouldn't even answer my calls ! ❞ because ignorance felt like a lack of love to a girl like her . ❝ i went to see him but we didn't sleep together , we just talked . ❞ if talked meant tongues gliding against each other . ❝ why would you ask me that ?! you've always been enough for me . ❞

     “ i told you i didn't want a relationship . how is it my fault you didn't believe me ? ––– i'm not the one screwing things up here . that's you . ”

❝ don't do that to me . ❞ expressions turned into something disappointed , not angry . ❝ sure . you say you don't want a relationship —— then you blow my phone up all day . freak out when im out with other women . spend the night five times out the week . want to know everything i'm doing and with who . ❞ frustration bleeds through each syllable , ❝ you're confusing clo , wanting relationship perks then turning around and telling me i'm the one screwing up . ❞

     “ it's almost scary how you believe all the bullshit that comes out of that pretty mouth of yours .. ––– i know you fucked him . he told me himself . ”

❝ he'd say anything to make problems between us ! ❞ redden cheeks fracture words in counter , her truth written in browns that widen . ❝ i told you already , he means nothing to me . but you're still letting him win . ❞

“   you   shouldn’t   love   me.   ”   jaw   clenches,   looking   elsewhere   but   at   her   because   it   hurt   too   much.   “   not   when   you’re   with   him.   ”

❝ you make it sound so simple . ❞ desperation , the hitch of a wronging she can't make right . ❝ it's not . my feelings for you aren't simple . leaving him isn't simple . ❞

“   uhm,   no   ?   c’mon,   we   said   some   awful   shit   the   other   night   that   neither   of   us   meant.   we   don’t   have   to   end   things   just   because   we   got   drunk   and   yelled   at   each   other,   babe.   ”

❝ you're acting like this was a one time thing i should let go . we fight , all the time . we get nasty with each other too much . it's like a rollercoaster i cant get off of and im over it . ❞

“   figure   it   out   ?   it’s   not   that   easy,   kalon.   you’re   fucking   glued   to   me   everywhere   i   go.   ”   how   could   she   move   on   from   this   when   she   feels   his   eyes   on   her   all   the   time   ?   “   don’t   tell   me   you’re   so   cold-hearted   you   don’t   feel   things   when   you’re   near   me   ?   ”

❝ you're not getting what im saying . ❞ frustration rooted in tone , ❝ cold - hearted , sensitive , it doesn't matter . this is my job , i can't keep fucking up . ❞ for you , unsaid , but written in deep browns . ❝ im glued to you ? alright . ill stick to the shadows better . you , find a better distraction . ❞

“   i’ve   given   you   so   many   chances   to   do   better   and   you   always   let   me   down.   i   can’t   keep   letting   you   play   with   my   feelings,   hutton.   ”

❝ what's one more chance then ? ❞ harsh . too much . ❝ im done with the playing . let me prove it to you . ❞

     “ oh please , i treat you better than you deserve . ” she mutters , rolling her eyes . “ you're not a big fan of anything other than making shit about you . i'm begging you to cut the shit and tell me what're you really here for . ”

the curve of petals , satisfaction at bait bitten ❝ nah . if you treated me better than i deserved , you'd have a red carpet rolled out just for me . ❞ head dips down . as if he'd spill a secret to her . ❝ its your event . put it together . i'm here for you . ❞

“finally made up your mind ?" / @dolentends

❝ wasn't i clear the other day ? i told you no . or are you finally ready to listen ? ❞

“your first mistake was getting attached .” / @dolentends

❝ this isn't about attachment . you stay playing in my face , that's what this is about . ❞

“   say   it.   say   you   never   loved   me   so   i   can   finally   stop   hoping.   ”

❝ that's not what this is . i do love you . ❞

“   i   wish   i   had   the   strength   to   stay   from   you.   ”

❝ then figure it out . . nothing good comes from this . ❞

“   you   told   people   that   you   were   single.   ”

❝ i am single . we broke up . ❞