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“Good question, we could leave tonight. But I rather everyone sleep well tonight and we can go first thing in the morning. I’d like for my people well rested before we go on a big supply run.” You said.

You hated over working your people, you always do your best to make sure they’re well rested before a big event happens.

“Alright everyone let’s get some sleep since we have a big day tomorrow, I’d like everyone ready by 7:00 am tomorrow. Also before you leave here, Candace here has a list of everything we need for tomorrow. Run by her on things you need and be ready with it tomorrow morning. Goodnight everyone.” You said as folding up the map and putting all your paperwork together.

“Hey Y/N before you leave.” David said as he opened up the door and Sarah came back in with a cake and some lit candles.

Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to Y/N! Happy fucking birthday to you!!!! Everyone shouted

“Now make a wish as Sarah placed the cake down on the table in your office. You start to cry and couldn’t gather your words. “Guys..d-did you seriously do this for me? Wait how did y’all know it was my fucking birthday!” You said with tears and a smile.

“How could we forget your birthday we been marking it on the calendar everyday.” David said

“With everything you do for us, you’re one of the rarest leaders who just.. you know treat us well, you gave us a chance to rebuild a life again.. you bring us hope.” Sarah said

“And a hot as bitch!” Candace said as everyone in the room started to laugh.

You chuckled and made a wish and blew out your candles. “Your guys are the greatest get your asses over here!” As you held out your arms and everyone ran to tackle you.

Sarah cut the cake giving everyone a piece, you guys laughed and joked for a good thirty minutes before it was time for everyone to leave. Sarah was nice enough to clean up the office so you didn’t have to do it. You smiled looking around the room before turning the lights off and closing the door behind you to go too your house to sleep.

******

It was the next morning and you were gathering everything before you had to leave for the run. As you walk outside your crew was ready to go by the gate.

“Well shit look at all you sexy bitches, hot and READY! Me likely!” You said as you gave them all a sassy wink.

Everyone laughed, you always know how to start the morning by getting everyone to laugh. They always look forward to every trip with you. Makes things easier knowing your group loves hanging out with you.

“Well Goodmorning fuckers! Let’s get our asses on the motherfuckin road! Or are we just gonna stand around and be zombies all day?” You said with your arms spread out smiling walking backwards towards the gate.

“Zombies? sounds pretty nice if you ask me?”David said as you look at him with a smile

“Yeah yeah it would be nice, maybe after this trip we can relax and be zombies for a bit.” You chuckled knowing they will need a full day of rest after this trip. Specially you.

“Hey everyone you know I always do this but it’s a reminder. You all know the drill. We run our routes. Mark your log books. Clear any walkers you see. You run into anything, anything you can't handle, you come back here. Be smart about it. We work as a team okay? You said as everyone nodded.

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It’s been about 2 hours on the road as you guys finally rolled up to the place. It was an army base. You take out your radio. “Hey Sarah we have some walkers up ahead it seems like this place has some scattered around. Let’s stop here.” You said as you told David to stop the jeep. “You got it boss lady.” Sarah said over the radio.

You get out of the jeep as everyone else got out of their vehicle and walked over to you.

“You guys know the drill let’s clear the outside first before we go in.” You said as everyone nodded.

You started to ran and slammed your knife in the back of a walkers head, you’re always the first one to take action, it’s your favorite thing. Well taking action first that is not the killing part. You’re slamming all the walkers down there was a good amount here, this kind of thing always got your heart pumping of excitement.

You stabbed another walker through the head and you pulled the knife out and it broke.

“Oh you son of a bitch! Are you shittin me right now!” You said in an anger voice, wiping your sweat off your forehead with your arm as you were trying to pull another knife out of your side pants, a few walkers started to get real close to you, you were walking backwards and tripped over a dead walker landing on your back. You were using your elbows pulling yourself backwards to get away as you heard gunshots from a distance taking out the last few of the walkers around.

You seen a group standing with guns and a tall man with a barb wired bat around his shoulder. He wore black boots with dark gray pants, one glove on his right hand and a fucking leather jacket in 90 degree weather. How in the hell was he not sweating balls here. Is he fucking insane?

The tall man with the bat started to walk towards you along with his group behind him, as you helped yourself up and your group came up behind you with their guns. You put your hands on your hips.

“Hi pretty lady, I’m Negan.” He smiled As he held up both his arms out with Lucille in his right hand. “And we’re the saviors.” He did a slight point towards you.

“Hi.” You said crossing your arms. Lifting one eyebrow.

“Well damn excuse my goddamn French but I just saved your fucking ass and that’s all the response I get?” He said with a smile.

You rolled your eyes. “Sorry didn’t mean to offend you Mr… Negan right?” You said in a sassy tone that made him smirk a little.

“That’s right doll face, may I ask what you’re doing out here? At our base.” He asked leaning to the side moving his eye up and down at you, he was indeed checking you out.

“I could ask you the same thing Mr…. Negan.” Giving him a slight smirk. “In fact how could this be YOUR place when we just cleared the outside and none of your people are here guarding it. And… I don’t see your name on it.” You said giving him a tease with another smirk.

“You see this shit! this is what I’m talking about! Ahh this is the shit that just tickles me balls!” As he turned around looking at his men with his arms up. He turned side ways to look at you with a smirk. “You may not know me sweetheart, but you’re definitely gonna wish you haven’t.”

“Hmm, funny you say that because I feel you’re gonna regret crossing me pretty soon.” You snapping back.

“Yeah, we will see about that.” He whispered where you didn’t hear him.

“You see here, there’s this new world order and well dollface I hate to break it to you but you’re now apart of it. So let me break it down simple and easy for you. One..” as he held up his index finger, smirking away. “You work for me. We have the whole set up, beds, food you name it, I have the whole package sweetheart! So all you have to do is work for me. Or two.” He flipped up his middle finger too. “I kill you and your fucking people now! I take your shit, and be on my merry fucking way. Well I don’t like hurting women, so suggest you pick one. But men? Hell doll face I could bash their brains all fucking day! He sighs shaking his head as he grinned. “…..Women are just to fucking beautiful to kill.. so sweetheart. What’s it gonna be..?” Holding up his arms again with his bat in the air.

Your arms are still crossed and your smile that never left your face

“Neither.” You said with no hesitation.

“I’m sorry doll face I didn’t quite catch that.” He started to look angry.

“Mr. Negan let me be clear here, I’ll make it simple and easy.” As you leaned forward “just for you.” Still having a smile on your face with your arms crossed.

“Your rules are shit, and no I don’t do new world orders very well, you see here Mr. Negan. I will take your shit and be glad to shove it up your ass.” You let out a small laugh and you see Negan’s people gripping their guns about to point them to you and your people.

“Ohh sweetheart, you have no… idea who you’re talking to.” Negan now looks more angry.

“Oh I do doll face, and let’s be real here.” You sigh turning your head looking at the army base. “This is mine, and mine only.”

You couldn’t help but stare at his eyes, he had the most beautiful eyes you ever seen, hazel.. oh those hazel eye that could kill you.. when he smiled it just lit up his face along with his dimples. His smile curved so perfectly making his dimples pop out more. Making your heart race faster. His anger made you like him more. His attitude was turning you on.

“Well excuse me sweetheart.. I didn’t know this belong to you, there’s rules here in fact whatever is yours. Is now mine. Rather you it or not.” They He said with more intense voice

You couldn’t help but chuckle at his response. “I never nor will I ever agree to anyone’s rules in fact I dont follow other people’s rules very well.”

Behind you, you could hear more vehicles rolling up. If was more of your people. David must of gave a code over the radio signaling we need help. David is basically your right hand man. One of the most clever guys on your team. He goes with you everywhere.

You turn your head to see behind you and you seen more of your community there with you. In that moment you had more people protecting your crew. More people than Negan brought along. You had more weapons, bigger guns and even a few tankers.

Negan’s eyes had widen, in shocked to see the shit you had. It was more than what he even had at his sanctuary.

“Welcome to the rising undead.” Holding out your hands your elbows were still to you sides. You gave a smirk and shot a wink towards his way.

“Now there’s no rules here Mr. Negan.” You started to walk towards him placing your knife back down on the side of you pants. “But we can try and agree on something here if you are okay with that.” You stopped about 10 feet in front of him. You watch his eyebrow raise making you smile a little.

You seen Negan look passed you at your large group. You were proud of your people in the moment showing up the way they did, how David sent a signal out. You had a huge community that you loved. You took care of. They respected you. You keep them safe and they keep you safe at all cost. Mostly everyone called you mom even for laughs and giggles. But deep down you acted like a mother when they needed you to the most. They love you as much as you love them. And for that, in this moment you couldn’t help but smile hearing more vehicles roll up in front of you. Behind Negan’s group, vehicles driving through the field to your right, an open field. It was huge. You watched Negan’s face as you hear all the vehicle doors open and slam shut. Negan in that moment all he could do was agree, he was out run by your people.

He started to look around as he giggled. He was facing the field and slightly turned his head towards you with a smile, like he was proud of your ass. Probably shocked seeing a woman like you that ran an community the way you do.

“Shit doll face, I guess I no longer have a choice here do I?” He ask turning his body towards you still having a smile on his face.

You couldn’t help but smile at his response, his smile was making you weak. Fuck, you needed to slap yourself in the face to knock it off. And get your shit together.

“Sorry my love I don’t think you do.” You said crossing your arms over your chest.

“There’s another army base that’s untouched, I’m willing to give that to you if you let us have this one. But… there’s a catch.” You said

“And what is that doll face?” Negan asked.

“I’ll let you have it, you let us help you clear some bigger place out for you, since we indeed have the bigger guns here. So in return we get some supplies. You know like a payment.” You said

Negan gave you smile, he seemed like he was trying to figure out what to say. Lost in words. Realized how clever you were.

“So Mr. Negan, what’s it gonna be?”

He took a few seconds to reply. “Alright. So how can we find them?” He raised an eyebrow with a smile on his face.

You started to walk towards him teasingly, looking into his eyes with a mischievous smile. You stopped in front of him standing very close. Finally breaking the eye contact, you put your hand on his shoulder and tiptoed to whisper in his ear.

“I’ll see you soon, big boy.” You say before planting a small but lingering kiss on his cheek. You pull away and see his smile grew wider deepening his dimples.

“I am about fifty percent more into you now...just sayin'.” Negan said grinning from that kiss

“An I’m about zero percent into now.” You said smirking, you slowly move your hand down off his shoulder to you biceps, walking backwards letting him go staring at him like you want him so badly as he started to see that.

You reached in your back pocket and took out a map. You handed it to him, the location that was folded up, as you knew the location was already marked on the map. “It’s the location of the other army base.” You said.

You turn away swaying back to your team and gave them nod to go ahead to the army base. As you stopped in the middle of the road before you went to follow your team, you turn around to look behind you to see Negan one last time, he gave you a smile and turned around as you watched him leave.

You called Joel and Steve over to you. These two are the best you had when they needed someone to sneak around. As they never get caught doing what they do best. They been with you since day one and never left your side. And never hesitate when you ask them for help.

“I need you both to follow them, check out their community and see what they do. Please?”

They both nodded and walked away and left to follow them.

“Jesus Y/N you handle that pretty fucking well, I almost didn’t need to signal anyone out here.” David said, he let out a chuckle.

You giggled still having a smile on your face from Negan. “No no no… I’m really glad you signal out for help. That actually made us look bigger and tougher.” You placed you hand on his shoulder. “Thank you David, seriously I owe you one big time. I’m proud of you, as I always am.” You smiled as you both walked over by the fence to the army base.

You and your people cleared out the inside, there was a lot of walkers more than you imagined. But luckily No one got hurt. As everyone knew the drill to check the walkers for any items that we could use, in fact the walkers had armer, weapons, knifes and extra bullets. There was a lot of items we needed so everyone gathered the items placing them in bins to haul back to their vehicles. We placed everything by the door till we had everything we needed.

There was a storage room full of MREs packages of food that the military used for meals. There was a lot, about a month worth of food. This was big as you needed all the food you could get.

“Hey Y/N!” David called you over. As you walked over to him, you seen the next room full of vehicles.

“Holy shit David!” You yelled out.

There was a full garage of army vehicles. BAe caiman, General Dynamics Stryker, M1 Abrams. The list went on. “Fuck David we could use these!” You had a big smile on your face. You couldn’t believe everything you guys had found inside, more and bigger weapons.

David grabbed a group of people having them get the new batteries and fuel for the vehicles. Most of them worked. While another group took what they could off the bad vehicles.

Everyone gathered everything and loaded up the vehicles, you helped them out too, getting everyone to laugh by your jokes, a lot of them joked back. You always tried and make a trip fun even when everyone is tired and worn out. You knew it was going to be a long trip back as you left the MREs out and had everyone grab some food for dinner before going back on the road. We needed to eat, you could tell how they needed their energy. While you all finished eating you gathered everyone around

“I really wanted to thank every single one of you tonight, seriously. You guys did awesome. The ones that came with me today, and for those who came out when you were signal too. You guys even stayed to helped clear out the inside and helped loading our trucks up making this go by faster.” You see everyone with a smile on their faces. They were all happy to be there with you.

“I seriously couldn’t ask for a better community than this. Thank you everyone again. I dont know about you guys but I’m ready to go home and fucking sleep!!” You yelled out as everyone cheered getting in their vehicles. Before you and David got in your vehicle he wanted to talk with you.

“Hey um Joel radio me, they made it safe and haven’t gotten seen. they’re still out there and safe.” David said

You nodded as you both got in the vehicle to go home. It was a nice smooth way back as you all pulled all your vehicles in everyone was unloading their trucks. You seen Lacy one your guards on the wall. She’s one of your toughest women here, well every women here you think is tough, lacy loves to work out she’s a body builder. She could work out for hours when she doesn’t have to be on watch. Who also teaches karate here. You been trying to get her to come out with you on a supple run but she loves being the guard on watch. Which is is one of your best spotters.

“Hey lacy!” You yelled out waving your two fingers motioning her to come down.

Hey Y/N! I see you brought in some good shit this time!” She said while chuckling.

“Hey now I always get the good shit!” You chuckled back. “What can I do to get you off that wall to come out with us next time?” You smiled at her.

“Well you got me off the wall now.” Lacy chuckled. “But you know I rather stay here, I’m your best spotter and you keeping me off the wall isn’t gonna help you out you know.”

You nodded knowing she loves her job. “Maybe one day I’ll get you out.” You smiled as lacy shocked her head.

“We will see boss!” Lacy ran back up to the wall as you watched her. You really would like her out there soon. But you hated pushing people who didn’t want to do something they don’t like.

“Alright everyone let’s get some rest shall we!” You said while everyone start to head back to their homes. Everything was put away and it was quiet in your community. As you get home you sat on your porch and pulled out your cigarettes. Before you could light it.

“Hey now, I thought you quit that shit?” Sarah said with a tease.

She had the most beautiful red hair you’d ever seen, it was long and wavy that was down to almost her butt. She barely wore it down but when she did she was beautiful. She had these beautiful hazel green eyes with a tint of gray around the edges.

You chuckled “yeah I thought so too.” As you lit your cigarette handing her the pack as Sarah grabbed a cigarette and your litter and lit her cigarette.

“You were pretty awesome the way you handle Negan.” Sarah said

“Yeah, yeah I fucking was.” You both chuckled.

“Not gonna lie, Negan was… hot.” Sarah took a hit of her cigarette and held it in.

You chuckled at her comment. “I’ve seen hotter.” you actually thought he was hot as fuck but you didn’t want to say that out loud.

“Your sassy attitude today, I think you scared him.” Sarah laughed taking another hit of her cigarette.

You take hit of your cigarette as well. “I wouldn’t say me, but I think we all scared him.” You put out your cigarette and stretched out your arms and yawned.

“I think you all did awesome today. Without you guys I truly dont know how that situation would of went.” You leaned back in your chair crossing your arms.

“I think we did awesome too. Sucks we had to give that other location away. Not gonna lie. I was looking forward to that.” Sarah frowned

You sighed reaching out your hand as she placed her hand onto yours. “I wasn’t happy about it either but we were stuck in a situation and we don’t need a war. I rather keep you all safe than loose any of you over a building.” You seen a tear rolled down her face.

“Thanks Y/N you truly do know how to keep us safe.” Sarah got up from her chair and leaned in giving you a peck on the cheek. “Goodnight Y/N.” As Sarah walked away.

You watched Sarah go to her house across the street making sure she made it inside. Even though your community is supposed to be safe, it’s just something you always did and never will stop.

You get up to go inside and your radio goes off “Y/N you there?” You heard Joel whispering over the radio. “Yes Joel..” you said over the radio. “We’re safe, we got everything we needed here.” Joel said.

You sigh with relief “come on back, be safe if you run into anything. You find somewhere safe and radio me or Lacy.”

You placed the radio on your end table, switched into you pjs and hopped on your bed. Negan was running through your mind. That handsome ignorant man with his sense of humor turned you on. You rolled your eyes. “I can’t be thinking about this right now.” You mumbled to yourself and closed your eyes to sleep.

*******

It was a beautiful new day as everyone was eating their breakfast. You usually don’t eat breakfast but you always had to have coffee. That was one of your favorite things right when you wake up. You headed outside with your coffee as everyone was greeting you this morning. You smiled at everyone saying Goodmorning as you hear a knock at the front gate you turned your head fast.

Dun-dun-dun-DUN. “LITTLE PIG, LITTLE PIG, LET ME IN!” You recognized that voice as you head turned slightly.

“Oh you gotta be shittin me right now.” You mumbled to yourself.

You walked over to the gate and gave the guards a nod to open the door. You crossed your arms over your chest and had a slight smile on your face. As the door opens all the way and Negan had a smile on his face holding out his hands with his stupid bat out standing outside your community.

Everyone was trying to get up as you moved your hand behind you stopping them. You wanted them to finish eating as you could handle this situation by yourself.

“Well hello there pretty lady, you gonna let me in?” Negan said smiling putting Lucille over his shoulder.

You chuckled “now why would I go and do that? We can talk where we’re standing at.” You we’re about 20 feet away from him and the gate.

He had a huge grin on his face. “Okay what If don’t accept your offer.” As he took a few steps forward and the guards from the bottom and top of the fence pointed their guns at him.

He chuckled “you really gonna shoot me now?”

“I will if I have to.” You shot him with a smirk as you started to walk towards him. You were about 5 feet away from him.

“You know I thought we had a special moment yesterday.” He chuckled

“Ahh easy there Romeo.” You said teasingly.

“Oh where are my manners, hi Mr. Negan, now why in the hell are you here.?” As he took one more step towards you, you can hear the guns shift. He stopped himself with a smirk on his face. As you raised one eyebrow.

“I wanted to see you doll face! And your..” He started to look around in your community where he was standing. “Your Beautiful community!” You rolled your eyes at his comment.

“That’s it? Seriously?” You said in a disappointed ton.

“Oh I’m sorry sweetheart, were you wanting more? I mean shit we can go somewhere doll face if that’s what you want?” He teased.

You laughed at his response. Placing your hand on your eyebrow scratching it “okay seriously why are you here, Negan?” You acted frustrated.

“Well doll face we searched that army base you gave us and we found some good shit. But we also had found another few location and you said you’d help us out so here I am.” He smiled placing Lucille down at his side.

“You ready sweetheart?”

Great he’s ready to go when I haven’t even prepared my people yet. This will be a shit show.

“Whatever you say Romeo.” As you walked away.

“I’m not really sure.” You said and shrugged your shoulders not worried about a new girl. You knew how much Negan liked you, in fact you guys have a relationship, you and Negan were dating, he treats you the best out of all his wives and all the wives knew that but not the relationship besides Amber. She knew everything about you. She knew you weren’t one of the wives but he treated you like one. Amber was your best friend the only one you trusted here.

We were seated eating our food in the cafeteria. You could tell Amber never took her eyes of the new girl and Negan.

“I wouldn’t worry about it.” You said to Amber sitting next to her grabbing her hand that was on her lap that never left her side to eat her food. You gave her a peck on her cheek and got up letting her hand go. “I’ll see you tomorrow.” You gave her a wink and left the cafeteria.

Negan watched you walked out of the cafeteria as he started to head towards the exit door going after you. You didn’t bother to look behind you as you heard his footsteps from behind. His boots echo through the halls, he knew you could hear him.

You made your way to the top of the stairs heading to Negan’s room and still not once did you bother to look behind you. You opened up the door and slammed it shut. You wanted him to hear that to piss him off. You knew how much he hated door slamming but you did it anyways. You jumped up on his desk and crossed you legs and arms.

Door flung open and Negan stood in the door way looking at you. He had a seething look on his face, wearing his black leather jacket and Lucille over his right shoulder. He walked in and slammed the door shut behind him and locked it. This time he didn’t bother placing Lucille down leaving her in the corner by the door. It was still on his shoulder as he walked over to you.

“Who the fuck do you think you are!” He yelled in your face. You didn’t even flinch or get scared. You knew you wouldn’t hurt you. You didn’t bother to reply to his question. “SPEAK WHEN YOU’RE SPOKEN TO!” He screamed in your face.

You stared into his eyes and gave him a smile uncrossing your arms and legs, placing one hand on his beard. “Now Negan baby, that’s no way to speak to your girl now is it?”

You could smell the anger in the air as he bit the inside of his cheek. He grabbed you by the throat tighten his grip. A small moan left your month making him grip tighter around you neck. You wrapped you legs around his waist pulling him closer making his pants feel tighter.

His face isn’t even an inch away from yours. You can feel his hot breath on your lips. “Who do you belong to?” He questioned furiously looking into your eyes with anger. “I belong to you.” You whispered quietly. He barely heard you. He loosened his grip around your neck slowly making you take a deep breath.

“Now I didn’t quite hear you dollface, speak up.” He demanded as his anger was slowly going away. He moved Lucille off his shoulder, placing it on the side of the desk as his eyes never left yours. “You, I belong to you.” You said in a sassy voice giving him goosebumps appearing on the back of his neck.

He grabbed your thighs pulling you closer to him, loosening your grip around his waist. He wanted you, he wanted you so badly. His lips hit yours, kissing you with force. It was more intense than last time. You love getting him all worked up. He knew how much you loved rough sex. He knew what he needed to give you.

You pulled away, unwrapping your legs from his waist letting your legs drop back down on the desk. You placed one hand on his chest. “Easy there, Negan.” You pushed him back a little so you could get up off the desk and walk behind him crossing your arms. You turned around to look at him. As he turned to his side looking at your confused and pissed off at the same time.

“Who’s this new girl you were walking with in the cafeteria with your arm around her waist.” You demanded an answer.

His pinched the bridge of his nose then sliding his hand down his face to his beard as he was rubbing his it with a smirk on his face. He dropped his hand and pointed at you.

“You don’t get to ask questions here. I DO!” He said in anger. “What the fuck was that! You teased the fuck out of me then you ask me a question?” Now he’s more furious than he was slamming the door shut. He knew you was jealous.

“If you don’t answer my question then I’m not answering yours.” She said with anger.

He started laughing and picked up Lucille placing her on his right shoulder again. “Someone’s a little jealous.” Shoving a smirk at you. “She’s one.. I’ve my new wives.” He threw his hand up smiling.

“Fuck you.” You mumbled under your breath with anger. You could feel your cheeks turning red. It was so hot like an hot iron hit both your cheeks.

He was still smiling, he loved upsetting you, making you feel jealous turned him on. This moment was different. You were more than upset. You were furious wanting to rip his throat out and never wanting to see him again.

“Her name is Sherry, and she. is. awesome. In fact! She’s really nice and she instantly agreed to be one of my wives and I didn’t even have to force her!” He chuckled placing his head down looking at the floor smiling like he was proud to have Sherry. More proud than having you.

“I hope she’s good in bed.” You said as he picked his head back up looking at you with a smirk.

“Come on baby girl, you don’t have to be jealous like that! Alright I’m sorry I didn’t mean to offend you.” He started to realize you weren’t playing anymore and being serious. He walked over to you. “I’m sorry baby.” He said lifting her chin up forcing you to look into his eyes. “Your my baby and no one will ever place you even if I have hundreds of wives. You’re still the special one.”

A tear came down your cheek and you felt his thumb whipping it away. “I’m sorry Negan.” You said softly as more tears come pouring out of your eyes. He stares at you feeling guilty for how he acted. He instantly grabs you wrapping his arms around you and hugs you tight. You heard his bat hit the floor. Like he didn’t even hesitate to drop it as that bat means more to him than anyone here. But in that moment you meant more to him than anyone.

He slowly loosens his grip from hugging you and you both look at each other. He leaned down to your soft lips. Placing his lips onto yours, It was gentle. You never felt this side of him before. The kiss became more passionate than ever. Something you never felt before. It was always rough, angry, intense, but this, this was a whole new side of Negan you never met before.

The kiss became more intense but gentle. Moving faster. His hot breath in your mouth made you moan. His tongue swirling around your mouth slowly. You felt his hand lifting you up placing your legs around his waist and than your back hit the wall. It was a gentle hit. You felt confused, very confused. Was this love sex? You questioned yourself.

He placed his hands on your thighs lifting your black dress up. You weren’t wearing underwear. You never did and he loved that. You hear him unbuckling his belt, unbuttoning his pants. You wrapped your arms around his neck, moving one hand to his salt and pepper beard. He knows how much you loved his beard. He moved his lips to your cheek than placing his beard on your face. Lightly rubbing your cheek with his beard than down to your neck making you moan softly as your head fell back hitting the wall. Letting him kiss even inch of your neck. “Negan..” you moaned his name as he hurry’s to unzip his pants knowing you’re begging for him.

You wonder what has gotten into him, he’s never touched you this gentle before. You didn’t want to ask Incase you piss him off.

He pulled out his hard cock, you were ready, you wanted him to make love to you. He could see in your eyes you wanted him. He felt your body shaking. “Negan!” You moaned louder showing you wanted him now, that you couldn’t take it anymore. He teased your folds with his tip of his member before entering you he ask whispering. “Tell me what you want baby girl.” As his lips were touching yours but we weren’t kissing, we were breathing heavy feeling each other’s warmth in our mouths. “I want you Negan.” You whispered softly and you felt him go inside you gently as you gasp for air.

He was moving in and out of you slowly, picking up the pace gentle not wanting to hurt you. He was making love to you. Your name was coming out of his mouth in small growls. He felt you walls tighten up making him lose his mind knowing you’re about to cum. You moan louder as he gentle grabs your face and kisses you more and more intense. “Oh..Negan.” You moaned as your legs began to shake, you can’t stop moaning, you’re about to cum. “Oh fuck.” You moaned into his ear he begins to moan your name as you both cum. He filled you up with everything he had.

He gently kisses your lips and whispers “I love you.” So quiet your head moved back confused staring at him. “Wait, what?” Trying to process what he just said hoping you heard him right.

He snapped back into reality, he had a confused look on his face. He began to look angry. Realizing what he just said to you. “Get out.” He said forcefully letting go of you.

“Wait Negan..” he stopped you with his hand up turning around to where his back is facing you. “ I said get out!” He yelled as you flinched pulling your dress down.

“Don’t make me ask again.” He was more angry than earlier. You did want you were told and walked out but before closing the door you took one more look at him as he was still standing in the same position when he told you to get out. You closed the door and walked back to your luxury.

********

One week has gone by and Negan hasn’t bother to talk to you. He refuses to see you. He even punished you one day sending you in the cell for having a conversation with another guy. You felt lost and confused. The I love you words were always on your mind. It was killing you inside because you felt the same way. You were sure if he actually meant those words or not.

You begin to realize maybes it wasn’t true as you see Negan and Sherry walk in together through the cafeteria. He stopped in your view and made out with her in front of everyone. He knew you were watching.

Your heart fell to your stomach, you feel it turning like you’re about to puke. As tears come down your face. You get up leaving your untouched tray of food before walking you look up at Negan. He was staring at you smiling. You look away and head to the exit doors running to your room.

You can feel a panic attack starting as Amber barged into your room scaring you half to death that you fell to the ground. “Oh my god no..” Amber said freaking out as she sat next to you wrapping her arms around you to comfort you. “How… how long has this begin going on..?” You asked as tears pour out of your eyes. Shaking into her arms. “About a week.. I’m so sorry..” she tells you gripping you tighter as she lets you sob everything out..

A few hours gone by and amber never left your side. You’re lost with words, confused and just feel like dying. “I don’t understand this.” You say feeling like your about to cry again but your eyes hurt and are puffy and red. “He told me he loved me.” You finally told amber and she looked at you in shocked.

“Wait what? He said that to you?” She asked. She acted like he’s never said anything like that to them before.

“I’m sure he’s told you and all the other wives he loved you guys.” You say starring out into space.

“No, he’s never said anything like that.. to any of us..” she said still in shocked like she couldn’t believe what you just told her.

“Amber.. I have to get out of here. I have to go.” You said as tears begin again.

Amber didn’t fight with you, but she cried letting you know she didn’t want you to go but she knew you had to.. amber decided to help you escape that night. But you needed to see one last thing before you goes. You had packed a few things so you had some supplies.

“I-I need to go to Negan’s room real quick before I leave.” You sigh and amber nodded saying okay.

You headed to Negan’s room the door was already cracked a little as you hesitated to look inside but you wanted to see Negan’s face before you go. Instead you seen Sherry, she was laying on top of him on his bed kissing him. She wasn’t wearing anything. “Goddamn you’re the best kisser I ever had baby girl.” You stepped back feeling your heart drop to your stomach. You ran, you ran so fast. You got to the bottom of the stairs and seen amber. “You have to go now!” Amber tells you as you nodded and she ran with you to the door. “I can’t go with you. I love you, you will always be my best friend.” Amber says and giving you a peck on the cheek.

“I love you too.” You said and walked out the door.

******

“Please! Don’t shoot me..” you throw your gun and knife at their direction. Taking your backpack off placing it on the ground besides you. You drop to you knees begging for your life.

“Where you from?” A little girl asked you with her sword pointing at you. Her hair was behind her shoulder besides a long bread part of her hair was laying over her left shoulder. She wore a brown cowboy hat. That looked way to big for her

You start to cry knowing the name of the group you were in everyone outside the sanctuary hated them. “the Saviors.” As you closed your eyes waiting for someone to shoot you.

“Why did you leave them?” The little asked as you finally opened your eyes seeing four people staring at you waiting for your to answer.

You were about to answer as you started to feel dizzy and your head started to hurt, and your vision start to go blurry everything went black.

You finally woke up and see a woman with a long dreadlocks and a man who was tall and skinny staring at you. The light was bright making your eyes squint it hurt. You were laying in a twin bed. A nice warm blue blanket laying flat over your body.

“What happened..?” You asked them squinting your eyes as the lady was kind enough to turn part of the lights off in the room.

“You passed and you were out for a few days, Siddiq our doctor who was taking care of you said you were very dehydrated.” The tall man said staring at you with his hands on his hips. “I’m Rick and this is Michonne.” He said introducing himself.

“Where am I?” You asked them trying to sit up and look around the room. A man walked in, wearing all white

“Hey now take it easy, you been out for a few days, here is some water and ibuprofen. Oh and I’m Siddiq.” He said with a smile hand me a small cup of water and two pills. You take them and drink chugged all the water.

“Thank you.” You said gasping for air.

“This is Alexandra, now I need to know why did you came here?” Rick asked, he looked pretty concerned like I was an enemy some sort.

“I’m sorry I was just traveling trying to get away from the sanctuary and I ended up here.” You say telling them the truth.

“We’re you with anyone else out there or traveling alone.” Michonne asked she had more of a serious look on her face than rick did.

“Alone.” You whispered.

“And did you escape the sanctuary?” Michonne asked.

“Yes.” You said. You start to feel nervous with being questioned as a tear fall from your eyes and landed on your cheek.

“Why?” Michonne asked.

“I just didn’t want to be there anymore..” you say as your eyes start to water more.

Michonne and Rick begin to look at each other, they started asking more questions making you overwhelmed. You couldn’t help but cry. But you answered all their questions truthfully.

“I’m sorry but once Siddiq has taken care of you and you can get back on your feet, you need to leave.” Rick said has he placed his hand on the back of his hair he he began to rub it.

Your tears began to pour out of your eyes and you start to shake. “Please.. I don’t want to go back there.. I can’t..”

“You don’t have to, the place in empty now.” Michonne said as she looked at you feeling guilty realizing you have no where to go.

“Rick maybe we need to talk about this some more.” Michonne whispered to Rick. They both nodded. “Get some rest we will talk to you tomorrow.” Michonne added as they both walk out the room.

You drop your head onto your pillow, staring at the ceiling. Million thoughts were in your head. You were confused on how the sanctuary was empty. How could that be? Just about a week ago it was filled and everything there was working. “Oh god Amber!” You yelled out gasping for air. You shock back up. “Oh fuck..” you try and gather your thoughts as Siddiq walking in.

“Hey you okay?” He said rushing over to you. Laying on hand onto you shoulder he hears you crying.

“My friend Amber was there at the sanctuary m.. I-I don’t know if she made it out..” you said and whipped away your tears.

“Can you tell me what happened there?” You asked Siddiq looking him in the eyes.

He nodded and took a seat at your side down on your bed “Negan and his people, the saviors he calls them. They started a war and.. and we took them down.”

You look at him shocked at what he just told you.. “and Negan? What happened to Negan?” You asked.

“Well Rick slit his throat but didn’t kill him. I stitched him up and now he’s in a prison cell. Here actually.” He said looking at you trying to read your face expression.

You nodded and thanked him. He got up and gave you another cup of water. This time a bigger cup. You take a sip and watched Siddiq leave. Then a little girl walks in. This time she didn’t have a sword but she still wore the cowboy hat. She was.. adorable.

“Hi, I’m Judith.” She said walking towards you bed. She gave a small smile. “And you’re?” She asked

She had the cutest little voice ever that was soft to your ears. “I’m Y/N.” You chuckled a little giving a smile. “You’re the only one to ask me that since I got here.”

“Sorry for that, usually they ask. That’s one of their rules here.” She said taking a seat at your side on the bed. “Are you staying here?” She asked you.

“I don’t think so. Rick and Michonne pretty much said I have to leave when I’m back on my feet.” You dropped you head looking at your hands. “But they mentioned they needed to talk more before actually releasing me.”

“Maybe you get to stay!” She said as Michonne walked there the door interrupted Judith.

“Hey sweetheart there you’re.” She said as Judith hopped off the bed and ran over to Michonne.

“Hey mom.” As she wrapped her arms around giving her a soft hug. Her hat almost fell off as Michonne caught it for her.

Michonne looked up as you both make eye contact. “Rick and I talked, we thought about you staying, but first I need to ask you something.” She said as she let go of Judith and asked her to walk in the hallway. She did what she was took and left.

“You and Negan, is this going to be a problem with you staying here? Seems like you two have a history of some sort.” She asked and she seemed more angry.

“Negan abandon me, he- he treated me like garbage, a slave. So please tell me how this would be a problem.” You say a little with anger.

You were still pretty upset on how he treated you. But those three words were still glued into your brain. The way he said it made you feel safe. You wanted to hear him say it again. You missed him so much but you didn’t want to show it. Not now.

“That’s pretty funny since he’s begging me to see you after describing you.” She said shaking her head. “Can you explain that?”

You drop your head looking away from her. “We.. we dated when I was back at the sanctuary. We got in a fight and a new girl showed up. And..” you begin to cry whipping your tears always. “And he abandoned me for her. It just went down hill after that for me.” Your head was still down not wanting to look at Michonne.

“Would you like to see him?” She asked, you can hear in her voice she hesitated the question. You can tell she didn’t want to ask. Maybe she wanted too see how we acted or was this a trick?

“What’s the catch here?” You asked her finally lifting your head up to look at Michonne.

“Not really a catch but Rick and I would like to see if it’s worth keeping you here while Negan is in a cell. More like can we trust you.” She said with a sigh. “It’s up to you.” She added waiting on your reply.

Fuck, you thought to yourself that this is definitely a test. Maybe she wants to hear you say no, probably the answer she wants from you. But deep down you wanted to see Negan. You missed him so much that this situation was making your stomach turn.

“Yes.” You said to michonne as she asked if you could stand and you helped yourself up off the bed no problem.

******

You both head to the cell that Negan was in and Michonne unlocked the door for you. “I’ll give you fifteen minutes..” Michonne whispered to you as she was giving you the hand motion to walk through the door. As you did, you heard the door close and lock behind you as Michonne stayed outside leaving you and Negan together alone.

“Ho- ho- holy shit well would you look at that, you’re alive goddamn it.” Negan said as you turned around to see him. He had a big smile on his face.

He was sitting on his bed wearing blue jeans, blue buttoned up long sleeve shirt, he even had a patch on his neck that Siddiq mentioned his throat gotten sliced. You could barely notice him without his leather jacket and boots, skinny jeans, and even Lucille. The barb wired bat. You never seen him without it on his shoulder.

“What the fuck happened to you?” You asked as you watched him stand up walking to the bars.

“I could ask you the same thing baby girl.” He said with a smirk, wrapping his fingers around the bars.

You both stood there staring at each other. You still thought he looked handsome as hell. That smile that never left his face when you entered the room. He looked pleased to see you. As he always did before Sherry came in the picture.

“You ran away from the sanctuary. Why..? I- I thought you were dead.” He said as the smile dropped from his face making him look sad.

“Dont even act like you cared Negan. Sherry had you wrapped around her pretty little fucking finger.” You said with anger. You had a disgusted look on your face.

“Y/N it.. it wasn’t like that baby gi..” you interrupted him putting your hand up to stop him from talking.

“Don’t you fucking dare Negan. Don’t tell me it wasn’t like that because it FUCKING WAS!” You scream as a tear came down you cheek.

Your face started to feel hot again, you were red as a tomato, the heat almost sizzled off your tears with how hot your face was getting.

“You.. abandoned me, you fucking kissed sherry in front of me and you fucking enjoyed every minute of it.” You said

Your face wasn’t hot anymore, you felt the anger go away as you felt sad, betrayed. You just wanted to hear Negan say those three words again to make all the pain go away.

“You told me you loved me and kicked me out of your life like I did something wrong to you!” You said yelling while you cry. You pointed at him. “You don’t get to ask why I left you. That’s not how it works here, not with me.”

You seen Negan gripping the bars tighter, his knuckles were turning white. You look into his eyes as you see a tear falling down onto his cheek.

“You said those three words to me, you let them buried in my head and you watched me become destroyed and you smiled about it.” You told him as you cross your arms over your chest.

“Baby I-“ you stopped him again

As you cry even harder “I don’t want to hear it Negan.” You whispered quietly.

You watch Negan drop to his knees as he held on to the bars still. He looked at you. You can see how much pain he was holding on to. You start to feel guilty for yelling and stopping him from trying to explain.

You walked over to the bars and slowly drop to you knees. Negan watch every minute of you, as his eyes never left yours.

“I’m so sorry baby girl.” He said soft as he begins to cry.

“Negan..” you whispered placing your hands on to his that was gripped around the bars

“I do love you, and that scares the shit out of me Y/N.” Negan said as your eyes widen with shock.

“I- I didn’t know how to react towards that. I haven’t told anyone those three words since..” he dropped his head as you slid you hand in between the bars lifting his chin up slowly.

You couldn’t believe what you were hearing. You knew he wasn’t lying, not now. Not with how he was being. You knew he loved Lucille so in that moment everything was real between you two.

“I love you Y/N I’m so sorry..” Negan said as he was still crying.

You brought your other hand in between the bars grabbing on to his face. As you moved your head closer to the bars. He lean in as well. You both leaned in for a kiss. As he placed his onto yours. You both kiss gently. The bars made it hard to kiss but you didn’t care.

You pulled back a little looking into his eyes as he was looking at yours as well. You whipped away his tears.